Soulcrusher

If Niall was afraid of me he didn’t show it. His face showed nothing more than sympathy. He looked at me like the way look at a cute little animal you just accidentally stepped on. And I felt more and more vulnerable as he kept on looking at me. I still had him pressed up against the wall, but I was pacing the room at the moment.

“I need to know how you know that name.” I tried speaking with a calm voice but I think my feelings of freaking out zippered through. I stopped for a second to look at him before I continued to pace. My heart was jumping out of my chest, I think he noticed that.

“Nick you heard me wrong…” I interrupted him before he could even form those last words.

“You did not say something else. Don’t shit me Horan.” I pointed at him as I walked. “You and I both know you didn’t get it from me, so where did you get it?” He bit his lip and examined my face carefully. His eyes spoke words that I probably would never hear, not after he would tell me what he knew.

“Kathrine.” One word and my entire world collapsed. Her name from his lips made my body shiver so much, that I didn’t know what to do. I hadn’t heard her name in almost 10 years now. It made me feel like a child again, like the child she had taken care of. Like the little child she had protected into her own death. It hurt to think of all the horrible things that happened thanks to me.

“No.” I couldn’t muster up any other words. I didn’t know how to respond to him. How can I tell him how mad I was that he even remembered my mother’s name?

“I thought Simon told you, well I thought that at first.” He took a deep breath. “As soon as I turned I could hear that you didn’t know. I was going to confront him about not telling you, but I kind of lost my emotions.” He tried to joke but he saw no smile on my lips. I realized I still had him pressed up against the wall and decided to let him go.

“I’ve got the feeling that he didn’t tell me for my own good.” I mumbled the words but Niall heard them perfectly fine. His smile dropped and he rubbed his chest, I guess I had pushed just a little too hard.

“Just like he keeps you know who from you?” I wanted to strike him when he said that. I wanted so badly to just hit him hard over his head, knock him out and make him forget about everything. But I knew that if I did that, he would be back on square one. And the road to recovering his emotions would be a thousand times more difficult.

“I want to say that you don’t know what you’re talking about, but I have a feeling that you do.” I sighed and pinched the bridge of my nose. How could so much of my life turn upside down in such a short time? I’ve spent half of my life trying to cover up, to hide it all. And then Niall came.

“He hasn’t told me everything.” He bit his lip, it made me remember he kissing me. Oh his sweet kiss made me shiver. “When you dropped your shield I got access to some stuff. I knew that Simon was hiding a lot of stuff from me after I heard your thoughts.” I swallowed back and closed my eyes.

“How did you learn that name?” I was back at the first question. He hadn’t answered how he knew my mother, and I wanted to know. I wanted to know how he knew her. She died when he was seven or eight years old. There was no way he could’ve met her. Talked to her.

“She told me that I only needed to say one word to you, and you’d know.” I slowly opened my eyes, and placed my very confused stare on him. He wasn’t giving me much to go on at the moment. “Soulcrusher.” I felt my breathing stop. I felt my heart stop beating. I felt my entire world stop. That one word meant so much. It had been what my entire world, entire life, had been built on.

In the beginning when the first events took place people became scared. My mother became scared, not of me but of what people would do to me. They all tried to name the phenomena, tried to figure out what was happening. It didn’t help that we lived in a very religious community that believed in the devil and such. They started calling me possessed, the devil himself in disguise and the crown jewel was Soulcrusher. They believed that since I could so easily move things, crush things, that my abilities were made to crush souls.

I tried to tell them that I didn’t know what was wrong with me, and I tried to tell them that I meant them no harm. But all they could see was a devil child trying to fool them.

My mother had panicked. We moved. For a short while we lived up north, in Ireland. It was only for a few months but my mother claimed it was the most important months of her existence. She told me she had met the person who was going to save us. Save her. But then she died. So whoever she met failed to save her. They failed her and now she was dead. But that person couldn’t be… It just couldn’t be Niall.

“It is me Nick.” I shook my head fiercely and tried to ignore him when he walked towards me. “Your mother came to be because she knew I would meet you. She knew what I was going to become.” He paused and I shook my head again. “Nicola… Georgie… Your mother… She knew she was going to die. At the time she didn’t tell me much. She only told me to follow my dreams and to look out for a girl called Nick. And before she left she said she would seek me up in the future.”

I slowly sat down on his bed. The same bed where I had made love to him. It seemed so long ago. It felt like it was years after. I tried to comprehend what he had told me. I knew he was telling me the truth. I knew because it all fit. It all made sense, even though I didn’t know it at the time. After being quiet for five minutes it recurred to me that he said she told him she would look him up. I didn’t remember her leaving my side at all from the time we left Ireland to the time of her death. She was always there, in the same house so I could feel her or in the same room so I could see her.

“She came for you?” I felt him shake his head and I dropped mine in defeat. How stupid was I to think that she had visited him, she was too busy protecting me. I was about to speak again when his voice spoke up first.

“Not until recently.”

Notes

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