Clash

I woke up to an empty bed and a really bad headache. The light was pouring in from outside and I was about to declare war on the sunshine when the door flew open. Niall was walking in with a bag and to my surprise he had brought Starbucks and hopefully some painkillers.

“You’re awake.” Niall noticed me staring “How are you feeling?” I closed my eyes and let out a groan “I feel like I have died and came back to life, what they hell happened yesterday?” He wasn’t pleased by my question that was something I’m sure of. “You don’t remember?” he asked me and I couldn’t place his expression, it looked like I hurt him with this but I was really out of it last night.

I didn’t however forget what happened between us and it wouldn’t be fair to him if I acted like nothing happened. “No I remember.” I whispered, I buried my face in my pillow, so I didn’t have to look at him. “Anna, please don’t regret it.” I felt the bed dip a little as he took a seat next to me.

“I don’t really regret it but I do feel guilty.” I mumbled into my pillow. I heard Niall sigh and he slowly turned me around, this way I had to look at him. I could see the hurt on his face. He didn’t say anything though which made me go in a full blown babbling. “Look I know it’s my own fault because I attacked you, I was the one who started to kiss you and at that time you were everything I needed and that’s something I will never regret but..” Niall pressed his finger against my lips to stop me.

“It’s okay Anna, I get it. I should’ve stopped it but I went with it, so we are both to blame.” He shrugged but he couldn’t hide the hurt in his eyes and that made my heart ache. “I’m really sorry Niall.” I tried to hug him but he stopped me.

“We better not.” He got up and grabbed the bag he walked in with. “I got you Starbucks, I’d figured you would need it.” I grabbed the steaming cup from him and was surprised to see he had bought my favourite drink. He bought me a Mocha Macchiato, which smelled amazing. “I also got you a piece of carrot cake.” How did he know that was my absolute favourite flavour cake. This made me feel even worse about my behaviour last night.

“I need to make a quick call.” He excused himself but I had to say something before he left. “Niall.” I said and he stopped but didn’t turn back. “Thank you.” He did not respond as he walked out of the room. I let myself fall back again and muffled a scream with my pillow. “stupid cow” I mumbled to myself.

After drinking and eating my cake, I stumbled into the bathroom and was happy to find painkillers. After a long shower I felt slightly better and as I was dressing myself, I heard Niall coming back into the room but he was still on the phone. “I know, we will be home tomorrow Louis.” I held my breath because we weren’t here for more then two days and that was not the deal. “Did you hear anything about Harry yet?” I felt the blood rush in my ears when I heard him ask that and I anticipated the answer.

“Well they need to dispose themselves from the body right and if there is no body how can we know for sure he is dead?” Niall was sounding angry and I couldn’t blame him as I also wanted to know what happened to Harry and if he was really dead and if he was still alive, why didn’t he escape?

Then again I saw Bradley put the gun against his head and before everything went black I heard the gun shots, that must mean Harry was dead right? A sudden knock on the door made me startle “Anna, we have to talk.” I heard him say through the door and I was already dreading this.

I walked out of the bathroom fully clothed and wasn’t surprised that Niall had packed up all our stuff in one suitcase “Where are we going?” I nodded towards the suitcase that was standing behind.

“We are going back home.” I shook my head but stopped when I saw his expression. “You promised we would stay four days here.” I pleaded but I knew his expression and also knew that begging wasn’t going to work this time or crying, that would only make it worse probably.

“I think after last night it’s best if we go home. “ This was my own fault again and he was right. We shouldn’t stay here, it was way to tempting and the fact that they weren’t sure if Harry died, was not making it easier to begin with.. “Okay.” I shrugged, this did surprise him because I was pretty set on being here for at least four days.

“Wait.” He looked really helpless “You are okay with this?” I nodded and grabbed my jacket and started to make my way to the door. “Is this because of last night?” he asked carefully and to be honest at first it was the reason why I thought he was right but then again I really needed to find out if Harry was still alive.

“I want to know if Harry is still alive or if he really is dead otherwise I will never be able to move on.” I said this to the door, as I didn’t want to look at him because I know this would hurt him.

He was silent for a few minutes and I patiently waited for him to say something or move towards the door and me. “Okay, let’s go then.” He moved passed me and opened the door and waited for me to walk through it. He was always such a gentleman even if I kept hurting him and I felt terrible for doing this to him.
We walked towards the waiting cab and Niall told the driver that he should head towards the airport.

When we entered the plane, Niall didn’t stop at the same row as me but sat two rows behind me, which hurt me deeply but then again who could blame him for doing that. If I would be in his shoes I would probably wanted as much space as possible just to prevent from getting hurt again. I sighed and took my seat and I was thankful for the window seat because this would take my mind of and hopefully I could sleep this time.

A few hours later..

We were finally landing and I couldn’t wait to get out of this plane, I didn’t sleep at all and I couldn’t stop repeating everything that happened last night with Niall and the more I thought of it, the more I felt guilty not only towards Harry but also towards Niall and I was angry at myself for letting it happen in first place, what was I thinking?

Right, I wasn’t thinking, that was the freaking problem and I was beyond annoyed by it. I really needed to show Niall I was sorry for doing that to him and I really hoped we could still be friends after this instead of whatever we were at this moment.

We were walking out of the airport and I wasn’t surprised to see Liam waiting for us at the car. He looked beyond pissed and his scowl made me close my mouth immediately as I wanted to say hello. We stopped in front od Liam and Niall just put our bag in the car. “GET IN THE CAR NOW! Liam shouted at me and I scurried inside without even objecting to the fact he was treating me like a 8 year old.

The entire drive back to the house was excruciating and I couldn’t wait to get out of the car and hide somewhere. As soon as we stopped in front of the house Niall had already jumped out of the car and made his way into the house. Me on the other hand was still in the car as was Liam and he actually looked the doors so I couldn’t get out.

“Anna, we have been really patient with you but that stops today.” He said angry and I just sat there nodding like crazy. I knew I would be in trouble as soon as we got back but I had never thought they were this angry with me. “It’s time to get your head back in the game because Harry did leave you in charge and this thing your doing isn’t working anymore, we are done giving you slack and if you are not up to it, one of us will do it and I can tell you this it wouldn’t be pleasant for you.” He said in one long breath and it scared the crap out of me because I didn’t want to find out what was going to happen if the took over.

“I’m really sorry Liam but I understand and I will start making plans to get revenge on them.” I tried to sound convincing and he seemed to believe me as he unlocked the doors. Whilst I was getting out he called my name. “Anna.” I stopped moving and looked at him.

“We want to have a plan by tomorrow.”

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