Clash

My heart started to pound in my chest of anxiety because I hadn’t been left alone from the moment I moved into the UK and to be alone for the very first time in my house was scary as hell.

I stopped in front of the basement door and that’s when I made the decision to go down there. It was Harry’s workout room and I hadn’t set foot in here since he died or whatever happened to him. It was time to get over it and start doing workouts myself. I opened the door and made my way downstairs and it was exactly the way Harry had left it. I walked through the room, touching everything, it actually still smelled like Harry and that’s when I saw his shirt lying at the desk.

I grabbed it and put it against my face and I inhaled the scent that was still stuck to this shirt. It smelled like Harry and that’s when I allowed myself to cry again. I sat down on the floor and just hugged the shirt. This wasn’t only because I missed him but also because of what happened between me and Niall. It was like a robe around my heart because I had betrayed Harry in such a bad way and if we hadn’t stopped in that club it was even worse because we would’ve end up having sex.

“I’m so sorry Harry” I cried into his shirt “ I wish you were still here, then none of this would have happened” I was talking to myself but nobody was here so nobody could hear me and what if they did. They can all know how much I actually missed Harry, it wasn’t a secret.

After awhile I stopped crying and I put the shirt back where I had found it and pulled my sweater over my head, leaving me in a tank top. I put the tape around my hands and put on some music to get lost in and started to punch the box bag for god knows how long and I never stopped to catch my breath because this just felt so good. I could through every inch of guilt into my punches and all my anxiety just slides away from me and off course I felt my muscles burn like crazy but it was like I was in a different world that only my and that damn bag existed and it felt good.

I also never saw that I had grown an audience. I never heard them coming down and sitting down on the stairs. The moment I noticed them it was only because one of the guys decided I had done enough or maybe I just scared them with my behaviour. He put a hand on my shoulder and that startled me like crazy. I even made a jump into the air. “What the.!” I spun around to face the person who had stopped me and was surprised that I was staring at Louis and I was even more surprised to see a worried expression on his face.

“Why did you stop me?” I snapped at him and he didn’t get angry or anything with me, which surprised me. “I think you have done enough for today Anna.” I shook my head and turned around to start again when I saw Liam and Niall at the stairs.

“What are you guys doing here?” I was beyond angry right now and I just wanted them to disappear but Liam got up from and walked towards me but I put my hand out to stop him, he didn’t of course and that when he grabbed my hand and pulled me towards him and engulfed me into a hug, which was something I didn’t want at all. I just wanted to be left alone but he wouldn’t let me go.

“Liam, let me go!” I was angry and the fact that he didn’t listen made me even angrier. I was literally trashing against him, trying everything I could so that he would let go of me but he didn’t budge at all and because of my workout my arms were really tired and I know I had to give up, which I did eventually but I never once hugged him back. “Please, just let me go.” I was begging him but he didn’t and that’s when Louis and Niall joined us in a hug.

It felt condescending and it didn’t help me at all but apparently they thought it was helping. “Can we stop this please.” I asked again and after what felt like forever they finally did but the worried expression never went away from their faces as they all kept staring at me like I had grown two head in the last few hours.

“Is something wrong?” I asked them but they just shook their heads. “Why are you guys acting like this then?” I was really annoyed by it all because they were way too nice.

“We are just worried about you.” Niall shrugged but I didn’t even look at him instead I kept my eyes on Harry’s shirt. “Do you know how long we have been watching you punching that bag?” Liam asked and I shook my head because to be honest I lost track of time.

“You have been down here at least five hours.” I stared at them with a blank expression. “We have been watching you for at least two hours.” Louis added and I still didn’t care about it.

“Yeah so what’s the big deal?” I asked. I mean they have to be happy about the fact that I didn’t run away so I really didn’t see the big problem. “It’s not a big deal but normally a person doesn’t workout that intensively for five hours. They usually only last two hours but you kept going for five hours and if we didn’t stop you, you would still be at it.” Liam was speaking now and as I quickly threw a glance towards Niall he wasn’t looking at me as well.

“Well, it’s not any of your business right?” I asked them and they were dumb struck as they looked at me with a blank expression. “Right, well I’m going to take shower, if that is okay with you guys?” I asked them sarcastically, I didn’t wait for their answer as I made my way to my room and locked the door to my bathroom.

After the shower I went back downstairs and to my horror I did feel the burn in my muscles and that would be a real pain in the ass but I wasn’t going to let them notice it.

I walked into the living room and they were all watching tv while they were eating. They had ordered food but I didn’t see anything for me, which pissed me off again. My emotions were all over the place today and now I did feel a bit tired off it. “Thanks for ordering for me as well.” I startled them but especially Niall as he was the only one who jumped off the couch.

“We, uhm didn’t know if you would want to join us.” Niall quickly explained but I waved it off. “Well as you all are here, I have got a plan but it’s not a plan you guys will like.” I stopped and looked around to see they were curious about it. “I think we have to make him feel safe so that he will leave the house and that’s when we will take him and torture him until he breaks and tells us where Harry is.” I sat down and waited for their responses and as I looked at each face, it was weird to see different expressions.

Louis was looking rather pissed and Liam was smiling as if he had expected this from me. Niall on the other hand was looking a bit pale and the way he looked at me, didn’t cover much as he was disgusted by me.

“YOU WANT TO WAIT?!”

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