Clash

Harry moved us to the bed by lifting us from the couch but never broke contact and as he put my down on the bed he didn’t hesitate and hovered above me. He was smiling now but he never said a word as he kissed me gently. He let himself fall next to me and I put my head against his chest, I was listening to his steady heartbeat, not daring to say anything, out of fear I would break this perfect moment.

His hand was drawing circles on my back and I couldn’t help but close my eyes to enjoy it. “I missed this.” He said quietly and I just kissed his chest to let him know I was thinking the same thing, I know he wanted me to say something but again the fear of ruining this perfect idyllic moment, was something I just couldn’t do. “I know what you’re doing Anna but there is no way you can ruin this.” I heard him say and I was relieved to hear him say that because usually I would ruin things when they are perfect.

“I missed you to Harry.” I mumbled against his chest and that when he put his hand under my chin, to lift my face. We stared at each other, I could see the love in his eyes and I know he saw the same thing in mine but I wasn’t quite ready yet to tell him that and he understood. He kissed me softly and that’s when my stomach decided to make itself present because man was I famished. Harry chuckled when he heard my stomach and he got up from the bed, to get dresses and I just enjoyed the view as I stared at his torso.

“You know I can’t cook, so shall we order take out?” He asked and I couldn’t agree more, I could go for something really unhealthy right now, like pizza, I really could eat some pizza right now.

“I will order, what kind of pizza do you want?” I asked him whilst getting out of bed. I was still naked and the way he was looking at me, made me feel loved. I grabbed my underwear and started to dress myself. After I was dressed I called the pizza place and ordered two pepperoni pizza’s. I walked back into the living room, where Harry was watching TV, I joined him and was a bit worried when I saw his expression.

“Is something wrong?” I asked whilst placing my hand on his arm. His lips formed a line and his eyes were slightly narrowed. “Something is just bothering me.”

“What is bothering you, you can tell me anything.” Although I probably already knew what was bothering him and I couldn’t blame him or be angry with him because it was my fault. “You and Niall, is what’s bothering me.” I sighed because I had seen this coming. “I know we already talked about it but I can’t help but be jealous. I mean I always thought I would be the only one that would touch you in that way but now Niall.” I put my hands over his mouth because I know what he meant, he didn’t have to tell me in full details.

“I know and I’m sorry that it hurts you but you know why it happened and I can guarantee that it will never happen again.” I pleaded with him because I just wanted him to let go, so we could maybe move on and have a chance at a relationship again. There was absolutely nothing more I wanted now, than to get him back, even though he had treated me badly in the past.

He nodded, when he saw the tears in my eyes. I sighed and removed my hands from his mouth. He pushed my hair out of my face and caressed my lips. “I believe you and I will move passed it, I’m just happy you are not pregnant with his baby.” He semi joked and that made me think about what we just did and I couldn’t recall a condom and I wasn’t taking birth control, after moving, I hadn’t thought about it to be honest.

“Harry about that.” His eyes widened “You’re kidding me right?” he asked and I shook my head in denial. “Of course not, don’t be stupid.” I threw my pillow at him, which he caught. I could see his muscles relax and he stopped looking like a deer facing headlights. “What’s wring then?” he asked still slightly off.

“Harry did you use a condom?” He shook his head and I felt the blood rush through my veins. “Well that sucks, because I’m not on the pill.” I mumbled carefully, afraid of his reaction but to my surprise he didn’t look surprised or worried. “That’s an inconvenience, we can get you the after pill tomorrow, if you want?” It sounded as if he didn’t really care what I did, didn’t he understand that if I don’t get the after pill, I probably will get pregnant. He was so confusing and I just really needed him to, yeah what did I want from him?

“What if I don’t get the after pill, would you mind that?” I was testing the waters, just to see if he got worried at that but he didn’t. He just had a smile on his face, which told me more than he probably wanted. He didn’t want me to get the after pill, he had done this on purpose and I know why he did it on purpose.

“You know what, I don’t want you to get the after pill.” At least that was honest but I did get nervous. “You do know that there is a big chance that I will het pregnant right?” he nodded and turned his face back to me and there was the Harry I knew before it all went to hell. He had this sinister expression in his eyes, which made me pull back a little. “If you get pregnant, it will mean that you’re mine, so I don’t care if you get pregnant Anna.” He was still smiling but the expression didn’t disappear, which made me really nervous and I really wished I had my gun in arms length.

“Why Harry?” I had to ask this as he had just said that he was trying the friendly way and now he had done something like this. “Don’t worry I am changed but not when it comes to having you love, I won’t ever hurt you again but I do need people to know that you are mine and if this is what I have to do, than so be it.”

I know he was telling the truth but that didn’t make me feel any better because there was no way, he was going to treat me like that ever again and to get me pregnant just to stake his claim over me, was just really below the belt and he knew it. “You could have done it differently you know.” I told him angry, I got up from the couch and walked to the kitchen to het something to drink, when the buzzer went off. “I will get the door.” Harry raised his voice a bit, making me jump slightly. I heard him open the door and even talk to the pizza delivery boy, I tried to block out his voice, for a second and think about what just had happened.

There was no way I could’ve seen that coming and why would he act like he did? I mean he is really changed isn’t he? But of he is changed why did he do something like this? I have to admit that it actually hurt really bad, that he again used me but I didn’t really have any rights to get angry with him because if I hadn’t slept with Niall, he wouldn’t have felt the need to do something this bizarre. I poured in the water I was going for and gulped it down in one time, not wanting to leave this cosy kitchen because in the living room I had to confront the person I just didn’t want to see tonight but I also couldn’t put him on the streets and let face it, was it that bad to get pregnant with Harry’s baby?

Notes

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