Clash

“How are you feeling?” I asked him when he walked out of the bathroom. I handed him a cup of tea and sat down on the couch, waiting for him to answer me. “I’m fine, thank you.” He was being way to polite but I wasn’t going to say anything of it. He sat down and just stared at his tea, which really worked on my nerves and if he was going to be like this the whole day than I wasn’t staying for sure..

“Do you get nightmares often?” I asked him because it really did make me worry and as there was still a red spot on my cheek form where his hand had hit my face, I was entitled to know a bit more. “Every night, since the day they captured me.” He sighed and put his tea down. I got closer to him and grabbed his hands in mine and without thinking I pressed a kiss on his hands. This made him look up and study me, which was fine with me, as long as he didn’t looked down again. “I’m sorry.” I mumbled and that’s when he gently squeezed my hand. “I know you are but I’m not mad at you. I can understand why you did what you did.” He didn’t sound like himself. “I did but it doesn’t make it any better.” I said apologetic, making him shrug. He got up and walked over to the door, he grabbed both our coats. “Come on, let’s get something to eat.” He smiled gently at me and it made me feel a bit better even though the smile didn’t reach his eyes.

I know that there was much left unsaid but for now it seemed like we had a truce and that was fine with me. I followed him to the nearest Starbucks, I sat down at one of the lounges and watched him order our drinks, it made me think about that time that he was showing me around and I was sick of him, thus me fleeing into a Starbucks but for some odd reason he couldn’t follow me in and send Liam and Niall after me and Niall stole my muffin, if I remembered it correctly. “Penny for your thoughts?” Harry asked as he returned with our drinks and I was happy he remembered what I liked, as he had ordered a “Toffee Nutt Latte” for me. “Oh I was just thinking about that time you showed me around town, do you remember when I fled into a Starbucks where you couldn’t follow me for some reason.” I smiled at the memory and that actually made me laugh.

“Yeah, I remember that, god I was frustrated with you.” He shook his head at the thought. “I know but then again it was your own fault I acted like that.” I smiled at him whilst I sipped from my latte. “I know, there is really no excuse for the way I acted, is there?” I shook my head and giggled.

“Not really but it did draw me in, as you were the only one I could think about.” I shrugged and as I lifted my head I met his eyes, who were finally smiling as well. “That was my plan but I didn’t want to hurt you and I’m sorry for the times I hit you or even worse.”
Wait was he actually apologizing for all those times he hit me? What happened to him, I mean the Harry that I know would never apologize for something like that. “Harry, not to be rude but why are you apologizing? You never apologize.” I asked him sounding surprised and confused but he didn’t look fazed at all. “I know I was the one who drove you into Niall’s arms and because he was gentle with you, you fell for him, so I guess I’m adjusting to what you want.” He confessed and for a second I didn’t know how to respond because that was the last thing I expected from him.

“Just be yourself Harry, that’s enough for me.” I told him without really looking at him. I didn’t do this on purpose but I felt uneasy. It felt like we were being watched and as I focussed my attention back on Harry, I saw he had noticed it as well. I scanned the café again but couldn’t spot anyone, who would be spying on us. “Did you bring your gun?” Harry mumbled and I nodded, whilst pointing at my bag. “Let’s go now.” He told me and I didn’t hesitate for second and actually listened to him. He pulled my hood over my head and he did exactly the same. We held our heads down as we made our way to the door, when I felt his presence. Bradley was standing not far from us but he didn’t see us walk by, which was good for us and as soon as we left the café, we started to run back to my apartment. We didn’t enter before Harry said it was safe to go in and the moment the door fell shut behind us, Harry immediately locked the door and I was closing the curtains, just to be sure.

“How did they find us?” I let myself fall on the couch in a dramatic gesture and just stared at the ceiling. Harry lifted up my legs and sat down and put my legs over his lap. “I have no clue but it’s not safe any longer to go outside without each other.” I sighed because that was the last thing I wanted to hear because I had college on Monday and there was no way I would miss it again. I was planning on finishing this year and getting some sort of a degree.

“Than you have to join me at Uni because there is no way I’m giving that up again.” I know I sounded ridiculous but I just had my freedom back and now it seemed like I was behind bars again and I couldn’t live like that again because it smothered me once but there was no way I would let that happen again. Harr was awfully quiet but I know he was staring at me, probably thinking about what to do next. “Anna, it’s time to bring in the guns.” He mumbled and I know he was right, We had to rally up our team. “Do we really have to, I mean can’t we just wait a little bit longer?” I begged him but he just looked at me with a knowing smile.

“You know what, we are going to try it your way for now but if the situation gets dangerous, we are calling everyone.” He shocked me with his words because never in a million years I had thought he would agree with me on that. “Really?” I didn’t trust this one bit but he looked genuine. “Really, I told you I’m trying the nice approach.” I stared at him and couldn’t stifle the laughter that made it’s way up because this was just weird and I was thoroughly confused with this new Harry. The tears were running down my cheeks and my stomach hurt from the laughter but I couldn’t stop, it was terrible but at a certain point Harry pulled me up and grabbed my face with his hands and pressed his lips against mine, which stopped my laughter immediately.

This was something I was dreaming off ever since the night we thought he died. How I had missed his mouth on mine. He wanted to pull away but I wasn’t having it. It was like he was my drug and I had been without for way too long. I deepened the kiss by licking his lips, which gave me entrance to his mouth and then one of his hands went into my hair, while the other travelled down to my back and within minutes I was cradling him. I had never thought that this would ever happen again but here we were, kissing each other as if there was nothing else in the world, it also should make me feel guilty towards Niall but I just couldn’t because it was always Harry that I wanted even if I let Niall in for that small amount of time, my feeling towards Harry never really changed and this proved it.

Harry’s hands went to the hem of my shirt, my heart skipped a beat when he put his hands under my shirt. To feel his hand on my skin, was like heaven, the way he caressed my skin, felt wonderful and next thing I know I pull of his shirt, which also gave us a second or two to catch our breath and Harry followed my example and pulled of my shirt as well, leaving me in only my black bra, we stared at each other for several seconds to see if there was any doubt but there was none, which led into him crashing his lips against mine but this time he was more aggressive and before I knew what happened I laid on my back and he was on top of me, kissing me feverishly.

I know we shouldn’t be doing this but it was like we couldn’t stop. Everything that was bottled up came pouring out and the fact that I still loved him, didn’t help me think rational. Harry’s hands moved from my back to my sweats and pulled them down, I could only stare at him, the way his muscles moved with every movement he made. My sweats landed on the ground somewhere in the room, together with his own jeans, leaving him in only his boxers.

He was hovering above me locking his eyes on mine, his eyes were deep green and full with passion, I’ve seen this twice and I never thought I would see those green eyes again, I know he was hesitating and waiting for me to make the next move, which I did by pulling his lips back to mine. His hesitation went out of the window when he softly moaned my name. He took over and made his way down, he kissed me everywhere and when he reached the waistband of my briefs, he didn’t stop as he pulled them of, leaving me completely naked under him, it made me feel vulnerable but the way he was looking at me, made feel beautiful. “God I love you so much.” He mumbled and I wasn’t sure if I was meant to hear that but I did and it made my heart grow bigger.

His boxers followed, leaving him as naked as I was. I remember when we first had sex, the nerves I had felt, how ridiculous did that seem because this time around I didn’t feel nerves, only hunger for his body. He crouched at my legs and made his way up again and this time he touched my center, with his mouth and that is when I lost all reality, he kept going until my legs began to tremble. “Harry, please.” I begged him and I was disappointed when he stopped but what followed was ten times better. He pulled me up until I was straddling him, I had never done it like this but this was way more intimate. He locked his eyes on mine and as we moved, I felt the tension built but this time he followed me, this was like heaven and I didn’t seem to stop. I wanted to close my eyes to let the pleasure wash over me but something in Harry’s eyes stopped me from closing my eyes. I felt the familiar tension and I know I was close but I didn’t want this to be over so I kept pushing it away and his movements began to quicken. “Anna love, let go.” He whispered and that’s all I needed to hear, I screamed his name and he came at that precise moment.

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