Icing on the Cake

~172~

Julia lost the baby. She lost the one that was malnourished; it miscarried. The doctors conducted an emergency C-Section to try and save the other one.

Julia would sit down on the window still, just staring outside. Staring in mourning.

Calum brought me coffee in the waiting room only minutes after we found out. My parents were watching the twins while Calum and I stayed in the hospital.

I was crying.

Calum tried to comfort me.

“I have something horrible to say.” I said to Calum.

“What is it?” Calum asked.

“I know I shouldn’t, I know it’s ridiculous, and I know it makes me a horrible person just to think this…” I confessed, “But I resent that baby so much.” I started sobbing hysterically after I said that. “I know, it’s so stupid, and it’s not the baby’s fault. But if it hadn’t of hoarded nutrients, none of this would’ve happened.”

Calum hugged me and tried to console me.

“Hey, Luke,” Calum comforted, “We’re still going to have a baby. And it’s going to be a healthy, happy baby, and we’re going to love it more than anything.”

“Yeah,” I said, feeling a little better, “I know that.”

Calum wiped the tears form my eyes.

A doctor came out and asked us if we wanted to see the baby. The baby that...didn't make it.

We walked into the room, and the doctor handed me the baby. He…he was so small. He was about twelve inches long. He was so tiny. His eyes were shut, they looked like his eyes were shut so tight.

“His eyes are closed so tight.” I said, looking at Calum and starting to cry again.

“His eyes are closed.” Calum said to me, him also getting teary-eyed. “He’ll never open his eyes. And he’ll never have to see how dark and cold the world can be.”

I felt Calum's tears fall onto my shoulder as Calum said, "He's not in any pain anymore."

Notes

*hands you tissue*