Struggle - H.S.

Harry kept his distance from me as we walked trough London. He actually brought me to freaking London. I know we weren't alone, as I had spotted Olly not far from us and Liam was here as well with I guess his girlfriend. I know that Harry kept his distance because I was still angry with him and this way he could keep an eye on me without hovering.

We walked passed an enormous bookstore and normally I would grab the chance to go in but I stopped reading because I could simply not concentrate on the stories I use to like and the other genre's well they just didn't seem interesting, so therefore I wasn't reading anything. "Anna, don't you want to go in there?" I heard Harry ask and I just shook my head and quickened my step but I did stop in front of a souvenir shop. "I want to go in here." I announced and without even looking I know that Harry gave the others a sign. I didn't wait for him though and just stepped in, walking straight to the clothing.

I really wanted to buy a shirt and a hoodie with I love London or something like that. I was happy to find both items. The shirt was black, with I love London and the hoody was dark green. I tried to pay for them myself but Harry stopped me by grabbing my credit card out of my hand and gave his credit card to the girl behind the counter.

"I could've paid that myself." I said slightly annoyed. "I know but you don't have to." I nodded and walked out of the store when Harry grabbed me by my arm. I pulled myself free but didn't move any further. "What do you want Harry?" He was looking nervous at me and I almost felt sorry for him because he was really trying and I was only making it hard for him but then again he did deserve this right? It was a really cold day as it was already October, I really lost a lot of days, it seemed like I had been in a coma and I was quite shocked when I discovered the month we were in. I of course discovered this yesterday when I was training in the garden. As it was pretty cold outside but at first I didn't feel it because of the work out but when I stepped outside today I felt the cold and I was actually shivering and that why I was wearing this sweater Harry gave me because I didn't have a winter coat yet.

"Can't we just have a nice day together, please?" I felt my heartbeat pick up a bit. I had to ignore it, there was no way that I could give in this easy but maybe I could act just a bit nicer towards him, he did give me his sweater. "I can try as long as you keep your distance but you really don't have to walk behind me." I gave him a small smile. I saw the hope appear in his eyes again. He took his place next to me and together we walked the streets of London.

The cold was really getting to me as I was beginning to shiver, I tried to hide it but I know Harry had noticed it as he steered me into the direction of forever 21. "You need a coat love." I was not protesting this time because I felt like a ice cubicle.

I picked out a warm grey winter coat and also picked out gloves and a scarf but when I wanted to pay Harry came up to me with his arms full of clothes. "I want you to try these on." I noticed a few dresses and at least one was a evening gown. "Really? Where am I going to wear these dresses Harry?" He scowled at me but changed his expression when he saw that I took a step back. "Just try them on Anna." I sighed but still tried them on.

"I really am sorry for the way I have been treating you Anna. I should have never hit you. You were completely in your right to demand that from me and just know that I'm sorry." This was coming completely out of the blue but he did sound sorry and maybe I should forgive him after he had done a bit more graveling. "I know you are but it's just hard for me to take in so just have little patience with me." He didn't say anything but I know he was listening. To my surprise everything did fit and after paying we went to the Starbucks to get some hot chocolate with Hazelnut. "Why is only Liam here?" I asked him and he was startled that I knew about Liam.

"How did you know?" I gave him a look, which suggested that he was stupid for even asking this. "You keep underestimating me but to answer your question. I have known from the moment we arrived here." I rolled my eyes as I took a sip from my hot chocolate.

"Really?! Oh well it's just to keep you safe I guess, do you mind because I can send them away if you want." Would he really do that? "No it's okay, as long as they are not cold it's fine by me but I am beginning to get hungry, can we have dinner somewhere?" I asked him and he immediately smiled at me and nodded as he directed me to a Sushi place, this was not what I had in mind for sure because I really hated Sushi. "Harry can't we eat somewhere else?" He let the door go and turned around to face me. "Why?"

"I really don't like sushi, I'm more of a meat person." I shrugged. He grabbed my hand and I immediately stiffened, which he noticed. I felt the hesitation but he still pulled me with him to a lovely steakhouse, which was more my thing to be honest.

"Good evening Mr Styles." The host greeted us and I was slightly surprised that he knew Harry's name but then again I could have expected this. "A table for two Mark." Harry ordered this but the kid didn't seem to mind as we were walking to the VIP section. He immediately gave us our carts but Harry took mine away. "I will order for us both, do you want some wine?" I nodded not really keen on the idea because wine really made me drunk after a few glasses.

"Harry why did you take me to London?" I was thinking this over and over because it didn't make sense for him to take me into London especially after making me a "prisoner" for at least a few weeks now. "I had to make things right and I know you love the city so I thought it would be a nice gesture." At least he was honest. "It was really nice of you, thank you for today." He smiled at me and I couldn't help but smile back. This was the Harry I loved and I really wished he would show this side more often.

Dinner was lovely and I was actually enjoying myself but this could also be the wine, as I was on my fourth glass, I really should stop before I couldn't walk straight. We had dessert and I was happily surprised when Harry told me we were staying the night in a hotel that looked out over the Tower Bridge, how amazing was that right? After paying we went back to the hotel and I was still feeling a bit tipsy.

The thing was that if I had a bit too much too drink I got a bit flustered and with Harry walking next to me, it only increased and I was terrified for the night. "Harry I really need some water." I said whilst we were passing one of the shops. "Okay stay here, I will get it for you." He was actually leaving me here alone, this was my chance the walk away and the moment that crossed my mind I spotted Olly who was slowly shaking his head. I sighed as I know I didn't stand a chance. Harry returned with my water, which I drank at once. It did help a little bit but I still felt flustered.

When we arrived at the hotel Harry told me on which floor we residence and it was the penthouse. This wasn't a real surprise but it was a surprise when he said that we were married. The receptionist called me Mrs Styles and that actually sounded really good. We stepped into the elevator and as it was already late the hotel was quiet and we had the elevator to ourselves. I stood next to Harry and for some reason I felt my heartbeat picking up. I know Harry was watching me and I know he was feeling the same thing as me. "Fuck it" was all he said before he grabbed my face and kissed me. He pushed me against the wall and kissed me like he was lost without my kisses.

That's when I heard the ding, I pushed him away but he wasn't having it and lifted me in his arms. I had to put my legs around his torso as he walked me into our penthouse. I didn't have any time to look around because Harry walked straight into the room and laid me down on the king-size bed. He had already pulled my sweater and shirt over my head leaving me in only my bra and when he had his hands free he pulled his own shirt over his head and his jeans followed real fast

When he was only left in his boxer he started to pull my jeans over my legs, this left me only in my underwear and he couldn't get back quick enough. He hovered over me and kissed me deeply before going more south, he was kissing me over my entire body until he reached the top of my underwear he already was stroking me there with his fingers and not long after he kissed me on my sensitive spot and next thing I know my underwear was on the ground, just like his. We were one heated mess.

Before he went any further he stopped as if asking for permission, which wasn't weird as I was still a virgin. In this moment everything felt right, I was, where I belonged and he filled up my every thought. When he realized that I was not stopping him he filled me in one strong push, which hurt like crazy. I felt the tears forming. "I'm so sorry Anna" he whispered whilst lying completely still. "I know." Was all I could say.

"Do you want me to stop?" I didn't want that even if it was hurting right now. "No please don't stop." He continued thrusting slowly and after a few minutes my body was adjusting to him and the pain went away and as soon as he noticed that his thrusting became more powerful and faster. I was a whimpering mess beneath him. I wasn't sure what was happening but the next thing I know I was seeing stars and I heard myself yell Harry's name, which he apparently didn't mind. "Let go love." I heard him pant through my daze and I felt his high coming as well, he yelled out my name after he came and it was like we were one soul right in that perfect moment.

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