Struggle - H.S.

The next day I actually was in a really good mood. I didn’t have a boxing lesson but I decided to go for a run to get a fresh start. It was already hot outside, this heat wave was killing me slowly but I was not going to slow down. I had my music blaring in my ears and I had water with me so there was nothing that could stop me from running.

I had short and a crop top on with my Nikes on my feet and I was running through the country side and I was making my way to the top. I was feeling really free and liberated. No one was bothering me and to be honest I was with the exception of three other people the only one up here and running, people that saw us probably thought we were crazy for running in this heat but it was the best way to start the morning.

I loved it when there was no one around whilst running so you didn’t get stared at especially with this weather and the lack of clothing I was wearing at the moment. Men tend to stare at you when you are a girl. Not today though, thank you hot weather. I was halfway up the hill when my phone went off. “Anna speaking” I said without stopping.

“Where are you Anna?” Of course Harry was again checking up on me. I was so not in the mood for him and I just hung up, knowing that there would be consequences for when I got back but for now I couldn’t care less and it’s not like he knew where I was. I also didn't have to work today so I wasn’t planning on getting back for a long time. I was just going to enjoy my time in the open air maybe even getting some tan as I brought a small backpack with me.

He called again and I push the ignore button again but by now I was getting a bit irritated at him for disrupting my music the entire time. It took him literally 5 whole seconds to call me again “Stop bothering me for crying out loud!” I yelled into the phone “Excuse me Anna Jude Lewis,” my mom said angrily through the phone and I immediately stopped running.
I was totally shocked by this because I never in a million year thought that she would call me. I actually felt bad because in the two days they were gone I never had a single thought about my parents. “I’m so sorry mom, I wasn’t expecting you,” I said a bit shaken and I heard her sigh “It’s okay but you really should look at you phone before you answer it” she chastised me and I couldn't help but sigh quietly at this.

“I know mom and I will” I told her, fully aware of the fact that I most likely wouldn't do that.
“Good. Anna I just want to let you know that we aren’t coming back for at least 6 months” this really confused me because dad was starting at Oxford uni as a professor in just 1 week. “But Mom what about dads job?” I asked her totally confused and a bit worried.

“ He will start halfway through the semester don’t you worry about it” she said but something was off and I didn't exactly know what to think of this. “But what about me?” I asked her timidly, I mean it was like they had forgotten about me.

“You’re old enough to take care of yourself, just see it as a preparation for when you move out” I sighed this just proved that she didn’t really cared about me. I just went along with it I mean it’s not like they care what I think. “Will you be home for Christmas?” I asked her, knowing the answer before she even told me.

“No sweetie, we wont but you can celebrate it with the Styles family if you want to” The way she was trying to get me and Harry together, it really bothered me and there was no way I was going to celebrate my Christmas with them, there is just no way. “I guess….” I said to her but she already thought I had said yes, which wasn't the case at all.

“All right that’s settled then, bye Anna” she said and without waiting for me to say bye she just hung up the damn phone. I was standing there looking like an utter moron and I actually felt a bit sad that she didn’t really care about me. I walked over to a bench and took a break from everything and just stared into the void. I stared at the houses and thought about the loving families that were still asleep and I actually felt jealous of that. I put my head towards the sky and took a breath, I wanted to get up when my phone went of again. “Anna speaking” just in case it was my mom but no of course not “Anna, stop ignoring me” Harry said through the phone and this was too much and I actually got angry at him.

“Harry would you please just leave me alone for one fucking day!” I yelled at him as I had just about enough of this crap. My mom hurt my feelings today and the fact that I had to spend the holidays alone didn’t make this any better and to top this he had to give me shit about ignoring him. Damn people really should just give me a break sometimes. And yes I know that there are people who have it much worse but I feel like crap and sometimes I’m allowed and the sad part of this was that I was in a really good mood when I left.

“Don’t yell at me Anna” he said quite pissed and I kept quiet which he didn’t appreciate at all “Fine I will give you today but tomorrow you will spend the day with me and I will drag your fine ass out of your hotel room if you don’t cooperate” he threatened me and I sighed heavily “Yeah whatever” I said and hung up the phone.

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