Struggle - H.S.

I was still sitting on that damn bench looking at the stunning view. I really just had to gather my thoughts because it was just all too much. My parents were gone for 6 months, they just left me without any warning and I actually felt abandoned by, I know I'm an adult but it still hurts.

Then there is Harry, God knows I’m attracted to him but I can’t stand the fact that he is so violent and controlling. I don’t think I can ever listen to him and most of the time I just want to punch him in the face. I mean that night when he beat me up, only thinking about it made me angry all over again, who is he to treat women like that? Didn’t his mother teach him that you should never hit women unless they really hit you. I mean I think you can hit back when a woman really hits you hard but to just beat a woman up because you are angry with her for not listening to you, that is just pathetic and it really doesn’t make you a man.

I still don’t get why he wanted me so badly that he had to ‘claim’ me it was just ridiculous. You can’t really claim someone and if he had just be a nicer, he would already have me but no he had to act like a psychic lunatic. It was not attractive at all at least that was what I was telling myself over and over again. It just didn't work as I could;t stop thinking about him and even in my dreams he was haunting me.

I sighed and stood up to start running again. I plugged in my earplugs and started running. I had to make it to the top, I was not a quitter so I wasn’t going to go back with my tail between my legs. It was a lot warmer than when I first started and I would’ve been at the top weren’t it for my mom and Harry. Damn it I was sweating like crazy and I was almost wearing nothing but this wanted me to run naked not that I was going to do that because I’m not crazy.
But the thought was making it easier to run. I.was.not.giving.up. that was really my mantra at the moment and when I saw that I was almost at the top I began to run even faster shaking all my worries off of me. I felt like roadrunner or as a bird I felt free from all those people who were nagging me and wanting me. This was the best feeling ever when I reached the top I just screamed at the top of my lungs not caring about the other people who were there.
I let myself fall on the grass and I just lay there with my head on my backpack sipping some juice with my eyes at the sky, watching the little clouds floating by. I felt my eyes getting heavier and I just let them close.

I woke up abruptly, with my heart beating loudly in my chest. Damn what was that. I was again sweating from whatever it was that woke me. I probably had a nightmare, which I couldn’t remember but it sure was scary for me to wake up like that. I quickly glanced on my phone and I had zero messages, which quite frankly surprised me but Harry was really keeping his end of the bargain.

Which meant that I really had to go on a date with him when I got back but maybe I shouldn’t go back. Just make a house in the woods. A tree house where he couldn’t find me, that would be ideal except for the lack of electricity because to be fair I can’t live without my phone or macbook. So it wouldn’t be a good idea and I don’t even know how to build a house in the first place. I sat up and watched the town from up this hill and it was quite beautiful to see. I grabbed my photo camera and began to take a few shots.

I was actually enjoying myself when someone grabbed my shoulder. “What the hell?” I said under my breath when I looked in a guys face. I had never seen him before in my life but he didn’t look like you should mess with him. “You’re Harry’s right?” he asked threatening.

“No I’m not” I denied because we weren't; together and I was sick of hearing we were. “Yes you are, I’ve seen you a few times with him, so don’t lie to me” I felt something pressed against my stomach and when I glanced down I saw it was a gun and I immediately held my breath.

“So I’ll ask again, you are Harry’s right?” I nodded “Yyyes” I stuttered. I felt so scared that it was the only thing I could say, “That’s all I needed to know” Next thing I know he hits me so hard that I felt myself falling and to be fair I went knockout instantly. The only thing I heard was “Give this message to harry. We are waiting”

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