After the talk me and Louis had, a couple of days went by and we were becoming more and more like friends. I was preparing for school to start, and my first lesson. The first day I was going to the school was tomorrow, I was going to have a meeting with the principal. We were going to talk about what my job would be and so on.

“Johanna, we leave in a week.” Harry spoke up as I walked into the kitchen where all of the boys were sitting. I nodded and grabbed an apple from the bowl on the counter.

“That’s so sad.” I frowned and thought about living alone in this flat. I smiled to myself and nodded in consent, I was going to have a blast.

“Then why are you smiling?” Zayn used a very hurt tone when he spoke and I laughed at him.

“Because as much as I like hanging out with all of you I look forward to live alone.” I shrugged and walked away. I heard someone gasp behind me and I just laughed as I walked into my room to get dressed. Today I was going to go shopping, I wanted to get some clothes and I was also going to buy some food. I put on a pair of leggings and a tunic. As I was putting on my make up, which only consisted of mascara, Louis walked into my room. I looked at him while rolling my eyes.

“Do you not know how to knock?” He shrugged and sat on my unmade bed. “I could have been naked, you know.” I pointed out and a smile appeared on his face.

“Wouldn’t that have been a shame?” He laughed slightly as he let his eyes roam my body. I sighed and felt my less confident side kick in.

“Stop it, Lou.” I looked down at the floor and leaned against my dresser.

“Can’t help it if I find you hot right?” I snorted and looked up at him with a sceptical look.

“It’s too bad that you are mentally insane, or I would have believed that.” I shrugged and began to grab my stuff so I could head out. I picked up my purse and was about to walk out of my bedroom when he grabbed my arm.

“You shouldn’t be so mean to yourself.” I looked at his hand and felt it tug at my heart. I know I should be more grateful for his words but they made me uncomfortable.

“I really don’t want to talk about this, Louis.” I looked up at his and smiled. He forced a smile and let go of my arm. I walked out into the hallway to put on my shoes. I sat down to tie them when all of the boys gathered around me. I laughed at them and shook my head. “What do you want?” I looked up at them and they were all looking at me with concerned eyes.

“Are you sure you don’t want anyone of us to come with you?” Harry spoke and the other boys nodded.

“That would kind of go against me not being seen with any of you.” I pointed at all of them and stood up. I shook my head and picked up my purse. “I will be fine. I’m just going down the road so it isn’t that far, and then I’m going to shop some food.” I shrugged and pushed Liam to the side, he was standing in front of the door.

“Fine. But keep your phone on so you can call us if anything happens.” Liam spoke and he really sounded like a dad. I sighed and nodded. I turned around to look at the other boys.

“Anything else?” They all shook their heads and I nodded. “Good.”

“One thing.” Niall spoke up and placed his hand on my arm. I looked at him and I started laughing before be had even began to speak.

“You want to me hurry so you can get food, don’t you?” He blushed and looked at the floor. He nodded and I placed my hand on his cheek. I made him look up at me as I patted his cheek. “Do you want me to make my kind of pancakes when I get home?” His mouth fell open and the boys laughed.

“How did you know?” Niall sounded really shocked and I laughed with the others.

“Because that’s what I am here for. To serve you darling!” I winked at him and opened the door before anyone else could speak up. I slammed it in their faces and walked out of the building. As soon as I was outside I pulled out my iPod and put my headphones in. I opened the album section and went down to Viktoria, by Maria Mena. I was ready to shop until my wallet said stop.

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I had now been gone for two hours and I felt my feet tell me to go home. I sighed at the sight of all my bags and decided to go to the grocery store. When I got to the closest Tesco to home I grabbed a cart and placed my bags in it. I walked around the store collecting everything I needed to make pancakes and also to make a cake. I felt like celebrating today, wonder why. I was just about to grab some milk when my phone rang loudly, someone had changed my ring tone to ‘I’m sexy and I know it’. I rolled my eyes when I saw Harry name flash across my screen. I answered the phone and held it to my ear as I grabbed milk.

“Yes?” I hissed slightly because I knew he only did this to annoy me.

“Where are you?” He tried not to sound prying but he did.

“At the grocery store, just gonna grab a few things more and then I’m heading home.” I spoke matter of factly and waited for him to answer.

“Thank God! Niall’s been whining for the last hour. Apparently he’s hungry.” The last words he spoke dryly and I heard someone being smacked. Right after I heard Harry scream ‘ooowh’.

“Yeah well you can tell him I’m on my way home.” I felt myself stop in my tracks as I realized I just called their flat home. I know it is home but I haven’t said it before.

“I’ll tell him. See you soon!” He hung up before I had the chance to say anything. I shrugged and placed my phone in my pocket. I placed a few more items in my cart before going to the checkout. When it was my turn to pay I smiled at the guy cashier. He scanned all of my items and then placed them into bags. I love London like that, they didn’t do that at home. When he looked up at me he gave me this disgusted look. I felt my smile falter but tried to make it stay.

“That’ll be 23 pounds.” He waited for me to give him the money and I remembered I wanted to mess with him. I hated when people only looked at me and judged me from that. I pointed behind him and spoke with a really pitchy voice.

“Could I get a pack of extra large condoms please?” He gave me a look that ran over my body and as he turned around I heard him murmur ‘Who the fuck would want to fuck her?’. Feeling my angry side take over I smiled sweetly as he turned around. I waited until he had scanned them to hand him my money. As I picked up all of my bags I turned around to face him again. “Oh and by the way,” I spoke with a deep voice this time. “I’m the one who is going to have them on, sugar.” I winked at him and walked out of the store.

As soon as I was outside the store my smile dropped and my entire face was set into a frown. I simply couldn’t understand why people thought I looked so gross, I knew I wasn’t the mort attractive girl in the world but still. I walked the short way home trying to think about something other than that guy. I failed to do so and when I got home I was in a very bad mood. The boys were all still at our flat and sensed that something was wrong when I walked through the door.

“Is everything alright Jo?” Niall walked into the kitchen where I was leaning against the counter. The rest of the boys followed, except for Zayn. Harry went to unpack the bags of food I had with me.

“Yeah everything is fine.” I sighed and sat down by the table. “I just sometimes forget I’m not as hot as I think I am.” I shrugged and the boys chuckled. I placed my head in my hands and sighed. I was letting that guy get to me, and I shouldn’t. I should just ignore the people who don’t want to get to know me. Although that is easier said than done, it is really hard not to let other peoples opinions get to you. I heard someone squeal and then someone laughing at that person.

“Uhm…” Harry spoke and I felt that he was directing it to me so I looked up. When I did he was holding the box of condoms. I blushed like madly before groaning and slamming my head against the table again. “Is there something you have to tell us? Are you seeing someone?” I sighed and pulled my head up.

“No.” I almost groaned out the word at the boys just stared at me. I sighed again and shook my head. I looked at my hands while I spoke. “The cashier at the grocery store looked at me like I was disgusting.” I shrugged and didn’t look up once. “So I asked if he had some extra large condoms, and then he murmured something really mean.” When I looked up Louis looked pissed. “I wasn’t supposed to hear it.” I tried to make him calm himself with my eyes but I did not succeed.

“What did he say?”

“Louis…” I pleaded for him to drop it.

“What did he say?” He asked me again. I stood up and went over to where Harry was still holding the condoms. I grabbed them and turned to Louis.

“He was wondering how anyone could want to fuck me, Louis.” I looked at him with extremely eyes and his face hardened. I knew he was angry, but he had no right to be.

“Well that’s not very nice.” Liam spoke up and I thanked him in my head. I turned to him and smiled.

“Well I told him that the condoms were for me to wear, not another person.” I shrugged and laughed slightly. The boys first stood there with shocked faces before leaning forward, laughing their arses of.

“OMG! That is the best thing I’ve heard all year!” Niall screamed and everyone nodded their heads in agreement. I smiled to them and scratched the back of my neck.

“Guys I’m gonna take a nap before making pancakes ok?” Before they could answer I walked into my room and collapsed on my bed. I felt the tears come and my self-confidence go.