Chapter 3

Christmas was tomorrow and everyone has already gone back home. I had the whole apartment to myself, but it was lonely. I even thought about inviting Brenton around, so I wouldn't be so lonely. I decided against it when I remembered what Niall told me. Everyone called me to see if I was alright and doing well and I was. I even went to the shops to get food for Christmas, so I could try to celebrate it. Niall was right it is a hard time for me. It was when my sister and my mum left us, however I was coping with it.

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I decided to start cooking for tomorrow tonight. I had the fire on and I was walking around in a pair of red boxers with little white hearts on them, a white singlet and white knee high socks. As I was half way through there was a knock at the front door. I quickly went to open it and it was Brenton. He was wearing a jeans, black t-shirt and jacket, “hey,” I say. He smiled at me, “I heard that you’re spending Christmas alone, so I thought I come and see you. I’m also spending Christmas alone,” he tells me. I let him in, “how did you find out that I was staying for Christmas?” I wondered. We walked into the lounge room, “I overheard Harry talking to Zayn about it,” Brenton replied. He showed me a bottle of wine, “I brought wine,” he smiled. I gave him a small smile back, “I’ll be right back. I need to check on the food for tomorrow,” I tell him.

“Who’s coming around tomorrow?” he wondered. I went into the kitchen, “my aunty,” I lied. Brenton sat down on the lounge after he took his jacket off, “I like to get half of it done the night before,” I tell him. I looked at my phone and wondered if I should tell Niall that Brenton was here, “well when you’re done. Why don’t you bring in two wine glasses?” Brenton suggested. I started to feel uneasy now, “sure. Why don’t you put the TV on” I say. I grabbed my phone and messaged Niall:

Me: Niall Brenton here

I put my phone back down and focused on my cooking. I started making a cake and I never planned to make one. I just need to stay away from Brenton and his wine, “what are you doing now?” Brenton asked from the lounge. I took in a deep breath, “making a cake,” I tell him. I looked at my phone and Niall hasn’t messaged me back, “what for?” he wondered. He got up off the lounge and came over to the kitchen, “my aunty loves cake,” I say. He leant his elbows on the kitchen bench, “what type of cake you’re making?” he questioned.

“Um chocolate,” I replied. I noticed that he was looking down my singlet and I had no bra on. I went into the fridge to get the milk, “so did your mom teach you how to cook?” Brenton asked. I shake my head no, “I learnt myself since it was just me and my dad,” I tell him. I came back over to the kitchen bench, “so you’re a daddy's little girl,” he smiled. I nodded my head as I heard the front door open, “princess I’m here. I also got the movies you wanted,” I heard Niall announce. I felt relieved, but Brenton didn't look happy. He walked into the kitchen with movies in his hand. Niall looked cosy in his grey jumper and black pants, “Brenton what brings you around?” Niall smiled.

“Just heard the Claire be alone, so I thought I keep her company. What brings you around and how did you get in?” Brenton asked back. Niall stood next to me, “I have keys to this place and me and Claire always hang out at Christmas,” Niall smiled. Niall hugged me, “ooo you’re making cake for tomorrow?” He wondered. I nodded my head, “for when Aunty Cathy comes around,” I lied.

“I like Aunty Cathy,” he lied as well. I was so glad that Niall was playing along, “so you know Claire’s family?” Brenton asked. Niall nodded his head, “I've known Buttercup since we were four. We lived next door to each other back in Ireland,” Niall tells him. Brenton gave Niall a small nod, “well me and Claire was about to open a bottle of wine. Care to join us?” Brenton wondered.

“You can't drink if you’re meant to be driving back to the frat house tonight,” Niall points out. Brenton glared at him, “then I just go back with you,” Brenton says. Niall shakes his head, “I’m not going back tonight,” Niall tells him. I looked at Niall, “I always stay Christmas Eve,” Niall added. Brenton nodded his head, “anyway no drinking for you,” I say. Brenton looked at me, “I don’t like drink drivers,” I tell him. Brenton sighed, “oh Buttercup I’m sorry I’m late. I would have been here earlier, but I got caught up in something,” Niall apologized.

“Yeah his hand was more important than you,” Brenton mumbled. Niall pushed him, “nah. I was picking up your present,” Niall smiled. I really did wondered if Niall did get me something. He pulled a little box out of his pants pocket. I tried to grab it, but Niall moved his arm up high, “it’s not Christmas yet. You can wait until tomorrow morning,” he tells me. I pouted, “Soph also told me that we got to finish setting up the tree,” he says. I looked at the half decorated tree, “I know,” I sighed. I went back to making the cake mix, “how high is the fire? It's hot in here,” Niall says. He took his jumper off with his t-shirt, “Niall you’re not at home, so please leave your top on,” Brenton whined.

“Claire has seen me naked and I normally walk around in my boxers here,” Niall tells him. I think Niall was trying to make Brenton jealous, so he would leave, “really you’ve seen him naked? Like when you were eight or something,” Brenton questioned. I shake my head, “about last week,” I lied. Brenton was shocked, “are you two fucking?” he wondered. I shake my head again, “we’re that close,” I tell him. Niall went to put his jumper and t-shirt down on an arm chair with the movies, “if you don't want Niall around just tell me,” Brenton whispered to me. I shake my head, “I want him around,” I tell Brenton. He rolled his eyes at me, “if you don't want him around you can leave,” I added. Niall came back over to us with the bottle of wine, “this is mine,” he says.

“No it's not,” Brenton says. Niall handed me the bottle and I read the label. It was the bottle we got when we went back to Ireland for a summer, “yes you did,” I snapped. Brenton stands up, “you went into my room,” Niall started. He got right up in Brenton face, “you tried to steal my stuff,” Niall continued. I put the bottle down and pulled Niall back, “you better get out of here,” I tell Brenton. He quickly grabbed his jacket, “it just a bottle of wine,” Brenton says.

“Leave!” I yelled. Brenton quickly left, “Ni,” I whispered. He took in a deep breath, “I'm alright,” he says. He picked up the bottle of wine, “can I put this in your room?” He asked. I nodded my head, “thanks,” he says. He left and I started melting the butter on the stove for the cake mix. As I was watching it melt Niall came up behind me before he wrapped his arms around me. He placed his chin onto my shoulder, “thank you for saving me,” I tell him.

“Don't worry about it. I was halfway here when I got your message. As soon as Brenton left I knew he was coming here,” Niall tells me. Niall kept his arms around me and I felt really happy. I was happy that Niall saved me and he being all nice, “when you done with your cake for Aunty Cathy. We will finish putting up the tree,” Niall tells me. He kissed my cheek before he walked away. I laughed, “thanks for going along with that,” I smiled. Niall smiled back, “so you’re telling me Aunty Cathy not coming,” Niall pouted. I laughed a bit more before I took the melted butter over to the cake mix.

When the cake was done and in the oven. Niall and I started decorating the Christmas tree after I made hot chocolate for the both of us, “when was the last time we put up a tree?” Niall wondered. I shrugged my shoulders, “I think I was fourteen and you were fifteenth,” I started. It was the Christmas my mum and sister left us, “Buttercup?” Niall questioned. I looked at him, “you’re thinking about them aren’t you?” he wondered. I gave him a small nod, “it’s hard not to around this time of year,” I admitted. Niall came closer to me, “I know,” he says. He hugged me, “I have a little confession to make. I was still going to come around to see you tonight. I put all my feelings of hate towards you aside. Just so you can get through Christmas,” he tells me. I looked at him, “thank you,” I tell him.

We finished putting up the Christmas tree and the cake was done. I took the cake out of the oven and put it in the side to cool down. Niall was going through Liam’s and Louis’s games, “Buttercup can I play the new FIFA?” Niall asked me. I came over to him, “sure as long as you teach me to play,” I tell him. Niall smiled big as he put the game into the PlayStation. He grabbed two controllers and sat down on the floor against the lounge, “Ni stupid question. Do you want a beer? Or a coke?” I asked him.

“Well it depends if I can stay here or not. So I'm going to leave it up to you,” he replied. I went over to the fridge as I decided if I wanted him to stay or not. I grabbed out two beers before opening them. I sat down next to Niall as I handed him one of the beers, “so I'm staying?” He questioned. I nodded my head, “well you told Brenton that you are,” I pointed out. Niall nodded his head before he took a drink of his beer, “probably should stay anyway. I think Brenton would be straight back if I turned up to the frat house,” he tells me. I take a drink of my beer, “did you lead Brenton on?” Niall asked.

“Nope. All I did was dared him to push you into the pool,” I replied. Niall nodded his head, “I still need to get you back for that,” he smirked. I bit my bottom lip, “but another day. I want to play FIFA,” he added. He handed me a controller and tried to show me what buttons to push, “Buttercup sit between my legs. It be easier for me,” Niall tells me. I moved between his legs before I leant back into him. He showed me the buttons again and I was getting the hang of it.

We played a couple of games until Niall had enough, “how about we watch a movie now?” He suggested. I nodded my head as I got up. I went into the kitchen grabbed us another beer and to make popcorn, “what do you wanna watch?” Niall asked me. He came into the he kitchen holding up two movies. On was a horror movie and the other one was a comedy, “why not both? It's only nine,” I suggested. Niall smiled at me, “ok why don't we watch the horror one first and then the comedy?” He suggested back. I nodded my head as he grabbed the two beers.

I turned all the lights off when the popcorn was done before I sat down on the lounge. I sat on the edge, so I could lean back and put my feet up. Niall sat next to me after he put the movie in and moved the coffee table closer, “now don't get too scared it's just a movie,” he teased. He put his legs on the coffee table, “I know that,” I say. Niall played the movie, “you gonna share the popcorn?” Niall asked. I shake my head no as I looked at the bowl of popcorn in my lap, “it's all mine,” I smiled. Niall grabbed my legs and put them over one of his. My feet sat between his legs, “I think you’re going to share now,” he smiled.

After the popcorn was all gone I moved the empty bowl on to the floor. I keep my legs where they were and I leaned into Niall. I knew I could be pushing it with him, but he seemed not to care. He wrapped his arm around my legs, “you’re not scared are you?” he wondered. I shake my head, “nope. You know horror movies don’t scare me,” I replied. I looked at him and he was already looking at me, “Claire I’m sorry,” he apologized. I was confused, “why are you sorry?” I questioned. Niall shakes his head, “just that I’m sorry,” he says. I knew pushing it would ruin the night, “ok,” I whispered. I placed my hand on the side of his face before I kissed him. I don’t know why I just did that and I was more surprised when Niall kissed me back. I pulled back, “why did you just kiss me?” Niall asked.

“Um I don't know,” I mumbled. Niall kissed me this time, “why did you kiss me?” I wondered. Niall shrugged his shoulders, “I don't know,” he says. Niall moved us down, so we laid down over the lounge and the coffee table. He wrapped his arm around my waist, “I wanted to kiss you,” he admitted. I was shocked, “I also wanted to kiss you when we were theme park. I want to,” he started. I moved in closer to his face, but Niall never finished his sentence. He played with my hair, “Buttercup I don’t know what’s going to happen to us when Christmas is over, but I don’t want to think about it,” he tells me. I felt his breath on my lips, “then I don’t want Christmas to end,” I tell him. Niall smiled, “we can’t stop time princess even when we want too,” he says.

“Can we try?” I pouted. Niall laughed, “everyone will come back and it won’t just be us. Plus we will get sick of each other,” he smiled. I shake my head, “you’re the one person I can always see and not get sick of,” I confessed. Niall kissed me, “I wish I never went to Australia,” I tell him. Niall was confused, “I wanted to come back home in the first couple of days,” I added. Niall ran his fingers down the side of my face, “why?” he wondered.

“My host family were mean and I didn’t have you,” I replied. Niall kissed me again and again until he decided to deepen the kiss. I ran my hand down his bare shoulder to his bicep. I felt a mark on his bicep and Niall pulled away. He sat up next to me and I did the same. He covered up the mark I felt, “Ni?” I questioned. He shakes his head as I noticed more scars over him. I moved in closer to him, “please don’t touch them,” he begged. I looked at him, “Ni what happened? Why are you covered in scars?” I wondered. Niall shakes his head again, “drop it please,” he says. I straddled his lap, “I understand that you don’t want to tell me about what happened. But please tell me that it is all over,” I tell him. Niall nodded his head, “it’s all over,” he tells me. I placed my hands on each side of his neck, “let's finish the movie,” Niall tells me. He turned me around as he kept me in his lap. He tightly wrapped his arms around me as he started watching the movie again.

As he kept watching the movie I kept looking at his scars I could see. I noticed some were older than others, “Buttercup please stop,” he says. I looked at him, “please stop looking at them,” he begged. I could see in his face that he was trying really hard not to lose it. But I didn't know if it was anger or sadness, “I'm sorry,” I apologized. Niall kissed my forehead, “I think we should go to bed,” he tells me. I nodded my head before I got up. I started to clean up the beer bottles as Niall grabbed the bowl. We put them in the kitchen, “I'll sleep in Louis bed,” he tells me. Without thinking I shake my head, “I can't sleep alone tonight,” I admitted. Niall comes closer to me, “I’m going to be here in the morning,” he promised. I looked down, “I know. It's just my mind,” I started. Niall kissed me to stop me from rambling on, “ok,” he says. I smiled a little, “Buttercup you need to stop blaming yourself about your mum and sister. There was nothing you could have done,” he reassured me.

Niall followed me to my room and I shut the door. Niall stood there looking at my bed, “this room says Perrie to me,” he says. I stood next to him, “that's because she picked my furniture,” I informed him. Niall smiled before he pulled me in front of him, so I would look at him. He kept his hands on my hips, “I don't know if I could sleep in here. It's to girly,” Niall joked. I nodded my head, “I miss my missed matched furniture,” I smiled. Niall pulled me closer to him, “I really don't know if I could sleep in here,” he says again.

“Why?” I wondered. Niall kissed me, “because I don't know if I can my hands to myself tonight,” he started. He kissed me again, “I already had you in my bed,” he continued. He kissed me again as he walked me backwards until I fell onto the bed with him on top of me, “and I really wanted you then too,” he whispered. This time I kissed him as he ran one of his hands up my side, “princess you need to tell me to stop,” he says against my lips.

“I don't want to stop,” I admitted. I really didn't want to stop and I didn't know why. I knew I should, but I just wanted him. Niall started kissing my neck, “you sure? Because I don't think I could stop once we start,” he whispered against my neck. I pulled his face up to mine, “we have already started,” I tell him. I kissed him hard as Niall moved us onto the bed more. He started kissing down my neck to the top of my chest. He lifted my singlet up to just under my boobs before he started kissing all over my stomach. His kisses were gentle like he wanted to savour the moment. He kissed down one of my thighs as he took my sock off. He did the same to the other leg before he looked at me. I pulled him back up to my face and kissed him. I tried to flip us over, but he wouldn't let me. He looked at me, “I know what you want to do, but please don’t. I want to be in control,” he tells me as he ran his hand up my thigh.

“Ok,” I say. Niall kissed me lightly as I felt his hand go up the side of my boxers. He played with the waistband of my knickers, “how far are we going to go?” He asked. He looked my straight in the eyes and I kissed him, “I need an answer,” he says. I bit my lip, “I want,” I started. Niall took his hand out of my boxers before he ran his hand up to my side, “I want whatever you want,” I finished.

“Princess I want to be inside you again,” he tells me. He words made me clench my thighs together, “is that what you want too?” He wondered. I nodded my head as Niall started kissing my neck, “I need you to say it. I want to make sure,” he whispered. He kissed across the front of my throat, “I want you inside of me,” I tell him. I felt Niall smile against my throat, “do you have condoms?” He questioned. I shake my head, “I'll be right back then,” he says. When he got up the front of his pants were tight. I bit my bottom lip and Niall noticed that I was looking. He smirked big before he left the room.

When he came back he had a box of condoms in his hand, “where did you get those?” I wondered. Niall threw them onto my bedside table, “Louis room. I gave them to him when we first got here. He hasn't even opened them,” Niall tells me. Niall jump back into the bed and straddled my thighs, “since the first time we did this. Have you fingered yourself?” He asked. I shake my head, “has he?” Niall questioned. I shake my head again and Niall mumbled something. He leant down as he hovered over my face, “has he ever done anything for you?” He added. The way he was saying ‘he’ felt like it was poison to him, “no,” I whispered. Niall kissed me and I placed my hands on his thighs. I should feel bad about what I'm doing with Niall, but I don't. Max doesn't touch me like I want to be touched. He always wants me to touch him, “I need to take my pants off,” Niall groaned. He sat back up and I followed him. I stopped him from undoing his pants himself, “princess?” He questioned. I ran my hands down his sides to his zipper. I ran my hand over the bulge in his pants, “please,” he begged.

“What's your rush?” I teased. I rubbed him a little through his pants, “please. I can't take the pressure anymore,” he tells me. I undid the top button before I pulled the zipper down. I pulled his pants down his thighs before he moved next to me. He throws his pants on the floor and I stopped him taking his boxers off. He was confused, “I know you want to be in control, but please let me do this,” I tell him. Niall moved so his back was against my headboard. I started kissing down Niall chest to the start of his boxers. I pulled his boxers down slowly to let his member free. I kneeled between his legs after I threw his boxers on the floor. Niall pulled me to him, so he could kiss me. He played with my singlet until I moved back a little. He pulled it over my head and it joined his clothes on the floor. I kissed from his neck down to his member. I licked the tip of his member a couple of time before I put it in my mouth. Niall grabbed the blanket into his hands, “fuck,” he puffed. I took more of him in my mouth and he let out a little deep moan. I started going backwards and forwards on his member with my mouth. His hands ran down my bare back, “fuck this is fantastic,” he swore. He leant forward so he could grab ass and I moaned around him. He stopped me all of a sudden, “no more,” he tells me.

“Why?” I asked. Niall pushed me down onto the bed as he hovered over me, “I not going to last,” he admitted. He kissed me, “and I want to last longer with you baby,” he added. When he called me baby I felt my lower half clench. He kissed me again as he ran his hand over my boobs. He moved from my mouth to one of my nipples and started sucking on it. His other hand played with my other boob, but mainly my nipple. My breathing got faster, “feels good don't it?” He smirked against my skin. I nodded my head, “I remembered from the first time that you nipple are quite sensitive,” he added. He leant on his elbows as he looked at me. His fingers played with my nipples, “please Niall,” I begged.

“Tell me what you want baby,” he says. I grabbed his hands, “touch me,” I tell him. Niall leant down and kissed me between my boobs, “touch you where?” He smirked. He knew where I wanted him to touch me, “Niall please,” I begged again. I pushed his hands down my body to the tops of my boxers. Niall kissed all along the waistband of my boxers. He slowly pulled them down with my knickers before he threw them. Niall pulled me to the edge of the bed, so my ass was still on it. He kissed up both of my thighs then between my legs. I tried to squeeze my legs shut, but held them into place. This was my first time having oral sex and I was a bit nervous now. Niall looked at me, “what's wrong baby?” he questioned.

“Um this is the first time that I had oral sex,” I confessed. Niall was surprised, “so I take another first from you?” he wondered. I nodded my head as I felt embarrassed. Niall leaned over me, “don't be embarrassed. I'm honoured to take another first,” he tells me. He kissed me, “I'll take it slow,” he continued. He put his face between my legs again, “you can tell me when to stop,” he says. He kissed between my legs a couple of times before he started licking up and down. I started moaning a little bit, but moaned loudly when Niall started sucking on my clit. I felt one of his fingers at my entrance as he ran circles around it. He slowly put on into me before he started moving it in and out slowly. He added another finger in and kept going at his slow pace, “Niall faster please,” I begged. I felt Niall smirk against me as he got a faster with his fingers. I put my fingers threw his hair and pulled it a little. Niall looked at me, “you’re enjoying this,” he points out.

“Yes. Please don't stop,” I say. Niall removed his fingers from me, but replaced it with his tongue. I pulled on his hair a little more as I felt that I was close. His tongue was do wonders on me, “Niall stop,” I tell him. He stopped and looked at me with worry in his eyes, “I don't want to cum yet. I want to cum with you,” I admitted. Niall kissed up my body to my lips, “you sure?” he questioned. I nodded my head, “I'm sure,” I tell him. He moved me up the bed more before he grabbed a condom out of the box. He kneeled between my legs and put the condom on his member, “I don't know if this is going to hurt you this time since the last time you had sex was over a year ago with me,” he tells me. I nodded my head, “I know,” I whispered. Niall positioned himself at my entrance, “I'll go slowly again,” he says. He slowly pushed himself inside of me and we moaned together. He looked at me, “I'm alright. It didn't hurt,” I reassured him.

“You sure?” He asked. I nodded my head, “I am,” I say. Niall started moving in and out of me at a slow pace. I placed my hands on his forearms, “fuck this feels so good baby,” he moaned. He leant down and kissed me. He kept going as he slowly got faster and deeper. He leant onto his forearms on each side of my head. He kept placing small kisses to my lips before he hid his face into my neck. I wrapped my arms around his back to bring him closer to me. Our bodies rubbed together, “baby I'm close. Please tell me your close,” he begged. I nodded my head before Niall started sucking on my neck. Niall thrusted hard into me a couple of times and I felt my walls clench around him. He got harder and faster, “fuck, fuck,” he kept repeating. We both came at the same time and swearing uncontrollably.

Niall rolled out and off of me after a couple of minutes. He sat up before taking the condom off. He stood up and slowly walked to my bedroom door, “where are you going?” I asked him as I leant onto my elbows. He smiled at me, “to get rid of this,” he says as he held up the used condom. I laid back down once he left the room. I may or may not have check his little arse out when he walked out.

I don't know how much time pass until Niall came back, but I got under the covers of my bed. He got right in next to me and wrapped his arm around my waist. Niall kissed my shoulder, “you alright?” He asked. I nodded my head, “you?” I asked back. Niall nodded his head as well, “just tired now,” he says. He ran his fingers up and down my waist, “Buttercup do you regret what we just did?” he wondered. I shake my head, “I never will,” I tell him. Niall kissed my shoulder again, “let's go to sleep,” he says. I closed my eyes, “night Ni,” I smiled. Niall kissed my cheek, “night Buttercup,” he says.

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The next morning when I woke up Niall was still next to me. I ran my fingers up and down his forearm as last night went through my mind. I just cheated on Max with Niall and I didn't feel guilty. I know I should, but I don’t. Niall moved behind me, “sleep some more baby,” Niall mumbled. He placed a small kiss to my back and it sent shivers down my spine. I stopped moving my fingers up and down his arm. Niall kissed my back again, “merry Christmas,” he says.

“Merry Christmas,” I smiled. Niall dug his fingertips into me, “now I all I want for Christmas is to sleep a bit more,” he tells me. I nodded my head, “then go to sleep,” I tell him. Niall relaxed behind me as I closed my eyes, but I couldn't go back to sleep. I kept thinking what Niall and I were doing in my bed naked? And what was going on between us? I didn't have the answers, but I was happy. If this is what he wants and it makes him happy. I'm alright with it, because it makes me happy. Niall moved to kiss my neck, “you’re not sleeping,” he started. He kissed my neck again, “you’re thinking about something. What are you thinking about?” he wondered. He kissed my neck a couple of times, “it's nothing,” I tell him. I really didn't want to ask him what going on between us. I was afraid of his answer, “if it nothing go back to sleep. If it something tell me,” he says. I turned around to face him and took a deep breath in, “what are we doing?” I asked.

“I don't know,” he replied. I was unsure about his answer, “all I know is that I don't want to stop. What do you want?” He questioned. I shrugged my shoulders, “I don't want to stop too. You’re the only guy that has ever touch me like you do,” I admitted. Niall kissed me, “we don't have to stop. It's just that Max would get in the way,” he tells me. Was Niall telling me to cheat on Max with him or to break-up with Max? I couldn't break-up with Max, because he threatened me that he post pictures of me naked. Niall kissed me to bring me out of my thoughts, “Max would rarely come to the apartment. He don't like you guys,” I tell Niall. Niall kissed me again, “so if we continued this it would have to be a secret?” He wondered. I nodded my head, but felt uneasy since he said if, “let's just see how the holidays go,” he suggested. I nodded my head again, “ok,” I whispered. Niall closed his eyes after he kissed me. He pulled me closer to him, so my head was under his chin. I was scared now that I could lose Niall as a friend in an instant. It also hurt that he wanted only one thing off of me and that was sex. Well that's what I thought and all because him telling me that he don't want to be friends with me anymore. I know Niall changed when I was gone and I know it has something to do with these scars. I wish he would tell me what happened to him, “baby you’re too awake now aren’t you?” he asked.

“Yeah. Sorry,” I says. Niall kissed the top of my head before I looked at him. He had a soft smile and it made me forget all my bad thoughts about us. He kissed me, “well it like eleven,” he tells me as he looked at the time. I laughed a little bit, “but do we have to get out of bed yet? It nice and warm,” he questioned. I shake my head no, “but I do have to pee,” I tell him. I sat up, “but you will be back?” He wondered. I nodded my head, “I'll even turn on the fire,” I smiled. I quickly get out of bed and grabbed my dressing gown.

I got back to my room after I peed and turned on the fire. Niall was laying on his back looking up at the ceiling. I stood next to him and he looked at me, “if you wanna get back into bed lose the dressing gown,” he tells me. I bit my bottom lip, “I don't want to,” I say. Niall sat up and moved to the edge of the bed as he kept the blanket over his lower half. He pulled me by my hips closer to him, “then I'll do it for you,” he smirked. He slowly unites my dressing gown belt before he opened it up. He started kissing all over my stomach and I couldn't help, but put my hand through his hair. He pulled me onto his lap, “you need to stop me from doing stuff to you,” he whispered. His kissed up my chest to my neck. He pushed the dressing gown off of me before he laid back onto the bed. I straddled his hips, “I want you to be in control today baby. Just don't touch them,” he tells me. I knew he meant his scars. I started kissing his neck as I grinded against him. Niall moved me all of a sudden, so he could move the blanket away from him. He moved me back down to where I was, “what do you want?” I asked him.

“You,” he tells me. I started kissing down his chest, “what do you want from me?” I questioned. Niall pulled my face up to his, “I want to be inside you. I want you to ride me,” he says. He kissed me hard and rough. I wanted to keep kissing him since I really didn't want to be on top. Niall grabbed my ass and push me into him. We moaned at the contact, “Niall I don't know if I could be on top,” I admitted. He looked at me, “I don't know what to do,” I added. Niall kissed me lightly, “just go with what your body tells you,” he says. I kissed him, “but grind against me for a little bit,” he tells me. I started grinding against his member between my legs as I braced myself on his chest. Niall kept looking me up and down as I did so. I was starting to feel self-concessions, so I stopped, “why did you stop?” He wondered.

“You need to stop looking at me,” I tell him. Niall sat up, “why? You’re beautiful, sexy and hot when you’re on top of me,” he complimented. I knew I was blushing a deep red as I tried to get off of him. Niall kept me there as he grabbed my hips, “stay,” he ordered. He moved us, so his back was against the wall, “is this better?” He asked. I bit my bottom lip as I nodded my head. Niall kissed me over and over again until he stuck his tongue in my mouth. We made-out as I grinded against him, “fuck baby,” he swore into my mouth.

“Niall please be in control,” I begged. Niall pulled back, “you really can’t be on top can you?” he questioned. I shake my head before Niall laid me down on the bed. He started kissing all over my body as his fingers played between my legs. I started moaning as he put two fingers inside me. He curled them inside of me to hit my g-spot. He did it a couple more times before he pulled his fingers out of me. He leaned over me to grab a condom out of the box. Before he moved back I took the opportunity to suck on his nipple, “fuck baby,” he groaned. He didn't move so I kept going, “I can see why you like it,” he added. He moved so his face was inches away from my face, “why can you do shit like that, but not be on top of me?” He wondered. He kissed me as he pressed his body against mine. He grinded his lower half against my lower half, “please be on top,” he begged. He started sucking on my neck, “I want you on top. I want to see you moving up and down on me,” he continued. He sucked on my earlobe, “you got nothing to hide from me. I want you,” he finished. He stopped grinding against me, “ok,” I whispered.

“Ok?” he questioned. I nodded my head as he sat up. I will admit that Niall begging me to be on top gave me the confidence. I slowly sat up, “I'll help,” he promised. Niall gave the condom and I ripped it opened. He watched me as I put it on his member. I straddled his thighs before Niall grabbed my waist. He ran his hands up and down my sides, “we will go at your pace,” he tells me. He lifted me up a little and moved me closer to him. I positioned his member at my entrance. Niall slowly moved me down onto him, “fuck it feels so good to be in you baby,” he moaned. He placed my hands on his shoulders before grabbing my hips. I started moving up and down on him at a slow pace, “like that baby,” he whispered.

“Is it alright?” I wondered. Niall nodded his head before kissing my neck, “don't question yourself. Just do whatever you want,” he tells me. I got a little bit faster as Niall's hands moved from my hips to my boobs. He squeezed them, “they fit perfectly in my hands,” he mumbled. I moaned as he sucked on one of my nipples, “fuck Niall,” I swore. Niall smiled around my nipple, “that's what we're doing baby,” he says. I pulled on the back of his hair, so he look at me, “don't be a smart arse,” I tell him. I kissed him deeply, “you like my arse,” he smirked against my lips. He moved his arms under my arms as he placed his hands on my shoulders. He pulled me down onto him as he thrusted up into me. I moaned loudly into his mouth. He did it again, “you like it deep and hard?” he groaned. Niall dirty talk was just turning me on more than I already was. Niall took my bottom lip into his mouth and suck on it. I felt that I was already close, “you’re going to cum for me soon baby and I'm not even half way there,” he tells me. I kept moving up and down on him faster and my walls clenched around him. I came, but Niall kept moving in and out of me fast and deep.

He stopped for a minute, so I could catch my breath. He started moving in and out of me again until I took over. He laid back and I placed my hands on his chest to steady myself. He kept looking me up and down again, “Niall,” I warned him. Niall grabbed my hands, “baby you look amazing,” he reassured me. Niall pushed one of my hands down his body and I squeezed his other hand. He placed my hand on the bottom of his member, “watching you bounce on my dick makes me wanna cum,” he added. I felt Niall's member move in and out of me with my hand. Niall moved my hand away from his member to his mouth. He sucked on my fingers, “you taste so good baby,” he moaned.

“Niall,” I whispered. I felt embarrassed, but turned on at the same time by his words and actions. Niall grabbed my hip with his hand as he still held my other hand. I felt close again, “I'm nearly their baby,” he moaned. He pulled me down to him before he wrapped his arms around my back. He started thrusting in and out of me hard and fast. I bit his shoulder trying not to make myself cum yet, “fuck baby,” he groaned. I looked at him and he knew I was close again. He kissed me before thrusting really hard into me. We both came and my orgasm was stronger than before.

I laid on top of Niall for a bit as I hid my face into his shoulder. He kissed my head, “you alright?” He wondered. I moved my head to the side, so I would look at him, “yeah,” I whispered. He kissed me lightly, “just don't want to move,” I added. Niall smiled before he kissed me again, “baby I'm still inside of you, so if we don't move soon. I'm going to get hard again,” he tells me. I sat up and Niall followed me, “fuck,” I moaned. My lower half was so sensitive right now and I think I could cum again from small movements. Niall lifted me up slowly off of him to place me on his thighs and I moaned again. He smirked at me, “I think I could make you come again with my fingers right now,” he says. He ran his hand down the front of my stomach before he moved them between my legs. He started rubbing my clit, “Niall please don't. I don't know if I could take anymore, “I begged.

“Only one way to find out,” he tells me. He kept rubbing between my legs as I placed my hands on his shoulders, “fuck you’re so wet,” he whispered. I buckled my hips into his hand, “fuck Niall why am I so close again?” I moaned. Niall kissed my neck, “I'm that good baby at knowing what you want,” he tells me. I hid my face into Niall neck as he kept going. I felt myself nearly about to come, “cum on my fingers baby,” he whispered in my ear. I felt Niall's other hand go around my back before he put two fingers into me. I came really hard onto his fingers that I scratched his back. Niall wrapped his arms around me to keep him close to me, “I'm really sleepy now and I really don’t want to move,” I mumbled. Niall moved one of his hand to his member before pulling off the condom. He threw it onto my bedroom floor, “I clean that up later,” he tells me. I looked at him, “you better,” I say. Niall laid down, so his head was in the corner of my bed as he kept me on top of him. He pulled the blanket over us, “go to sleep baby,” he cooed. I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

I woke-up a couple hours later and I was still on top of Niall. I looked at him and he was still asleep, so I looked at the scars on his chest. I know I keep looking at them, but they were a mystery to me. I pulled my eyes away from his scars to check the time and it was five in the afternoon. When I looked back at Niall he had his eyes half open, “afternoon,” I smiled. He smiled back as he kissed me, “afternoon,” he says. He moved my hair out of my face, “I think we should have a shower and get Christmas really started,” he tells me. He ran his fingers down my neck as I nodded my head. He kissed me before I got up out of bed. As I was about to grab my dressing gown Niall stopped me, “if I got to walk naked to the bathroom, so do you,” he smirked. He wrapped arms around me from behind, “who said we having a shower together?” I wondered.

“I didn't say anything about having a shower together,” he pointed out. I turned around to face him, “fine you shower in Liam’s and Sophia’s,” I tell him. Niall shakes his head as I nodded my head, “it be alright. I won't do anything sexual,” he promised. I slowly nodded my head as I gave him the ‘really’ look, “yes really. I don't want you tired. I'm really looking forward to your Christmas dinner,” he tells me.

Niall and I got into the shower together and as I was washing out the shampoo out of my hair, “do you remember the first time we had a shower together?” He wondered. I continued to get the rest of the shampoo out of my hair, “yeah. It was the Christmas when I was fifteen,” I started. It was the first Christmas after my mum and sister left. I was having a hard time dealing with it and Niall knows I forget all my troubles in the shower or bath. He held me the whole time we in the shower as I cried, “sorry for bringing it up. I know you’re thinking about why we did it,” he apologized. He hugged me, “it's alright,” I whispered. Niall kissed the side of my head and I remembered that he also kept kissing me lightly when we first had a shower together.

We got out of the shower not long after that. I was looking myself in the mirror, “you know I'm going to have to cover up my hickeys when the guys call,” I tell him. Niall came up behind me before he kissed my marks, “but I did a good job. I want people to see my work,” he pouted. I turned around, “well you can show mine off,” I smirked. I ran my fingers over his marks that I gave him, “but there not as good as mine,” he teased. I attached my lips to his neck before I started sucking on the skin. Niall dug his fingertips into my hips, “princess you’re going to make me hard in a minute,” he groaned. I pulled back, “you would like that,” I smiled. I gave him a quick kiss to the lips, “but I'm really hungry and still have cooking to do,” I tell him.

Niall went to Louis room to get dressed in some of his clothes. When I was in my room getting dressed I was thinking about Niall and me. We acting like we’re together. He keeps kissing me and not expecting sex. I was actually enjoying myself, but I was worried that it was all going to end when Christmas was over. I know I shouldn't feel like this since I have Max. I know I shouldn't be doing this with Niall, but I don’t want to stop.

I grabbed out matching see through black knickers and bra set. They had little pink and black flowers over them. I put them on before I went over to my wardrobe and grabbed out a black poker dot dress. It felt I was dressing up, but I was really just grabbing clothes. I brushed and put my hair up in a ponytail. I grabbed my only turtleneck jumper out and it was black, so it went with my dress.

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When I went into the kitchen Niall was already there getting the food out of the fridge. He was wearing a pair of Louis’s grey track pants and a blue sleeved baseball shirt. I put my turtleneck jumper over the back of the lounge as I put my laptop on the dining room table. When I went into the kitchen Niall looked me up and down, “if I knew you were going to wear a dress. I would pick something better out of Louis wardrobe,” he says. I laughed a little bit, “it alright. I put it on since it was easy,” I tell him. Niall laughed a little bit, “it’s only easy if you’re wearing nothing underneath it,” he smirked. I playfully hit him in the arm, “for your disappointment. I’m wearing undies,” I tell him.

“I could easily get rid of them,” he says as he came over to me. He grabbed my hips, “I wouldn’t if you want to eat,” I warned him. He kissed me lightly, “I could eat something else,” he flirted. I pushed him back, “more like you want me to eat you,” I say. Niall shakes his head and I was surprised, “I just want to pleasure you,” he tells me. He comes back over to me, “not all boys are like him,” Niall says. He kissed me lightly, “but let’s start cooking,” he smiled.

As we started cooking the others called me, so I quickly put my turtleneck jumper on. I sat at the dining table and Niall sat next to me, “Soph messaged me to come over and check on you about lunchtime,” he informs me. I raised an eyebrow at him before I answered the skype call. My screen was split up in to quarters with Sophia and Liam in one, Perrie and Zayn by themselves and Harry and Louis in another. They all noticed Niall with me, “hey,” we all say. I think we were all looking at Harry and Louis together, “what are you doing at Louis?” Liam asked him.

“We got invited around. Mum and Gem here too,” Harry tells us. I noticed Perrie looking at Niall, “so Niall what are you doing there?” Perrie questioned. Niall smiled, “just checking up on Buttercup,” he replied. They all smiled, “and saving her from Brenton,” he added. They were all confused, “he came around with a bottle of wine and wanted me to drink with him. Then Niall turned up and he ran away,” I explained, but leaving details out. They all nodded their heads, “so what you been doing since you guys been home?” I asked to change the subject.

They all told us what they been doing since they were home. It was mainly hanging out with family and eating. Zayn noticed Niall’s hickey that I gave him in the bathroom, “were did you get that hickey from?” Zayn smirked. Niall put his hand over his mark, “just a goodtime mate,” Niall says. Zayn nodded his head, “how much of a goodtime?” he questioned. Niall grabbed my hand under the table, “fantastic time,” Niall smiled. I noticed Niall was getting uncomfortable, “how many times did you do it?” Harry wondered. Niall put up two fingers with his other hand as he squeezed my hand, “would you do her again?” Louis asked. Niall nodded his head, “if she let me,” he says. I knew that answer was at me, “oh Claire Bear I saw Max the other day. He was hanging out with his mates. He also asked me how you settled in,” Perrie tells me. I nodded my head slowly, “I just told him that you settled in and you’re happy with the place,” she added. Niall squeezed my hand again as someone called Perrie, “I have to go,” Perrie tells us. She said goodbye to us and left the conversation, “Zayn I heard you and Perrie hung out the other day?” Sophia questioned.

“Yeah and so,” he says. We all smiled at him, “why?” I asked. Zayn hung up on us, “I think he actually likes her now,” Sophia smiled. I nodded my head, “I’m confused,” Niall says. Louis and Harry agreed with him, “Perrie likes Zayn and have hooked up a couple of times,” Sophia explained. They all nodded their heads, “how far have they gotten?” Niall questioned. I looked at him, “Perrie sucked him off. Unless they did something while they been back at home,” I tell him. Niall smirked at me, “anyway. Soph and I need to go,” Liam tells us. We nodded at them, “so do Harry and I,” Louis tells us. We nodded again before we said goodbye and hung up, “that was interesting,” Niall says.

“Yep,” I smiled. I took my turtleneck jumper off, “and now the dress,” Niall smiled. I shake my head before I put my jumper over his face. I went back into the kitchen to check on the food. Niall cornered me in the kitchen and put his hands on my hips. I grabbed the sides of his tops to pull him closer to me. I kissed him, “what was that for?” he wondered. I smiled as I shrugged my shoulders, “I meant to be in control,” he tells me. He kissed me, “that not what you said in bed this morning,” I smirked. Niall kissed me again, “begging for me to be on top,” I say against his lips. Niall bit my bottom lip gently, “you need to stop teasing me or dinner going to be ruined,” he tells me. He walked away from me to the other side kitchen. I continued to cook dinner, “can I ask something?” I wondered.

“Yes. If you want to,” he tells me. I was confused, “and what are you saying yes at?” I questioned. Niall picked up a tea towel, “for me to fuck you again,” he smirked. I shake my head, “not what I was going to ask. I was going to ask,” I started. I bit my bottom lip, “um forget it,” I tell him. Niall laughed a little bit, “come on. What were you going to ask me?” he pushed. I felt embarrassed, so Niall came back over to me. He put his hands on my waist, “um why do you say and do those things when we’re having sex?” I mumbled. Niall kissed my forehead, “what things?” he teased. I tried to push him away, but he just pulled me closer to him, “let me guess. When I moved your hand down to feel us and when I sucked on your fingers after?” he questioned. I nodded my head when I looked down as I felt my cheeks burn. Niall lifted my face up gently by my chin, “didn’t you like it?” he wondered.

“Um,” I started. I bit my bottom lip, “I did like it. It was just different for me. That’s all,” I confessed. Niall kissed me, “I keep forget your new at this. I’ll go easier next time,” he tells me. I felt happy that there was going to be a next time. I shake my head, “strangely I like it,” I say. Niall kissed me again, “Kinky, but I’m not into fifty grey kinda shit. The kinkiest shit I want to do is tying someone up,” he tells me. I smiled at him, “I always had a fantasy that I was tied up. I found it so hot that someone can do whatever they want with me and I can’t touch them back,” I admitted. Niall ran his thumb over my bottom lip, “just tell me when,” he says. He kissed me quickly before he walked away from me. I looked at him, “I thought you would have more kinks like public or spanking,” I say.

“Public sex is not a kink anymore. Too many people do it. Are you into spanking baby?” he asked. Why does every time he calls me baby I feel all hot? I played with the side of my dress, “I don’t know,” I replied. Niall smirked, “I think we need a kinky night,” he says. A kinky night? I was still confused if he wanted to continue this or not, but it feels like he does. I turned around to finish what I was doing.

About an hour later with Niall help dinner was ready. We ate at the dining table, “thanks for dinner Buttercup,” he smiled before kissing my cheek. I smiled back at him, “actually thank you for coming around,” I tell him. Niall looked down, “it’s alright,” he whispered. We started eating, “um the guys don’t come back for about five days. Um do you want me to stay until then?” he wondered. It sounded like he was worried, “um if you want,” I tell him. Niall played with the food on his plate, “it’s completely up to you Buttercup,” he tells me. I nodded my head, “it be nice if you stayed,” I say. Niall kissed my cheek, “I’ll go back to the frat house tomorrow and get some clothes,” he smiled.

When we finished eating Niall remember that he got me something for Christmas. As I was cleaning up the table he came up behind me, “leave them,” he whispered in my ear. He kissed just under my ear, “they will be there tomorrow,” he added. I nodded my head before he walked me over to the lounge. When he tried to make me sit down I shook my head, “I got something for you too,” I tell him. I quickly went under the Christmas tree to grab his present. I sat down next to him on the lounge, “I want a kiss before I hand yours over,” Niall tells me. I kissed him, “I want a kiss off of you now,” I smiled. Niall kissed my nose then my lips. We hand over each other presents, “um you go first,” I say. Niall open the present gave him. It was a silver bracelet, “I know you don’t wear,” I started. Niall kissed me, “I love it,” he interrupted. I smiled as I opened my present from Niall. It was a silver necklace with a square tag. I read the tag and it said ‘Follow your dreams. Trust your heart’ with a little heart at the end. I noticed that it was Niall handwriting, “this is amazing Ni,” I tell him.

“It’s nothing,” he whispered. I kissed him, “I love it,” I smiled. Niall pulled me next to him and I put my legs over the tops of his as he wrapped his arm around my back. I leaned my head into his shoulder, “Christmas is nearly over. It’s about eleven,” Niall says. I nodded my head, “anything you want to do before Christmas ends?” he asked. I shake my head, “you?” I asked back. Niall played with my back, “a make-out session,” he smirked.

“Really just a make out session?” I wondered. Niall nodded his head, “why do you want more?” he questioned. I straddled his lap, “no. I’m just wondering why your settling for a make-out session,” I replied. I placed his face between my hands before I kissed him. He ran his hands up my back before running his hands back down to my ass. He pulled the bottom of my dress half way up my back. I stuck my tongue into his mouth, but Niall took over control. I started grinding against Niall, “fuck baby,” he groaned into my mouth. He pushed me down into the lounge and I break the kiss, “I want more than making-out now,” he admitted. I laughed a little bit as he smiled, “I thought you might,” I say. I pushed him off of me and started running. Niall caught up to me and trapped me against the wall. I put my hands on his waist as he kissed me, “please tell me you want more too,” he begged. I kissed him, “I do,” I whispered against his lips. Niall picked me up bridal style, “fuck you’re not going to walk tomorrow,” he smirked. He carried me to my room and threw me onto the bed.

After Niall and I finished we laid next to each other on my bed. Only our arms were touching, “I’m sore,” I whined. Niall laughed, “you’ll get used to it,” he tells me. He rolled onto his side to face me, “Niall I have came five times in twenty four hours,” I say. Niall leaned over a kissed me, “I could give you another one,” he says. I pushed him, “I just want cuddles and go to sleep,” I pouted. Niall kissed me again, “I’ll be back. Get into bed,” he tells me.

When Niall came back I was already under the covers. He laid down on his back next to me before he pulled me closer to him. I rested my head on his chest, “baby I’m only guy that has seen you naked? And Louis don’t count,” he asked. I shake my head, “Max seen me naked,” I mumbled. Niall ran his fingers up and down my back, “then why hasn’t he done anything for you?” he questioned. I stayed silent, “Buttercup?” he wondered. I shake my head, “I don’t know,” I lied. Niall kissed the top of my head, “leave him,” he says.

“Niall drop it,” I whispered. Niall made me look at him, “if you’re un happy with him. Then leave him,” he tells me. I shake my head as I thought up a lie, “I can’t just yet. He has problems,” I say. Niall was confused, “his suicidal,” I lied. Niall was surprised, “is that why it’s all about him?” he wondered. I nodded my head, “that’s why I can’t leave him,” I whispered. Niall hugged me tight, “what if he finds out about us?” he wondered. I shrugged my shoulders, “if you want to continue this. I keep my mouth shut about this. I can’t have him kill himself. You will blame yourself for the rest of your life,” Niall promised me. I looked down again, “thank you,” I mumbled. I felt bad that I just lied to Niall when his the one person I should be able to talk to. I fell asleep with my troubled thoughts which caused me to wake up a couple of times.

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