Jana’s POV
I heard Tori’s laugh coming down the stairs, echoing in the room. I look over my shoulder to see Niall carrying her on his shoulder as he walked down the stairs. ‘’I can’t believe you found me!’’ she squeals out.

‘’Daddy’s good at this game.’’ Niall replies as Tori’s hands take a hold of his jaw. I look back at my phone, not wanting to see Niall’s face at all. I had no idea what on Earth or what in Hell was wrong with him.

He was being a bitch. And I don’t like it. Not one little bit.

Before I knew it, Niall was sitting on the other couch. Lucky for me, he was sitting directly across from me. If I even glanced up I’d have to see his face. And at the moment, I wasn’t pleased by anything I saw.

‘’Alright, babe. Go watch some TV upstairs. Daddy’s tired.’’ Niall laughs lightly as Tori sighs in annoyance. ‘’You’re so old, Daddy!’’ She laughs. ‘’Hey! I’m not old!’’ He laughs back but she ignored him as she ran back to the staircase.

The silence was like a sudden stab to the heart. It hurt me, a lot. The tension was high, too high. It was so quiet.. I could hear Niall’s heartbeat, that’s how quiet it was. And just to think.. its quiet because we’re both too damn suborn to speak up and say anything to the other.

I for damn sure wasn’t saying anything first. This is his problem, he caused it and he needs to fix it.

I glance up from my messages at the wrong time. All I could see was Niall’s gaze on me. I looked away, back to my screen. But through my eyelashes, I could still see that he was staring at me, and he wasn’t going to look away.

So, despite my wanting to know what the hell was going on, I ignored him and continuedmy conversation with Selena. She just replied to something I had asked, so I kept it going for a little longer.

It wasn’t a minute later, probably not even that, that a message popped up. My eyes widen as I saw who it was from. I furrow my eyebrows a little as I opened it. And no, its not who you’re thinking. It wasn’t Michael. It was my mother. It was some one way more important to me than either of them..

I felt a wave of relief wash over me quickly, just a small wave though.

Niall: Hey princess. Tori said you were crying earlier. What’s wrong?

I gulp a little, glancing up to see him staring at me, his phone clutched in his hand. He was waiting for my reply. He knew I read it. He was waiting. And he wasn’t going to give up. So in return, I man up and type my reply..

Me: Yes. I was. And I don’t even know.

Niall: Well why were you crying? Baby, there's a reason.. just tell me. Please.

Me: Because.. of you.

A few seconds passed. He should have replied by now. I look up at him to see he had his eyes closed. From here I could see him clench his jaws. He done that face when he was mad at himself.

Whether he said something mean to me, or he got to loud. And at times, he would make the kids upset, he’d pull that face. His lips in a frown as he silently, mentally punished himself. And at the moment, I was convinced that he knew what I was talking about.. and..

Perhaps he will tell me what’s going on, because it scares me. Before I thought it through, I sent another message. Shocking myself.

Me: Talk to me. I don’t care what you say, or how you say it. I need to hear your voice. Please Ni.. Please.

I lock my phone and sit it down beside me on the couch. I sit up straight, my hands on my stomach as I stare across at him. A minute or two passed before he sat his phone down. He moved closer to the edge of the couch and put his elbows on his knees.

He looked up at me, releasing a long and loud sigh. ‘’Baby.. I didn’t mean to make you cry.’’ He said as he kept his gaze on me. I gulp lightly as I might my bottom lip. I was nervous, completely afraid.

I was only nervous and afraid of what the reason will be. What the aftermath will be. And mainly… I was just nervous.

‘’I was so fucking stupid.. I’m sorry.. I.. I just.. I can’t.. keep calm.. when.. when you.. when you’re..’’ He stops himself, dropping his head, shaking it lightly from side to side.

At this moment, I was completely afraid of the truth.. but overall.. I was just happy to hear his beautiful voice.

Notes

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