Portugal

Stephanie's POV
I look to Harry as we sit silently on the edge of the bed. I've been stupid, I know I have. But I don't know what's going on with me at the moment, I feel so vulnerable and lonely, even though I'm surrounded by people every damn day. I can't end our holiday like this, we've only got two more days; I want to end it with a bang.

"I'll make us a coffee" Harry says as he breaks the silence and stands up. I quickly reach out for his hand and ask him to sit back down, he does as I ask and looks down at the floor whilst I still have his hand in mine.

"I'm so sorry, for the way I behaved." I start as I gently squeeze his hand, he looks at me with a blank face. I know I have to try a little harder. "I know I over reacted, I should have dealt with it better." I add and he slowly nods as he parts his lips and wets them with his tongue.

"You know I didn't mean it though?" He asks and I nod, "So if we are ever in a situation like that again, can we sort it out like adults and not just jump the gun and create some sort of scene." He adds in a heavy sigh. I smile as I know there's no need for me to speak, I admire the way Harry has changed over the years, he's fallen into someone I could love for the rest of my life. So why would I want to push him away and prevent that from happening? I'm tired off feeling like a switch, I don't want to be hot and then cold, I want to be myself again. I can't remember the last time I felt like the old me, when Harry and I first started dating, I loved how happy I felt. Even the bad times couldn't break us completely, we had our hiccups and we got through them. So I don't know why it would be any different now.

"No more petty arguments, if we're going to be a family, then we need to start acting like one." I say confidently and Harry nods. I can tell he's still a little wary, but I feel okay about that. I just want him to be happy and for me to be the one to provide as much happiness as I possibly can.

"That sounds good to me." Harry smiles as he leans towards me and kisses my cheek, I smile gratefully but we are soon disturbed by a knock on our door. Harry sits up straight as we call for who ever is knocking to come in. In walks Zayn and he looks pretty worried,

"Have you seen Chloe? She went out with Liam, Lucy and Louis but she was only going for a drink, she's been hours." Zayn asks and I look to Harry as he explains we have been sat in here talking. It's not like Chloe to stay out longer than she had suggested because she knows people worry. Especially Zayn.

"Have you tired her phone?" I ask and he nods.

"Yeah, I rang all four of them but not one of them answered." Zayn sighs as he runs a hand through his hair, I hate to see the look of worry on his face. Before any of us could say anymore we suddenly hear voices. Harry and I both stand up and follow Zayn out of the room to meet Liam and Lucy. "Where's the others?" He asks and Liam looks at him whilst in a mid yawn.

"They are having a couple of drinks" Liam says and Zayn quickly grabs his jacket and heads off out of the door, I look to Harry and he nods as if he knows what I'm thinking, he follows him out.

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Present.

"Amelia, your Dad will be here any minute." I call as I gather all of her things together. I look to Chloe as she holds her cup of tea in her hand whilst biting her bottom lip. She doesn't need to speak, I know what she's thinking. The doubts in her mind of Harry not turning up is not only in her head, but mine too.

"Have you heard from him?" Chloe asks and I shake my head. Why would I? He doesn't care right now, he doesn't worry about how much I'm worrying whether or not he'll show his face. Until I think realistically, he wouldn't leave Amelia. That's the one thing in his life that he's passionate about, his daughter. Our daughter.

"I don't want to go home." Amelia says as she walks towards me. I crouch down infront of her and kiss her forehead, I don't want her to leave either, but right now, Amelia can help Harry stay calm and level headed. Or so I hope.

"I'll get it." Chloe says as she heads to the door. I stand up straight and place my hand on Amelia's hair as I gently stroke it. I try to ignore the butterflies in my stomach but I'm so anxious about seeing Harry again. But when Louis walks in, not Harry,my heart sinks as I realise he didn't want to come.

"Hey Steph." Louis says calmly and then smiles down to Amelia who is looking far more pleased to see Louis than myself. She runs towards him and he picks her up.

"Hi Louis. Where's Harry?" I ask and he kisses Amelia's cheek before looking back at me.

"He's at work, I said I'd have Amelia for a couple of hours." Louis answers and I suddenly feel irritated by Harry arranging this without confirming with me. It's almost as if I have to be cautious that Harry will punish my actions through Amelia, part of me holds on to the goodness in Harry that knows he wouldn't do a thing like that. But the fear inside of me fears the worst.

"I could have had her longer.." I suggest and Louis nods. I know it's not fair to try and load louis with my thoughts and my point of view on this, he's just here to do his mate a favour. What can I o?

"I know, but Harry isn't exactly easy to get around at the moment." Louis says, "I'm sorry." He adds and I nod as I hand him Amelia's bag. He puts her back down and this time I pick her up and I carry her outside, I don't want to let her go. If only I could have another night with my daughter. If only I hadn't messed up.

"Be good Amelia,I love you." I say as I kiss her once more. She smiles up at me with such happiness in her eyes as she throws her arms around my neck. I admire how easy and beautiful life is to someone so small. There is no care, no worry about what's going on in the world.

"I love you Mummy" Amelia giggles and I watch as Louis takes her. I quickly blow her a kiss and turn around heading back inside as quickly as possible.

"I've got to head to work, so I'll see you later Okay?" Chloe says as she smiles sympathetically and heads past me. I nod and say goodbye as I make my way to my bedroom.

The room feels so empty without Amelia, it's too quiet. I let myself fall back on to the bed as I close my eyes, I wish I had been honest and I hate myself for not being the person that I should be. Everyone will be so disappointed in me, including my family. Maybe it's time to come clean, to let everyone know exactly what happened to me after having Amelia.
I take my phone and I dial my parent's house phone. Shortly after a few rings my Mum answers,

"Mum, it's me. Can I come and stay with you?" I start and I can already feel the tears welling up.

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Harry's POV

"Are you sure you can't do a reunion?" Mark asks as he sits next to me, I look to him and shake my head. We've been over this a thousand times, he wants me to get the guys together again. But time is too far gone, we've all got different things happening in our lives and that part of my past holds too many memories, good ones surprisingly.

"I don't even see everyone anymore." I answer and Mark sighs. Soon enough he'll realise I'm not budging on this. I continue to flick through the change of contracts and make sure they are correct, but I'm soon interrupted as Louis walks in with Amelia.

"Daddy!" Amelia giggles as she puts her arms up to me. I smile as I give her a kiss and sit her up on my lap. Louis sits on the desk and Mark heads out to get us some drinks.

"Steph didn't look good." Louis starts as I glance at him and shrug. There's no words for me, I really can't think about her right now. I look back to Amelia as she glances up at me with a serious expression.

"I think Mummy is poorly. She was crying alot." Amelia says as she looks away from me and discovers the paper work on my desk. I watch her as she flicks through one of the files.

"You need to face this Harry, she knows she has done wrong. Be the bigger person." Louis sighs and I shake my head. "Come on this Stephanie. The girl you used to be mad about Harry-"

"The girl I used to be mad about doesn't exist anymore! That Stephanie is long gone." I cut him short. I look down to Amelia as Mark brings in some sweets and squash. She looks excited as she jumps off my lap and heads towards him.

"She's still there, you're just telling yourself that to make it easier. But everything will catch up to you. Emotions will be too high and you could end up being too late." Louis sighs and I shake my head. I know he's speaking some truth but right now I don't care, I don't need to hear some words that could work in her favour. Am I not allowed to just hate her silently?

"I know what I'm doing." I snap and Louis nods as he jumps up and looks over to Amelia.

"Right, shall we head to the park?" Louis asks and Amelia immediately heads towards him. I look at them as they say goodbye. I give Amelia a quick kiss and wave goodbye as she leaves with Louis.

I sigh as I rub my forehead, I hate it when Louis tries to help Steph. I understand why he does it but it's no good for me. Because I know he's right, does that mean I should do it? Prehaps I should go to her's tonight once Amelia is in bed, I'm sure Louis can watch her. I guess Steph and I have alot more talking to do. But then am I giving in? I don't want to give her the wrong impressions, I don't want her to think I'm stil the guy who she can get around when she wants. All I owe her is a chance to give a better explanation, if she can even do that.

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Portugal.

I scan the club and finally my eyes land on Chloe and Louis, he's got is arm around her as they make their way through the crowd. Zayn quickly sees them and rushes towards them, this doesn't look good. I make my way towards them as I shove my hands in my pockets, I can see Chloe is completely out of it. I can smell it too.

"Get the fuck off her!" Zayn shouts as he plunges towards Louis. He quickly looks up and Chloe rubs her head, they both look a little startled. Zayn shouldn't have just jumped in like this, now he's causing a scene and I have a bad feeling this isn't going to end well.

"Chill out mate, I'm doing you a favour." Louis snaps as he regains his balance.

"Yeah? And I'll be doing you a favour if you don't back away, now!" Zayn snaps as he pushes Louis again. I suddenly see the look of annoyance on Louis' face as he quickly pushes Zayn back. The is exactly what I didn't want to happen.

"You're insane! I was helping your girlfriend you idiot!" Louis shouts and Zayn doesn't even think before hitting Louis straight in the face. I quickly jump in as Louis fights back, this is not what I was here to do.

"Zayn stop!" Chloe shouts as she tumbles towards him. I manage to grab Louis and pull him away before Chloe gets caught up in the scrap. Zayn stands up straight.

"Don't ever think you can make a fool out of me!" Zayn shouts, suddenly three guys surround us as two of them grab Zayn. I sigh as I hold on to Louis who is shouting at Zayn.

"Leave it!" I shout to Louis as I pull him away as Zayn is now being escorted out of the club. Chloe follows as we go slowly head outside. I look to Louis who's frowning as he starts to defend himself.

"I wasn't doing anything wrong, he's a psycho mate!" Louis screeches as he seems far too pumped up by their scrap. How much has he drank?

"I knows Louis, but Zayn has been worried about both of you. It didn't look great, think about he must have felt." I answer as we begin to walk in the fresh air. I check on Chloe as she toddles besides me.

"I was helping her away from this guy, I was trying to lead her off the dance floor to bring her home." Louis snaps and I don't bother saying anything. I know Louis wouldn't do that, he actually developed a pretty good friendship with Zayn.

"Just get back to the villa, both of you. I need find Zayn." I say before I dart off out to catch up with him, I try calling out his name as I have no idea where he has gone. But I do know this is going to be tough, I don't know how I'm supposed to calm him down and to help him understand. This is going to be hard to resolve, really hard.

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Present.

I pull up outside their flat and I wait a couple of seconds before stepping out of my car. I'm starting to doubt if this was a good idea. What if she doesn't want to see me? She may realise that she's completely screwed it up and we can't be around each other. It's insane. It's stupid, selfish and completely out of order. But she's Steph, I can't accept this from her.

I stop as I lock my car as I'm met with Zayn and Chloe as they close the door behind them. The look of shock on their faces also make me feel as if I could be making a mistake by being here.

"Harry.." Chloe says as Zayn leans forward and shakes my hand to greet me. "How come you're here?" She asks as she folds her arms. I sigh as I explain that I should talk to Stephanie. Chloe's arms fall to her sides as she sighs and glances to Zayn before looking at me. "She's gone."

"Gone? What do you mean? Where?" I ask as I frown, Zayn puts his arm around Chloe's shoulder as she tells me Stephanie has gone to stay with her parents. I can't understand the frustration I'm feeling, maybe I did want to see her more than I let on. How could she just go? What about Amelia?

"I don't know how long for, I'm sorry." Chloe says and I nod as I know what I have to do. I excuse myself from their with a sharp goodbye before getting back in my car. I take my phone and dial Louis' number.

"She's just gone to bed mate, as you wished." Louis says proudly without even saying hello.

"Yeah about that, could you please pack a few of Amelia's things please? I'm going to Manchester." I just hope I'm doing the right thing.

Notes

Oh no, Harry going to Manchester, surely that's not such a wise idea? ;)
its going to be tough with Steph having to tell he truth to her family, do you think Harry turning up wil make it worse?
Should they be having their own space? Everything is completely up in the air!

Please se's let me know what you think and thank you to everyone who commented on the last chapter. I appreciate your feedback :)

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