Harry's POV

I park up and quickly jump out of my seat, so many words are questioning me as I let them spin uncontrollably around in my head. I can't function properly because of Stephanie fucking May. I've never felt so angry, so betrayed, she is or should I say was, the one person I never expected this from.
Grabbing a large whisky from the shelf I take a large bottle of vodka too. Tonight needs to be a blur, I need to completely numb my head. I shuffle my way to the till point and slide my card into the machine, I've never felt so impatient to tap in my pin number.

"Have a nice evening" The young girl says as she hands me my receipt. I look at her as if she should be a mind reader and realise that tonight was far from her request.

"You too." I mumble as I take my bottles and head for my car. As I step outside I see some teenage boys skating closely towards my car, one looks far too close for my liking. "Oi, back away." I shout as I unlock my car and shove the bottle on to the passenger seats.

"Chill out man, I was miles off your precious car" The guy says as he skates past me, I look up as I close the door and see him coming towards me. His words infuriate me.

"You want me to chill out?" I snap as I grab him by his collar pulling him off of his skateboard. His mates suddenly stop and surround me. "Who the fuck do you think you are to tell me to chill out?" I say through gritted teeth, I don't care about his nervous look, or the way he's got his hands up in defence, I just want to feel some pain.

"Let go of him you freak." A guy shouts as he barges towards us and pushes me back. I stumble as I let go of his mate. Quickly I head back to them and I pin the other guy up against a car.

"What is it with you kids thinking you have the right to do whatever you please?" I snap as I tighten my arm across his throat. He looks at me with a glare to prove he's not scared, unlike his mate. "That's the problem, people like you think they can do whatever without caring about the affect it has, you're selfish and damn right fucking rude." I add and the guy smirks as he still keeps his eyes on me.

"Harry?" I hear but I dare to move my eyes off this kid. "Harry stop! Get out of here." Jed says as he moves me back and releases the guy from my grip.

"You're a prick mate, next time I'll fuck you up" I glare at the guy as he opens his arms out at me whilst walking away. I go to dive towards him but Jed pulls me back and steps in front of me.

"Just leave!" Jed shouts to him and eventually they walk away. He turns back to me as he slowly let's go of me. "What's going on?" He asks as he looks at me completely shocked.

"They were near my car." I mumble as I open my car door and look at him. "I have to go." I add quickly but Jed grabs me.

"Harry, you wouldn't react like that to a few kids being close to your car.." Jed sighs as he looks at me unconvinced.

"Well you obviously don't know me." I shrug as I brush him off of me and I sit down starting the engine. Jed holds the door open and looks down at me as if he's trying to read my mind. "Ask your sister.." I snap as I forcefully slam the door shut from his grip. I don't bother looking at him as I quickly reverse out of my space, I know I need to get out of here.

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Stephanie's POV

I can't process tonight, I can't believe how careless and stupid I have been. It wasn't a good idea to tell Harry, but it was also a stupid idea in the first place with keeping it a secret. I know I'm in the wrong but this time it's not going to be easy, unless he allows me to explain a little further. But I highly doubt that, I don't even deserve his time.
Oh I wish he could step into my head, to see how scared and confused I was at the time. I lived in denial and tried to be brave, but I made the wrong decisions and just screwed up everything good that I had going for me. If only I knew it would turn out this way, there has to be a way to get Harry to listen to me. I could see the way he was looking at me tonight and my heart just melted at him, I felt so alive in such a short space of time. But like I do best, I chose the completely wrong time to try and tell Harry something that is incredibly massive. Although thinking that, I'm not sure when the good time would have been, perhaps at the beginning? If only I did.

My phone lights up and I'm surprised to see Jed's name as the caller ID. My heart sinks as I wish for it to be Harry's name; I answer the call.

"Steph?" Jed says quickly, "Steph it's about Harry." He continues and I slowly stand up as I suddenly feel sick. No conversation should ever start so rapid and intense.

"Where is Harry?" I ask as I start to walk around the kitchen. I let my arm hug my stomach as I wait for his to speak.

"I've just seen him nearly getting himself in a fight with some kids. He's angry and before I could persuade him to stay he drove off." Jed sighs and I start to rub my forehead frustratedly. I thought that Harry was long gone, the thought of him fighting again terrifies me. So many questions flood my head as I start to blame myself, I've turned Harry into that boy I met years ago. What have I done?

"What was he doing and where was this?" I ask as I lean back on the kitchen counter. I close my eyes as I try to control my heart as it pulses at an immense speed.

"He was in town, buying drinks I think, I could see a couple of bottles on his seat." Jed's words send me in to complete panic. If he's drinking and driving, he could possibly end up killing himself. My stomach begins to churn.

"I'll call Louis, perhaps he can find him." I say as I fight through the lump in my throat.

"Okay, if I see him l will let you know." Jed says and I thank him before hanging up. I find Louis number in my phone but my hand keeps shaking, I try my hardest to calm down so I can actually hold my phone to my ear. But all I keep thinking is Harry in trouble or hurt, I'm not sure how long I can stay in control of my fears.

"Stephanie Ma-" I quickly cut Louis off from his friendly greeting.

"Louis, I need your help. It's Harry." I start and he falls silent as I begin to explain to him.

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Harry's POV

After twenty minutes of sitting in a carpark and thinking about tonight's events, I learnt that it's not worth my time. No matter what my opinion is or how much I hate Steph, I can't change the past. I wish I could. I just can't understand being left in the dark and for her to think it was okay, it's insane.

But I have stopped thinking, caring even. Now I'm home and I notice Louis sat on the doorstep. What's he doing here? I'm really not in the mood tonight.

"About bloody time, where the fuck have you been?" Louis asks as he heads towards me and quickly takes the bottles out of my hands. "Oh clever move Harry.." He snaps and I sigh as I lock my car and put my key into the front door.

"I haven't had a drop." I snap as I open the door. "But I think now is the perfect time." I add as I head to the kitchen and grab myself a glass .

"Okay... So are you going to elaborate?" Louis asks as he follows me in and places the bottles on the side."You can get me a glass too for making me wait so long." He adds and I turn to him.

"Why are you here anyway?" I snap as I hand him the bottle of vodka.

"Because of Stephanie." He answers simply as he pours himself a drink.

"Don't say her name." I say through gritted teeth as my blood begins to boil again. Louis looks at me and frowns.

"So she's the reason you went missing?" He asks and I sigh at his dramatic words. I grab the coke for him and place it down by his glass. Pouring the whisky in my glass, it soon disappears as I throw it down the back of my throat.

"I wasn't missing." I mumble as I pour myself another drink. "So I gather she's told you then?" I ask as I climb on to the kitchen counter. I look down at the liquid in my glass.

"Sort of." Louis answers as he grabs a chair and sits down. "She told me her secret.." He adds with a heavy sigh.

"So you can see exactly why I don't want to be around her then." I let a sarcastic smile appear but I quickly erase it by downing my second glass.

"I think you should have stayed and actually talked. I don't agree with Stephanie or how she's handled things, but I also don't see the point in you walking out." Louis explains and I look at him as I begin to feel the anger rise again.

"If I had stayed there, I would have said things that I could never take back. She would realise how much I can't stand her right now and I need to be as far away from her as I possibly can." I say quickly as I run a hand through my hair. "I mean all those years of living in confusion to her illness,to sympathise with her and pray for help that I could somehow take the load off of her. But she lied, she made me believe something completely different and far from the truth." I take a breath as I fill my glass up.

"But why did she hide it?" Louis asks and I shrug as I drink more than I should have. I wipe my mouth with the back of my hand before answering him.

"Because she's selfish Louis, that's why." I snort and I grab the whisky bottle. Louis scratches the back of his head.

"I don't think she's selfish Harry.." He says quietly but loud enough for me to hear. I look at him frowning as I think of my response. "I think it was more of her feeling sad and scared, or even confused. Just try and reverse the roles and imagine how it must have felt when she found out." He adds and I furiously shake my head.

"That's Bullshit. If she was scared or confused then she still should have told me. Does she not realise the meaning of loyalty? I've done everything I could to be on her side but not this time, this is too much and it is selfish Louis. Stop trying to help her get this because she has fucked up. She's ruined anything that we could of possibly had." I down more liquid from the bottle as I get more and more angry with myself and this stupid situation I am in.

"Maybe you just need to calm down and think about things. She has her reasons and as wrong as they may be she should be heard. You know how easy it is to make mistakes, we're forever learning from them." Louis says and I grit my teeth and flare my nostrils as I quickly answer.

"Stop trying to soften her actions. I don't want to hear about mistakes or how we learn from them. Right now I'm not interested-"

"But Harry-"

"Don't Louis!" I shout and I throw the whisky bottle to the other side of the room, I watch as it smashes into pieces as the liquid soaks my wall. "I don't want to hear anymore." I snap as I jump down from the counter and I storm out of the room and head to my bathroom.

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Portugal

"Harry, I'm going to the toilet." Stephanie says as she gets up from our table and quickly walks away.

"You know Steph has been quite poorly lately." Chloe states as she looks towards me with a smirk. "She's not pregnant is she?" She asks and immediately all eyes are on me.

"Maybe it's food poisoning." Liam says as he looks at me trying to divert the attention away from the truth. I sigh as I look at the beautiful sea next to us as I know I'm not going to be able to lie.

"Or she's pregnant." Louis grins and I nod as I look at them all. Wide smiles appear on their faces as they all begin to discuss how 'they knew it'.

"But you only know, no one else.Because it's early days." I say as I panic at the idea of Stephanie hating me for telling them. I know this is something she wants to share.with everyone. But before I can attempt to bribe them into pretending that they don't know, Stephanie is heading back to our table. Shit.

"Congratulations!" Chloe and Lucy excitedly jump up from their seats and run towards her. I hang my head in shame as I don't want to see the look on Steph's face right now.

"What are we celebrating?" Steph asks and I continue to avoid her.

"The baby silly!" Chloe laughs and I slowly look up. Stephanie looks at me before looking back at Chloe and Lucy.

"Um, Thanks, but how did you guys find out?" Stephanie asks as she sits down and the others do too. I slowly look at her.

"We knew, I guessed it and Harry confirmed it." Chloe grins and Zayn nudges her as he notices both of our faces. Stephanie looks at me and frowns.

"You told them?" She asks and I go to speak but she doesn't allow any words to leave my mouth. "You knew I'd want to tell them Harry.." She starts softly as her voice sounds full of hurt. "I was the one who even suggested to tell but you didn't even want too!" She snaps and I turn my head from her.

"It wasn't like that, Chloe guessed." Niall repeats and I look to him. He fixes his eyes on Stephanie as she looks at him, they both fall silent as they stare into each other's eyes. "Trust me." Niall adds and Stephanie looks away and stands up.

"Think I'm going to turn in." She snaps as she quickly walks away. I stand up and quickly get some money out of my wallet for our meals and I give it to Louis before I jog towards her.

"Steph, wait!" I call and she stops and spins around to face me. I sigh at the tears which are falling gently down her cheeks.

"You should leave me alone." She cries and I immediately feel useless. I hold my arms out but she steps back from me.

"I didn't mean to tell them, it's just they knew already Steph and I couldn't exactly get out of it." I try my hardest to sound as sorry as I possibly could. But Steph is too far gone, she's angry and upset. Right now, my words are not going to save me.

"You could have denied it so then I could have been there and we could have told them together. I hate how you weren't so sure on the idea of telling but then you just give in as soon as people are guessing!" She wipes her eyes and turns away from me. "Tonight I want to be alone and away from you." Steph adds and she starts to walk off again.

I go to follow her, but a hand appears on my shoulder as Liam stands besides me. I glance to him but spot Chloe and Niall as they approach Stephanie. My stomach builds jealousy and anger as I hate the fact that Stephanie is allowing Niall to be around her at this particular time.

"What's his game?" I ask as I keep my eyes firmly fixed on them.

"There's no game Harry, he's just trying to help." Liam answers and I slowly shake my head.

"That's not how I see it." I mumble as I turn away and head back to the others, I need a drink.

Notes

So Sorry I've been away for a while.
Ive been quite ill, but I'm back now and feeling so much more better, at last!

I hope you like this update, things are messy now and Stephanie is going to find it extremely hard to gain a little bit of trust from Harry again. Is it too late? Have things gone too far this time? There's only so much you can take....



Also, another flashback, I hope you enjoy this one as it's holding a few more secrets that will soon be falling into place. A lot is going to happen, it's not just about Stephanie and Harry, the group in itself discover new emotions and drama.

I've had a lot of time to plan ahead :)



Thank you so much to everyone who are still subscribed to this story, I know how easy it is to click that unsubscribe button when a story is taking a long time update. So thank you for staying with me! Xx