World So Cold

Luke drove me to his house, there was tension in the car ride and he seemed very anxious. I just sat there leaning on the door and looking out the window.


"Hey" Luke snapped me out of my thoughts breaking the silence.


"Mhmm" I mumbled.


"Do you hate me" he asks with his voice cracking a little. I sighed.


"Of course not. It's just that I'm mad at you, what you did hurt" I said quietly. "It's just that for some reason, I could never hate you no matter what happens" I finish and he just keeps driving.


"Do you love me" he asks. Why does he have to ask so many questions?


"I can't just stop loving you in a week" I giggle. "I can't ever" I whisper.


"Are we good now" that's the third time he talked and each time was a question.


"No, I still need time to think about this. I'm sorry" I say looking down.


"Oh" he whispers.


We finally get to his house and walk straight up to his room.


"So what did you want to show me, or tell me" I say sitting on his bed.


"Okay just don't freak out on me" he says sitting next to me.


"Why would I freak out on you, is it that bad" I ask chuckling but I turn serious when I realize he's keeping a straight face. "It is isn't it" I scrunch my nose and he nods.


"I don't know what got into me after Gabby kissed me. I started hearing voices in my head and I just couldn't breathe normally. My head would start pounding and all I wanted to do was scream" he breathed out. "I don't know what was going on, but one time, the voices told me to do something really terrible, and so I did" he said.


"You started having panic attacks" I questioned.


"Is that what they're called" he laughed and I just nodded. "But I still need to show you something" he said nervously.


He started to pull off or unclip all the bracelets on his wrists and what I saw, made my heart break into more pieces that it already has. A tear slipped down my cheek and Luke reached over to wipe it off with his thumb.


"Please don't turn into me" I said while I started to sob.


"What do you mean" he asked concerned that I was now weeping.


"No Luke, you can't start doing this. I'm supposed to be the messed up one, I need someone to be strong for me because I definitely can't" I sobbed harder and realized tears falling from his cheeks too.


"I couldn't help my self I'm sorry I just, I don't know" he sighed.


"I know Luke, I just-" he cut me off by putting his lips on mine.


He reached his arm over to the door to lock it and leaned back on the bed so I was on top of him.


Our tears mixed together and he sat up a bit so I could straddle him which i started doing. He started making his way down to my neck where he started sucking my sweet spot and I moaned quietly and felt him smile.


He stopped and I felt a mark starting to show up but ignored it. We were flipped over so I was on the bottom and he was on top.


I removed his shirt and removed mine too. He kissed from my neck down to my stomach. Luke grabbed the top of my shorts and started to pull them down (A/N it's summer in Australia just letting you know if you were confused on why she's wearing shorts).


"Luke I swear to duckling God if you start teasing me I will slap you" I say sternly and he chuckles.


"Yea yea" he responds knowing I hate it.


I arched my back letting him unclasp my bra and throw it across the room along with tugging my panties down and throwing them where the rest of our clothes were.


I unbuckled his belt for him and he pulled his pants down leaving him in his boxers.


I laid back and spread my legs as his head made his way through.


"Can I" he asks and I nod.


He stuffed in his tongue right in and I melted. I gripped on to the sheets and breathed heavily as he moved it around.


"Oh my god" I breathed out and he went in deeper making me tilt my head back and moan loudly. I heard him chuckle before he pulled out.


"Now let's get to the good part" Luke smirks but I don't do anything in response. "You okay" his voice sounds concerned.


"I guess, just don't go too deep, or fast" I say and he furrows his eyebrows but nods.


He slides his boxers off and positions himself at my entrance.


He slowly enters knowing I said not fast. It was still sore everywhere from the accident a few weeks ago so this hurt a lot. A tear slid down my cheek and he immediately pulled out.


"No, your crying I can't" he said sitting up.


"Luke it's okay, it's been a while, and I'm still sore" I assure.


"I don't want to hurt you though" he says. I send him a smile and he just nods before entering me again watching my face carefully taking in all the emotions I was feeling.


He started thrusting in and out slowly and I started getting used to it again and the pain went away.


"Oh shit, fuck" I moaned when he started going a little faster. I started digging me nails into his back, I could tell it hurt him but he enjoyed it.


"Damn your tight" he muttered going deeper.


"Faster" I said and he nodded and began to go faster and faster.


He spread my legs out wider allowing him to go deeper, he leaned down kissing my lips and ran his fingers through my hair tugging at it. He went really deep once hitting my G spot and I screamed.


"I'm, g-gonna cum" I breathed out.


In a few seconds I came and so did he inside of me.


He pulled out and laid down next to me on the bed.


"You're so beautiful" Luke said through pants and I smiled.


"I love you" I said.


"I love you too" he responded and wrapped his arm around me.


"Hey, I need to go to the mall, wanna come" I ask.


"I can't, my mums making me study" he scoffed an I laughed. "Hold up, so are we good noooow" he asked and I laughed.


"Okay fine, but only this time" I said sternly and he nodded.


We both got pressed and he kissed my lips softly.


"I call you later" I said in his bedroom doorway.


"Yea, bye" he waved like a little kid and I laughed.


"Bye" I giggled.


I walked out of his house and to the mall which wasn't to far.


I was starting to feel even more sore from what just happened but that what you get for having sex when your still in recovery.


A girl walked up to me and taped my shoulder.


"Hey, I'm new around here, do you know where Garage is" she asks. She looked like she was my age.


"Yea I was actually heading there now" I smiled. "I'm Liana, what's your name" I ask.


"Raleigh, I know kinda odd (A/N I'm not offending you if that's your name, that's my cousins friends name and she always says that so yeah)" she chuckles.


"No, I like it" I smiled and we started walking to the store. She was really nice actually. We ended up spending almost two hours here when all I needed was a new pair of flip flops.


"Hey I gotta go but text me. We could maybe hang out some time" she suggested and I nodded.


"Yea of course" I said before leaving.


Well this actually turned out to be a good day.

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