Emma and I spent the rest of the night just enjoying each other. It was hard not to think about the inevitable tomorrow but I was determined not to let it ruin my night with her. I couldn't believe this amazing girl was officially my girlfriend. I thought if she was mine it would make it easier to let her get on a plane tomorrow. I couldn't have been more wrong. Now that I had this girl completely, I didn't want to let her go. I know that I will be seeing her in three weeks, and that thought alone is the only thing stopping me from making her miss her flight. I wish I could be there for her and be a normal boyfriend. Emma deserves to have her man there, catering to her every need, treating her like the goddess she is. She shouldn't have to suffer in a long distance relationship. She shouldn't have to suffer through the baggage that comes with being my girlfriend. I guess I'm just too selfish to not be with her. If she is willing to have me, like hell if I'm going to blow that chance. I will do everything in my power to make it work with her. I have to make it work, even if it means canceling a show or event just to be there for her. I will do it.

We laid on the empty vacant beach in front of the hotel. Everyone was out clubbing tonight so nobody was around. We swam in the ocean in just our underwear, splashing and playing around until Emma began shivering from the cold. I spread out a towel on the sand and held her in my arms to warm her.

"I'm gonna miss you Ni," Her voice was small, and the look in her eyes was filled with pain. It broke my heart to see her this way. I pulled her so she was laying on top of me with her chin on my chest.

"I know baby, you have no idea how much I'll miss you. But I promise I will call or Skype everyday to see your gorgeous face. So much that you will get sick of me." She blushed slightly. I love that I have that effect on her.

"Yeah... I'll probably have to change my number." She said trying not to smile.

"You wouldn't," I playfully glared flipping us so I was now hovering over her. She pretended like she was thinking hard about it.

"Ehh, I probably would." She shrugged, a grin threatening to break loose.

"As your boyfriend I have to rights to your phone number." I growled kissing and nipping her sweet spot. I smirked when she titled her head and let a moan escape.

"F-fine," she sighed pretending to be mad and give in.

"Good," I smiled pecking her lips, but she grabbed the back of my neck and crushed my mouth to hers again. My tongue immediately invaded her mouth, officially claiming it as its own. She raised her hips into mine and the contact sent a wave of pleasure through my body. I knew what she wanted and her desire turned me on so much. I groaned and grinded down into her. We were still on the beach though.

"Wanna go back to the room?" I asked. She shook her head no and continued to grind into me.

"Ever have sex on the beach?" She smirked, and I felt myself get even harder than I already was.

I rapidly shook my head no, as my mouth hung open slightly. "H-have you?" I asked.

"Once," she shrugged. I frowned slightly, I didn't like to think of her with other guys. "I grew up on the water remember? Don't worry it was with the douche and it sucked." She assured me and it made me feel slightly better, although I was angered by the thought of that prick.

"Well, I promise I can make it up to you baby." I crookedly smiled before leaning down and kissing her hard.

I reached for my shorts and pulled out the condom from my wallet. I quickly looked around double checking that no one was in sight and covered our bottom halves with a towel. She lifted her hips to mine again and tugged on my boxers. I chuckled getting the point and kicked them off. I pulled her lace thong down kissing her thighs. Looking up at her and smiling smugly, I brought my tongue to her clit. She moaned loudly and held my hair. I loved hearing those sounds from her. I stuck a finger into her feeling how wet she was before adding a second. I really just wanted to be inside her and i think she felt the same way because she pulled me back up to her kissing my lips. I unwrapped the condom and rolled it over my hard throbbing length. I kissed her sweetly before pushing inside her. I groaned as I filled her, feeling her walls around me. She was so tight it was incredible. I waited for her to adjust before slowly moving in and out again. I found the spot that drove her wild and began to pick up my pace. She lifted her hips to meet my thrusts making it more pleasurable for both of us. She moaned uncontrollably and the sound alone could easily send me over the edge, but I had to hold on for her.

"Niall!" She screamed as I slammed harder into her. The way she said my name, I knew I couldn't last much longer.

"Em, I'm almost there." I panted.

"Me too babe." I felt her walls tightening around me as she cried out. I immediately filled up the condom as she came around me. I collapsed next to her and pulled her on top of me. I threw the used condom on the sand next to us and she crinkled her nose in disgust.
"That's gross! Some girls going to find that next to her towel tomorrow!" She laughed.

"Relax, relax, I'll throw it out when we go back to the room." I chuckled and she leaned down to kiss me.



The next morning I woke up to something soft on my lips. It kept pecking me lightly, and then I felt a tongue wipe across my bottom lip. My eyes fluttered open to a cheeky Emma straddling my hips. She leaned down and pecked me again.

"Morning sleepy." She smiled.

"Mornin' princess," I yawned tiredly.

"I have to start packing," She said sadly.

"Nope, no way," I rolled over trapping her to my bed with my body.

"Niall!" She giggled. "I haven't packed one thing yet! Andie's probably having a heart attack as we speak."

"So what? Your flight isn't until 6 pm, you have plenty a time to cuddle with me." I protested.

"Were leaving the resort at 3, so not that much."

"Please babe, It's only." I looked over at the clock, shit it's later than I thought. "11:00." I sighed.

"Let's get breakfast and then you can come to watch me pack." She said. I whined and slid off of her on to my stomach. "Get ready you lazy ass," she slapped bum. I looked at her and playfully glared before attacking her with kisses all over her face. She giggled like crazy. "Seriously!" She laughed pushing me off her.

"Fine," I sighed walking over to my dresser. I put on fresh boxers, a pair of basketball shorts, a t-shirt, and my sneakers. I turned back to her and she was watching me intently. I smirked and she blushed realizing she was caught. "Like the show?"

She gave me the finger before putting on the change of clothes that she brought with her last night. We went to the breakfast buffet and I filled my plate with the delicious food. After we ate we went up to her room. All of her friends were in there, scurrying around packing. The sight made me sad and left me with this weird empty feeling. It was finally hitting me that she was leaving today.

"Holy shit Emma! Your bags are completely empty! Were leaving in three hours and you haven't started packing!" Andie yelled frantically.

"Relax mother!" Emma laughed sitting me on her bed as she pulled out her large Louis Vuitton suitcase. I watched her as she began folding everything in her closet and neatly placing it in the bag.

"Horan, you could help you know," Jen teased, and my face turned red. Shit, I should have offered to help her.

"Well I'd probably just fuck it up. I'm a shitty clothes folder." I said and Emma giggled. I loved that sound.

"Excuses, excuses." Jen shook her head.

I ended up helping her pack the millions of pairs of shoes she brought. She even had a separate bag for them. "I didn't even see you wear half of these." I said bewildered.

"You can never be too prepared. Besides don't think I didn't notice the endless pairs of supras in your closet." She scowled.

Well she got me there, "Touché."

All of her friends finished packing and they set their bags by the door before going down by the pool to enjoy their last moments of sun. It was almost 2:00 when Emma finished. My last hour with her before she had to go.

"Do you want to shower with me?" She asked and I nodded vigorously. She smiled and grabbed my hand pulling me to the bathroom. We undressed ourselves, while watching each other closely.
I took in every curve of her body, to remember until I would see her again. She seemed to be doing the same. We stepped under the hot water and I kissed her passionately as it soaked our hair and bodies. I grabbed the hotel shampoo since everything else was packed and squirted some in my hand before massaging her head. She hummed in relaxation as her eyes fluttered shut. When I was done I moved so she could stand under the water, letting it wash out the soap from her long brown hair. She did the same for me, I loved the feeling of her fingers lightly scratching my scalp. It is the most calming sensation in the world. We washed each other's bodies, before shutting the water off and wrapping towels around ourselves. I dried off and changed, while watching her throw her dirty clothes in a bag and put on the clothes that she laid out for her plane ride. She dressed comfy and casual, yet still managed to look hot. I sat on the edge of her bed and pulled her to stand between my legs. I stared into her eyes and noticed a single tear leak out. My heart tore apart. I pulled her into my lap, kissing away the tear that was now on her cheek.

"I'm going to miss you so much," she croaked fighting back more tears and throwing her arms around my neck. I rubbed soothing circles on her back as she cried softly.

"I know, baby. Trust me, I know." I sighed on the verge of crying myself. She pulled back to look at me before crashing her lips to mine. I could taste the saltiness from her tears. I leaned back on to the bed pulling her down with me, her lips never leaving mine. We scooted up to the pillows as she straddled me. She ran her hands over my chest, stopping when she reached the waste band of my shorts. She pulled them down, reaching my mid-thighs when the door burst open and the four girls and Liam walked in. She quickly pulled my shorts back up, and they all looked at us amused. I shifted uncomfortably with the now prominent bulge in my pants.

"Awkward.." Kalie said.

"Yup," Tara smirked, shaking her head at us.

"We would let you finish, but umm.." Andie started. "The cabs kind of here."

"Sorry Niall, no last good bye for you I guess." Liam laughed at his own joke.

"Alright, alright, enough." Emma climbed off of me and walked over to grab her bags. I got up and took them from her. I carried her large suitcase to the lobby for her but she wouldn't let me carry anything else. I liked that about her, although I would have no problem carrying all of her things. It's just that most other girls would have tossed everything at me while only carrying their small purse. She was just so different and amazing, while independent.

Liam and I decided to get in the cab with them to go to the airport. I couldn't say goodbye right then. I needed all of the time I could get, at least until she walked through security. She snuggled into my side the whole ride to the airport. Her face was blank and expressionless. She was probably nervous to break down again. I honestly didn't want to see her cry again, but this wasn't good either. I intertwined our fingers and squeezed them reassuringly. She looked over at me, finally some emotions crossing her face, although I hated to see her so upset. She leaned in and pressed her lips to mine. I kissed her right back. We didn't even move our lips we just held them pressed together as if somehow they would stay that way forever. She pulled away blinking rapidly while fresh tears began to water her sad eyes. I pulled her face into my neck and she began to shake as she cried. She sobbed lightly, as she tried to fight it. I could tell she didn't like it one bit that she was crying. She felt weak for being so emotional, but I think it only made her stronger.

Liam and I walked in with them. There was an extremely long line to the counter where they each checked their luggage. All of them ended up going over the bag weight limit and had to pay the extra charge. I tried to pay Emma's but she glared at me and shoved me away. I pouted but gave in because I just wanted to hold her again. The line for security was even longer, but I wasn't complaining, it was more time that I got to spend with her. Liam and I would probably get in trouble for staying once we reached the front, but I didn't care. I held her tightly to me, I had my arms wrapped around her torso as I held her back to my chest. She leaned into me, obviously exhausted from standing so long. Her face turned emotionless once again. It really worried me, I hoped she wouldn't be like this the whole time we were apart. I really needed to talk to her before she left. I looked at Andie who motioned for me to take her to the bathroom. The security line was barely moving anyway.

"Come on love," I said grabbing her hand and leading her under the rope over to the bathrooms. She quickly went and I waited outside for her. She walked out and her face was still as expressionless as before. I couldn't take it anymore. I pushed her against the wall and crushed my lips to hers. Our mouths moved together perfectly in sync as our tongues danced around each other. I could snog her for days straight, I was so desperate for this girl. When I needed to breath I pulled back and stared in to her eyes. They once again held the sadness that pained my heart. I was so crazy about her and she didn't even know it. I was in so deep after such a short time but the feelings couldn't have been more real. I knew what I felt. It was such a foreign feeling to me, yet so pleasant at the same time. I knew exactly what the feeling was, and I didn't know if I should tell her. Her face was slowly turning emotionless again, she avoided my eyes and it was really starting to piss me off.

"God damnit Emma, look at me!" I snapped. I couldn't let her do this right before she left. I needed to tell her. I've known for the past couple of days now. I just don't know if I will be able to handle it if she rejects me. I gently grabbed her chin and forced her to meet my gaze. Once looking at me devastation crossed her face as tears began to spill from her eyes.

"Niall, I- I don't know what to do." She cried.

"About what?"

"I don't think I can do this." She croaked. I felt like I just took a punch in the gut.

"Yes, yes you can Emma, you have too, I need you." I said fighting back tears.

"Niall, I just don't, I don't think-" I cut her off before she could say more. It was no or never.

"I love you Emma." I blurted, meaning every word completely.

"W-what?" She stuttered.

"I'm so in love with you it's ridiculous. I know it's been a short time I guess when you know you know." I smiled relieved to get it off my chest, expecting her to say it back. Then I realized the look on her face, she looked scared, taken a back, and horribly sad.


"Oh, um okay." She said nervously. Now that had to be the worst most painful feeling I have ever had. A knife through my heart could have been pleasurable compared to what those words just did to me.

"Wow, okay." I said anger taking over my tone. Deep down I knew it was wrong to be mad at her for not saying it back, but I knew she felt it too. If I put myself out there to say it then why couldn't she. She at least could have said something better than that, something that would have left me less humiliated. I felt like she was being selfish and I was pissed.

I pushed myself off the wall and turned my back, leaving her there. I hastily started for the exit.

"Niall!" I heard her cry, her voice sounded as if she was about to burst into tears. I ignored her and continued to walk. I felt someone grab my wrist and I turned around and met her tear soaked face. Seeing her like this pulled at my heart but I pushed the feeling away.

"I'm so sorry Niall. I lo-"

"You can't do this right? I was just some joke to you?"

"No Niall! I'm trying to tell you I-"

"You used me for my fame right? Is that it? You wanted your ten minutes of fame? Well guess what you got it, congratulations!" The second those words left my mouth I regretted them. I knew that wasn't true. That wasn't her. Emma was not like that. The look on her face was the worst, she looked beyond devastated, and hurt.

"Fuck you," She said coldly and it made me shiver with guilt and regret. She buried her face in her hands as she cried and turned her back to me walking towards her friends on line.

"Wait, Emma, I'm so sorry baby. I didn't mean that! I promise! Please!" I begged grabbing her arm. She shook it out from my grasp.

"Don't touch me!" she screamed. I was so sure that everyone was watching the scene we were making, but I didn't care enough to look. I chased after her, but just my luck, her friends were at the front of the line. Jen sent me a cold and pissed off look. I tried talking to her again but she ignored me as she slipped off her sneakers and walked through the security gate. I tried getting through but was held back by a guard. Liam pulled me away before I got arrested or something. I watched as she cried on her friends shoulder until she was out of my sight.

What the fuck did I do? How could I mess up so badly? She was never going to forgive me. Were we over? Neither of us actually ended it but I couldn't shake this deep feeling that I blew it. I blew it with the girl of my dreams. Liam dragged me out of the airport and into a cab. I didn't talk to him the whole way. He tried asking what happened but I ignored him. My face mimicked Emma's previous expressionless ones.


We got back to the room and everyone was out on the deck. It sounded like they were in the jacuzzi. Liam watched me sympathetically as I went to Louis's room and snatched one of the many bottles of tequila he bought from the tasting that day. I ignored Liam's worried eyes and walked to my room slamming the door behind me. I took the first large swig and collapsed on to my bed, letting the tears fall out.

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