Ch 40
Hannah's POV
He opened the door and I just sat there.
"I'm sorry!" I cried, but he didn't say anything. "I---"
"You're a liar." He stood above me, his eyes harsh. "How could you lie about something like that?"
I broke down even more, but found the strength to stand up. "Niall, does that really change anything? It doesn't change what we've done, or how we feel about each----"
"Felt." He said.
"What?"
"I can't." He said.
"You can't what?"
"I mean...We can't."
"Niall, I---"
"You lied."
Niall's POV
I saw her heart breaking with every word I said. But, I just couldn't be with someone who would lie about something THAT important. Yeah, I did really want to be with her, but I needed some time to think.
"I'm sorry." She said again. I looked at her, sometimes sorry isn't enough.
I shook my head and shut the door. I sighed and went back to my bed to lay down.
My thoughts got the better of me.
What are you doing? Why are you pushing her away? She said she was sorry. And it's not like she lied about anything else...but at the same time, there's no way to be sure.
She must have had a good reason...
But when is there ever a good reason to Lie?
I fought with myself.
I thought about everything we did the past four days.
From meeting her to that moment at the dinner table.
It was crazy to think how much we fought for each other and now it's all ruined. I just, I didn't know if I could deal with that, the lying. It wasn't her.
Well, it was. I just don't want to be with a liar.
But, I know she had a good reason, I argued with myself.
I imagined her laying right next to me. We would be hugging each other, and I would kiss her.. I couldn't let that go.
I shook my head, and despite what I was thinking, I got up and went to the door. I remembered saying to her, 'Why cut something off if it's meant to be?'
Even if she did lie about not knowing who I was, she was still herself. And I loved everything about her. I couldn't let that get away.
I walked out of the door to her room. I knocked on the door a few times.
Hannah's POV
I ran to the front of the ship just to clear my mind. The wind blew my tears away and I just stood there, cold but warm.
I just couldn't believe I had ruined it. Niall and I were over and I felt the hot tears on my face.
Niall's POV
I kept knocking but she didn't answer. I put my hands behind my head and walked back to my room.
I fucked up so bad.