Does he know?

"What are you two doing?"

Fuck.

I jumped off the bed and pulled my dress down so it covered my lower part. That moment was the most awkward in my life. I and Zayn were literally caught in action. I saw the hurt facial expression Harry made which broke my heart.I had never seen him with that kind of face but within minutes the look turned into an angry one.

"What is going on here?" He yelled.

”Harry it's not what it looks like, I can explain” I answered furiously

”I believe my own eyes Annabelle, not your words” he said and slammed the door.. I looked at Zayn who still was in bed.” I guess we’re in trouble ” he said. I once again felt like the worst person on earth but a part of me was relieved because he finally knew about me and Zayn. The sad part was that he saw it all with his own eyes. I would rather have told him the truth.


-

I knocked on Harry’s door serveral times but he refused to open it. I kept knocking because a voice inside of me said he would let me in sooner or later because he hates when someone is annoying him.

”Open the door I really want to talk to you” I yelled.

”You and I have nothing to talk about ” he yelled back.

”Please open, I can explain” I said still knocking.

”Go away Annabelle I can’t even look at you right now”. I could feel Harry’s pain in his voice. It made my stomach hurt. The tears started flowing down my face. I had hurt my first love, I had cheated on him and he saw it with his own eyes. It was horrible but also embarrasing at the same time. It made me realize how stupid I was. I couldn’t blame Zayn or the alcohol. It was all my fault.

I snuffled trying to control my crying but I couldn’t. It was a truly violent fit of weeping. Every single tear burned my cheek more and more and the more I waited for Harry to open, the more sick I felt. I started to realize how pissed he was which was totally understandable.

”Harry will you please open I need to talk to you?"

No response. No nothing. I walked back to my room with streaming tears down my face. My mascara was all in my face and my eyes were read. However I felt, I deserved it. I was sure that Harry was in more pain that I ever would be.

I sat on my bed still crying. At one point I was almost about to puke because I cried so hard.

”Please don’t cry. It was about time that he find out the truth." Zayn said trying to comfort me with his soft hug.

”I’m so sad because he saw it. It would be much easier if we just told the truth ” I answered.

”I can’t believe it turned out this way. I feel guilty now I have realized how mean I have been lately” he whispered. His voice was also filled with self -reproach.

I heard some snuffling, I thought I dreamt but I was actually right.. Zayn cried!

”Why are you crying?” I asked.

”Because I feel like a bad person I never wanted to hurt him like we did but again I just can’t control myself when i’m around you. Love takes over” he replied. A tear rolled down his cheek. I removed it with my finger and looked his eyes. All I could see was tears in his lesser canthus and I slowly realized that Zayn was just as fragile as me.

"We have to talk to him tomorrow” I said.

”I don’t know what to say. He’ll never talk to us again” he sniffled.

” I bet he will, he has to. We’re his friends”

”I don’t think he sees us as friends anymore Annabelle” he answered and crawled into his bed.

” I need some sleep, goodnight, and .. You should go sleep too"

I inbreathed and blew my nose subsequently trying to sleep.. Which seemed to be far from possible.

(the next day)

”So I heard the blunder you did last night” Soph said as we ate breakfast.

”What?”

”The Harry thing.. ”

”How do you know?” I asked shockly.

” Harry told it to me and Niall this morning. "He was so smashed you should have seen him. His eyes were completely red ”

”Oh my gosh, I bet he cried all night”

”Well you dont look good yourself?” she smiled.

”I cried the whole night, I have slept for like two hours. Zayn cried too”

”No way” she whispered looking all shockly at me.

”But seriously Annabelle you really need to step up your game and keep it classy. You’ve been so weird lately”

”I KNOW it’s because of my dilemma” I said.

After some awkward silence I bursted out what had been on my mind for the last couple of weeks.

" I don't know what to do. I'm lost. I love them both to bits"

”First you need to talk to Harry about the episode and explain him everything. And I mean everything”

”DO you know how hard and embarrasing this is for me?”

”Well it wasn’t embarrasing to cheat was it?”

She had a point. Damn it! I needed to talk to someone who knew Harry very welll. Someone like... LOUIS!

I asked him to meet me at the liberary..

He looked smashed from last night. His eye was swollen.
”What's up?” he asked. His voice was hoarse.

”Are you okay?” I asked smiling at him.

”Not at all, I have slept for three hours only and im hungover like never before. What did you want to talk about?

”Have you talked with Harry?”

”No why?”

”Oh it’s just.. ”

”Wait he’s calling.” he said as he picked up the phone.


Lou: Im at the liberary with Annabelle.. Oh okay.. Yeah..Really.WHAT.. NO way.. Are you still drunk mate? … Well okay, Im coming. Wait there.”

*hangs up*

” I can't believe you fucking did that” he said giving me ”the look” as he pulled out the chair he sat on.

Wow. I bet Harry just told him what happened

”LOUIS WAIT” I screamed.

”NO I DONT WANT TO WASTE MY TIME ON BITCHES LIKE YOU” he yelled angrily. His eyes were literally burning me.

”Wait I need to talk with Harry, where is he?" I said as I tried to sound as desperate as I could.

”Harry doesn’t need another hoe in his life Annabelle, he has had plenty of them why do you think he settled down with you?”... ”BECAUSE HE THOUGHT YOU WERE DIFFERENT THAN THE OTHERS” he yelled as he started walking down the stairs as quickly as he could.

”Louis please calm down” I said feeling the tears coming as I followed him.

He stopped up looking directly at me.

”How am I supposed to calm down when you cheated on my best friend.. with your freaking best friend? You’ve runied everything, you ruined the clique because of your stupid feelings. You’re such a queen you piss on everyone else’s feelings. All that matters to you is how YOU feel, we should never have let you in in our lives!”

And after hearing that. I completely broke down.. Into millions of tears.

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