Does he know?

I was convinced that my life couldn’t get any worse. I missed my parents and siblings. I missed Sarah. I needed to go home. Everything was just too overwhelming for me.I couldn’t forgive myself for hurting Harry. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t get contact to him. He had ignored me since the night he saw me and Zayn. The group was divided and everyone had different opinions. Louis was still terribly mad at me and refused to talk to me. Liam was on Zayn’s side and was glad that he finally had ’won’ me back. Niall was mad because I kept it a secret for so long and Soph was disappointed at me but luckily she wanted to talk to me and help me out. El didn't want to choose side and stood up for me even though she felt sorry for Harry.

Zayn hadn’t talked to Harry either and he had been sad all week. Even though Niall tried to support him, he still wasn’t okay. He wanted to talk to Harry too but nothing worked.
The silence killed me. The days passed and everyday was getting worse and worse. I spent the days in my room or at the library with the girls just to think of something else. I and Zayn had agreed not having too much contact because we needed space and we couldn’t take a chance being too close in public due to the fact that Harry would caught us again and feel more pain.
Everything was just too much for us both to swallow. I was glad that he felt exact like I did; it made the whole situation easier. But I was far from happy. I kept thinking of Harry nonstop. I didn’t know it would break me this much to lose him but what kills me the most is that he saw everything with his own eyes. I bet he’s as broken as I am, if not more.


The days felt like decades and Liam told me Harry had spent a lot of time preparing his performance for the school. I was afraid that I had affected him in a bad way so he couldn’t focus fully. I have always been Harry’s rock and biggest support but due to the situation, I couldn’t be there for him like back in the days. It killed me. I missed him and I just prayed that everything would end up great for all of us.
It was rumoured that Harry’s song was about our relationship.

Performance day: I shook because I didn't know if the rumors were right, I didn't know how I would react to the song. The worst thing would be if I broke down in front of the whole school, then everyone would def. know that we've broken up.

The musical hall was filled up with students from college. I sat next to El on second row. Maybe Louis was right. Maybe I had split the group because everyone was at different rows; we were far from each other which is totally unusual.

Mr. Bolt introduced Harry as he stepped on the stage. The spotlight hit him straight on his face. His smile showed and everyone gave him applause. The music started and I Immediately felt bad. My heart was literally in my throat.

“I’m broken do you hear me? I'm blinded ‘cause you are everything I see. I'm dancing, alone, I'm praying that your heart will just turn around. And as I walk up to your door my eye turns to face the floor cause I can't look you in the eyes and say.. Harry’s voice always gives me shivers and this song shows his singing skills without a doubt.

When he open his arms and holds you close tonight it just won't feel right cause I can love you more than this, yeah. When he lays you down, I might just die inside it just don't feel right cause I can love you more than this. Can love you more than this. If I'm louder would you see me?
The crowd goes insane, everyone Is applausing and I’m just looking at El while i'm removing the rolling tears on my cheeks. She looks at me with her kind smile that somehow makes me smile a little.


Would you lay down in my arms and rescue me? Cause we are, the same.. You saved me, but when you leave it's gone again. And then I see you on the street in his arms, I get weak my body fails I'm on my knees praying.

She takes my hand in hers and squeezes it. I feel so bad about the situation I know he’s singing the song to me and I can see in his eyes that he feels pain. This is just way to hard for me to cope.

I've never had the words to say but now I'm asking you to stay for a little while inside my arms. And as you close your eyes tonight. I pray that you will see the light that's shining from the stars above.

“El I can’t take this I need to go” I said as I quickly walked out of the hall before anyone would notice that I’m crying. I’m completely broken and the songs truly shows how he feels. I can’t take this, I need to go home.

Texting dad:
Hey dad I really need you to come and pick me up as soon as possible. I'm homesick and I want to go home NOW. Please call me as soon as you get off work. Love you.

"Aw honey how are you? I turned around and there was El. "Come you need a hug " she says with the biggest smile on her face. She embraces me tighly while I sniffle. I try to control my weeping but everything is just too overwhelming.

"It's okay, everything will be fine soon".

"El, my dad is coming in few hours, I need to go home"

"Ah seriously, for how long are you gone?"

"Untill Monday, I need to go home from this nightmare"

"I totally get you, let's go upstairs i'll help you packing"

" Gosh I love you El, thanks for everything!" I answer her as we start to walk.

Notes

First I want to say THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR COMMENTS !! ur the best guys !! u made my day xxxx

I personally love "More Than This" I think it's one of One Direction's best songs and I like cry like everytime I listen to it :p

And it really fits perfectly to Hannabelles situation!! xx