As my classes continued through the day, I noticed my teacher, Mrs. Rose, was a bit weird, anxious, nervous, excited. The tone in her voice showed it all. Of course I was too busy, warring about Niall leaving tomorrow, in a plain, to Australia. Can I just say that there are mortal snakes in Australia? He needs to keep himself safe if he wants to come back in one piece. In my head, and because I’m too melodramatic, I was imagining all kinds of stuff happening, that caused me to overdrive, think too much, get tired and get a useless morning of classes. I snorted to s bunch of hairs in my face that were bothering me so I grabbed a hair band and pulled them in a high pony-tail. I patted the pencil in my notebook repeatedly, making a sound echo through the whole class. I put a hand in my cheek to support my head and looked over at the board, copying the notes so I could, at least, remember the subject since I’m not being able to pay any type of attention to the teacher’s words. But I noticed her behavior. She’s weird, and I have no idea why. Someone knocked in the door, and she walked over to open it.
It must have been someone important because she closed the door behind her to talk to whoever it was. Whispering was hearable in the class, people having different opinions about who it was in the other side of the door.
“Shut up, she’s talking!” A boy in my class, to whom I never knew the name, spoke.
Everybody shutted up and the teachers voice echoed from the other side of the door. Mrs. Rose seemed stressed and worried.
“Tell them to wait one minute! I’ll just warn them!” She said
“Pst!” I heard someone calling “Pst!” I frowned and looked around to search for the person calling me.
Danny was looking at me, her blue eyes sparkling. She opened a worried smile when she saw my eyes.
“You look worried today, what’s wrong?” She whispered
“I’ll talk to you outside okay?” She nodded and I smiled weakly
Mr. Rose returned to the class, closing the door silently behind her. The only thing hearable was her heels walking over the white tiles. The whispering ceased in the minute the door opened for the second time. Everybody was anxious to hear what was that all about. Mrs. Rose stopped in front of her secretary and leaned in to grab a paper. She sighed and them looked at us. She even got scared. It not for less, every shade and tone of eye color was present in that classroom, and every single pair of eyes was closely watching her.
“So, kids!” She said, calmly “We have a visitor today! I need you to behave because it’s rather important okay?”
A unison ‘yes’ was heard in the room. Mrs. Rose breathed heavily and walked to the door again to open it. I jumped in my seat when I saw curly dark brown hairs.
“Harry?” I asked, frowning. Everybody looked over at me, but at this point I didn’t care anymore.
Harry walked in, wearing his black tight pants, a white t-shirt and black sneakers. He waved at us and even said a small hi. He scattered the room, looking for something. When he found me, he gave me a huge, full of teeth smile and looked over at the door.
Every single girl in that room was excited. Even me, but not for the same reasons. I was excited because, maybe, I was going to see my boyfriend again, before he left for Australia. My short nails, due to the fact that I bite them, were completely buried in the skin of my wrist, I was biting my lower lip and tightening my legs against each other, expecting to see the only blond member of the band coming next.
The girls were crazy in there, because obvious reasons: They thought Harry was hot! I rolled my eyes with the last comment and focused my eyes in the door. Black hairs emerged, followed by brown eyes and huge eyelashes.
“Zayn!” I whispered to myself
Whispering was louder in class, from the girls point of view, the boys couldn’t care less about these boys in front of us. Girls were crazy, I wanted to say that he had a beautiful girlfriend waiting for him, knowing that he would leave tomorrow, but I controlled myself and said nothing. He was wearing black pants and a denim shirt. I wander if Niall is still dressed the same way he left the house. Zayn’s eyes quickly found mine and he gave me a playful smile. I returned with tightening more my lips and a close look on the door.
Please, Niall come next… But he didn’t! Brown hairs and brown eyes came in the door.
“Liam!” I whispered again.
It felt like I was counting down till Niall’s appearance. Liam gave everybody a cute smile, but smiled wider when he found me. I gave him a shadow of a smile. He laughed low pitched. He probably knows what I’m feeling since he probably needed to leave Sophia many times. Liam was wearing denim pants and a white t-shirt, covered with a long brown jacket. Hell, it’s raining outside and those two don’t bring jackets? They’re going to get sick.
Another shade of brown appeared by the door. Blue eyes followed next.
“Louis!” I confirmed.
Seriously, are they leaving Niall for the last on porpoise? It’s nerve wracking. Louis was wearing a white t-shirt, denim jeans and a denim jacket. He smiled at me and I blinked. He smiled widely and looked at the door.
NO! Mrs. Rose closed it. I turned my eyes to the guys immediately, begging. I could feel the tears in my eyes. Damn you Niall Horan, I was already used to the idea of not seeing you for four days and now you make me this? They guys swallowed and looked between themselves, full of pity for me. I supported my head in my hands, sad. Why would he do this to me? Building some type of hope and then, in the last minute, blow it all off.
Shoot, I was supposed being strong remember? But I can’t, this is just mean of him! Mrs. Rose walked to her desk and while she did so, a thick tear ran down my left cheek. I immediately cleaned it up. The room was silent once more, Danny was looking at me, worried. The other girls knew that there was something wrong in there, something missing. And in the silence, one of my sobs was heard. Everybody looked at me. Word spreads fast in my school, the people who saw me the other day with him probably told everybody. I’m lucky that my parents don’t read magazines and don’t listen to gossip. I buried my head in my hands, but looked up when I heard the door squeaking.
“Hey, wait for me guys!” I heard the Irish accent I love, coming from the door.
Niall walked in. I just felt like running to him and hug him. He was wearing the exact same thing he was wearing when he left the house, white t-shirt that perfectly fitted his body, large pants that fell down his waist a brown jacket and his sneakers. I covered up my mouth, covering a sob that threatened to come out.
Niall smiled to everybody but it became a shadow when he saw my state, tears falling down my cheeks and rolling down the hand that was covering my mouth. He opened his eyes widely and walked in my direction, ignoring the rest of the people on the room.
“What’s wrong princess?” He stopped right beside me, sitting in the chair next to my own. He opened his arms and I let myself fall in them. He wrapped them around myself and kissed my head.
“You’re so mean!” I whispered against his chest. Niall took the hair band off my hair
“Why?” He asked
“Because you were late! I thought you weren’t coming and I felt… You’re mean!” I sobbed against him “You told me that I wasn’t going to see you again and you’re here!” I whispered “I told myself that I couldn’t cry, I wouldn’t be sad! Damn you Niall! I was actually trying to so something useful today when you appear here and do this to me! You can’t… you just can’t do this stuff to me!” I said, holding the back of his jacket and crying in his chest.
Niall laughed low pitched and I took a step back to look at him, angry. He smiled wider and cleaned my tears with his thumb. He leaned down and let his lips touch mine softly. I was missing them already since this morning. I pulled him more to me and hugged him more. After a few seconds, I broke the kiss and looked up at Niall.
“Your eyes are grey!” He said and smiled.
He kissed the tip of my nose and opened a smile. I actually didn’t care about the rest of the people in the class, I was in a completely different world. Sad, then happy.
“Don’t worry, they are distracting the rest of the class!” He whispered
“This is mean Niall!” I whispered, sobbing.
“Calm down love, I’m here!” He whispered
“You can’t do this to me, I have panic attacks you know?” I said
“I’m sorry, I really did got late, coming out of the van!” He explained, felling sorry
“Just… Hug me!” I said, tightening my arms around him.
Niall laughed and wrapped his hands around my waist. I looked up, smiling weakly at him. He frowned with my weak smile
“How much time do you have?” I asked him, knowing he has a busy day
“I have till the end of the class!” He whispered, burring his nose in my hair
I pulled the sleeve of the white shirt up and looked at his watch. He had five minutes left, not even a single second more. I looked at him. His blue eyes were sparkling but there was no smile in his lips. Only a thin line between his lips.
“You only have five minutes!” I whispered and looked down. Only now I notice I have been sitting on Niall’s lap for the entire time.
“I know!” He said and kissed my forehead slowly
“I’ll miss you, you know?” I said and closed my eyes “I know I’m not the normal girlfriend, I know I might smother you sometimes, but you have to understand that I have never been in a relationship before! You have to tell me what’s right and what’s wrong Niall, I don’t know what to…” He cut me off by placing his lips on mine.
I closed my eyes and opened my mouth, letting him explore my mouth. Niall’s hands landed on my hips, tightening them. My hands raised till his hair, squeezing it a bit. Niall let out a low moan from the back of his throat, making me laugh. I pulled back and he smiled shyly, looking at me. He frowned when he looked at my face.
“Are you tired?” He asked and I jumped to my chair
“I’m tired of all the study I HAVEN’T been doing Mr. Horan!” I said, looking at the blackboard, pretending I was reading what was written there.
From the corner of my eye, I saw Niall doing that weird face of someone who drank spoiled milk again.
“Nerd!” He whispered
“Nerd? Me?” I said, looking at him “No! I prefer the term intellectual badass!”
Niall laughed out loud, driving me along to do the same.
“I’ll miss your smart mouth!” He said, playing with my hair
“Why did you took my hair band off?” I asked
Niall’s jaw hardened and looked at me with no expression. I frowned, deeply worried I had done something wrong.
“The boys behind you are looking at your neck like they’re some kind of hawks and you’re food!” He snorted, angry. I laughed and kissed his jaw that automatically turned normal.
“You don’t have to worry!” I whispered, sitting in his chair, between his legs, my back turned at him. I grabbed his hands on mine and put them around my body “Those boys got nothing on you!” I leaned back to Niall’s chest, stretching my neck.
Niall took the opportunity to kiss my neck, knowing what that was going to do to me. The bell rang, time for him to go. Niall held me in my seat while everybody left, including the boys. In my school, the first person to leave is the teacher. No one has ever stolen anything so the teachers can be relaxed.
“Hey, I’ll see you later?” I heard Danny by the door
“Yes love, I’ll just say goodbye!” She giggled
“Yeah… hum… Enjoy!” I giggled
“Bye Danny!”
She left, followed by the rest of the boys, all laughing about her comment. Niall helped me get up. I curse this moment. Now it’s going to be a lot worst to say goodbye. I got up and Niall did the same. Before I could d anything his hands grabbed my waist and sat me on top of the table. He got himself between my legs. Today I hate the decision of bringing the skirt.
Niall’s hands rested in my waist, caressing the bones with his thumbs. I wrapped my hands around his neck, looking deeply into his eyes. Niall kissed me softly, pulling my lips to him, calmly, sadly and lovingly saying goodbye to me.
None of us pulled back, but when I took a glance at the clock, five minutes were left for me to go into class again. I held Niall’s hand and pulled him out of the classroom, if he wanted to get to his commitments in time he had to leave. As we were walking down the hallway, Rick, a guy from my class, waved at me. I smiled and walked in his direction.
“Hello Johanna!” He said, smiling.
“Hi Rick! This is Niall! My boyfriend!” I introduced and Rick made a weird face
“Hello Rick!” Niall said, extending his hand. They stood there, shaking their hands for what seemed one minute, looking into each other’s eyes. I coughed to release the tension and they got back to normal. Rick looked at me and smiled warmly. I smiled back at him.
“You look pretty today!” Rick said and I frowned when I heard Niall growling
“Thanks!” I whispered
“We should go out for a drink sometime!” He said and even I was stupefied by his boldness
“Sorry pal, she’s taken already!” Niall growled
“Since when do you speak for her?” Rick growled
“Since I am her boyfriend, not you so stop flirting with what’s mine, or do you wanna die?!” Niall growled to him
“Niall…” I called “Stop!” I looked around, thanks to both of them, all the hallway was focused on us.
“Bye Rick!” Niall growled and pulled me out of the building. No one was outside, only the black van, probably with the boys inside.
“What the hell was that?” I asked
“He wants your panties Johanna!” I turned red. Not out of embarrassment, out of rage.
Who did he think he was to think that I’m that easy? I don’t even speak that much to Rick, he’s just a person in my school. I had probably talked to him eight times since the school had begun. But now Niall ruined it all with his rage attack. Did he really judge me that poorly?
“You should trust me a bit more! I’m with you, not with him!” I yelled
“I trust you, it’s just everyone else I don’t trust!” He spoke calmly
“Well, you have to trust me to keep those people away! And I’m not an object so stop referring to me as one! Goodbye and have a nice flight!” I said before I stormed off inside again.
Damn you Niall. Geez, he comes here to say goodbye and this is what happens! Perfect really! I walked down the hallway, firm steps. I knew Danny would be in the bar so I was walking there, till Rick got in my way.
“Not now Rick!” I sad, a bit ruder than I would want to.
This is what a fight with Niall does to me, I get cranky and moody. I kept walking down the hallway till I got to the schools bar. Danny was sat in a table, one chair across her, waiting for me already. She was drinking a coffee and a orange juice was waiting for me. I sat and looked at her, sad.
“What’s wrong love?” She asked
**
I woke up the next day at eight o’clock. Last day was completely horrible. I couldn’t concentrate on classes, I couldn’t eat straight, I was a mess. I spent all night avoiding Niall’s calls and messages. I just… I don’t want to give in. Plus, he had no reason to act the way he did. I shoved the messy hair back in its place and rolled in bed to grab my phone. One voice message and it’s not from Danny.
“Well, hum, I just want to say that I’m leaving right now to Australia. I-I’ll miss you and I’m really sorry Johanna! Anyways, I like you, very very much! B-Bye!”
I hugged my pillow, fighting the urge to cry. I closed my eyes, trying to forget him just for a second. My night was spent having nightmares or wide awake, looking at my white ceiling doing nothing. Being mad at Niall, not being able to talk to him because I’m angry at him and not even say goodbye when he called hurts me very much. But I can’t give up, I won’t give up. This just can’t happen, not like this.
I let go of my pillow and got up, ready to face the world. I got into my bathroom and got dress for school.
**
I opened my eyes, coming from a frustrating attempt of sleeping like I have done the past two days. MY eyes hurt, my head is pounding of tiredness, yet have no desire of sleeping, not until I have sorted out things with Niall and have him sleeping right next to me, warming my body with his, his huge hands in my waist, his lips on mine. Truth is, I missed him like crazy, but I didn’t call him or even have spoke to him in the past two days. I just can’t give in, it’s not my fault, the person who needs to apologize is him not me. I sat on bed and shoved back the hairs in my face.
Niall has been flying all day and arrived in London at eight o’clock. IF I want to pick him up, I have to get dressed. I’ll wait for him in his house and I’ll grab some starbucks too. I grabbed my phone that was charging in the bedside table and saw if I had any messages. I had one voice message from Niall.
“Hey! I miss you Princess! I’m leaving now to get to you! See you soon okay? Bye!”
I put back the phone in the bedside table and got up. It’s snowy today, well, we’re getting closer to Christmas so it’s normal to be like this. This weather hadn’t help my depression one bit as you can imagine. After all it is depressing and… white. It has been like this for three days already and I have nothing else to do besides looking out the window.
I moved my curtains. My yard was completely white! The swings me and M had put there yesterday for Jess and Ade to ride, connected to a branch of my tree, are completely covered with snow. The sky is white, it’s not snowing but the ground is covered with snow, two centimeters I estimate.
I hear a knocking of a door and immediately saw Maria, Adriana and Jessica running around the yard. All of them dressed in comfy and warm clothes. Good, because I do not want them sick. Jess and Ade just sat in the swings and Maria is pushing them alternatively. I put the curtain back in its place, with a proud smile in my face, and walked back to my wardrobe.
I opened it and took out my clothes. I grabbed a silk and transparent shirt, a red, wool, warm and long sleeved shirt and a pair of black pants. (http://data3.whicdn.com/images/52232507/tumblr_mi4s7zAmJJ1qldh9fo1_500_large.jpg) I got into the bathroom and looked at the mirror. I had greenish eyes today. I have to admit, I might be angry at Niall, but I’m happy he’s coming home (finally). I took a quick, warm shower to create some heat in my skin. I love to do this because the warmth goes to the clothes and it keeps you warm. I didn’t wash my hair though, plus, I washed my hair yesterday. I got out of the shower after I felt my skin burning under the hot, steaming water. I rushed to dress my clothes. It was, still, pretty opened to a day like this, but that’s why I love my beanies and jackets. I got out of my bathroom and got into a pair of red uggs.
I also grabbed a black red beanie and my black jacket that I love. I’ll explain why I love this jacket, it’s simple: It has ears. Yeah, the hood has bear ears, black, small bear ears. I got into the jacket and closed the buttons.
Before I left my room I grabbed my phone and my wallet and put it inside of one of my pockets. I grabbed the door knob and got out of my room. I think this season is the one my parents love the most because we can’t leave with short clothes. It’s impossible to do so and not freeze of hypothermia. When I got downstairs I rushed to grab my car keys and, before I left the house, I pulled my hood over my head, making the ears show above my hair.
I left the house. My red uggs marked my footsteps in the snow as I made my way till my sisters to say goodbye before I leave to Niall’s house. He should be there already when I get there, and I’m in a hurry because I really need to sort things out with him.
“Hello!” I said, sweetly.
Maria stopped pushing Adriana and Jess jumped out of her swing. To hug me.
“Hello big siss!” Jess said, in the usual good mood “Come play wit us!” Se asked
“I can’t love! I have to go talk to Niall! I’ll be back in a while okay? Maybe I’ll even be able to play with you before lunch!” She nodded and I kissed her forehead quickly “I just stopped to say hello and goodbye!” I said, now, I really, really have to go!” Jess let go of me
“When will you be back?” Maria asked
“Probably before lunch, but I make no promises! I need to have a long chat with Niall!” I said and I noticed concern in Marias’ eyes, immediately sparkling for information I would not give to her “Anyways, bye!” I waved
“Bye!” They said in unison and I left to my car.
I found the glass of my blue mini cooper covered with ice. I remember when I went to pick a car with my parents and my sisters. It was a day just like this, snowy. We walked into the car shop, the walls were made out of glass wich Ade loved right away. I remember looking around at every car, all of them seem too boring and lifeless and colorless. Till Jessica yelled
“Look Jo, that’s the car for you!” She pointed at a blue mini cooper with white stripes in the hood. Her eyes sparkling as much as mine did in a normal day.
I looked at the car and instantly loved it. It was full of color, one of my favorites actually, it had the color of the sky and that was enough to sell me. So basically, Jessica, the youngest sister, picked my car.
I smiled with the reminder and got in the car, driving towards Niall’s house. What would I say to him when I see him? I have no idea but I need to know talk to him and that’s final. He should be home already. His plane arrived at eight so He’s home for what? Two hours now? I stepped on it and drove till I got to the huge gate of his house. I parked my car and got out, walking to the huge gate. I rang the bell and soon, a voice that I knew well sounded, but it was not Niall’s.
“Who is it?” I hear a worried tone coming from Zayn’s mouth.
“It’s Johanna! Open up!” I begged
The gate opened and I got in, practically running till the door. I grabbed the door knob and opened the door. I heard loud voices coming from the living room so I just ran there. The voices ceased when I stepped in the room. Liam, Louis, Zayn and Harry were looking at me, worried. There was no sight of Niall anywhere.
“Shouldn’t you guys e in vacation?” I asked and shook my head. Focus on what’s important Johanna “Where is he?” I asked “I need to talk to him
“Johanna…” Zayn tried to fight the agony in his tone “Niall’s plane disappeared!”
And I fainted.

Notes

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