Punk Direction (Niall Horan love story)

“I love you too!” He said and I smiled “You understand that I am like this…” He pulled away to look at my eyes “…I have tattoos because of what happened! I’m fucked up Johanna and…” I cut him off
“You’re not … what you said!” I said “You just had troubles in your life, it’s not like it’s going to define who you are!” I explained and felt his grip on me tightening “Are you going to let them?” I asked
Niall looked at me with widened eyes. The blue eyes I loved so much were now trembling. What was he? Afraid I was going to leave him? I won’t! I love him to pieces, and he didn’t killed anybody, it was an accident. She chose to be in the car with him, she knew he was drunk, summing everything up, she was a crazy ass bitch. Yes, I called her a bitch.
I mean, who the hell do you think you are to like, almost rape him. He didn’t knew what he was doing. I bet that he wouldn’t do it if he was sober. She was the one who started all this things. I hate how her memory killed James and Niall’s soul. I saw it returning to him… slowly, but still, it returned! I like to think the cute Niall is the Niall before Mia…
“I killed her, why don’t you hate me?” He asked me
My eyes softened on his. I wanted nothing but hug him and comfort him till he realized it wasn’t his fault. He didn’t kill her. I smiled weakly
“You didn’t killed her Niall, it was an accident!” I explained “And I could never hate you because… I love you… Okay this sounded better in my head!” I frowned, getting a laugh from him.
This is the Niall I love and adore, the one who laughs, the one who’s able to light up a room just with his presence, not the scary, big Niall. I like that one two, I like the two personalities he has, but I like the cute one better. I leaned and kissed his soft pink lips.
“I just need you to forget all these things!” He said “I need you, by my side, always! Only now I remember why I used to go out every night to get laid. I never understood how lonely I was, even if it was always in front of me. I was searching for you!” He kissed my lips.
I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him more to me. His hands held my waist, pulling me up so my legs would eventually surround his waist. I did, and pulled him more to me. He took two steps back and my back immediately hit the mattress. I took one hand to his neck and pushed myself more up.
“I need you Johanna!” He said, resting his forehead against my cheek “I need you so much!”
“Then have me!” I said and he widened his eyes, pulling back to look at me in the eyes
“No! I’m not gonna ‘have you’ when I just told you this!” He shook his head negatively
“But…” He kissed me, preventing me from talking more.
“I want you, but not that way … yet!” He said and smiled.
I pouted and he laughed. I confess, I only pouted to make him laugh. I love his laugh, how good and just… gorgeous it is. He bit his lower lip when he looked at me and I swallowed.
“What are you thinking?” I asked nervously
“You know I didn’t use you right?” He asked and I swallowed
“Right!” I said
I understand he has his secrets, but I also know he’s not using me. Only a few people know about this, and I’m glad he trusted me enough to tell me. I know he loves me, I just think I’m insecure, I mean, I still don’t know why he’s with me. Of course he explained to me, but I’m starting to think I’m clingy. What if he decides to leave me? What if he gets tired of me?
“I can’t have enough of you!” He whispered and regained my attention
He smiled, still biting his lip and I felt myself blushing. Oh God! His hands made the shape of my body before he got to my thighs. He rubbed his hands up and down while his lips slowly made their way down my neck. What the hell was he doing to me? I’m totally different than I was a few months ago.
Niall’s hands grabbed my thighs and pushed them out of his waist. I frowned, what’s he doing? He turned me around so I was laid in one side. He jumped off me and laid next to me, wrapping one hand around my waist.
“You know I love you right?” I asked
“I know!” He whispered
“It’s not like it’s gonna change thanks to this Niall!” I turned to face him and looked him in the eyes
“It should! If you’re smart you should stay away from me!”
“Let’s assume that I’m not smart then! Because I don’t want to stay away from you, let alone the fact that I can’t neither!” I mumbled and he laughed, he laughed loudly
“Oh God, I must have done something good in my life to deserve you!” He said, his eyes sparkling with adoration
“You did!” I whispered, pushing myself more up so our lips were almost touching “You’re a good person!” I explained, still whispering “Just because of an accident happened…” I put my hands in his neck to make him look at me when he tried to look to the other side. I rested my forehead in his. “It was an accident! Hey, look at me!” I pleaded when his eyes moved to the wall of his room “Have I ever lied to you?” I asked when his eyes met mine! He shook his head negatively “I wouldn’t! I would never lie to you okay?” He nodded “When I say it’s not your fault… look at me!” I squealed when he tried to move his head again. He didn’t obey this time so I put one leg on the other side of his waist. That got his attention, and widened eyes too “It is not your fault! Got it?” He swallowed and nodded.
“Oh God, you have any idea how sexy you look on top of me?” He asked, biting his lip.
I blushed a bit and closed my eyes, a small smile resting in my lips, but then I remembered I was supposed to be on control over here.
“No!” I said and moved my hips forwards unintentionally to reposition myself. He hissed
“A lot!” He said, grabbing my waist, making me move back and forth once.
I put my hands in his shoulders. His eyes were slightly darker than before. I swallowed and he smiled, leaning to kiss my neck. I shivered and quickly my hands moved from his shoulders to his shirt. I slipped my hands under it and felt his torso under the shirt. Without thinking twice, I slipped myself under his shirt, avoiding his neck kisses.
“Wha…” Niall frowned and then laughed when he saw my head coming out of the shirts collar. “You’re crazy, you know that?” He asked and I smiled
“Crazy about you!” I said, putting one finger on the tip of his nose
Niall smiled brightly and hugged me over his shirt. I smiled and kissed his cheek cutely. He sighed and kissed my lips slowly, taking more time in one peck than necessary. I pulled away, frowning and he shrugged
“I have to go get a bath!” He said “But you go first!”
“Are you saying I smell?” I asked, frowning with a smile in my lips
“No, you need to relax so you can sleep better!” He explained, kissing my forehead where I’m sure a V was forming
“Okay!” I sighed, agreeing
I squirmed out of his shirt, making sure to leave a kiss in his chest before I left. I got up, and automatically pulled the end of the shirt down so Niall wouldn’t see anything. He laughed at me and I smiled shyly, walking to the bathroom. I closed the door behind me and took the shirt off my body. I examined my curves. They are back, full time. I opened the water and sighed. I took my hand to the clasp of the bra, opening it and then took my panties off too. I got inside the shower and closed my eyes, feeling the water running down my face.
I rubbed my own face and let the hot water relax my muscles. That’s what I need, to relax. I jumped slightly when I felt two hands wrapping around my waist.
“Niall?” I squealed, turning around
“Hi!” He smiled sexily and I blushed
I pulled myself from him and took several steps back till my back hit the wall. I wrapped an arm around my chest and tried to cover the rest of my body when Niall pressed his body on mine, grabbing both of my wrists and putting them up against the wall. I swallowed
“What are you doing here?” I whispered
“Taking a shower! Saving water! Helping the planet by saving water and not smelling!” He shrugged and I laugh.
I laughed loudly, narrowing my eyes and everything as the two cavities I had in the corner of my lips appear.
“That’s the sweetest sound ever!” He said and I opened my eyes.
Niall put a strand of my hair behind my ear and I blushed, leaning to kiss his cheek.
“You’re the sweetest thing ever then!” I said and he smiled.
His eyes were sparkling in mine and I couldn’t help but to feel intimidated of the intensity of his eyes. Those two orbs make me feel butterfly in my belly just from glancing at them, and the hand that was now in my naked waist made all my body numb. My own breathing was feeling itchy in my throat thanks to how fast my heart was beating.
“I’m the luckiest guy in the world!” He whispered, shamelessly looking at my naked body. I cringed in my place, trying to turn around a bit so he wouldn’t look at me “Why do you always insist on hiding?” He asked and I swallowed
“I know you saw a lot of other girls naked before… and I don’t think I’m the most perfect of them all!” I looked at my feet
“You’re not perfect!” I sighed, still looking at my feel. His thumb covered my chin and he made me look up to find him looking at me “But you’re the greatest thing that ever happened to me!” I could feel my eyes trembling “Even after you found out that I’m a murderer…” I snorted and Niall ignored “…you still kept true to me, you stayed here instead of running out of the house!” He sighed
“Of course I won’t run away! I won’t run away from the most important person in my life, would I?” I said, trying to lean to kiss him but he stopped me, I frowned
“I want to show you how beautiful you are! Can I?” He asked and I swallowed
How would I say no to those icy blue eyes? I can’t, they’re my weakness, that’s why I try not to stare at them, or even glance at them. I only closed my eyes and nodded my head eagerly. Niall kissed my cheek and I took all the air I could inside my lungs... What was he going to do to me?
His hands cupped my cheeks, freeing my wrists from his tightening and he pulled me to look at him. I took a deep breath. Even naked, he’s beyond gorgeous or handsome, or any other adjective man could ever come up with. This men I have in front of me is the most gorgeous person I have ever met in my entire life, and I think that even if I meet a hundred more, no one will ever compare to him.
“You have a mark right here!” He said, his thumb brushing dangerously close to my right eye “You have three actually, one here…” He said, poking the skin right next to my lashes “...another one here…” He said, touching under my eyes, right in the middle “…and the last one here!” He moved his finger again to a place really close to my nose “You have one inside your ear too you know?” I frowned “I saw it when you were sleeping!” He shrugged “You move a lot!” I giggled
“True!” He nodded
“Here!” His finger connected with the skin over my right lung! “This is my favorite of them all!” He sighed “Your birthmark… It’s in a heart shape!” I nodded, smiling shyly. How the heck did he know me this well? “How can someone be this… naïve, this… simple! I seriously don’t get you!” He said, like he was talking to himself and not to me “You seem to always pull me in even if you’re not supposed to, or don’t want it to happen… but you pull me like a magnet… And I crawl right by your side, cause that’s where I want to stay!” I smiled, blushing and wrapped my arms around his neck
“You better do!” I said and he laughed
“Amazing sense of humor!” He stated “One of the sexiest things a girl can possibly have!” I blushed harder, looking down… And by down I mean between our glued bodies “Shyness, and naivety, although you were surrounded by people talking about sex all your life, and by people I mean Danny!” I giggled “The sweetest sound always comes out of your lips when you laugh, or when you giggle, or even when you’re dreaming. You mumble a lot, and you said my name already!” I shyly smiled at him “You have a face of an angel!” he made me look up at him with a little help of his thumb “And you’re so different from me! You’re the nicest and altruistic person I have ever met in my entire life, and believe me, I met a lot of people. Your nickname should be superwoman!” I frowned
“I don’t have a nickname!” I frowned
“I gave you one already…” I looked at him, confused “…in my head, your nickname is speedy!”
“Why?” I asked´
“Because of how quickly you can reach your orgasm or make me reach mine!” I stiffened and looked at Niall.
He was biting his lower lip, trying to contain a laud laugh. Holy Shit, I love him! And sorry for the swearing and all. I thought about the nickname taking a hand to my lip to play with it. I always do this when I’m thinking! Speedy… It doesn’t sound awful to someone that’s not the both of us, but the explanation has to strict to us and only us
“Speedy hu?” I asked, keeping my eyebrow raised while looking at him “I think I can call you what… Mr. Bad Boy?” He laughed
“I prefer Mr. Badass please!” I pouted
“Shoot, I’m no good with this!” He laughed loudly and I grinned hugely when hearing him “And you say my laugh is the sweetest sound!” I rolled my eyes, wrapping my arms around him again, kissing his lips.
From a small peck, we went to a true kiss in seconds, but I won’t complain about it, never in my life. Niall pushed me more against the wall. As my hands traveled down his shoulders to his biceps, I could feel how much strength he has to have to have arms so big. His grip in my waist was getting tighter and I can’t say I wanted to complain about it. Our feet were almost touching and every part of our bodies were connected. Well, almost every part of our bodies.
Niall growled when the environment started to get hotter between us. I needed air quickly, and by the way Niall’s actions were getting sloppier, I can tell he needed too. I pulled back to breath but the second I manage to pull air inside, his lips connected to mine again.
I gave a small push from the ground, wrapping my legs around his waist. Niall’s grip seemed to get tighter and tighter by every second, I have no idea wha was happening, but I knew I was liking it. The warm water was only making my body’s temperature go up and the fact that we’re both naked under the same shower, skin in skin, I can’t say I hate it, because I don’t.
“I’ll try two!” He whispered.
I froze. What? Niall opened his eyes exactly at the same time I opened mine. He gave me another peck and changed my weight to only one of his hands, sliding his arms under my body. I put my hands in his shoulders to support myself.
“Niall… what…?” He cut me off
“Shhh!” He said, kissing my lips again
I felt Niall’s thumb teasing me and I stiffened. The last time we tried this, it was a bit uncomfortable for me. I think he knew that, and he wanted to see if I was more comfortable with it now. I know he likes this, and I want to make sure I please him.
“T-Two?” I asked and he gave me one firm nod “B-But…” He cut me off
“Calm down okay! It’ll be easier that way!” I nodded “Take a deep breath!” He said and I nodded again
I took a deep breath, but truth is, I wasn’t relaxed at all. What if I don’t like it? What if I feel uncomfortable again? So much what if’s… I don’t even know what to do. His thumb kept teasing my core and I could start feeling something wet between my legs.
“Why two?” I blurted out
Niall let all the air in his lungs come out and looked down. I did the same and well, let’s just say I understood why he wanted to try the two fingers.
“I need to get you prepared you know! If you still want to…” I cut him off
“I want to!” I gave him a nod “And if you think it’s for the best, then it’s for the best!” He nodded and kissed me, right before two fingers entered my core.
I took a deep breath, wanting to yell but Niall’s lips kept me from doing so. I couldn’t correspond well to his kiss, not as good as I wanted to anyways. He noticed that, maybe that’s why he kept our lips connected. He moved his fingers, up and down.
And he kept moving them, slowly, but he still did. I moaned against his lips, wich only made Niall slow the speed even more. What? I tried to move my hips to tip him I wanted him to go faster and he smiled against my lips.
He started moving his finger more quickly and I moving my hips unconsciously. I had no idea of what to do, but I knew it still felt a bit uncomfortable. I tightened my grip around his neck and buried my head in his neck, my cold nose despise the temperature of the water, going up and down his aortic vein according to the movements he made with his fingers. I bit his shoulder when he turned even faster and Niall sucked on his own teeth, but kept going.
“Don’t…” Niall tried to say “… Oh God, I can almost imagine myself inside you!” I blushed crazily and hugged him tighter.
If someone told me I was going to be doing this two months ago, I think I would laugh in their face. But this is different, and Niall… Well, Niall’s Niall, and he’s the guy I love. I squirmed, desperate for more when everything tightened even more. I felt cold in the pit of my stomach and everything went black for a few seconds. Wow!
I slowly, only being capable of seeing the basics, let myself run down the wall, my back against it. I sat, trying to gain my composure again.
“That was great Speedy!” Niall said, and I looked up to see him smiling. It looked like he was te only thing I could see… and let me tell you one thing…
He. Was. Hard. Holy Hell… I swallowed, and took a better look at him, from head to toe. His hairs were soaked thanks to the water that was still running between the both of us, blond hairs touching his forehead. His whole face had traces of the warm water, some dripping from his nose as he sucked on his teeth and shook his head, making the drops of water in his hairs jump everywhere. His eyes sparkled big time, and a visible mark of teeth was seeable in his shoulder. I smiled at myself and kept examining his body.
The pair of arms that were before wrapped around me were now relaxed. I didn’t want to go anywhere down his defined torso, because I know I’ll blush. Niall squashed in front of me and kissed my nose, pulling me to him. His back rested against the wall as mine rested against him. One of his hands were wrapped around my waist and I made sure I wasn’t going anywhere near his erection while naked… Things could go wrong!
“Did you know that your nipple is connected with your crotch?” He asked and I was about to answer when he pulled my nipple.
It was true, I felt that in my crotch. I grabbed his hand. One round was enough for me today. I leaned my head against his chest as Niall laughed, and now I understood how I completely forgot about everything while he was with me. He’s my escape, he really is.
“You’re my escape from the world you know?” I said, leaning my head to look at him
“I hope so, cause you’re mine!” He said, kissing the tip of my nose and I blushed
I smiled, feeling capable enough of getting up. I grabbed Niall’s hands and he immediately mad strength to help me get up. I pulled him up next. He looked at me from my eyes to my toes, his eyes sparkling with something… Admiration? Love? I have no idea, but it was making me melt in my place.
“You’re so gorgeous!” I smiled shyly
“No I’m not! You are!” I said and Niall hugged me
“I love you, you know?” I nodded
“You know I love you too right?” I asked and he nodded
“But I love you no matter who you are okay?” I frowned “Just tell me you understood! I don’t care where you come from, if you have money or not… I love you for you okay? Nothing Is ever going to change that oaky?” He asked, holding my shoulders and making me look at him. I swallowed and nodded
What the hell was happening? Why the sudden change of spirit? I seriously don’t get this boy. He seems confusing and bipolar sometimes. He grinned and kissed my lips. Then, he grabbed the body cream and put a bit in his hands, rubbing them against each other next.
He took a step in my direction, putting both of his hands in my neck. He rubbed his hands up and down and then he rubbed my shoulders and my scapulas. My arms were next. I admit, his hands on me feel great. No, great is an understatement. I love when he puts his hands on me. The roughness of his fingertips contrasts with the softness of his actions. It’s just… amazing. He rubbed my stomach with the cream next and then went up, and I stiffened.
I know it’s stupid and I don’t need to be reticent with this, but I still feel a bit shy about showing my body to him, and let him touch me freely. But I needed to push those thought to the back of my mind, and that’s what I did. Niall didn’t tease me, he just rubbed them with cream, gently so he wouldn’t hurt me or anything. He was so thoughtful that I smiled at him, my eyes sparkling.
He leaned and kissed my lips before his hands turned to my thighs, grabbing my right one and lifting it so he would could clean it without kneeling in front of me. I blushed immediately and Niall laughed, shaking his head negatively. He rubbed my leg from the feet to the crotch, making circles with his thumbs, what seemed to end the pain in my legs… Wait, how did he know my legs were hurting?
He repeated the same with the other leg and then there was only one spot left. He looked at me with an eyebrow raised, like asking for permission. I gave him a nod and he put his hand under my belly button, slowly going down. He cleaned the place between my thighs that seemed rather sticky and then the rest of me. Again, he didn’t tease me, he just cleaned me up.
When he was done, he raised his palms and I giggled, leaning to kiss his nose. I grabbed the body cream too, and put some in my hands. I wanted to wash him too. I palmed his chest, applying the cream in his chest till it created foam and then I went up to his shoulders, kissing my teeth mark before I washed it. I washed his neck too and then went down his arms, grabbing his hands and cleaning them too. Niall laughed at me, but I didn’t want him to have any of my juices in his fingers. I kneeled down and cleaned his thighs too, his muscular, pale thighs. Going up slowly.
When I reached his crotch, I stopped. I had no idea of what to do now. I swallowed, angry at myself for being such a prude. I wanted to do the same to him he did to me, but I couldn’t. I snorted and looked at Niall.
“You want me to do it?” I nodded, looking down.
Niall grabbed my chin and made me look up at him. I blushed thanks to the position and Niall smiled. I wanted to please him too, I didn’t want him to think that I didn’t plus, we both know I need some work in these things. He just won’t admit it, but I know I do. I leaned to capture him with my mouth when Niall pushed my head back a bit.
“What are you doing?” He asked
“I want …” He cut me off
“You don’t need to!” I nodded
“But I want to!” It was his time to nod now
I leaned and captured him with my mouth. The hand that was holding my chin shivered and Niall took it from me immediately, pushing them away from my body. I started moving back and forth. Niall bit his lip to keep a moan, but both of us knew he wanted to moan.
Suddenly, his hands landed on both of the sides of my face, grabbing right under my jaw and I widened my eyes, choking. Niall pulled back immediately and I coughed loudly. I swallowed and coughed again, looking up once finished.
“Sorry, sorry!” I said but he only smiled, shaking his head negatively
I took him in my mouth again after I took a deep breath and immediately started to move again. Niall’s hands landed in my jaws again but I didn’t got scared this time. I let him have his way. I kept moving but his fingers dove in the space behind my jaw, making me stop.
“Open your mouth more!” He growled and I obeyed.
He started to move his hips back and forth, slowly pushing me behind till my back was against the wall. Once they were, he moved his hips against me as I tried to open my mouth as much as I can. As if we had rehearsal this, we both opened our eyes at the same time.
I noticed he was biting his lip as he moved against me, but once his eyes met mine, he let his lip lose from the captivity. His movements got slower and sloppier.
“Don’t look at me like that!” He said and I frowned. I wanted to ask how I was looking at hi, but I obviously couldn’t “Your innocence does bad things to me!” he growled and soon enough, he let go out of my mouth.
He was still looking at me, but he pulled me up before he came , making me stand in front of him. I swallowed before his lips came in contact with mine, but when they did, I pulled him closer.
“I need to clean myself again now!” Niall aid and I laughed, nodding.
I stood under the shower so the rest of the foam would go away. While he cleaned himself again, I applied the shampoo over my head. And as I washed my hair, I realized I could get used to this, taking a shower with him. I liked it, a lot!
Once I was done, I turned to Niall who was just starting to wash his hairs.
“I’ll just get dressed okay? I’ll be waiting for you in bed!” He wiggled his eyebrows and I giggled “Not like that!” he pouted and I kissed his nose “See you in a bit!”
I got out of the shower and grabbed a towel the second I could, wrapping it around me. I walked out of the bathroom, closing the door behind me and walking to Niall’s bedside table. I opened a drawer and took a pair of white boxers out, getting in them after I cleaned the water drops in my body. I saw a shirt Niall had put over the bed and dressed it, getting under the covers immediately after I pulled my hair in a pony tail.
The covers were still warm, like the warmth was kept there, I closed my eyes. I strangely felt more relaxed and also exhausted. Maybe he knew that I needed to feel exhausted. I quickly changed to a ghostly mood as I kept my eyes closed. I could hear movement by my side, and suddenly, Niall’s body joined mine in bed, keeping me even hotter. I mumbled and Niall laughed by my ear
“Sleep princess, just know that I love you!” I only had strength to smile vaguely before I fell asleep

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