Punk Direction (Niall Horan love story)

I woke up missing something. Warmth. I was alone in bed. I moved around and opened my eyes to see if Niall was there or not. He wasn’t. I frowned, blinking more to make the small blur in the corner of my eyes to disappear. I wasn’t happy to find that I was indeed alone.
I sat in be, using my hands to support in bed. It took a while until my ears functioned properly, but when they did, I heard someone talking close to me. I frowned when a sudden breeze flashed through me, steeling the small amount of warmth that was still in my body.
I cringed in bed and hugged myself, letting my back rest against the headboard of bed. I tried to concentrate in the voice I was hearing.
“Yes Sir!” I knew that voice, that slurry Irish accent wasn’t new to me. “Yes, I’ll take care of her!” He said “And the other girls?” He asked “Okay sir, I’m going to wake her up for school then!” He informed the person in the other side of the phone conversation he was having.
I got up from bed and, still hugging myself, I walked towards the place where his voice came from. The window was open, the white curtains moving with the wind. We had sun today and a clear sky, wich wasn’t something that happened very often. I saw a silhouette behind the see-through fabric.
Niall!
He was only wearing boxers, black ones. How isn’t he cold? One of his hands held the phone while the other one held the handrail of the balcony. His hairs were a mess, like he just got out of bed, wich in fact he might have indeed. His nude back were flexed and his muscles were noticeable from afar, his biceps too. If I told you that he looked good with only his boxers on, I would be using a euphemism. He was awesome with only his boxers on. The way only one of his legs was flexed, the other one relaxed made his bum even more seeable, if it wasn’t seeable already.
“Okay sir!” He said.
I pushed the curtains behind, my small feet making an almost unbearable noise once they touched the cold cement floor. I took small steps towards him. The view was astonishing behind him. Besides a blue sky, we had a view over a very big and beautiful garden that probably belonged to one of his neighbors’. The pool was Niall’s and the small rays of sunshine reflected in the water.
“I will Sir! I wish she can get better sir! You and Ms. Skyes should so home to rest, I can go over there if you want!” He is talking to my dad? “I don’t have any commitments today!” He announced “After leaving Johanna, Maria and Adriana in school I’ll pop over there!” He waited for an answer “No Sir, I don’t mind at all!” I smiled and took the remaining steps towards him, wrapping my hands around his waist. He stiffened at first, but he relaxed when he felt my cheek resting on the back of his right shoulder “Yes sir! I’ll tell her how thing are going! Bye sir!” And he hanged up
“Hi!” I sweetly said
“Hello!” He said and I smiled, planting a kiss in his shoulder “Are you ready for school?” He asked and I groaned
“No!” I said, tightening my grip around him. He laughed
“You weren’t like this before you met me!” He said, turning around against my will. I rested my head in his chest now
“I wasn’t many things before I met you!” I stated “Thing is, I don’t want to go back to the previous me!” He kissed the top of my head, taking longer than necessary
“I don’t think that’s good munchkin!” He said with an upset voice
“Oh God, don’t ruin my happiness!” I told him sternly
“You’re happy?” He asked me
“At least I was, like, three seconds ago!” I said, giggling at his raised eyebrow. I leaned to kiss his cheek “Last night was… hum… different!” I whispered
“Sure it was!” He said, and I smiled “I can’t wait to have you for myself!” He whispered and I felt everything in me tremble. My legs, my arms, my fingers, my feet even my freaking brain. But what I noticed the most was the feeling I got beneath my belly button. Oh God, he’s going to be the death of me!
“Thank you!” I said and he frowned “For tiring me so I could sleep!” He grinned and I kissed his nose, leaning even more afterwards so I could kiss his forehead
“Need help?” He asked, his hands finding a way to slip under my shirt to hold my butt so I could be higher. I kissed his forehead and smiled
“You’re taking advantage of me!” I said, pouting
“It’s not taking advantage if you’re my girlfriend!” He said and I smiled, wrapping my hands around his neck, brining his lips to mine
It was only a peck, a simple, chaste peck that took longer than necessary in a normal day. Niall squeezed my bum in his hands, making me gasp, and he took the advantage to explore my mouth with his tongue once a gap was opened. A lot of feelings ran through my body, but the one that was more noticeable was love, adrenaline being just behind.
I pulled him closer, closing the small space between us. My legs wrapped around his waist so I could hold on to him more and my hands quickly found their way to his neck, slowly massaging his hairs. I moaned in his mouth when Niall squeezed my bum again. I bit his lower lip, pulling it to me while looking in his eyes. I gave it a small bit in the end as a small revenge for him squeezing my bum and he laughed once we were apart.
“You’re gorgeous, you know that?” I asked, looking adoringly at him
I had the notion that my eyes sparkled while I looked at his gorgeous face. Niall had bags under his big blue eyes, sure, but that was because he worked too hard for his own sake. Still, those weren’t able of stealing his beauty in an amazingly large amount. His blue eyes sparkled so intensely I thought I could get blind, and the smile he was giving me made my heart jump and my stomach do back flips, a thing I could even do myself. His messy hairs were even messier now thanks to me, and his lips slightly swollen, again, thanks to me.
“You’re taking me and my sisters to school?” I asked and he nodded, kissing my forehead “Where are they?” I asked, biting my lower lip, feeling guilty I didn’t care about them last night
“Maria is at her best friends house, and so is Adriana! You don’t have to worry love, they’re fine!”
“And Jess?” I asked, taking a deep breath and hiding my nose in Niall’s neck wich was possible because he was holding me still, and my legs were still wrapped around his waist
“She still in the hospital! I’m replacing your mom and dad there for the entire morning and afternoon maybe! They need to rest too! Your dad sounded exhausted!” Niall said, his nose touching my neck as well as he tightened his grip on me once more
“What were you talking about?” I asked
“Well, your dad doesn’t want you alone in the house! He’s afraid you collapse due to stress, so he asked me if I could take care of you for an entire week!” He explained. I felt outraged.
I. AM. NOT. STRESSING!
I never stress! Taking a deep breath so I could calm down, I kissed Niall’s neck, taking in his scent. It worked for calming me down, that’s for sure.
“I said yes!” Niall amusedly said and I giggled a bit, grinning
“I’m glad you did!”
Sure I don’t stress, but I wouldn’t trust myself with my sisters neither this week, not thanks to stress, but thanks to how upset I am because all of this happened. I would probably have so many space outs I would forget to get my sisters, I wouldn’t talk to them, I would look like a dead man… in this case woman but still, and I would probably ignore them. Not because I wanted to of course, but because when I’m worried, my space outs are so frequent and so strong that I normally skip big periods of time without noticing. When I’m lost in my own world, I ignore people unintentionally. It’s best for them to be with their friends, and it’s best for me to be with my boyfriend who can take everything out of my head for how long he wants to.
“Today I’ll drive the three of you, the other days they’ll go with their friends!” I pulled back
“Wait, why?” I asked
“Because you need to pack a bag with your stuff so we don’t have to go to your house every morning, like we need to do today!” He said and I smiled “Go get some pants on so we can leave!”
“Okay!” I said, waiting for him to let go of me. I waited half a minute, nothing happened besides a frown plastering in Niall’s face. I frowned back. What’s wrong? “Niall?” I shook my hands in front of his eyes, but he didn’t respond “Niall?” I pinched his cheek and he woke up, blinking “What were you thinking?” He stiffened
“I was reviewing my routine!” He said, putting me down
“Hum… Okay!” I said
I didn’t actually believe what he was telling me, but I wasn’t in the mood to fight, not today anyways! I turned my back at him and walked inside
“Johanna?” He before I could get inside the room
“Yes?” I answered
“I love you no matter what okay?” He said and I smiled, a blush creeping to my cheeks. I nodded
“Okay!” I said, nodding
I turned around and got inside the room. I opened his wardrobe to find my skinny jeans perfectly folded in two, sanding over one of his shirts. I grabbed the skinny jeans and the shirt underneath it, putting them over the bed after I closed the wardrobe’s door. I stripped off my shirt, and got inside the white one that had black letter in front. Only when I was inside of it I noticed my braw was showing and part of my chest too. I looked down to see the black words. They formed two words ‘Crazy Mofo’.
I heard a loud laugh and looked behind to see Niall leaning against the windows frame.
“I always loved that shirt!” He said “Now I love it more, cause it’s in you, you know!” I blushed a bit, looking at the ground, the tip of my toe making circles over the light wood that composed the ground of the bedroom.
“I never saw one like this!” I said “Where did you bought it?” I asked
“I didn’t!” He said, jumping on bed, making it squeak
“What do you mean?” I asked, grabbing my skinny jeans and putting them on
“I had it made!” He said “You see, ‘Crazy Mofos’ is the name of the group of fans who love me more than the guys!” I frowned “Normally it’s because of our personality, but all of us have our small groups! Then there are the ones who love us all unconditionally!” He explained, a smile on his lips
This really was his dream, and I can tell he’s happy. Hey, if he’s happy, I’m happy! I buttoned the skinny jeans and put the shirt over them. I let my hair hand free as I saw the brown curls falling over my shoulders
“You’re absolutely gorgeous!” Niall whispered
“No I’m not!” I said, playing with a strand of my hair
“You are!” He argued, getting up, still only wearing his boxers and made his way towards me, hugging me “And you’re mine too!” I nodded against his neck
“Now, get dressed. Chop-Chop!” I told him, smacking his bum playfully.
The laugh and smiled that followed made my breath ache in my throat and heart picked up a rhythm so fast that I wandered if he could heard it. I smiled back, weakly, his smile overpowering my strongest needs.
“I will!” He said and kissed my forehead, letting go of me
“Can I borrow a jacket?” I asked and Niall rolled his eyes
“Are you seriously asking me that question after taking one of my shirts without asking?” He said and I laughed
“Yes!” I said
“Well, you should know by now, that everything that I own you can use and take!” He said and I nodded, smiling
I opened the wardrobe and took out a gray wool jacket, pulling it over my arms. When I turned around, I saw Niall had his jeans on already. I pulled half zipper up and walked over to the door
“I’ll be waiting downstairs okay?”
“Okay love!” He said “I’ll be ready in two minutes maybe!”
I nodded and turned around, leaving the room and closing the door behind me. I walked downstairs slowly, directing to the kitchen after so I could have something to drink since my throat was terribly dry.
I put a cup over the kitchen’s island and opened the fridge next, pulling a bottle of water and pouring a bit in my glass. I put the bottle back and jumped over the island, sitting on it, my legs swinging back and forth to create a movement that could easily distract me from my own thoughts. I started humming a song and soon enough, I heard Niall calling me.
“Coming!” I said back, putting the glass on the sink so I could wash it latter.
“Ah, there you are!” He said, grabbing my hand and pulling me to the door “Put these on will you!” He told me, handing me a pair of sunglasses. I frowned and put them on “It’s always hard at first!” He mumbled under his breath, opening the door
I wasn’t prepared for what came next. An enormous number of people were waiting for us on the other side of the gate. I swallowed and Niall squeezed my hand for support.
“You alright?” He asked and I nodded
Now I get why he gave me the sunglasses. Probably so my eyes wouldn’t get hurt. I knew he had to deal with this almost every day of his life, so he must have been okay with it, but me…? My parents are famous, I’m not! I saw a few flashes around us, sure, but never this much.
There are almost thirty people outside, all screaming and yelling and suddenly, I froze. How are we going to get to the car without being squeezed by them? I started to panic only from the thought of it happening. Once I was in a car with my family and we had a big car ride. Jessica wasn’t born yet, but Maria and Adrianna had. I was ten and they were really … let’s say, active. They moved a lot, and in every curve the car gave, half of Maria’s body was over mine without my consent.
I panicked, but instead of crying loudly, I did it silently until we got out of the car so I wouldn’t scare my dad and end the possibility of having a car crash. I think my neighbors thought I was crazy by the way I was crying. I was inconsolable and if people tried to get close to me it would get worst. I can’t have someone pressed against me without my consent or I’ll panic. And it won’t be pretty let me tell you.
“Johanna, breathe!”Niall said, squeezing my hand, his eyes carrying wariness
“B-But…!” he cut me off
“We’ll get through this okay?” He said.
I knew he was claustrophobic too, so there was only the explanation he was being courageous for me. I’m thankful for that, because if the two of us freaked out, I would probably have a much bigger panic attack
“Ready?” He asked
“Not really, no!” I said as we reached the gate and Niall gave me a weak smile
“Think about good things! Think about me, your sisters, your parents, food… It works with me when I’m close to have a panic attack!” He explained “Okay?”
“Okay!” I nodded and he opened the gate.
Now, I was expecting them to ask questions about me and Niall, not about me and my sister but that’s what they did. I heard it all. I was asked if she was better, I was asked in what state she was in… I was asked if she was going to die! That question froze me and there I stood in the middle of thirty photographers and journalists who are asking me if my little sister is going to die
“Love!” Niall called, nudging my side
“I-I…I…”
“Shhh! Relax Johanna, breathe!” He said and I swallowed, obeying him “She’s going to be fine! I promise you she’s going to be okay!” I nodded and kept walking with him till his car, always followed by the photographers.
I tried to make my ears def, but it was really hard. I wanted to be blind too thanks to the flashes and all I wanted is to go back inside. Although that would be counterproductive so I just wanted to get inside the black Range Rover waiting for us in the street.
When we managed to get closer to the car, Niall opened the door for me and I got in. He immediately closed it and ran to the other side, getting in immediately
“Niall…” I called
“I know love, I know!” He said and i grabbed his hand, intertwining our fingers
He leaned to kiss my forehead and I closed my eyes, feeling the soft skin of his pink, thin lips pressing against my skin.
“She’s going to be fine. I’ll text you every half hour telling you how she is and I’ll even call you if you want to hear her voice okay?” He spoke against my forehead
“Okay!” I nodded. What is it with us and ‘Okay’ now?
He pulled away, placing his hands over the wheel and started the car, driving toward my house. Saying that I did okay was a euphemism… Another one. But I was so concentrated on the questions that I didn’t actually had time to panic.
Music managed to relax me enough so when I reached my house, I was capable of not being stiff when I got out of the car. I opened the door and jumped out, closing the door of Niall’s car. I was happy to see my lawn was clear of paparazzi.
I waited for Niall and when he grabbed my hand, I started to walk inside. I opened the already unlocked door only to find Ms. Parris, mother of Maria’s best friend, sat in the stairs, waiting.
“Oh Johanna dear…” She stopped when she saw Niall. This again? Seriously?
“Yes Ms. Parris?” I coldly asked, pulling her out of her transe
“I’m glad you’re home dear!” She laughed nervously
“For God sakes, he’s not going to kill you!” I snapped
“NIALL!” We heard Maria yelling from the second floor, she ran down the stair and jumped at Niall, hugging him. Is it too bad if I suddenly got jealous?
“Hello M!” He said, putting her down and grabbing my hand again
“How are you crazy head?” She asked me
“I’m… holding on!” I explained “You?”
“Good! Ms. Parris made everything to relax me!” She gestures towards her, but I couldn’t feel a drop of gratefulness towards her, only a bit of anger from the way she looked at Niall. Still, she took care of Maria, so I guess I’ll try to forget that
“Thank you Ms. Parris!” I said
“Anytime dear!” She smiled truthfully and I nodded
“Where’s Adriana?” I asked
“She’s packing her things, you’re the last one here!” She said and I nodded
“Well, thank you for everything Ms. Parris, I got everything in control now!” I said
“Okay dear! If you need anything…” She said, giving Niall ‘the look’ “…just call me!” I bit my cheek, trying not to talk back to her
“Okay, thanks!” I said and she left “Oh My God, I want to kill that woman!” I said loudly and Maria laughed, dragging Niall along
“Calm down love!” Niall said, hugging me and I took a deep breath
“Okay, okay!” I said “Ade!” I called, pulling away from Niall
“Yeah?” She answered from the second floor
“Come eat breakfast!” I said
“I’ll be down in a minute!” She sai
I walked to the kitchen with them behind me and pulled the bread out, ready to make toasts. We had no croissants’ since my dad wasn’t around to go grab them. I put the toaster on and pulled the orange juice out of the fridge. I set everything in a plate and gave them the toasts, putting glasses in front of them too along with the bottle of juice.
“I’ll be back in a second!” I said, grabbing a toast and putting it on my mouth as I ran upstairs. I walked pass Adriana who smiled weakly and kept walking
Once I got into my room, I grabbed my back pack and my former P.E bag. I put my books in my backpack and my pants of the uniform and the second pair of white shirt, along with some other clothes might need and got my school uniform on.
I was using the skirt today, so I pulled off my skinny jeans and put my skirt on, opening the wool jacket next and taking off both jacket and shirt. I put the white shirt on, along with the red cardigan and grabbed the sneakers. I needed to be quick in order to get to school in time.
Once finished, I grabbed my bags and ran downstairs, planting them close to the door. I walked into the kitchen where I found Niall washing the dishes and Adriana and Maria sat, looking at him.
“Girls… a guest is never allowed to help do anything!” I said
“He told us he was a regular now!” Adriana said “So he volunteered and didn’t let us say no!”
I looked at Niall who only shrugged and smiled, cleaning his hands in a towel after washing the dishes.
“So, everyone ready?” I asked, walking out the kitchen and being followed by them
“Yes Johanna!” Maria answered
“Get your bags and go to the car please!” I said and they nodded, grabbing their bags and getting out of the house
“You’re too nervous Johanna!” Niall said, wrapping his arms around me by behind
“I know!” I whispered as his lips rested in the upper part of my head
“You need to forget this okay? Just let it go, enjoy your day with Danny!” I smiled at the mention of my best friends’ name
“I love you!” I said, resting back against him and putting my hands over his in my stomach.
“You better do! I worked too much for you to not love me!” He said and I giggled, turning around
“You didn’t have to work that much though!” I smiled, leaning to kiss his nose
“I know right?!” He happily said and I laughed
“Cocky hu?” I giggled, pulling him out the door
“All the time love!” He said “I get to be if I have you by my side!”
I smiled and opened the car door to get inside. First, we had to let Adriana off at school, and then Maria. I smiled at them, looking back. I needed to be stronger than my panic attacks, or my anxiety, I needed to be strong for my family, and God knows I want to be.
Niall got inside and started to drive, turning the music up so there wasn’t an uncomfortable silence between all of us. I mentally thanked him for that. He grabbed my hand, putting it under his in the wheel. I smiled sweetly
“God I wish I was like you guys!” Maria mumbled
“He doesn’t have the age to drive yet sweetie!” I told her, making Adriana frown with confusion
“What are you talking about?” She asked
“Nothing!” Me, Maria and Niall said at the same time, making Adriana chuckle
“Alright, you guys are being so weird!” She rolled her eyes, laughing afterwards. I stiffened
“Since when do you roll your eyes?”
“Isn’t this a thing now?” Oh My God
“Don’t roll your eyes at anyone Adriana! I’m not kidding!” I said sternly
“O-Okay!” She swallowed
It was okay for me and Maria to do it, but if Adriana starts doing it now, it will be hard for me to take it back later on. I’m only concerned about her education and politeness, I’m not being mean, and they both know it.
“Alright love!” I said when Niall parked the car “You want me to take you inside?” I asked and she nodded “C’mon!” I said, jumping off the car and opening her door so she could get out
She grabbed her backpack and was about to grab the one with her clothes when I stopped her
“Leave it, I’ll go to Aileen’s house and give it to you!” I said. I much rather drive around town than have them with back aches thanks to this. Just clearing things out, Aileen is Ade’s best friend
“Thanks! Bye M, bye Niall!” She waved at both of them and closed the door.
“C’mon love!” I said, walking by her side towards the door, my hand in her back.
I knocked and the teacher immediately came, taking her in after I kissed her forehead and explained why she couldn’t roll her eyes. I explained to her how Danny always used to do it and one day she got detention. Ade wants to be a lawyer and she knows she can’t have any type of flaws in her record. I have no idea how she knows already, but I know I’m the only one who’s having a regular pay-check, they’re the ones who’re going to end up with big houses and stuff. Still, I wouldn’t change my opinion about the job I want for myself.
I kissed her forehead when she nodded, and sent her away. I returned to the car and got inside, putting the seatbelt on. Niall started driving immediately
“What did you told her?” Maria asked
“I told her the Danny story!” Niall frowned when both me and Maria started to laugh
“What Danny story?” He asked
“Well, in eighth grade, we had a really, really mean teacher and Danny hated him! He picked a lot on her and once she couldn’t take it anymore! So one day, she forgot her book at home and he was all like ‘Where’s your book Mrs. Michelson?’”
“What did she say?” Niall asked
“Danny rolled her eyes and said ‘At home!’ and he asked ‘Well, what is it doing there?’. She rolled her eyes again and said ‘Having more fun than me!” I started laughing uncontrollably, remembering how it all happened “It was hilarious! But I just told Ade the part where she rolled her eyes, not what she said, God knows what can happen!”
They both started to laugh, making em do the same right after. When we stopped, we were next to Maria’s school.
“Let’s go before you get late!” I said, opening the door
“Johanna…” Niall called
“I know!” I said, reading his mind… Well, not literally, but I know he’s afraid of Jasper, he doesn’t need to be
“You want me to…” I cut him off
“No! You’ll see me all the time, there’s no need to stress okay?” He nodded
I closed the door and walked with Maria by my side. She smiled at some people and ran to her boyfriend once she saw him. I waved at him and he did the same, smiling back. I need to invite him over one day, or out… like the four of us.
I started making my way to Niall’s car when someone grabbed my arm and pulled me to a hidden corner of the school’s property. The hand was tight in my arm, making me squeal in pain
“Let me go!” I yelled
“Hi Johanna!” Oh God, not again
“What do you want Jasper?” I asked, getting lose form his grip and turning to face him
“You and me, out Friday night!” I raised my eyebrows and then laughed sarcastically
“Jasper, c’mon! This is getting old. I have a boyfriend and even if I didn’t, I wouldn’t go out with you!” I spat and he smiled
“You see love, you have no choice!” I frowned
“Hell, yes I do! It’s my life, I get to chose who I go out with!” I said, turning my back at him “And I wouldn’t choose you!” I was about to walk around and he pulled my arm back again
“You want your sister alive don’t you?” He growled “Well, I’m the solution!” I widened my eyes
“Oh no!” I whimpered
“Yes baby girl, me and your sister have the same type of blood!” He gave me a discussing smile “And I’ll make a donation to her specifically if you go out with me!” I swallowed
I looked back at the driveway where Niall’s car was parked. My loving boyfriend was inside… the love of my life was waiting for me. I knew he wasn’t going to like this, but what other choice do I have, she’s my sister, blood of my blood, and if a dinner will make her stay alive and breathing, hell, I’ll go!
“Deal!” I said, closing my eyes, extending my hand for him to shake “If…” I pulled back before he could touch me “…you promise to not hurt me! I swear Jasper, I know who you are, where you live, who your family is… I’ll have the police hunting you down if you touch me without my authorization!” I threatened, looking in his eyes
“Deal sweetheart! I won’t touch you without your consent!” I nodded, extending my hand for him to shake.
And he did. After that I walked to Niall’s car and got inside, sitting in my bench, my hands tightening the sides, my small nails almost diving into the stuffing of the bench
“Are you okay Joanna?” Niall asked me, showing the loving and caring side
“Yes!” I said and he offered me a stern look “We’ll talk latter, now we both have places we need to be!”
He nodded, his lips tightening so much they formed a thin line and started driving. How the hell am I going to get through this without getting my relationship ruined?

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