You were wonderful." He smiles and plants a sloppy kiss onto my lips.

---

We lay their for a few minutes, just catching our breaths.


"We should get dressed." I say.
"Why?"


"Because Mike can be home any minute."
"What's the time then?"


"14:30."


"He has Only a few classes today?"
I nod my head.


"I don't wanna get dressed." He whines.
"We gotta. Do you want Mike to find us like this then?"


"I don't mind. I've nothing to be ashamed of."


I roll my eyes.
"I do."


"Ashamed of me?"
"Not that, it's just that it's my brother."


He nods his head and stands up.
He begins to dress himself again and I follow his example.


"You know, I think you look prettier without those clothes on." He smiles as he wraps his arms around me from behinds and places a kiss on my neck.


I smile softly and turn around.
"Does this mean that you hate me a little less?" He smiles.


"Maybe." I smirk.


He sighs heavily before kissing me.
"And now?" He says as he breaks the kiss.


"Okay okay, I don't hate you.." I sigh.
"That's progress." He nods his head.


"Don't expect me to fall in your arms right now though."
"Wasn't expecting anything." He smiles.


"You should go, Mike will be here soon."
He nods his head again and kisses my forehead.


"I'll see you tomorrow at school?" He asks.
"Sure." I smile and nod my head.


He walks around me to the door.


"Ashton."


He turns around to me and I kiss him one more time.


"Bye." I smile.
He smiles too and closes the door behind him.


I sigh and walk upstairs.


When I close my bedroom door it hit me.


I just lost my virginity.
To. Ashton.


Fuck.


I groan.
Totally great.


I grab my phone and text Nikki.


Me: Can u come over? I gotta tell you something.
Nik: Yeah, I hope that it's the reason why you left me alone at school today.
Me: I'm sorry :(.
Nik: I'll Be there in 5.
Me: Thank yoouuuu <3


I lay my phone away and hear the door.
Mike's home.


Within a few seconds my door goes open.
"Yeah?" I ask.


"How're you feeling?" He asks.
"Better."


"I written down the homework for tomorrow for you."
"Awwwhhh..." I tease and poke his cheek.


"I'm gonna make my own homework." He sighs and turns around to walk away.
"Thanks!" I yell after him.


After a few minutes my door goes open again.


"May." I hear Nikki.
"Nikki." I look up from the homework that I'm making.


"What did you wanna tell me?" She lays down onto my bed.
I sigh and lay down too.


"I don't know where to start..." I bite my lip.
"From the beginning."


I sigh again and begin to tell.
I tell her how Calum and I started and how we were trying to keep it a secret.


" yesterday Calum came up to me and broke up with me because I didn't want to choose between him and Ashton.."


" So when I saw Ashton later at detention I totally broke down and he cheered me up a little. That night I was feeling.. I dunno very alone.. and texted him.... He came over and he stayed over for the night...."


"We skipped school, and uh...."


"We kissed." I leave it at that.


"You kissed?" She said, not believing a shit of what I said.


"We made out.." I sigh.
"Made out?"


"Ilostmyvirginitytohim."
"What?"


I sigh.


"I lost my virginity to him.." I mumble
She just looks at me.


"Was he good?" She smirks.
I nod my head.


"How did he look?" She asks.
"Incredibly handsome." I smile.


"Are you having a crush on him?" She smirks even brighter.


"Don't be ridiculous. I'm already regretting it. I just should've listen to him." I sigh.
"You should've listen to him?" She repeats.


"He told me that we could wait.. That we didn't have to do it because he wanted to.. That he was afraid that he would hurt me.. "
"And your reply....?"


"I said that I wanted to."


She smiles.


"How did it feel?" She smirks.
"Amazing."


"I told you you were missing out on something." She smiles.
I smile too.


"So.. Ashton and you are now friends with benefits?"
"I don't even know what we are now...."

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