All Hidden Away

Harry’s POV

“I just mean, was it really necessary?” asks Niall looking annoyed as we sit in the car as it pulls away from the venue. I smile and shake my head at the Irish boy.
“Lads, I don’t care about what she said about me when she got the award.” Sure, she was a bitch and none of it was necessary, and yes, I did laugh as the cameras and all of the heads in the entire audience shot towards my face, but it didn’t make me angry or upset. If it did, then she would get what she wants. Lou on the other hand… yeah. No. He was angry, I didn’t quite catch what he said to Niall but I’m sure the cameras did and it will be all over the internet tomorrow... “All I care about is what she said to Tasha.” I say shaking my head at the thought, nauseated more like it. I feel Louis tense next to me and I lean into him slightly to try calm him. He relaxed slightly but I can tell from his unusual silence just how angry and upset the poor lad is. At the mention of my sister the car tenses slightly. After a few minutes of silence Lou whispers quietly. His voice laced with concern.
“How bad was it, Hazz?” he looks sad and scared. I sigh heavily. I don’t want to think about it. I hadn’t seen her have one where she looked that shaken afterward since one of the first panic attacks she had when she was like twelve. And Jesus Christ did it scare the shit out of me. I need to call mum and Gem and see if there is something we can do.
“I don’t know…” I say comforting him by touching his knee and rubbing small circles and not telling him and the others the thoughts racing through my head. “I got there and she looked like she had it mostly under control and that the worst was over… but looking at Luke and Alex, I think it was pretty bad.” I say flinching at the memory. She looked so fragile…
“She looked bad, H. Don’t play it down.” Says Niall quietly. I forgot he was there.
“Yeah. Sorry it’s just- it’s…”
“Sensitive.” Offers Liam. I nod and swallow.
“I spoke to Alex briefly and he said it was bad, but that Luke seemed to calm her down and that she was going to be okay. But he said it was pretty bad. He looked, he looked scared.” I say honestly looking at my hand on Lou’s knee. He gently places his hand over mine trying to comfort me.
“Well I’m glad she has Luke and the guys as good friends. I think she’s going to enjoy being on tour with all of us and them.” Says Niall quietly trying to lighten the mood. Louis fake coughs loudly. A smile tugs at the corners of my lips.
“What was that for?” Asks Niall also smiling.
“Sorry, I had a tickle and tried to clear it quietly and failed. You also said Luke was a friend… when clearly.” He says rolling his eyes. I smile at how cute he’s being and run a hand through my hair.
“Alright, alright. No need to become the Swag Master from Doncaster.” Says Liam jokingly before turning serious for a moment. My smile drops slightly. “Hazz… I don’t want to say this but, how do you think she’ll handle tour?” Asks Liam gently. I sigh heavily.
“I don’t know Li. I don’t know.”

Tasha’s POV

“Tasha… Tash.” I feel someone gently shaking my shoulder. I shake my head at them shushing them quietly. I was so warm and cosy. I hear a far-off giggle. “Tasha, we here.” I realise I’m not going to be able to sleep soundly and try sitting up and opening my eyes. I see Luke’s blue eyes looking at me and I smile.
“Hey.” I say sleepily before stretching slightly and looking around. He laughs quietly. I notice I had his jacket draped around my shoulders and smile at the kind gesture.
“Hey. Come on. Let’s go inside.” He says stepping out of the car and beginning to walk to the house. He stops and turns around waiting for me. I smile and unbuckle my seat belt as I shrug off the jacket and pass it to him before following him and the others inside. I take of my ridiculous shoes and put down my small clutch before I see Hazz coming in for a hug. He wraps his arms around me and pulls me close.
“You scared me.” He says quietly as I lean my head against his shoulder.
“I’m sorry.” I say quietly back. He shakes his head before pulling away slightly.
“It’s okay. What did she say to you? You looked angry.” He says as I look down and shake my head. I look over his shoulder to see Lou laughing with Mikey and my heart breaks. Fucking cow had to ruin this.
“Nothing Hazz… she was just being a bitch.” I say trying to not start a feud, but of course, when would that work?
“Tasha… I want to know. Please?” he asks quietly. I sigh.
“She told me to say thank you to you and – and… and Lou.” I say carefully. He shakes his head knowing I’m lying immediately.
“And really?” I pull away slightly and shake my head.
“Tell your brother and his whore I say thank you.” I say shaking my head and not looking at him as the anger slowly bubbles to the surface once more. He sighs.
“Tasha, you know to not let shit like that get to you-”
“No, Hazz. I know to not let shit said about me get to me. I’ve known that since I was twelve! But Harry.” I say looking at him briefly letting my anger show with my slightly raised voice. I take a deep breath. “Hazz… I love him too. He’s family. They all are. You don’t insult family.” I say getting cross again. “Can we just drop it?” I ask quietly. “I don’t want to ruin tonight’s fun.” He nods in understanding and sighs.
“I’m glad you met some nice people tonight and that Alex was there to help. But we will talk later, okay? I’m proud of you. You were amazing tonight.” He says before slinging a long lanky arm around my shoulders and walking us to the rest of the group.
“We still keen to head out for the night?” Asks an excited looking Niall. I see Lou with a little tired, half asleep Lux in her lap sitting next to him on the couch. I wave and she shoots me a wink. I feel people looking at me and I shrug. Guessing I’m making the decision. I know it’s just because of, of earlier but still. I was thankful of the gesture.
“It depends, where?” I ask crossing my arms protectively around my middle. Liam smiles.
“We could head over to Funky Buddha.” I laugh slightly.
“You are obsessed, Liam.” I say shaking my head and smiling. He rolls his eyes and he scoffs.
“It’s not like you’ve been there before with us. You have never experienced the VIP lounge we can offer.” Says Louis raising his eyebrows suggestively.
“That’s because I don’t like clubbing, you tit.” I say laughing while looking at Lou. I hear an over animated gasp come from Ashton before he starts giggling.
“How can you not like clubbing?” I smile and shrug.
“It’s just… people everywhere and, don’t know. I, uhm… I’ve never really…gone.” I say shrugging. Hazz sighs and shakes his head.
“That’s it. I’ve failed as an older brother.” Everyone starts to laugh. Lou walks over and wraps his arm around Harry’s tall waist.
“We all have, Hazz. You.” He says pointing to me. “Go put on something less formal and more comfortable. We are going to Funky Buddha.” He says smiling. I roll my eyes and head up to my room to get changed. “And show some midriff!” Screams Louis up the stairs. I roll my eyes even if he can’t see.
“Only if you do!” I say cheekily before unzipping my dress as I walk into my room and close the doors. I sigh and open my phone as I shrug out of my dress and open the email from Claire.

Evening.

Unable to meet after awards show. Hope it went well. Will let you know when I am coming to discuss the evening.

Claire.

I nod and connect my phone to the speaker before playing some music, starting with Swing Life Away by MGK Featuring Kelling Quinn. I go into my cupboard and grab my black skinnies with the open knees and a few other frays in the material and shimmy them onto my legs and up my hips. Once they are on I sigh and turn back to my cupboard. Screw Louis comments. I think to myself as I grab my slim fitting plain white tank top. I run my figures through my naturally curly hair and quickly put on some deodorant and redo my eye makeup before slipping on my black vans and grabbing my phone as I heading downstairs. Everyone has now taken a seat and looks comfortable when I walk into the room. I hear Louis sigh melodramatically.
“Tasha! I said-”
“Lou I don’t have-” I try protesting.
“Bull shit.” He says standing and walking over to me and grabbing my hand before pulling me up the stairs as everyone laughs. “Come on, trust me love. This is going to look gorgeous.” He says gently as he opens my bedroom and walks over to my closet. I sigh and strip off my t-shirt and stand in just my bra like I often do when Louis complains about what I’m wearing.
“Louis I don’t have any nice crop tops.” I say quietly.
“But I got you that gorgeous white one with the little sleeves…” He says pouting. He turns to look at me. “Did you get rid of it?” he asks sighing. I shake my head.
“I think it’s back in my flat.” I say hoping he won’t find the shirt under the pile of shirts I have hear. “Lou, can’t I just wear this one?” I say pointing to the one on my bed.
“Have you quite finished?” He asks with raised eyebrows. When I smile, and don’t say anything he answers my question. “God no… try this one.” He says grabbing a shirt I didn’t recognise.
“Oh my god. Did you and Hazz go shopping for me again?” I ask rolling my eyes as I hold up the maroon shirt with a halter neck and a cut out where my cleavage should be. It was short. Like… bra short. “Lou… Lou I don’t have the cleavage to pull this off.” I say honestly. He smiles and shakes his head.
“Come on. Just trust me.” he says gently knowing I’m insecure. I sigh and pull it over my head and adjust it slightly. “Yeah, wear that strapless bra and it looks amazing.” He says smiling at me. I sigh.
“But Lou-”
“Did I stutter?” He asks with his bitch face with a hint of a smile. I shake my head and sigh.
“Okay, okay… Pass me the denim jacket.” I say pointing to the light blue one I had hanging up.
“Nope. Now come on.” He says smiling and walking out of my room. I quickly change bras and as I open the door I see him standing on the top step waiting for me. He takes my hand and pulls me down the stairs.
“Watch out, hot stuff coming through!” he calls out making me blush slightly. The room stills and Lou smiles devilishly. “Told you.” He says walking over to Hazz and high fiving him.
“Oh, so you’re okay with me looking like this?” I ask him quite surprised. He smiles and shoots me a wink.
“Who do you think bought it for you.” He says laughing. I sigh and cross my arms protectively.
“You make no sense, like ever…Can I at least grab a jacket?” I ask but they both shake their heads before standing and leading the procession outside. Lou walks over with Lux on her hip. She compliments me and says goodnight before heading home. Everyone follows her outside, saying goodnight and making plans to see each other sometime.
“If you get cold, you can wear my jacket… I mean, if you want to.” Says Luke walking up behind me. I jump slightly at his proximity and smile at the kind offer.
“Thank you. I mean, if you don’t need it. I mean… If I’m cold, I mean you probably would be too…” I say wanting to roll my eyes at my lack of smoothness. I relax my arms and accidentally bump his hand with mine. “Oh… sorry.” I say taking a small side step to give him space.
“Ready to go?” Asks Louis heading to the one car with Ash, Cal and Harry. We nod and smile before I slide in behind Liam and Niall being quickly followed by Luke and Mike.
“You have your ID, right?” asks Liam smiling at me. I nod and tap my jeans pockets.
“Pants are so much more practical than a dress.” I say smiling as we pull away.
“I can honestly say I wouldn’t know.” Says Mikey.
“I would happily let you have one of my dresses if I can have one of your cool hats.” I say smiling. This makes everyone laugh slightly before he shakes his head.
“I swear that I don’t own a single cool hat.” He says laughing. I roll my eyes.
“No, I mean like the one you wore yesterday. It was like a peak but it was black and cool.” I say making him smile. He pretends to think a bit before answering.
“Nah, I think people would die.” I smile.
“How come?” asks Luke moving slightly making me acutely aware of how close our legs are, making me cross mine over each other to take up as little space as possible.
“Because, I’d never be able to wear them again without feeling like, f-ugly in them.” He says shooting me a wink. I know he was joking but it made me shake my head. I change the subject to the club tonight.
“Why do you like it at Funky Buddha so much?” I ask looking at Liam. He shrugs.
“It’s… just the best.” He explains laughing. “But just, watch your drink. Don’t let other people by you drinks and watch the bar tender to check they don’t slip something in it… oh and don’t drink it if you haven’t been watching it the entire time. And don’t go anywhere without one of us with you.” He says smiling gently trying to teach me about the world.
“Thanks, Daddy Direction. I did pass high school remember?” I say smiling and looking out the window.
“Where did that nickname even come from? It doesn’t even make sense.” He says pouting slightly.
“Yip… no idea at all.” Says Niall laughing making me giggle and shake my head.

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