Clash

I stayed in the gym for god knows how long and I had never been sweating like this before and eventually I really needed to take a shower because I reeked. I know it was night time and I was happy about that because this way I wouldn’t bump into anyone I didn’t want to see.

I didn’t have my own room but there must be a spare room, which I could use right? I walked through the entire house and I thanked the lord when I found an empty room with a bathroom. Now I just needed clean clothes, which meant I had to go into Harry’s room. I was praying he was already fast asleep and to my luck he was. I didn’t stop to look at him but quickly and quietly grabbed some comfy clothes.

I grabbed a pair of sweats, two shirts, socks, shoes and underwear. I grabbed shampoo and my brush and toothbrush and quietly walked out of the room. I threw one more look at a sleeping Harry, I sighed and pulled the door shut behind me. I walked back to the spare room and took a quick shower before I collapsed on the bed.

I woke up disorientated but well rested and I wasn’t even sad that I was alone. The sun was shining through the window and I just laid here staring at the ceiling, without a single thought running through my brain, it was peaceful. It was interrupted when I heard a soft knock on my door, I snapped my head to the door and saw it getting pushed open, showing a worried Harry but I didn’t buy it for a second. I didn’t say a thing and just stared at him approaching me.

“I looked everywhere for you.” He sounded worried and a bit reserved. I propped myself up against the headboard and still just looked at him, I know I didn’t show any emotions at all, which didn’t help with him feeling worried but I didn’t care.

“We need to discuss how we are going to get you to Bradley.” He hesitated for a second but when I didn’t say anything he continued. “We have a meeting in an hour and I really need you to be there.” I nodded and moved my face towards the window so I didn’t have to look at him any longer. Harry knew I dismissed him but he still lingered, as if he wanted to say something else.

After a few long minutes he sighed and walked out of the room. I followed his exit and when he was gone, I got out of bed and started with the usual rituals. I brushed my teeth, took a shower, got dressed and I but my hair in a ponytail. I walked to my door and before I pulled it open I took a deep breath.

The moment I walked into the living room everyone went silent. I saw their eyes zooming in on my knuckles and I know they looked bad but I was going to die anyway, so why would I care about that. I sat down at a chair, so that no one could sit next to me, when Harry entered and I know he wanted me next to him but I didn’t, I stayed put and when he saw that he gulped nervously.

“Alright, welcome everyone. Today’s meeting is about how we will get Anna to Bradley and what happens after.” I know people were looking at me but I kept looking at my hands, which were entwined and turning white.

“Is it really necessary to give her to Bradley?” This came from Luke, which surprised me a lot. I threw a glance at him and he really looked bad, which was my doing and a pang of guilt went through me but he had it coming at that time. “Yes it’s necessary and let me tell why.” Harry said and the silence that followed that, made me anxious.

“Bradley loves Anna, she is his weakness, which means that she is the only one who can bring him on his knees.” I snapped my face up to look at Harry because I never knew that but I didn’t like it as well. I still didn’t say anything but my mind was spinning, so that was his plan, I had to seduce Bradley and when I did they would barge in and kill him. I knew Harry well enough to plan something like this but if he thinks I was going to let Bradley touch me in an intimate way he was deluding himself.

I caught Harry’s eyes, who were fixed on me. He knew what he was asking of me and he also knew I would never ever go that far with Bradley even if it means my death. “So tomorrow we will make sure she will bump into Bradley and she will tell him, she wants to join his team.” I shook my head slightly but I know no one saw it except for Harry and Niall.
“These are the plans and there will be no alterations.” He dismissed everyone and I tried to blend into the others but Harry grabbed my arm and pulled me out. “You’re not going anywhere.” Harry held me until the last person was gone. He closed the door and almost threw me on the couch. “What do you want?” I asked and he actually took a chair and threw it against the wall, which was near me and I actually had to lift up my arm to protect myself for flying objects.

“OH SHE SPEAKS!” he yelled at me and that ticked me off, how dare he yell at me like that, when he is the one who sends me into war on my own. “OH I SPEAK BUT YOU NEVER LISTEN HARRY!” I screamed back at him, completely losing my temper. “DO YOU THINK THIS IS EASY FOR ME?!” he came at me with dark eyes and normally I would step back when he looked like that but this time I wasn’t budging one inch.

“YES, I DO THINK IT’S EASY FOR YOU BECAUSE IF IT WASN’T THAN YOU WOULD THINK OF SOMETHING ELSE, IM DISPOSABLE TO YOU!” that’s when I slapped him hard, as he staggered back. He put his hand to his cheek and looked shocked because I had never been the first one to beat someone.

“you’re not disposable to me Anna.” He mumbled but I wasn’t done with him yet, my temper was still not in control. “THE HELL I AM, YOU KNOW WHAT BRADLEY DID TO ME AND NOW YOU AKS ME TO DO IT WILLINGLY, I HATE YOU!” I screamed at him and I know I was not fair because this also had crossed my mind not long ago but he ensured me that he was going to let me do that but here we are.

“Anna, please you know there is no other way, not if we all want to get out of this alive, I know this is all on me, if I didn’t start this gang, then we wouldn’t be in this situation but I can’t rewind time.” I was trying to play it on my feelings for everyone in this gang, he knew me to well.

“You don’t play fair.” I mumbled, feeling my anger towards him fade away slightly. “I know and I’m sorry for that but I don’t see any other way.” He said quietly and he knew he had me where he wanted. I sighed but didn’t let him come near me. The moment I saw him taking a few steps to me, I stretched out my hand to stop him. He did stop this time but he waited for me to say something.

“I’m not sure what you want me to say because I already told you I would do whatever it is you wanted me to do.” I shrugged, not giving in to the depression that was lingering.

“Before you leave, I want you to know, that I truly love you.” I snorted at that because if he thinks I would believe that, then he is really stupid. “I know you don’t believe me right now but I will be waiting for you, when this is over. He tried to reassure me but it didn’t work. I was truly done with him right now and I just needed him to leave me alone.

“Just go away Harry.” I told him without any emotion. He did as I asked but he lingered by the door. “We will leave at 7am tomorrow.” He told me quietly before he left the living room.
I knew one thing, I wasn’t going down without a fight and if I had the chance I would kill Bradley myself. It was still early and as I had to seduce Bradley tomorrow, it was best if I didn’t get into more fights, so I locked myself up in my room with my laptop and did absolutely nothing, I didn’t touched the piano or even listened to music, I just stared at the screen and scrolled through the internet, without any purpose. The only time I left my room, was to get something to drink or food but that was about it. Nobody talked to me and that was for the better because the last thing I needed was for someone to try telling me everything would be fine because we all knew that there were only two outcomes to this.

The sun went down and I could smell dinner but there was no way I would join them downstairs and pretend that everything was fine, when it wasn’t. I did get up but mainly to change into my pyjama’s, when I had changed I slipped under the warm sheets of my bed. I started thinking about where I would be if I was still in America. I would probably be in L.A. at the Uni, catching waves in the morning and hang out with my friends at night. That would have been an amazing life.

I started crying when I thought about my parents. I never had any chance to say goodbye to them, how wrong was that? This life didn’t make any sense to me and still here I was, giving my own life up for people that I would never had met if Harry wasn’t in my life. The thing was I couldn’t see my future without Harry and that was upsetting me even more. He made me weak and vulnerable only so he could guilt trip me into doing this for him and the worst part was that I led him and now I couldn’t even live without him, how pathetic was I?

“Anna, dinner is ready.” It was Liam at the other side of the door but I ignored him and even turned of the light. He also betrayed me, so I let him walk away.

I’m not sure when I had fallen asleep but it couldn’t be morning already, as it was way too dark for it but I wasn’t alone in my bed. I didn’t panic because I immediately knew it was Harry who was holding me in my sleep. I did peel his arm away from me so I could get out of bed. I watched him sleep for a second when I felt the anger coming back, how dare he? I didn’t give it much thought but next thing I know I grab the matrass and with all my force lift it, making him fall on the floor with a loud thud. I grabbed my gun from the nightstand and pointed it at him and when he registered the gun in my hands he held up his hands.

“Get out!” I was shaking visibly with anger but Harry didn’t leave the room but instead he walked to me. He knew I wasn’t going to shoot him, my shaking hands betrayed me. “You’re not going to shoot me love.” I kept my aim on him as he approached me, I did have my finger on the trigger but he was right, I wasn’t going to shoot.

He stepped in front of me and grabbed the gun from my hands and leaned beside me to put it back on the nightstand. He leaned back and I had to look up like always to look him in the eyes and I wish I didn’t because they were glistening, which made them even more beautiful. His hand slowly touched my face and he traced it down to my lips, I wasn’t sure why I let him do this but I just couldn’t stop him. The way he looked at me was giving me chills and I wanted him in that moment.

I know he felt the same and I know this was just because I was going to be bait to Bradley. I wanted him and I know he wanted me right now, so why not give in to him?
He moved in and kissed me, it was a slow, sweet kiss. I heard myself moan when he deepened the kiss. I put my hands into his hair and tugged at it gently. He pulled me even closer and indicated that I had to jump, which I did, he carried me back to bed and laid me ever so gently.

He was going take his time with me and I didn’t mind one bit. We never made love like this before and it was something magical. He undressed me slowly and it was driving me insane. The moment he pulled of my shirt he started to explore my body, as if he hadn’t seen it before. He kissed my breasts and I felt his hand slowly making it’s way down. My breathing was shallow and I couldn’t lie still any longer. I pulled him up for a kiss and when his mouth touched mine I saw stars.

He devoured my mouth and he even bit my lower lip, which turned me on even more. The second he touched my sensitive spot, I almost jumped from the bed, he already had me where he wanted and without much pressure he made me come slowly.

I felt his arousal against my body and I know I had to return the favour and as I took of his clothes he held his breath. I touched him gently and pressed kissed on his body until I reached his waistline. I had never pleasured a man with my mouth before and the nerves were taking over, as I pulled his boxers down. “Are you sure love?” He asked out of breath, I nodded and just wrapped my mouth around him, I heard him hiss and I was only hoping he did this out of pleasure otherwise it would really be embarrassing.

He was giving me directions, through it and I know he liked it when he held my head in the right position and I felt proud that I could do this for him. “That’s enough love.” He pulled me to him again and kissed me, whilst turning me, so that he was on top of me. I was worried that I did something wrong, which he saw and he smirked at me. “Don’t worry love, you were outstanding but if I let you continue than it would be over really fast.” He explained in a low voice.

I smiled when he said that because that would’ve been something. My smiled disappeared quick though as he came in me. I moaned loudly and the moment he started to move inside me, I felt as if he was a part of me. We moved slowly, he never picked up the pace, it was like he wanted to stretch it as far as he could and I could only follow him. He caressed me and kissed me whilst moving in me, it was like a dream. I felt the tension starting to build and he noticed this. He kissed me again and moved slightly faster. “Let go Anna.” He mumbled against my lips and as he moved faster, the tension became unbearable.

It exploded when he put force behind the last thrust, he came at the same exact time, screaming out my name. I came quieter but just as intense. He kissed me one more time before he pulled out of me and pulled me against him. I was exhausted and as I began to doze of I heard him mumble.

“I love you Anna.”

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