Clash

Even though I knew I couldn’t hold myself to what I just said it did do me some good that it hurt him. I really thought he was changed but this proved that he wasn’t. he was willing to put me at risk just to end this damn feud between the two of them. I walked into my room and threw the door shut with a loud bang. I know I must have shocked everyone in the house with my reaction to Harry’s plans but I didn’t care anymore.

I had to give it to him, he had the decency to leave me alone but I also knew this wouldn’t last long. The thought that I had only two days left, made me chilled down to the bone, never had I thought that I had to put myself in this situation again. The angst of being in Bradley’s company and to walk in there willingly. I sat down against my bed and just stared at my hands for awhile.

I was thinking about the things I had still left and to be honest there wasn’t much. I mean I wasn’t attending Oxford anymore, my parents weren’t here with me anymore, I didn’t have real friends and to top it off I fell for the most complex person ever. I sighed maybe this was for the best, I mean if Bradley killed me who would care right?

Everyone could live without me, which showed downstairs as nobody did anything, except for Niall, my loyal Niall. Now I really did feel stupid for not being able to love him back the way he loves me. I heard the door open and I know it was Harry even though he didn’t make any sound. I didn’t look up because I couldn’t stand to look at him, the person I had put all my trust in, only to betray me like he did.

“Anna, please look at me.” He talked to me as if I was a wounded animal and it only made me angrier. I didn’t look at him but turned my face to the other side, so that I also couldn’t see his shoes. I heard him sigh and the thing I know he sits down beside me. I jumped up immediately and walked out of the room, at least I tried to walk out of the room but Harry stopped me before I could even grab the door handle.

“Anna, don’t walk away from me.” He was sounding like the old Harry, who’s beaten me up if I didn’t listen. I held me breath and waited till he let go of me but he didn’t but he also didn’t hit me. I let him turn me around so that I had to face him, I kept my eyes at his chest but he lifted my face by my chin. I saw pain in his eyes but I just didn’t care right now. “I know you’re angry with me right now but this is the only option.” That’s when I snorted because the hell it was “Right, of course.” I now I was sounding way to sarcastic but I didn’t care at this point.

“It’s fine really Harry, I don’t mind going in there and you know I hope I get killed because then I can’t get used by any of you ever again.” I said without any emotion at all and when my words hit him I saw him grow pale., like he actually cared about me. “You won’t get killed, I wont let that happen.” He was so sure of himself but I just rolled my eyes at him because he wasdelusional if he thought that I was getting out alive, knowing Bradley, he probably would kill me at first sight or just drag it out by torturing me.

“If you say so.” I really didn’t want to argue with him because there was nothing I could do. “You know I thought you really loved me but this just proves that you don’t, otherwise you’d never do this to me, I’m just a tool in your game.” I shook my head in defeat and as Harry loosened his grip on my arm, I finally could pull away and walk away from him.

I walked into the training area and just started to train my ass off, if I wanted to get out, then I should get as strong as possible and I just had two days left, so this was all I could do for now. I know Harry had ordered everyone to keep his distance from me and everyone obeyed him, like lost puppies except for Niall. Niall did stay close to me but he never did anything to sooth me but he did keep a close eye on me. I tried really hard to ignore him though and as I was pounding those bags that hung from the ceiling, I actually hit it so hard at a certain point that the bag came down, which made me fall hard.

Niall was by my side at once and even stretched out his hand but I swatted it away. I got up on my own and when I was going to the next one, I felt Niall’s hand on my arm. “Anna, your knuckles, they are bleeding.” His touch startled me as I was completely in my own world but I restored my posture immediately. “I don’t care.” I shrugged and tried to pull my arm out of his grip. “I know what you’re doing Anna but you know I wont let you.” He pushed me on one of the benches and pulled out the first aid kit. “Why can’t you just mind your own damn business Niall?” I snapped at him but I stayed where I was.

“Because I still love you Anna and the thought of you in Bradley’s grasp.” He shuddered at the thought of it and it made me feel even worse because I really had thought that no one really cared about me but here he was, tending my wounds and staying by my side. I know Harry must not like this at all but still he let Niall do this, which was odd to me, why would he let Niall look after me in the first pace?

“Niall, why are you here?” I asked him suspicious because this was weird. “I just told you.” He answered but he wasn’t looking at me. He was going through that first aid kit way to focussed, I mean the only thing he needed were some disinfection stuff and bandage. “Okay let me rephrase that, why is Harry letting you take care of me Niall?” I asked him being more specific but he still wasn’t looking at me and he was thinking about his answer. That’s when I lost it and I actually grabbed Niall by his chin, really hard and forced him to look at me. This is the thing with Niall, he was like an open book and what I saw there wasn’t something I expected.

There was pity in his eyes. “Niall, what is going on?” I asked more forceful and he shook his head slightly. He really didn’t want to say anything. I kept staring him down, so that he would break and he did not long in our staring contest.

“Harry, asked me to look after you because he thinks it’s for the best.” So Harry had given up on me. What a asshole for pushing me back into Niall’s arms, when knowing that I could never feel the same about Niall as I do about him. Giving Niall hope after I told him multiple times that I didn’t love him like that. If I was coming out of this alive, I really was going to shoot him for doing this.

“Niall, I want you to leave me alone and before you protest, you know why I don’t want you here, nothing changed, I’m just angry that’s all.” I told him trying to be gentle, which I failed in of course because I saw the hurt in his eyes.

“Harry ordered me to stay here even if you didn’t want me to.” He told me quietly and that’s when I started to laugh because I couldn’t give a damn. “Niall if you don’t leave I will shoot you.” That’s when I pulled my gun out of my waistline, this shocked him but he did get up with his hands in front of him. “I really don’t want to shoot you but if you don’t do as I ask, I will, so please just leave me alone.” I talked slowly so he could understand everything I was saying.

He nodded and before he walked away he pulled me to him, with this he put himself at risk as the gun was against his stomach. “I’m sorry Anna.” That’s when he kissed me and I kissed him back, when the shock was over I immediately stopped, which he noticed as I put more force on the gun.

He took a step back and walked away when he saw that I was putting away my gun. The minute I heard the door close, I let myself fall back on the bench with a sigh. Harry had given up on me and that actually did hurt even though it was my own fault but this was not playing fair. He knows I love him, can’t he just understand that he hurt me by making me bait to his own purposes. This did prove to me that he couldn’t live without his power and even though he loved me in his own way, he could never put me in the first spot.

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