Anna

I was aware of Niall waiting for me to answer this question but how could I because Niall was everything I wanted. He was fun, loyal and loving but if I had to be honest I really didn’t know what I would do and whom I would choose if Harry was still alive. My heart was settled on Harry but my head told me Niall was the better one for me but how could you possibly choose someone if your body isn’t in sync.

“I don’t know okay. I mean I love Harry but he never treated me the way he should and Niall he is like my personal sun. He chases away the dark clouds and I know that it would be easy with him but then there’s the part that also likes the dark that Harry brings with him. His love is something I have never experienced before and it draws me in and I can’t stop myself.” I know this wasn’t the answer Niall wanted to hear but he still stayed.

“You know you are hurting Niall with this right?” I nodded because I knew that but there was nothing I could do about it. “I know that and I’m not doing it on purpose.” I mumbled.

“Look I’m really sorry and if Niall wants me to stay away from him, then I will, starting after our stake-out.” I said, hoping this wasn’t what he wanted but who was I kidding. “I think I really need that yes.” I heard Niall say and it was like he had punched me right in the face but I couldn’t blame him for obvious reasons.

“If that is what you want, then I will stay out of your way as much as possible.” I felt terrible but I had to do right by him and this wasn’t healthy for him or me. I nodded and was about to leave the room when Louis grabbed me by my arm. I looked up and saw the tension in his face. “What do you want now Louis?” I asked him slightly annoyed.

“We will find Harry, I promise you Anna.” I pulled my arm out of his grasp and nodded. “Thank you Louis.” I made my way up to my room. I closed the door and I let myself slide onto the ground. I felt a single tear make it’s way down my face as I thought about Niall’s hurt expression because it was all my fault and now I had lost him as well.

After awhile I got up and crawled under my warm blankets. I know I couldn’t sleep any longer but this way nobody would bother me. I just had to pretend to sleep, as I looked at my alarm I was shocked that it wasn’t even 1am.

That’s when I decided to watch a movie, just to kill some time. I picked “The fault in our stars,” this was a movie I always watched when I was feeling sad. The movie had me sucked in, that I didn’t even notice the door being opened and closed again. I did look up when I felt my bed dip and was feeling a bit alarmed when I saw it was Niall.

“Hi.” I heard myself say but he just stared at me, before grabbing my face gently. I didn’t pull away this time, knowing that this was his way to say goodbye. He caressed my cheeks and stroked my lower lip with his thumb. I sat perfectly still when he pressed his lips against mine. “Kiss me back sweetheart.” He mumbled against my lips and I did. I opened my mouth to give him access.

His kiss felt desperate, as if he was afraid I would disappear. He had put his hands in my hair and softly pulled at it, which made me moan softly against his lips. His hands began to wander down over my back until he reached my ass. He hesitated for a second but as I didn’t stop him he actually moved his hands to my waist and pulled me even closer.

He pulled one of my legs over his. Now I could feel his arousal and this actually turned me on. He noticed this and pressed me even harder against him, he moaned softly when I pressed my mouth against his neck. “Anna, we can’t do this.” He said breathless, as I pulled his shirt over his head. “I know” was all I said without any intention to stop. “I don’t want to stop.” I said against his chest. I kissed him softly on his shoulder and that’s when he flipped me over so that he was hovering above me. He looked me deep in my eyes and his eyes were a shade darker from passion as he slowly pulled my shirt over my head.

“You are beautiful.” He whispered whilst he was looking at my body. I was lying almost naked in front of him. The only thing I had on was my black laced briefs, my first reaction to his gaze was to hide myself but the moment he saw that, he made sure I couldn’t use my hands.

“Don’t hide from me.” He kissed the top of my breast and his other hand massaged my other breast and I had never felt like this. The moment he rubbed my nipple between his fingers I felt tiny shocks run through my body. He smiled when he felt my movement beneath him and he followed his trail to the waistband of my briefs and that’s were he stopped and looked up to ask permission and I was beyond saying no by now and nodded to give him permission and he didn’t waste one second as he pulled my briefs down my legs.

I held my breath when he finally returned to the bed, without his boxer. We were completely naked and I was completely mesmerized by his touch. He started to kiss my legs and worked his way all the way up to my sensitive spot, where he kissed me and stroked me until I was ready for him. I couldn’t lie still any longer and was panting, I was literally out of breath while he was torturing me with his mouth.

I’m literally clawing the sheets and within minutes my legs start to tremble “Come for me Anna.” He blew once more time against my sensitive spot and that’s when I let go. “Niall!” I screamed. He made his way back up and kissed my passionate on my lips before he pushed in. We move together in sync. I wrap my legs around his torso and hold onto him while he pushed in and out. Every thought I had about the fact that we shouldn't do this was muted because all that really mattered in this moment was us.

The way he make me feel during this is how I am supposed to feel. He makes me feel loved and special. I can feel him building to his release and the moment he moves faster I know he is nearly there and I’m following him. “”I love you.” Was all I could mumble and that was the thing that drove him over the edge. “Anna.” He moans loudly and I follow him into the light and the only thing I can see is his face and stars. This is how it should be, effortless, loving and special. He kisses my lips softly after regaining breath. “I love you Anna, with all my heart.” He rolls off me and takes me with him so that I am lying on his chest.

I’m not aware that I’m crying until Niall wipes the tears from my face. “It’s okay sweetheart, I understand.” He whispers softly but I can’t stop because in that precious moment he is all I want and I wish this moment would never end but I know that as soon as the sun rises this will all be over.

“Just sleep sweetheart.” He kissed the top of my head “I really do love you Niall, I really wish things were different.” I mumbled. I know he heard me because after a few seconds he is gently stroking my back. “I know love, me too, how I wished things would be different but as soon as the sun comes up, we have to end this.” I nodded because he was right. I kissed him gently on his chest and settled in his warmth before closing my eyes.

The moment I open my eyes I know he is gone and my heart literally breaks in a lot of pieces. I know we had agreed on this but that didn’t mean it didn’t hurt. I wiped the tear that ran down my face before getting up because today was the day we were going to spy on Bradley and I had to be strong for that.

I jumped under the shower allowing myself to cry for the last time and when I say cry I mean sobbing over the person I had lost without even really having him to begin with. At a certain point I stopped crying and that’s when I switched off the water and got dressed. I was wearing black skinny jeans, which were ripped at the knees and a black sweater as it was still really cold outside.

I put on black boots and pulled my hair in a bun. I decided not the wear any make-up this time because let’s face it, the only person I was going to spend time with was Niall, which was going to be difficult enough after last night. I sighed before making my way downstairs where I was greeted by all my members.

“Good morning everyone.” I said whilst walking into the room. They all got up but I ushered them down. It was not like I was a damn queen or something. “Today we start spying on Bradley and the schedule will be here for you all to check, as you all know Niall and I will start this off and Liam will take over the next day.” I looked at Liam before I turned my eyes to look at Niall who was sitting with Louis with a blank expression on his face, which made my heart ache again but I couldn’t think about that right now.

“Are there any questions?” Everyone shook their heads and that made me feel good because that meant they understood the plan and I didn’t have to go over it again. “Good, well Michael how are we doing on that van? Is it already in place?” I asked him.

“Yes, it’s already in place. Everything you need is in there.” He said with conviction and I had to smile at him for this because when I first met him I didn’t trust him one bit and now he had become a valuable member of my team. “Alright well then I guess it’s time to get moving. "Niall shall we?” I asked him which made him look at me and he still didn’t show any emotions, which was a bit upsetting.

“I’m ready, let’s go.” He walked towards the door and I followed after grabbing my gun. Liam stopped me before I could walk after Niall. “Be careful okay?” he was genuinely worried. I hugged him and walked off in Niall’s direction. When we were out of sight he pulled me into him and kissed me gently. “Let’s get that bastard.”

Notes

So that happened.... Let me know your thoughts. ;)

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