Clash

The moment I said that my plate flew across the room and I just kept sitting there staring at my hands. I didn’t have a lot of courage right now and he wasn’t helping at all. “HE DID WHAT?!” He yelled at me and I cringed when he did that. I took a deep breath to say it again.

“He kissed me.” He didn’t stop this time as he knocked over the table. It fell over with a loud thud and I quickly got up from my chair and was already picking up the table when I saw my chair fly by and flew into bits when it hit the wall. “NIALL CALM THE HELL DOWN!” I yelled back at him finally recovering from my shock but he didn’t calm down if anything it only made him angrier. “WHY DIDN’T YOU STOP HIM?!” All his frustrations with me came pouring through and it frightened me.

“I COULDN’T STOP HIM BECAUSE THAT WOULD’VE RAISE SUSPSICIONS!” I yelled back, he must see that I’m right, right? He didn’t look pleased at all with my answer and that’s when he got into my face, he apparently forgot that I had a gun tucked away in my waistband.

The moment he raised his fist, I had pulled out my gun and aimed it at him after quickly pulling of the safety and that stopped him immediately. “I wouldn’t do that if I were you Niall.” He didn’t budge tough but neither did I. There was no way in hell that a guy would ever hit me again, without getting shot by me. We held a staring contest but I held my gun firmly in place the entire time without shaking hands.

“As if you are able to shoot me.” He said cocky and that almost made me pull the trigger and he saw that I flexed my finger slightly. This made him take a step back. “now that I’ve got your attention, sit the hell down!” I pointed with my gun at the remaining chair and he did what I asked slowly without looking away from my gun.

“I couldn’t be rude to him so I had to let him kiss my cheek and don’t you think for a second that I liked it because I didn’t and as I realised what he was doing I pulled back because he was trying to mark me.” Niall was almost standing up again, the only thing I had to do to make him stay were he was, was moving my finger just slightly tighter around the gun. “I pulled back before he could do that and I told him I really had to go home and I walked out of there without so much as a scratch. So stop worrying because he didn’t know me and he did not pursue me.”

“What if he was acting as well?” Niall asked a lot calmer. “That crossed my mind but I don’t really think he did and even if he did, what is he going to do about it?” I asked Niall and he shrugged.

“If he recognised me, I wouldn’t be standing here and you know that.” I sounded drained and I just wanted this conversation to be over with. “Look I really want to sleep so why don’t you tell me why you came over in the first place?” I asked him because I really didn’t want to discuss it any longer. “I don’t know, I just had a feeling that you needed someone but I guess I was wrong.” He got up and I put my gun away again, after he made his way towards the kitchen door.

“Niall, please don’t go.” I mumbled because against all odds I did need my friend to stay with me and Niall was my friend even if he tried to get me to admit my feelings for him.

“Are you sure?” I nodded and that made him turn back around. He didn’t waste any time and pulled me into him. We stood there in my kitchen just holding each other. He didn’t even move his hands down, like he had tried to do the last few days. “You know, this is the Niall I love.” I mumbled at his chest. His reaction was to hug me even tighter if that was possible. He bended and kissed me on the top of my head. I know he was going to let go of me but I wasn’t so sure if I wanted him to. He must’ve felt it because next thing I know he scoops me up in his arms and carries me towards my room.

He put me on the bed and I quickly get under the covers and I pull of my jeans because they weren’t that comfortable to sleep in but what I didn’t foresee was that Niall did the exact same thing but he also pulled of his shirt and that left him in only his boxers. I couldn’t help but stare at his six-pack, I mean can you really blame me for staring.

He climbed on the bed and pulled me against his chest. I didn’t fight it this time, it was just sleeping anyway so what harm could this do? I just closed my eyes and listen to his steady heartbeat.



Niall

This girl was going to be the death of me, that was something I knew for sure. She kept sending me mixed signals and yes I wasn’t proud of my behaviour of the last couple of days but then again I just couldn’t stop myself.

Everytime she smiled at one of the lads it made my blood boil because in my mind she was already mine. After that night in America, she broke my thin wall I had build up to protect myself from feeling this for her because she belonged with Harry at least that was something I told myself over and over again. Even now that I’m sleeping in her bed it's still bothering me.

I mean what if Harry is still alive, he would kill me on the spot for taking away his girl but then again what if I could make her fall in love with me by acting in a sweet and comforting way, maybe she will grow to love me the way she loves Harry.

I was playing with her hair whilst she was sleeping on my chest and I know it’s bad to think like this but somewhere deep inside me I really am hoping Harry is gone, just so that she can move on and fall in love with me, without feeling guilty. I couldn’t help but sigh because this was way too complicated and Harry is still my friend and I also don’t want to hurt him. I kissed the top of her head gently and closed my eyes as well and concentrated on her breathing, when I felt myself falling asleep.

“Niall.” This made me open my eyes immediately and as it wasn’t Anna who said my name I turned to the door, looking straight into Liam’s eyes. He nudged with his head to the hallway. I sighed and slowly climbed out the bed. I quickly looked if she was still asleep, which she was thankfully. I grabbed my shirt and whilst pulling it over my head I made my way towards Liam. After closing the door I went down stairs. Liam had gone into the living room and Louis was also waiting there. This was a surprise “What are you guys doing here?” I asked them as friendly as possible but when I looked at them I know I was in trouble.

“Niall, what ARE you doing here and with her in one bed?” Louis snapped and I know why but it still bothered me. “You know this isn’t right Niall, what if Harry is still alive?” Liam asked to soften the blow.

“I don’t know what I’m doing but I was just about to fall asleep.” I said pretending that I didn't know what he was talking about. “It’s not a crime to sleep right?” I know I was asking for it now. “Anna belongs with Harry and you know it!” Louis said whilst standing up. He looked really angry for some reason and it ignited my fire as well.

“Look it’s really none of your business is it?” I waited before I said anything else, giving them the chance to say something but they just kept staring at me. “I love her with all my heart and I just can’t hide it anymore.” I was shocked when I heard myself say that and to the looks on their faces it shocked them as well.

“Niall, you love her? How did this happen, did something happen between the two of you while you were staying in L.A.?” Liam asked whilst pacing through the room and I felt my cheeks getting hot, which wasn’t good right now. “Niall, answer the question!” Louis said through his clenched teeth. “Yes something happened but not what you guys think.” I hurried because we didn’t have sex.

“Did you have sex with her?” I shook my head because that was the truth, they didn’t need to know the gory details of what did happen right? I looked up and saw them both staring down at me and I know they were expecting the full story and they wouldn’t let me go before they knew everything.

“We went to a nightclub and at a certain point she started to kiss me and I couldn’t resist so I kissed her back.” I took a small pause but they didn’t wait with their inquisitions. “What happened after the kissing?” Louis asked and I felt terrible about this all. The way they were forcing me to tell them. It was not because I was ashamed of what happened but I felt terrible for betraying Anna like this.

“We went into a bathroom stall and we kissed some more. Her legs were wrapped around my waist and I touched her” Liam had my mouth covered because he didn’t need to know more then that, although Louis wasn’t pleased by this. “Did you make her come, Niall?” I shook my head and couldn’t stand to look at them both any longer. “We stopped in time because we realized what we were doing.” That’s when we heard the gasp. We turned around and found Anna standing there and boy was she looking angry. It made the guys take a step back. I quickly got up from the couch and that’s when I noticed she wasn’t looking at me but more at Liam and Louis.

“ HOW DARE YOU INTEROGATE HIM LIKE THAT!” She was actually yelling at them and that made me feel good because she was sticking up for me and this didn’t go without being noticed. “You can’t be with Niall, not in that way, you know that right?” This was Louis risking his life because as I had find out earlier, she had a new friend and it’s called a gun.

“I FUCKING KNOW THAT LOUIS!” She was beyond mad but in the process she hurt me deeply when she yelled that. She glanced my way and mouthed, “I’m sorry” I shrugged at it, which she thought meant I didn’t care about it. Only I did care and I know I had been foolish to think she maybe was in love with me as well.

“WELL THEN WHY ARE YOU LEADING HIM ON?!” He was now yelling back. Liam was standing in-between so they wouldn’t go at each other. She didn’t know what to say, he had made her speechless and as she turned around to look at me, I could feel the pain that was coming from her. This antagonising look made me want to pull her back into my arms and keep her safe but this was something she had to do alone.

“I don’t know but I just need him.” She mumbled and that’s when I knew her true feelings. She did love me but she was too afraid of admitting this because of Harry but if this was all I could get from her then I would take it. I was just that selfish.

“Anna, love what if Harry is still alive?”

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