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Harry POV:

There are two weeks left of the tour and I am so exhausted I can’t see straight. The chemotherapy has taken its toll on me, I’ve even had to cut my hair. It’s really short but I donated my hair for wigs so I feel great about doing it. While Niall and everyone else has been out doing interviews and such I’ve been stuck in bed and Cassie and the kids have been visiting me every day. I feel like I’m losing my family, my faith, just everything. I feel terrible all of the time and it seems like there is no hope in me getting better. I don’t want to die and leave my kids and Cassie but I can feel myself slowly slipping away.

“Hey mate, show time is in ten minutes” Liam comes into my room.

“Hey I think I’m going to sit this one out. I’m not feeling so well today.” I tell him

“Are you sure Haz?”

“Yeah I’m sure”

Liam leaves to gather up the rest of the guys so they can head over to the arena. Not too long after he leaves I hear a knock on my door. I already know who it is even before they come into the room. Cassie comes into view with Olivia, Oliver, Brynlie followed by Taylor, Johannah and Thomas are here as well.

“Well hello guys” I try to say cheerfully.

“Hi daddy” Liv and Olli say.

“Uncle Harry you don’t look very good” Johannah points out.

“Yeah Uncle Harry doesn’t feel very well either” I tell her.

The kids go to the other room to play leaving Taylor, Cassie and myself to talk.

“Where’s Soph and Perrie?” I ask

“Sophia went back to London, the kids are coming down with the flu or something. Perrie had to go to Scotland with the band” Taylor says.

Great Liam’s kids are sick and I’ve been watching them for the last two days while Soph gets some stuff done for the band. Since I’m not feeling very good Cassie talks me into going to see the doctor. Taylor is going to stay with the kids while Cassie escorts me to the doctor’s office.

“Hi Harry how’re you feeling?”

“Not very well, I’m just…I just don’t feel well at all” I tell him.

“Ok let me run some labs and we’ll do a CT Scan and look at the progress of the cancer.” The doctor tells me

The nurse comes in and takes my blood, then shows me to the radiology unit for my CT Scan. When I’m done and back in my room, Cassie and I wait for an hour and twenty minutes before the doctor comes back in with my results.

“Harry there is no easy way to put this. Your white blood cell count is elevated tremendously which indicates that there is an infection somewhere and the cancer has taken over your whole liver and has moved to the prostate as well. We will need to get you admitted to the hospital as soon as possible to reverse the infection and to treat you properly."

Later that night I tell the rest of the guys what the doctor has told me.

“I will be flying back to London tomorrow; I will be admitted to the hospital immediately to start treatment.” I tell everyone

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“Be brave Harry” Cassie kisses my lips tenderly

“I’m not brave Cassie. I’m dying, how can I be brave if I’m dying?” I kiss her back

I feel a pair of hands on my shoulder shaking me. I open my eyes to see Paul hoovering over me.

It was a dream” I say to myself.

“We’re landing Harry so buckle up and set you seat back up please” Paul asks me.

Great I am back in London, The cancer has spread and the kiss I shared with Cassie was fake. Why can’t it be the other way around? I don’t want cancer. I don’t want to be back here in London away from my boys, my kids and Cassie. Why is god punishing me?

The plane lands and I see my mum is waiting for me by her car. I climb into the front seat. I look in the back and see a sleeping Haylie in her car seat. Mum drives me straight to London’s memorial hospital where I am admitted and moved to the oncology unit. The nurse hooks up my IV and gives me some pain medication along with my chemo for the next two hours. I sit and talk to my mum for a while and play with Haylie before mum takes her home for a nap. As I drift off to sleep I hear the sweet sound of her voice.

“Be brave Harry…be brave”

Notes

Well sadly there are only a few chapters left before this comes to an end. Thank you guys for sticking with me through this :) these were my first four stories on this site and i couldn't be any happier with them. Much love to all of you XOXOXO