The Stay With Me: Forever and Always
•Chapter 006
LOS ANGELES
•Niall’s POV•
Meaningful to say, I’m totally taken away by this little angel. He is the most adorable person in the entire world, he is so loving and is so sweet. He has blown me away, stole my heart for sure.
‘’What’s your favorite color?’’ I ask as I glance at him in the rear view mirror. ‘’Umm… let’s see..’’ He says with a sigh, tapping his little finger against his chin. I look over at Jana to see her brightly smiling, absolutely loving it. ‘’I dunno! There’s too many!’’ He says with a smile.
Jana and I share a laugh before she asks the next question. ‘’M’kay, well-‘’ ‘’M-mommy?’’ Jacob says the word hesitantly, cutting off Jana. ‘’Yeah sweetheart?’’ She asks, turning slightly in the seat so she could see him. ‘’Thank you..’’ He says with a shy smile, looking down at his lap.
‘’For.. for what?’’ Jana asks curiously. ‘’For gettin’ me.. away.. from there… I.. I didn’t like it.’’ He admits to us. I gulp gently, I hate knowing he was in so much discomfort staying there. ‘’You’re welcome, baby.’’ Jana smiles gently, I knew she wasn’t really excited about that topic – we both know it won’t be the last time it’s brought up.
‘’Can I.. can I see what.. what my brothers.. and sis-sisters look like?’’ He asks with a little nervousness in his voice. ‘’Sure, love. Hold on just a second.’’ Jana says as she looks over at me. ‘’Pull over somewhere, I wanna get in the back seat.’’ She smiles gently as I give her a quick look.
I sigh gently, lifting the corner of my mouth at her request – she was really happy about Jacob and I knew she was really hoping to make a change in his life. My eyes stayed on the road, trying to find a spot to pull off and stop for her. Just a few moments after being asked I saw a gas station.
Within a few minutes we were in the parking lot and Jana was quickly getting out the car and opening the back door, jumping in and sliding over to the middle, taking out her phone as the door shut. ‘’Okay, so we’ll start from the oldest.’’ She begins. I smile to myself as I pull back onto the road, headed back to the hotel.
MEMPHIS
•Tori’s POV•
My blood was boiling, my temper was beyond it’s level – Taylor had me so ticked off I could just slit his throat right here in the living room. But I won’t. Only because I know him too well, he’s only helping me. All my life, I just wanted him to find a different way other than torturing me. But that’s his way, and it works – so I don’t deny nor do I go against it.
“Look at me, baby, calm down okay? It’s okay, shh.. Tori..’’ Harry cooed to me as he laced his fingers with mine, bringing them between us to bring me closer to him. I look up to see him staring down at me, a concerned look on his face. I relaxed my jaw, eased the grip on Harry’s fingers a little.
‘’He’s right.’’ I mumble the words softly, giving Harry’s hand a squeeze before releasing them, pushing past him as I meet face to face with Taylor again. ‘’I’m sorry if I hurt you, I just.. I need to talk to you. I know I can only do that when you.. you’re mad.’’ Taylor smiles gently at me.
‘’Shut up.’’ I laugh lightly as I put my arms around his torso, his height being much taller than my own. He wraps his arms around my neck, holding me tight. ‘’I love you, Tori. I just want you to be happy.. and I know.. you’re not happy.’’ Taylor whispers softly into my ear.
‘’I’m not..’’ I reply, my voice muffled by his shirt. ‘’Tell me what’s been bothering you.’’ Taylor says more as a command than a statement. ‘’I.. I overhead Cody.. on the phone with one of his friends..’’ I start, taking a deep breath as I close my eyes, knowing that Harry and Selena are still present in the room – however they’ve already heard enough, so this might as well be told too.
‘’Yeah.’’ Taylor says, encouraging me to continue on. So I do, for his sake, ‘’He wants to propose.’’ I gently let the words leave my mouth. He sighs into my ear, keeping me close to him. Taylor was more than a brother to me, he’s my best friend. I can trust him, and I have always been able to tell him everything. I know it’s wrong to pick favorites out of your family, but if it’s ever a right thing.. then Taylor would surely be my pick.
‘’Why are.. why are you worried?’’ He asks me. ‘’Because of.. Mom.. and.. and.’’ I stop myself, knowing if I continue I will only worry myself more and more by the seconds that pass. It’s a haunting thought, something only Taylor will understand really.
‘’Dad.’’ He finishes for me. I nod against him, not wanting to speak about it – but I knew he knew why, so that made things much, much better for me. ‘’Remember what Dad told us.. a few years back.. about going into music and all that?’’ Taylor asks me.
I think back to the past, even though it seems like yesterday for me, I soon realized what he was talking about. I nod again, wanting him to see I didn’t have power to speak at the moment. ‘’He told us that sometimes.. in life.. we’re going to be given things that our own decisions. He said not to let his presence overpower us, and make us change our choices. He told us, Tori, not to let anything come between us and our dreams.’’ Taylor reminds me of Dad’s meaningful speech to the two of us.
Squeezing my eyes shut tight, I gulp gently, letting a few tears fall to be absorbed by the fabric of Taylor’s shirt. ‘’Dad’s not telling you this, I’m telling you this,’’ He stops himself with a sigh, ‘’There comes times in our lives.. when we know the right thing has arrived. Don’t let anything, or anyone, hold you back from doing what you want to do. Dad is just a person, he doesn’t make your decisions anymore. You do.’’ Taylor’s words hit hard, but I knew what he meant, and it meant a lot to me.
Biting the inside of my cheek, I fisted my hands into the back of his shirt, waiting for him to finish. ‘’My point, don’t let Mom and Dad stop you from being with Cody. They tried before, and they won. But you got him back, not because you wanted to, but because you had to. You love him, Tori, and he loves you. Look at our parents.. they survived the media’s pressure all these years, they’ve handled so much pain, so much loss.” Taylor inhales a deep breath as he takes a short pause.
“And look at them.. they’re still the same people they’ve always been. It’s love, Tori. And I know right now.. you’re just hurting.. because you know that your parents.. don’t approve of the love you and him share. But I.. I approve, because it makes you happy, and all I’ve ever wanted is for you to be.. happy.’’ Even when I thought he was finished, he kept on going – for me.
“I know you want to show Dad you’re good at everything and you can handle things on your own. But he doesn’t care, Tori, he loves you no matter what. He’s told us all that. I mean, damn, look at Terra.. she doesn’t know what’s normal anymore. Dad still loves her. Look at me.. I’ve fucked around with someone who might as well be related to us. He still loves me. He loves you too, no matter the mistakes you’ve made. Don’t look to impress him anymore, look to impress yourself.’’ Taylor pressed a kiss against my temple as he released me.
He’s right, he’s always right. He’s too young to know all the things he does, but I’m glad. Because if he didn’t tell me half the things he does, I would be making horrible decisions. I thank God every day for him, he’s my life savoir. He’s my best friend.
All my life I’ve wanted to impress Dad, not because I was jealous of everyone else but because I assumed that’s what he liked – success and pride. I just wanted to be something great in his life. Taylor’s words will stick to me the very end, just like all the others.
Our parents don’t judge us based on our mistakes, they watch us to see what our next chapter holds after making a decision. When I found out I was pregnant – I made the decision to keep Lexi and I made the decision to take care of her on my own, well at least he best I could.
It’s just scary to wonder.. if my relationship with Cody extends itself.. would that impress Dad.. or would it bring shame to him? If he loves me like he’s always promised, then he’ll look past it all and be happy for me. Right?
•Niall’s POV•
Meaningful to say, I’m totally taken away by this little angel. He is the most adorable person in the entire world, he is so loving and is so sweet. He has blown me away, stole my heart for sure.
‘’What’s your favorite color?’’ I ask as I glance at him in the rear view mirror. ‘’Umm… let’s see..’’ He says with a sigh, tapping his little finger against his chin. I look over at Jana to see her brightly smiling, absolutely loving it. ‘’I dunno! There’s too many!’’ He says with a smile.
Jana and I share a laugh before she asks the next question. ‘’M’kay, well-‘’ ‘’M-mommy?’’ Jacob says the word hesitantly, cutting off Jana. ‘’Yeah sweetheart?’’ She asks, turning slightly in the seat so she could see him. ‘’Thank you..’’ He says with a shy smile, looking down at his lap.
‘’For.. for what?’’ Jana asks curiously. ‘’For gettin’ me.. away.. from there… I.. I didn’t like it.’’ He admits to us. I gulp gently, I hate knowing he was in so much discomfort staying there. ‘’You’re welcome, baby.’’ Jana smiles gently, I knew she wasn’t really excited about that topic – we both know it won’t be the last time it’s brought up.
‘’Can I.. can I see what.. what my brothers.. and sis-sisters look like?’’ He asks with a little nervousness in his voice. ‘’Sure, love. Hold on just a second.’’ Jana says as she looks over at me. ‘’Pull over somewhere, I wanna get in the back seat.’’ She smiles gently as I give her a quick look.
I sigh gently, lifting the corner of my mouth at her request – she was really happy about Jacob and I knew she was really hoping to make a change in his life. My eyes stayed on the road, trying to find a spot to pull off and stop for her. Just a few moments after being asked I saw a gas station.
Within a few minutes we were in the parking lot and Jana was quickly getting out the car and opening the back door, jumping in and sliding over to the middle, taking out her phone as the door shut. ‘’Okay, so we’ll start from the oldest.’’ She begins. I smile to myself as I pull back onto the road, headed back to the hotel.
MEMPHIS
•Tori’s POV•
My blood was boiling, my temper was beyond it’s level – Taylor had me so ticked off I could just slit his throat right here in the living room. But I won’t. Only because I know him too well, he’s only helping me. All my life, I just wanted him to find a different way other than torturing me. But that’s his way, and it works – so I don’t deny nor do I go against it.
“Look at me, baby, calm down okay? It’s okay, shh.. Tori..’’ Harry cooed to me as he laced his fingers with mine, bringing them between us to bring me closer to him. I look up to see him staring down at me, a concerned look on his face. I relaxed my jaw, eased the grip on Harry’s fingers a little.
‘’He’s right.’’ I mumble the words softly, giving Harry’s hand a squeeze before releasing them, pushing past him as I meet face to face with Taylor again. ‘’I’m sorry if I hurt you, I just.. I need to talk to you. I know I can only do that when you.. you’re mad.’’ Taylor smiles gently at me.
‘’Shut up.’’ I laugh lightly as I put my arms around his torso, his height being much taller than my own. He wraps his arms around my neck, holding me tight. ‘’I love you, Tori. I just want you to be happy.. and I know.. you’re not happy.’’ Taylor whispers softly into my ear.
‘’I’m not..’’ I reply, my voice muffled by his shirt. ‘’Tell me what’s been bothering you.’’ Taylor says more as a command than a statement. ‘’I.. I overhead Cody.. on the phone with one of his friends..’’ I start, taking a deep breath as I close my eyes, knowing that Harry and Selena are still present in the room – however they’ve already heard enough, so this might as well be told too.
‘’Yeah.’’ Taylor says, encouraging me to continue on. So I do, for his sake, ‘’He wants to propose.’’ I gently let the words leave my mouth. He sighs into my ear, keeping me close to him. Taylor was more than a brother to me, he’s my best friend. I can trust him, and I have always been able to tell him everything. I know it’s wrong to pick favorites out of your family, but if it’s ever a right thing.. then Taylor would surely be my pick.
‘’Why are.. why are you worried?’’ He asks me. ‘’Because of.. Mom.. and.. and.’’ I stop myself, knowing if I continue I will only worry myself more and more by the seconds that pass. It’s a haunting thought, something only Taylor will understand really.
‘’Dad.’’ He finishes for me. I nod against him, not wanting to speak about it – but I knew he knew why, so that made things much, much better for me. ‘’Remember what Dad told us.. a few years back.. about going into music and all that?’’ Taylor asks me.
I think back to the past, even though it seems like yesterday for me, I soon realized what he was talking about. I nod again, wanting him to see I didn’t have power to speak at the moment. ‘’He told us that sometimes.. in life.. we’re going to be given things that our own decisions. He said not to let his presence overpower us, and make us change our choices. He told us, Tori, not to let anything come between us and our dreams.’’ Taylor reminds me of Dad’s meaningful speech to the two of us.
Squeezing my eyes shut tight, I gulp gently, letting a few tears fall to be absorbed by the fabric of Taylor’s shirt. ‘’Dad’s not telling you this, I’m telling you this,’’ He stops himself with a sigh, ‘’There comes times in our lives.. when we know the right thing has arrived. Don’t let anything, or anyone, hold you back from doing what you want to do. Dad is just a person, he doesn’t make your decisions anymore. You do.’’ Taylor’s words hit hard, but I knew what he meant, and it meant a lot to me.
Biting the inside of my cheek, I fisted my hands into the back of his shirt, waiting for him to finish. ‘’My point, don’t let Mom and Dad stop you from being with Cody. They tried before, and they won. But you got him back, not because you wanted to, but because you had to. You love him, Tori, and he loves you. Look at our parents.. they survived the media’s pressure all these years, they’ve handled so much pain, so much loss.” Taylor inhales a deep breath as he takes a short pause.
“And look at them.. they’re still the same people they’ve always been. It’s love, Tori. And I know right now.. you’re just hurting.. because you know that your parents.. don’t approve of the love you and him share. But I.. I approve, because it makes you happy, and all I’ve ever wanted is for you to be.. happy.’’ Even when I thought he was finished, he kept on going – for me.
“I know you want to show Dad you’re good at everything and you can handle things on your own. But he doesn’t care, Tori, he loves you no matter what. He’s told us all that. I mean, damn, look at Terra.. she doesn’t know what’s normal anymore. Dad still loves her. Look at me.. I’ve fucked around with someone who might as well be related to us. He still loves me. He loves you too, no matter the mistakes you’ve made. Don’t look to impress him anymore, look to impress yourself.’’ Taylor pressed a kiss against my temple as he released me.
He’s right, he’s always right. He’s too young to know all the things he does, but I’m glad. Because if he didn’t tell me half the things he does, I would be making horrible decisions. I thank God every day for him, he’s my life savoir. He’s my best friend.
All my life I’ve wanted to impress Dad, not because I was jealous of everyone else but because I assumed that’s what he liked – success and pride. I just wanted to be something great in his life. Taylor’s words will stick to me the very end, just like all the others.
Our parents don’t judge us based on our mistakes, they watch us to see what our next chapter holds after making a decision. When I found out I was pregnant – I made the decision to keep Lexi and I made the decision to take care of her on my own, well at least he best I could.
It’s just scary to wonder.. if my relationship with Cody extends itself.. would that impress Dad.. or would it bring shame to him? If he loves me like he’s always promised, then he’ll look past it all and be happy for me. Right?
Notes
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10/31/16