Struggle - H.S.

I let myself slide down against the door and I let out a frustrated cry and I let the tears flow from that hit. I never felt more angry then right this moment. How could I let him do that to me? He just kissed me as if he owned me. 'He did tell you, you were his didn't he' my subconscious scolds me and I wish I could slap her but that was impossible.

There was a soft knock on my door "Sweetheart, are you okay?" My dad asked and I didn't want him to worry "Yeah I'm fine dad, just a bit tired that's all" I told him through the door "Okay Anna, did you eat something today?" I heard my stomach grumble and I praised myself for getting a small fridge for my room. "Yeah, I already had something to eat with Harry, dad" I said back and I was hoping that he would leave me alone "Okay princess, goodnight and don't let the bed bugs bite" He said through the door and that made me smile a bit.

I got up and went over to my shower and quickly climbed in and I just stood there letting the warm water run over my aching body. I had way too much excersise today. I not only ran but had to fight two boys off of me, well three actually and then the bruises on my arms and the red spot from Harry's hand and now I remembered that stupid note. I got out of the shower and stared at my mirror and then I saw it, he had marked me even though it would go away eventually, he still had marked me and it made my blood boil. I grabbed my MacBook totally forgetting that I was only in a towel and my curtains were still open but I didn't care and I looked up boxing classes.

Never will he hurt me again like that not without the fact that I could defend myself. I wouldn't be as strong as he was but I could avoid further punches with the proper training and I found one nearby and I enrolled immediately. I could start tomorrow morning at 7. I couldn't be more exited because he would pay for that bruise on my cheek.

My phone went of and to avoid an angry Harry I looked at it and saw it was a face time call and I almost groaned because I didn't want to look at him but I know I had no choice. I answered the call and I saw Harry looking at me with a hint of mischievousness. "Hi love, you forgot to close your curtains" That was the least expected answer ever and I was wondering why he would say this. "Did you have a nice shower Anna?" He asked and then it hit me. I looked down at my body which only had a towel wrapped around it and I let out a yelp "Fuck!" and I quickly hang up the phone and I ran back into the bathroom and quickly put on my pyjama's. I went over to my window and stuck up my middle finger just in case he was watching again and shut them. I let myself fall on my bed and sighed deeply.

Why couldn't we just stay in America because now I have to deal with Harry and he was the last person on earth that I wanted to know and why did he pick me, when he could have a really beautiful girl, couldn't he just leave me alone. I got of off the bed and organised my books, which I didn't unpack yet.

This would be a all-nighter but I couldn't do that as I had boxing lessons tomorrow at 7, so I just made a small beginning and when my alarm went I climbed into my bed shutting the curtains around my bed because I didn't want anyone to see me and I had a feeling that Harry would pay me a visit even though I had my lock on the door. He just really terrified me and this way I could shut everyone out and I also put in my earplugs to listen to some soothing piano music.

When I finally fell asleep I heard my alarm and I almost jumped from my bed. I had been sleeping really deep I guess as I picked my ass from the floor. I grabbed my sports bag and I got into some black sweatpants and a crop top. Thankfully it was still really warm outside so I just put on my Nikes and went downstairs were I grabbed 2 bottles of water and left my house to get some training.

When I got there, there were already two boys training. One of them had black hair and a lot of tattoo's including a sleeve and the other had brown hair and a tattoo of a deer, yes he had more tattoos but that one stood out the most. I never really wanted to have a tattoo but I do think they are awesome to look at. I waited for my personal trainer and I was glad that I didn't know the guy when he approached me.

"Are you Anna?" he asked and when he said my name the two boys stopped training and stared at me but when they saw that I caught them staring they continued their training. "Yes that's me," I said and I shaked his hand "So you want to learn how to defend yourself?" He asked and I nodded eagerly and that made him smile "Well my name is Paul and I will be your trainer and don't expect me to go soft on you" He told me and I already liked him "Let's start shall we?" I nodded and got of the chair and followed him.

He first told me the basics and then he showed me how to take a punch and how to avoid them. Then he showed me how to punch. I learned fast and he left me to get some stuff and I had to punch the punching bag. I really needed this as I let out all of my frustration of the past 2 days and it felt amazing. I was punching away so I didn't see one of the boys take his phone and snap a picture of me well that is until his flash went off and I stopped immediately. "Uhm. Please don't take my picture," I asked him and he nodded "Yeah, I'm sorry for that, Anna was it?" He asked and I nodded "I'm Louis by the way, nice to meet you"

"Likewise" I told him with a smile on my face. He came a bit closer and touched my cheek with his finger. "Who did this to you?" he asked politely.

"Nobody important" I replied and that made him smile evilly and I didn't like it one bit. "I'm sorry but do you mind if I continue?" I asked him "No of course not, go ahead I'm leaving anyway"

"Oh alright, I will be seeing you then" I told him and he just smiled and waved when he walked away. I continued punching the bag and I was replaying what just happened, then it hit me he was taking my picture on purpose but I really was hoping he didn't know Harry, otherwise I would be in deep trouble. Paul came back with some papers after 15 minutes and he gave me my water bottle. I followed him towards the table and he explained the house rules and I signed it. We set an appointment for Sunday and that was my queue to leave.
I left feeling a totally different person.

I felt amazing and I was happy that I signed up for boxing lessons and when I walked back to my house my phone ringed and it was now 10am so I was a bit surprised but it really was my best friend. "Amy, is something wrong?" I asked her and she had been crying "He broke up with me Jude" Yeah I know she just likes to call me by my middle name and it always makes me smile when she does that. "What why?"

She and James were always really tight and perfect together and I never would have thought they would ever break up but so this was a big shock and I was so focussed n her that I didn't even realised that I was being followed. "He said he didn't love me anymore and that he was now seeing someone else" She sobbed and I immediately felt sorry for her, she did t deserve this. "I'm so sorry sweetie, do you want me to come?"

"You can't silly, you're across the world"

"I know but I wouldn't mind to fly back home"

"No that's fine, I will be okay. I just wanted to hear your voice," she said softly and I realised that I did miss her a lot. She is like the sister I never had and I wished I were there to support her through these times with a lot of chocolate ice cream. "You know just buy yourself a large bucket with chocolate ice cream and put in a Disney movie, that will make you feel better I promise.

"Thank you Anna, I miss you," She told me and I got tears in my eyes because I also really missed her. "I miss you to but we shall Skype more okay?" I promised her, not knowing that I wouldn't own up to my promise anytime soon.

"Okay, I'm going to see if we have chocolate ice and I will see you soon, bye Jude" she said and we hang up. I walked up to my house and I went to the kitchen getting some breakfast when my mother entered the room and she at first looked surprised to see me fully dressed and making pancakes. "Good morning darling, where were you this morning?" She asked curious and I giggled "I am taking boxing lessons mom" Her mouth had fallen open when her eyes fell on my cheek "is that were you got that bruise from?" I know I had to lie even though I didn't want to but it was better if she didn't know that it was harry.

"Yeah I avoided my trainer a bit too slow but it will heal mom" I reassured her and she just nodded "So how was your day with Harry yesterday?" she asked way to enthusiastic.
"It was fine mom. He showed me a few neat places and then we went our separate ways. I did found this little bookshop and I am now a proud employee of that same bookshop, how cool is that" I said enthusiast "Good for you sweetheart" She said whilst eating her pancakes. I enjoyed the silence, while we were eating.

I wanted to do the dishes but she ushered me out of the room with the excuse that I needed a shower and I climbed up the stairs and when I stepped into my room, my eyes fell on the curly haired boy, which I was trying to avoid.

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