Struggle - H.S.

I started the next day with a long shower because I really needed one. Not because I was dirty but to get rid of the tension in my shoulders. Harry really gave me a headache last night and I was sick of being like this. I got dressed in a short green dress and I pulled on some flip flops. I pulled my hair into a loose bun and decided to skip the make up, I didn’t need to impress anyone as Harry already had claimed me.

And to be fair I wasn’t going anywhere even if I wanted to. Harry had locked me up in my own damn house and my parents weren’t here to say something about it, as they had abandoned me, leaving me in the mercy of Harry and his gang. If you can call it a gang though. They couldn’t even fix their own wounds they needed me to do that, as if I was a bloody doctor. I walked downstairs when I heard Harry talk to I guess one of the lads. They didn’t hear me coming down, which was good as now I could spy on them.

“I wish she wasn’t being so stubborn.” Harry said with I guess a little sadness, which was weird, why would he be sad about it. “Well you haven’t really treated her nicely.” I recognized Niall’s voice out if this, only because of his Irish accent. “I know and I actually regret that. I shouldn’t have beaten her like I did, she was just smart mouthing me and I couldn’t handle that.” He confessed and I was wondering why he couldn't handle that because it was pretty normal for someone to stick up for him or herself so why wouldn't I do exactly that.

“Why not? I mean your sister does that all the time.” Niall said and it was quiet for a few seconds before Harry talked back. “I know but it was like she was provoking me and I just snapped.” My mouth fell open when I heard him say that, as if it was my bloody fault that he had hit me. Damn that’s really low even for him I guess. “Harry you are aware that you can’t keep her here forever right?” Niall asked him sounding worried and I was thinking the exact same thing.

“I’m aware but till school starts, she wont be leaving this house.” Harry sounded absolute and I hated it. “That’s not really fair to her, I mean she has boxing classes and work, you can’t take that away from her.” Niall was really sticking up for me and that really meant a lot to me. “If that is keeping her safe I can.” I was beginning to feel desperate when he said that because it really sounded final and I had learned my lesson by now.

“If that is your final decision, then I’m wishing you luck with handling her. I mean for starters she has been listening to this entire conversation.” Niall said and I almost slipped when I heard that and I know it was no use to get back upstairs. I sighed and walked down the remaining of the stairs but instead of joining them in my living room I went towards the kitchen to get some breakfast, I just put some muesli into a bowl when I felt Harry entering the kitchen.

I immediately tensed up, waiting for what he was going to do but he just took a seat at the kitchen table and kept his mouth shut. I looked over my shoulder and saw him staring at me. I saw that his teeth were clenched and his fists were balled, which didn’t make me feel any better. I poured some yoghurt over my muesli and took a seat across of him. I kept my eyes on my bowl whilst eating. I heard him sigh deeply before he began to talk. “I don’t really appreciate you listening in on my conversations Anna.” I wanted to make a smartass move but decided against it.

“I’m sorry Harry.” I said whilst continuing my muesli. “Look at me.” He ordered and I almost didn’t oblige but that would mean he would make me by grabbing my chin again and it still felt sore from the time he did that. “What do you want Harry?” I asked him sounding tired because to be honest I felt exhausted from this mess I was in. “Do you still want to continue your boxing lessons?” This surprised me but I quickly nodded. “Yes but as you just said to Niall, I’m not allowed out of my own house.” I told him and at this he narrowed his eyes.

“I don’t like eavesdroppers.” He said icily but I shook it off. “I don’t like being held against my will but hey what do I know right?” I immediately bit my tongue and I was already wishing that I had kept my mouth shut, as I saw his eyes getting darker our of anger. “I’m trying to be nice here but you are making this really hard.” I kept my mouth shut whilst staring at him. I was waiting for him to continue and he liked that I kept my mouth shut this time.

“So I have arranged a tutor for you.” He continued after a few minutes of just staring at me. “Oh… who?” I asked him genuinely curious. “Louis is going to train you.” This made me laugh so hard because I was actually looking forward to kick his sorry ass. “Okay, thank you.” I got up and put my bowl into the sink. I walked out of the kitchen but Harry grabbed my arm and spinned my around. I crashed against his chest and he took full advantage of this by kissing me.

I pushed him away again. He really wasn’t giving up on winning me over and to be honest I didn’t actually mind him kissing me. I knew this was so wrong but he was a really good kisser and I’m a girl with hormones and that was all it was. Just those damn hormones. When he released his hold on me I quickly walked back to my room and locked myself away from him. I went onto my balcony and sat down with a good book, which led me into another universe.

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