Struggle - H.S.

I watched him storm out of my room and I had the urge to follow him but then again why would I do that? I mean he apparently doesn’t know what he is feeling and I wasn’t going to help him figure it out.

I let myself fall on my bed and enjoyed the cold air. I put my MacBook on and started up Netflix. I decided to watch on of my favourite tv shows. ‘The vampire Diaries', I was actually addicted to that show and sometimes wished that there were really vampires and that I would have a romance like Damon and Elena.

Then again… It wouldn’t be healthy right but to be a vampire would help a lot with dealing with guys like Harry and that guy who had beaten me up. I felt a shiver run down my body and I mentally kicked my but for allowing myself to think about what had happened, I just had to let it go.

At the end of the first episode it felt as if my head was going to explode. I had such a terrible headache. I got of from my bed and walked into my bathroom and grabbed my bottle of pills, I had still some heavy painkillers from the last time I was in the hospital, which reminded me what Harry did to me and what has happened since then. He was literally ruining my life and I was sick of it. I was glad that College was starting in just a few days. This meant that I had some freedom from him, as he wasn’t attending or was he? I couldn’t remember, he probably said something about it, maybe I should ask him but not today though, I just wanted to sleep for now. I got in bed and thanks to the painkillers I fell asleep immediately.

“Anne, wake up!” was the first thing I heard when I gained consciousness and I really did;t like that voice, although I could;t quite place that voice.

“What?” I mumbled, not ready to open my eyes yet and also to just mess wit the person who was next to my bed. “Anna, come on, you have to get to your boxing lesson.” He was really whining by now and I just wanted to punch him in the face for bothering me and also this sounded like a dream, as I hadn’t told anyone that I had a lesson early this morning.

I'm just going to ignore him, I pulled the blankets a bit more over my head, hoping that whoever was talking to me, would go away already but I was out of luck when someone pulled the blankets of my body.

“Anna, get up!” His voice grew impatiently and I began to recognize the voice and that made it even worse.

“Alright, Alright, can’t you just go away!” I mumbled into my pillow and even tough I couldn't see him or better yet I didn't want to see him, I could picture him shaking his head at me. “No I can’t, Harry send me to wake you up." The voice said annoyed and that made me open my eyes because who was it than? It wasn't Niall then who else was it, as I said I did recognize the voice slightly, I turned my head to see who it was that invaded my house and was bothering me to get up at this godly hour.

That's when I saw the stag tattoo, which could only belong to one person and that was Louis, He was standing next to my bed, looking really annoyed by me and my lack of obedience and he looked bored as well, which was fair I guess.

“Louis right?” I asked timidly and he nodded. “Jep that’s me and you have to hurry up!” he grabbed my arm and tried to pull me out of my bed but it only made me grab the bed post tighter.

“Well I’m awake now, so feel free to leave my house!” I said to him feeling more annoyed by the second. “Nope, can’t do that.” he was so annoying me right now, I just needed some space and he was definitely not welcome in my house.

“Why the hell not?” I asked him whilst sitting up. He locked eyes with me and I actually saw the hate in there. “Orders.” he snapped but I wasn't impressed by it.

“Harry ordered you to stay here until I was actually up?” I asked him barely containing my laughter because let's face it, it really pathetic to have me watched for so long especially by someone who apparently hates my guts.

“No, not exactly, I’m here to escort you to your boxing lesson.” He said with a shrug. I had to give it to him though as he was really doing his utmost best to stay polite even if his eyes told the truth.

“Alright, Leave now please!” I tried again but he didn't budge. “I wish I could but I have to escort you. If I leave this house without you I’m dead meat.” He said and I believed that, especially after what happened yesterday but I could't let him win entirely, so I just had to sass him a bit. “Yeah and you think I care?” I ask sarcastically with raised eye brows and it actually made him chuckle.

“No I guess you don’t care then but still hurry up please?” He was asking me nicely now and that did it, I groaned, as I stood up from my bed, feeling my muscles burn thanks to the events of yesterday and the fact that I have been running. I really wasn’t looking forward to look in the mirror and Louis wasn’t helping a bit because he was looking at my body with disgust. “You know you could’ve just turn around, so that you don’t have to look at my body.” I told him angry and a but ashamed because it was never fun when a guy looked at you, like Louis looked at me.

“I know but I wanted to see what they did to you.” He said curiously and that made me almost think he cared but I knew better but I did;t want to fight so I just went with it. “It’s not that bad, I’m still alive.” I mumbled after that I almost ran into my bathroom where I got dressed.

I already put on my shorts and a sports bra with a crop top on top of it. I grabbed my boxing tape and put on my Nikes. I put my hair into a messy bun and brushed my teeth and that’s all I did as I didn’t want to put on make-up. “Alright let’s go” I walked passed him but he grabbed my arm and dragged me with him towards the kitchen.

“Your not going anywhere without breakfast.” He got some cornflakes and milk and put it in front of me. This was actually really funny as he didn’t give me a bowl to put it in.
“And how am I supposed to eat this?” I now I was sounding like a smart ass but at this moment I really didn't care.

“I don’t know where you keep everything, so grab it yourself.” He said, so I got up from my seat and walked over to the cabinet and fetched myself a bowl and a spoon and sat back down. When I realised that I was just following his orders I got actually pretty upset with myself but I had to save it for my lesson.

“Alright I’m done, can we go now?” He nodded and I walked outside. Louis followed behind and closed the door behind him and walked over to Harry’s house thinking I would follow him but as he walked away I went in the opposite direction, taking my short cut. I ran all the way to the gym and I was happy to see that Louis wasn’t anywhere near the gym. I went inside pulled of my crop top and put on my boxing tape and started my warming up.

“Anna, you shouldn’t have run away from Louis.” I turned around to see Zayn standing against the wall watching me and I shrugged at him and continued. I saw my coach approach and he pointed towards the ring, which meant we were going to fight against each other. I couldn’t wait to get in some punches, as I was really frustrated. “Good morning Anna, are you ready to get some exercise?” my coach asked with a big smile on his face and I was really pumped up.

“Let’s do this!!” I almost yelled at him, as he took his position he ordered me to do the same, which I did of course. We started to circle each other. I was waiting him out. I know he was going to take the first punch because he wasn’t really patient and I wasn't planning on getting hit that much today.

When he tried to punch me in the face I blocked him but what he didn’t expect was my attacking him immediately and I got him good on the side of his face. This was how it went back and forth between us and we were really sweating near the end. I got in some good punches but he did as well and I really had to give up because everything was hurting.
“Stop, stop..” was al I could say to let him know that I had enough and he stopped immediately. I let myself fall on the floor and heard a chuckle which came from my coach.
“Something was definitely bothering you, because you were actually really concentrated on hitting me, that you totally were forgetting to control your breathing.” he said chuckling and I couldn't help but smile at him for this.

“I know, I have been through a few thing yesterday and I just had to get it out of my system.” I told him and he nodded. “Well I’m glad I could assist you in that, tomorrow another round?” He asked and I first took a deep breath before answering.

“”Yes, same time?” I asked him and he was already walking out of the ring. “That’s fine, I'll see you tomorrow!” That's when he left and I got up to hit the showers, as I had to go straight to work. I had brought a floral dress with me, which was really summery and ended just above the knees. I was thinking about that dress when I heard the locker room door close behind me and I was dreading the person who was in the room with me.

“Why did you run away, Anna?”

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