A couple weeks passed Perrie and Zayn came back from London. Everyone went back to school to finish off the term and I was sitting in the apartment waiting for Niall to come over. We were going to find out if I was pregnant or not. We haven't told anyone what happened at the hotel and Niall been avoiding me too. I don't know why his been avoiding me. I just know that he won't answer his phone or when he comes around he don't say much to me.

When the front door opened I thought it was Niall, but it was just Louis. He smiled at me, “what have you been up to today?” He asked me. He sat down next to me, “nothing,” I replied. He raised an eyebrow at me, “Niall still avoiding you?” He questioned. I nodded my head, “what happened?” he wondered. I shook my head as I heard the front door open again. Niall walked in holding a plastic bag and straight away noticed Louis, “hey,” he says.

“Hey,” I say back. Louis looked at the plastic bag, “did I interrupted something?” Louis asked. Both Niall and I shook our heads, “then what's in the bag?” Louis wondered. Niall looked down at the bag, “stuff,” he replied. Louis nodded slowly, “what kind of stuff?” Louis smiled. Niall shook his head, “does he know?” Niall asked me. I shook my head, “what going on?” Louis questioned.

“Don't you have somewhere you need to be?” I asked Louis. He smiled as he shook his head, “Lou get out,” Niall snapped. Louis stood up, “this is where I live. I don’t need to get out,” Louis snapped back. I sighed, “Louis can you leave me and Niall alone,” I tell him. Louis shook his head and I got up. I went over to Niall, “let's just go to my room,” I tell Niall.

Niall and I went into my room, “why does he want to know everything?” Niall whined. Niall placed the plastic bag on my bed, “I don't know,” I replied. I sat on my bed next to the plastic bag before I looked in it. There were five different pregnancy test, “you’re lucky I got them. People were giving me funny looks,” he tells me. He sat down next to me, “thank you,” I say. Niall placed his hand on my knee, “you need to go do them, so we can find out,” he says. I nodded my head, “but what about Lou?” I wondered. We heard a door shut, “well I think his in room now,” Niall smiled.

I went to the bathroom as Niall stood outside the door. I peed on two of the test before I let Niall in the bathroom. I didn't want to look at the test, “Ni why have you been avoiding me?” I asked him. Niall looked at me, “you’re going to hit me for it, but I've been avoiding you. Because every time I see you I want to touch you and I couldn't. You said no sex until we find out,” Niall admitted. I wrapped my arms around him, “it upset me by the way,” I tell him. Niall smiled as the timer went off, “you look,” I say. Niall looked at the test, “both say negative,” he tells me. I felt happy, “can we not do that again?” I asked.

“Um Buttercup I don't think there will be a next time,” he says. I stepped back as I looked at him, “what?” I wondered. Niall grabbed my hands, “I can't do this anymore. Max comes back tomorrow and you need to be with him,” he tells me. I felt my chest get tighter, “I don't want to be your secret or your sexual release. So I'm ending it,” he added. I shook my head, “yes. He needs you more than me,” he says.

“What's going to happen to us then?” I asked. I didn't want to know his answer, “there's not going to be an us. I can't see you. I can't be your friend,” he replied. He walked away from me, “I hope his worth it Buttercup,” Niall whispered before he walked out. I wanted to scream at him. I wanted to tell him the truth about Max, but I couldn't. I heard the front door slam, “bye Niall,” I mumbled. I looked at the pregnancy tests and wondered if I didn't overreacted would things be different. Louis came in the bathroom, “is everything alright Claire?” He asked.

“No,” I cried. Louis hugged me, “Niall's gone and don't want to be with me anymore,” I added. Louis kissed the side of my head, “Claire are those pregnancy tests?” Louis asked. I nodded my head, “there negative,” I tell him. Louis kissed the side of my head again, “come on let's get rid of these. I'll make us a cuppa and we will sit down on the lounge,” Louis tells me.

I fell asleep on Louis on the lounge to be woken up when Sophia and Liam got home. I stayed there on Louis with my head on his chest, “what do you two what for dinner?” Sophia asked us. I didn't say anything, “anything,” Louis replied. I heard Sophia come closer to us, “is everything alright?” She wondered. I nodded my head, but Louis shook his, “Niall and Claire have been fooling around lately,” Louis started.

“Yeah I gather that,” Sophia interrupted. I was a little bit surprised, “well they had a pregnancy scare. The test are negative. But Niall ended things again with Claire,” Louis tells her. Sophia sat down next to me, “you going to be alright?” She asked me. I nodded my head, “going to have to be,” I say.

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Max finally got to New York and settled in into a dorm room. I didn't want to see him since I knew he only wanted one thing off of me. So I told him that I was sick, but he ended up coming around on Saturday. He wanted me to go to a party at the frat house and I didn't want to go. He told me if I didn't go that he would share my photos of me naked to everyone. I hate how he does this to me and I know Niall would never do that to me. He also told me to wear something slutly, so people can see what he has.

I put on my slutest clothes that I had which was a black pleated mini skirt and crop top with a slit in the middle. My boobs nearly fall out of the top, but lucky for me it was tight. I put on my black chunky caged platform heels before I grabbed out my leather biker jacket. I did my eyes with black winged eyeliner and my lips red. I looked myself in the mirror and I truly looked like a hooker. I put my jacket on so the guys don't see what I'm really wearing.

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I found Max and Louis in the kitchen, “hey hunny,” Max smiled at me. He kissed my cheek, “so Max losing his party virginity?” Louis wondered. Max nodded his head, “is it like the movies?” He asked. I knew he was making conversation when he really didn't want too. Perrie came out to the kitchen, “it better, cause it real,” Louis says. Perrie looked at me, “Claire Bear lost that ages ago now,” she smiled. Max looked at me, “you went to a party without me?” He questioned.

“Well two. We went out for New Years,” Louis added. Max was still looking at me and I knew I was in trouble, “who did you go out with on New Year’s?” Perrie wondered. Please stop everyone, “me, Harry and Niall,” Louis tells her. Max face changed when Niall's name was mentioned and now I would hear about it later, “yeah we went to a party in Time Square,” I say. Well if I'm going to get in trouble I might as well tell the truth, “oh god it was fun. Harry started singing and everyone joined in. Even Claire and Niall started dancing,” Louis says. I smiled at the memories of that night, “so where is Niall?” Max asked. I hated how he said Niall's name then, “him, Harry and Zayn live in the frat house,” Perrie tells him. Max rolled his eyes as Liam and Sophia came out, “which we should be getting to,” Liam says.

When we got to the frat house the party was in full swing. We all straight away headed for the kitchen to see Harry. He greeted Max before handing him a drink, “so what's life like in the frat house?” Max asked Harry. I got myself a drink, “normal,” Harry replied. Harry never liked talking to Max, “Claire can I talk to you?” Harry asked me. I nodded my head before I looked at Max. He didn't look happy with me as I left the kitchen with Harry.

We went into his bedroom in the frat house and by the looks of it he shared with Zayn. I sat down on Zayn bed and Harry sat down on his, “Lou told me what happened with Niall,” he started. I looked down at the floor, “what part of it?” I wondered. I looked back at Harry, “all of it. From the pregnancy scare to Niall ending it, but how did you two get a pregnancy scare?” Harry wondered. I explained the night at the hotel to Harry, “wow you and Niall are kinky,” he says.

“Was,” I pointed out. Harry sighed, “I know sorry,” he apologized. I shrugged my shoulders, “it was fun while it lasted,” I say. I felt sad, “he only left me, because I'm still with Max. I wish I never got with Max. I don't know what I saw in him,” I mumbled. Harry kneeled in front of me, “why did you get with Max? Lou also told me why you won't leave him, but I can't help think that there's another reason,” he questioned. He grabbed my hands, “what reason that?” I wondered.

“That you are afraid of the feelings that you have towards Niall,” he tells me. I shook my head, “I never had feelings like that for Niall,” I say. Harry ran his thumbs over the back of my hand, “then why give him your virginity or why fuck him over the holidays? You like him and maybe even love him,” Harry points out. I shook my head, “we were drunk we when lost our virginity and the only reason why we fucked over the holidays. Was because I wanted him to want me in any way he wanted,” I tell Harry.

“Ok then,” Harry sighed. He stood up in front of me, “but at least I know Niall wouldn't make you dress up as a hooker,” Harry tells me. I looked down at myself, “who said he made me?” I questioned. I stood up next to Harry, “I know you don't wear skirts that short that I can nearly see your knickers and God only knows what you got under you jacket,” Harry tells me. I un-zipped my jacket to show him my barely there crop top, “why does he make you fucken do this shit?” Harry snapped. I looked down, “I think his playing on his depression to make you do what he wants,” he added. When I was about to zip up my jacket Harry stopped me, “you might as well leave it open and I can't promise Niall be nice about it,” Harry says.

We joined the party and found everyone in the lounge room sitting down. They looked at my top and they all shook their heads. I sat down next to Max, “so what did you and Harry have to talk about?” He asked. He put his hand on my knee, “just something about his sister,” I lied. Max gave me a small nod before leaning over to me, “jacket off now,” he whispered in my ear. I slowly took my jacket off, because if I didn't I knew I was going to be in trouble. I noticed everyone in the lounge room was looking at me, “good girl,” Max added. Sophia and Perrie gave me concerning looks, “Claire!” I heard Jess shout. She came running up and hugged me, “Jess,” I say back. Max smirked at us as Jess looked me up and down, “I like,” Jess smiled.

“Jess met Claire’s boyfriend Max,” Harry tells her as he pointed to Max. Jess looked him up and down as Max smiled at her, “nice to meet you,” Max says. Jess smiled back, “nice to meet you too,” she says. I could tell that she didn't care about Max, “you wanna be my partner for beer pong?” Jess asked me. I nodded my head, “cool we’re playing against Fred and Niall,” she tells me. My stomach dropped and my heart started beating faster, “cool,” Harry says. I glared at him as he got up, “this is going to be fun,” Liam mumbled.

Jess dragged me outside to a table just for beer pong and it was already set up. Niall wasn't there yet, but Fred and Breton was. Brenton licked his lips as he looked me up and down, “Claire my partner,” Jess tells Fred. I was cold in my slut outfit, “where's Niall?” Max asked. Fred and Brenton looked at him, “you must be Claire’s boyfriend,” Fred says. Max nodded his head as Fred shook his hand, “I'm Fred,” he smiled. Max looked at Brenton, “I'm Brenton and I don't know where Niall is,” Brenton tells him. They also shook hands, “well he needs to hurry up. I can't let my Claire freeze to death,” Jess says.

“Well maybe she should of worn more clothes,” I heard Niall say. He stood on the other side of the table as he looked at me. He was wearing blue jeans, a black and white striped shirt and a black jacket over the top. He looked angry, “hi Max,” Niall says. Max ignored him, “well let's get the game started,” Fred says. Everyone gathered around the table, “let's make this fair. I'll have Buttercup on my team,” Niall tells us. I stood next to Niall, “but it's my Claire,” Jess pouted. I noticed Max checking out Jess, “my Buttercup first,” Niall smiled. Max looked at him and I swear he wanted to kill him, “let's just play,” Fred whined. Niall threw the ping pong ball and it landed in a cup, so Jess drank it. Fred threw the next ball and it also landed in a cup. I drank the cup before having my shot, “wait. Is Claire any good?” Brenton asked.

“Well if you shut up. You can see if she is,” Niall tells him. I threw the ball and landed in a cup and Fred drank it. Niall put his arm over my shoulder as Jess had her shot. She missed, “we need to talk about your outfit. Well lack of outfit,” Niall whispered in my ear. I looked at him, “your shot,” I tell him. Niall looked at me as he threw the ping pong ball and got it in. He smirked at me as I leaned in, “you don't get a say in what I wear,” I whispered. I turned around to see Fred get the ball in a cup, “drink up Niall,” Jess smiled. Niall drank the drink in one go.

We were down to three cups each and it was my turn. I threw the ping pong ball and it missed, “you were good at the start,” Brenton points out. I nodded my head, “alcohol,” I simply say. Jess threw the ball and it landed in a cup. Niall drank it, “Buttercup their winning,” Niall points out. I nodded my head, “and I'm still cold,” I tell him. Niall took his jacket off and gave it to me, “thanks,” I smiled. I put it on and did it up not caring about Max glaring at me. Niall threw the ball and it landed in a cup. Fred drank it before he threw the ball. It missed, “now I don't want to put pressure on you, but get it in,” Niall tells me. I knew Niall's words had a double meaning to them as I threw the ball. It landed in a cup, “drink up Jess,” I smiled.

“Well that was my last drink for the game,” she says. Niall shook his head, “losers got to drink three shots,” Niall informs her. Jess sighed, “well I better get this one in,” Jess says. She threw the ball and it landed in a cup. I drink it, “now I don't want to put pressure on you, but get it in,” I mocked Niall. He smirked, “oh I'll be getting it in,” he says. I was thrown off by his comeback as he missed the cup, “you sure?” I teased. Niall nodded his head, “I'm sure,” he smirked. Fred threw the ball and it landed in the last cup. I looked at Niall as he drank it, “shots,” Harry yelled. They placed six shot glasses in front of me and Niall before they filled them up. Niall and I drink three each, “now that should warm me up,” I says. Niall came closer to me, “leave my jacket on,” he ordered.

“Like I said before,” I started. Niall shook his head, “I don't care what you said before. Leave it on,” he snapped. I looked down, “Buttercup I don't know what Max is up to with you, but for your own good leave my jacket on,” he says much calmer. I nodded my head before Max stood next to me, “too bad you lost,” Max smiled. I shrugged my shoulders, “I would have lost ages ago if I was Jess team,” I tell him. Max laughed a little bit, “why don't you give Niall his jacket back now,” Max tells me. I shook my head, “I'm cold and I want to stay outside for a bit,” I say. I knew I was going to pay for it later, “ok,” Max whispered. Niall handed Max a drink, “so how are you liking New York so far?” Niall asked him.

“It's alright. I don't have a roommate in my dorm room,” Max replied. Max drank some of his drink, “that's going to be fun for you,” Niall smiled. It felt like Niall was up to something, “so what's it like living with a bunch of guys?” Max asked him. Niall shrugged his shoulders, “I have my own room here and I don't have to have a shower with other people,” Niall tells him. I felt Niall’s hand on my back as Brenton and Fred came over to us, “that's cause he's a lucky bastard. I have to share,” Fred says. Brenton looked disappointed that I had Niall's jacket on, “so how long have you been in New York for?” Brenton asked Max.

“Nearly a week. Me and Claire went to Australia for a year on the student exchange program,” Max replied. Brenton just nods his head not really caring, “how about we play truth or dare?” Brenton suggested. The rest of our group stood around us, “ok but how about we sit down for this?” Niall suggested back.

We sat in the barbecue area as I sat next to Max and Niall sat next to me on the other side. Zayn joined us after he explained that he was graffiti a wall. We all got new drinks since everyone drank theirs, “ok I'll pick truth first,” Perrie says. I felt the back of Niall's hand against my thigh, “have you fucked Zayn?” Jess asked. Perrie turns bright red and so does Zayn, “I think they did it over the holidays,” Niall whispered in my ear. I nodded my head, “I don't want to answer that,” Perrie mumbled.

“Well you just did,” Harry smiled. Perrie looked down, “um dare,” Zayn says to change the subject. Brenton smiled big, “I dare you to stick your hand down Perrie knickers and leave it there for a round,” Brenton tells him. Zayn and Perrie were shocked, “I'm not doing that,” Zayn snapped. Brenton just smiled bigger, “then do a shot,” Brenton says. Zayn takes a shot, “I pick dare,” Harry tells us.

“Make-out with Lou,” Niall smiled. Harry gave Niall the rude finger before he turned to Lou, “do you wanna?” Harry asked him. Louis shrugged his shoulders, “I pretend you’re a girl,” Louis joked. Harry and Louis started making out, “why is this hot?” Sophia questioned. I looked at Niall and he had a big smile on his face, “what you want me to start making out with Zayn?” Liam wondered. Sophia nodded her head, “if you do. I'll do anything you want,” Sophia tells him. Liam whispered in her ear, “even that,” Sophia says. I wondered what ‘that’ was, “ok you can stop now,” Max whined.

“Why it was turning Sophia on?” Jess complained. Max glared at her, “cause we need to keep this game moving,” Max snapped at her. Niall grabbed the side of my skirt, “watch you tone with her,” Fred snapped back. Max mumbled an apology to Jess and Louis picked dare, “jump into the pool naked,” I dared him. Louis smiled as he stood up, “now Reid if you wanted to see me naked all you have to do is asked,” Louis joked. I laughed a little bit as Louis stripped off to nothing. He jumped into the pool, “we are done with this game,” Max growled in my ear.

“Your turn Max,” Niall tells him. Max looked at Niall, “fine dare,” Max says. I knew Max wanted to punch Niall right now, “stand up and shout. I have a small cock,” Niall smiled. Max shook his head and Fred hands him a shot. As Max takes his shot Louis came back over and got dressed, “dare,” I say before anyone asked me. At this point I really didn't care what they dared me to do, “give me you knickers for the rest of the game,” Harry tells me. I took my knickers off without flashing anyone before I gave them to Harry. He put them in his pocket, “Ni your turn,” Sophia tells him.

“Dare,” Niall replied. Max looked half asleep, “put Claire’s knickers on your head,” Jess dared him. Niall held his hand out to Harry, so Harry gave him my knickers. Niall put them on his head, “I choose truth,” Sophia tells us. I smirked at her, “what did Liam whisper in your ear when you said anything?” I wondered. Sophia blushed a deep red, “I um,” she stuttered.

“Come on it can't be that bad,” Louis says. Sophia looked at Liam, “um he wants to watch me play with myself,” she blurted out. We all laughed a little, “really? Just that?” Zayn questioned. Sophia nodded her head, “I can't do it in front of him. I find it really embarrassing,” Sophia admitted. She looked down, “here I thought it was anal,” Niall says. I looked at him and couldn't help, but laugh at him with my knickers on his head. I shook my head as I stopped laughing, “what with men and anal?” I questioned.

“Not all men like anal,” Zayn tells me. I looked at him, “I don't,” he added. I nodded my head, “plus it's the hole that some girls think it forbidden,” Harry says. They boys all agreed, “but fags do it all the time,” Max slurred. I notice Harry and Louis was offended at Max choice of word. Max really seemed out of it, “a lot of people do it,” Perrie says. Max closed his eyes, “Max?” I questioned. I shook him a little bit and he didn't move, “his alright princess. Just the drug taking over,” Niall tells me. I quickly looked at him, “drug?” I wondered. Niall nodded, “yeah the one I put in his drink,” Niall replied.

“You drugged him! Why would you do that?” I snapped. Niall takes my knickers off his head, “so you can go change and stop walking around like a slut,” Niall snapped back. I grabbed my knickers off of him and put them on, “don't start princess. I know it was him,” Niall tells me. I stood up, “but there are other ways,” I sighed. I knew Niall was right, “what are we going to do with him?” I asked. Brenton and Fred stood up, “we’re going to put him in a room and leave him there,” Brenton replied. They picked Max up, “and you’re coming with me,” Niall tells me as he grabbed my hand.

He took me into his bedroom and I sit on his bed. He went through his wardrobe draws, “Niall,” I started. He doesn't look at me, “don't ask me why I'm being nice to you. I just can't see you walking around like that,” Niall interrupted. I sighed, “why? It what most girls wear here,” I wondered. Niall turned around with a black t-shirt and pair of grey track pants in his hands, “but you’re not them. I don't want you to be them. They only wear that shit to get fucked by some guy that don't give a shit about them,” Niall tells me. He threw the clothes next to me, “and if this is how Max wants you to be. I can't let him do that to you. That's not my Buttercup,” he added.

“I'm not your Buttercup anymore,” I whispered. Niall kneeled down in front of me, “Buttercup my dad left. He only sends money, so I can survive. I haven't seen or heard from him in nine months,” Niall confessed. I was shocked at his sudden confession, “Ni?” I questioned. I placed his face between my hands, “why didn't you tell me?” I added. Niall placed his head in my lap as he wrapped his arms around me, “what were you going to do? You were on the other side of the world,” he asked. I ran my fingers through his hair, “I would have come home,” I tell him. Niall shook his head against my lap, “I didn't want that. I thought you were having a good time,” he says.

“It wouldn't have mattered to me. Ni you’re more important to me,” I tell him. Niall looked at me, “I know that why I couldn't do it to you,” he says. He put his head back in my lap, “do we have to go back to the party?” I wondered. Niall shrugged his shoulders, “but you’re still getting changed,” he replied. I smiled, “what if I don't want to?” I questioned. Niall looked at me, “I'll do it for you then,” he smirked. He moved his hands under the jacket to the top of my skirt, but moved them away. I was confused until he ran his hands up my thighs, “lay back baby,” he tells me.

“Niall,” I started. He kissed me, “don't think please,” he begged. He kissed me again before I laid back onto the bed. Personally I can't keep up with Niall's moods. One minute he wants me and the next he don't, but I would take every opportunity that he wants me. He takes my shoes off and they made thud on the floor. Niall kissed up both my thighs before he slowly pulled my knickers down. Niall leaned over me after he threw my knickers on the floor. He slowly undid the jacket and opened it, “God,” he whispered. His kissed me from my lips to the top of my skirt. His hand started to play with me between my legs as he looked at me, “I missed you,” he says. I pulled Niall's face up to mine to kiss him. He kept playing between my legs until I moaned in his mouth. He started kissing my neck, “no marks,” I tell him.

“Ok,” he sighed. He kissed all over my neck before moving to the top of my chest, “sit up,” he ordered. He pulled me up before he took the jacket off of me and threw it onto the floor. He kissed me as he grabbed the top of my crop top. He ripped it open, “now you can't wear it again,” he smirked as he finished ripping it off of me. I was shocked and turned on at the same time. I felt Niall's hands at the side of my skirt before he ripped it off as well. He looked me up and down, “much better,” he added. I kissed him as I played with the bottom of his shirt. When Niall moved back a little I pulled it over his head, but when I went to kiss him he stopped me. He pushed me back down on to the bed, “I need to finish what I started,” he tells me.

“Ok,” I whispered. He kissed down my stomach then across my hips. He kissed down the front of me until he got between my legs. He wasted no time at sucking on my clit hard, “fuck Niall,” I swore. He inserted two fingers into me, “so wet,” he says against me. He nibbled on my clit which made me moan, “always so wet for me baby,” he added. He pulled his fingers out of me and replaced it with his tongue. I was going to cum soon, “Niall,” I begged. He looked at me, “cum for me baby,” he says. He put two fingers back in me and swirled them around. He watched me cum on his fingers, “that it baby,” he smiled. He kept going until I started coming down from my high. He takes his fingers out of me and stuck them in his mouth. He sucked on them, “taste so good baby,” he moaned.

“Pants off,” I demanded. Niall was surprised a little by my order. I kneel in front of him and he just looked at me. I undid his jeans and pulled them down to his feet. Niall kicked off his shoes before taking his pants off completely. I ran my hand over his member on the top of his boxers giving the tip a little squeeze. Niall moaned deeply before I started kissing his member. I pulled his boxers down to his feet and his member was already so hard, “that's what you do to me,” he tells me as he kicked off his boxers. I kissed under his belly button all the way down to the base of his member. I then kissed up his member to the tip, “fuck baby,” he groaned.

“I haven't really started yet,” I smirked. I put the tip of him and sucked on it as my hand played with the rest of his member. Niall put his hand threw my hair as I looked at him. He threw his head back as he moaned, so I put more of him in my mouth. When I slowly took him out of my mouth I grazed my teeth along him, “fuck, fuck,” he kept repeating. I put him back in my mouth and did it again, “fuck baby you need to stop that,” he moaned. I looked at him as I licked the tip, “why?” I teased.

“Cause I'm going to fucken cum,” he tells me. He pulled me up before I could put him back in my mouth. He pushed me down onto the bed, so my head hit the pillow. He kissed me as his hands ran down my body to my thighs. He placed them each side of his hips before going into his bedside table. He pulled a condom out, “see I remembered this time,” he smiled. He put the condom on himself and positioned himself at my entrance. He leaned over to kiss me as he entered me. We moaned into each other’s mouths, “fuck,” we both swore. Niall started moving in and out of me slowly, but hard. He watched me as he kept going, “you’re so beautiful underneath me,” Niall says. I turned my head to the side, so I wouldn't look at him. Niall kissed my neck, “look at me baby,” he whispered in my ear. I moved my head to look at him and he face was so close to mine. He kissed the tip of my nose, “I wanna see you face,” he continued. He kissed me, “I wanna see how good I make you feel,” he groaned.

“Ok,” I whispered. I kissed him as I ran my fingers through his hair. He got a bit faster and I pulled on his hair slightly. Niall moved away from me to grab my legs. He moved them higher, so I wrapped them around his hips. He watched me closely as he ran his hands up my stomach to my boobs. He squeezed them and I tried to hide my moan, “make as much noise as you want. No one can hear us,” he tells me. I shook my head as I bit my bottom lip, “yes baby,” Niall says. He pulled my bottom lip out with his thumb and I let out a moan. He played with my nipple as he kept his other hand on my face. I squeeze my legs around him which made him get deeper into me. Sweat was coming off the both of us as we kept going, “fuck baby your making me work for this,” Niall groaned.

“I'm just not ready to cum again yet,” I say. Niall kissed me, “neither am I. It just feels way to dam good,” he tells me. I nodded my head as I wondered how much more I could take. I know I haven't cum yet, but it felt like I was on the edge. Niall wrapped his arms around me underneath my shoulders, so our bodies would rub together. He kissed me as he got harder, faster and somehow deeper into me. I ran my fingers down his back and he hissed into my mouth, “I think you just scratched me,” he says against my lips. He kissed me before I could say something, “I liked it. It just shows me how good you feel,” he added. I kissed him, “Niall I feel close, but I'm not getting there,” I admitted.

“I can't cum if you don't cum,” he tells me. He moved one of his hands from my shoulder to my hip. I felt him move it between us before he started playing with my clit. I moaned loudly, “that's it baby,” he says. I felt my legs shake, “oh my God Niall,” I moaned. He got faster with my clit, “I'm gonna,” I started. He kissed me as he kept going until we both came. I screamed into his mouth and I swear I saw starts.

Niall laid on top of me for a little bit before he got off. I stared at the ceiling until Niall laid next to me. I moved over a little, so he would fit on the bed properly. I didn't look at him, “you alright?” He wondered. I nodded my head, but still didn't look at him. He placed his hand on my stomach, “what time is it?” I asked. I felt Niall move, “about two in the morning,” he replied. Niall's hand move from my stomach to the side of my face. He pulled it gently, so I would look at him, “you sure you’re alright?” He questioned. I bit my bottom lip, “I'm confused ok,” I tell him. He kissed me, “about what?” He wondered.

“Us,” I say. Niall looked down, “every time we do this. You end it,” I added. Niall moved his hand down to the side of my neck. He kissed me so hard, but passionately. I kissed him back the same until he pulled back. He hid his face into my shoulder, “I know,” he whispered. I ran my fingers through his sweaty hair, “I want you Niall. I take whatever you give me,” I confessed. Niall quickly looked at me, “I want you too Buttercup, but I can't. Not with Max around,” he tells me. I looked up before I started to cry. I really wanted to tell Niall the truth about Max, but I couldn't. Niall ran his knuckles down my cheek, “why you crying?” He asked. I quickly wiped my face, “nothing,” I say. Niall quickly hovered over me, “what's wrong? Is it me?” He questioned. I shook my head, “then what it?” He wondered. I wrapped my arms around him to bring him closer to me, “no questions please,” I begged. Niall flipped us over, so I was on top of him. He rubbed my back, “but I wanna know why you’re crying,” he tells me.

“I don't want to talk right now,” I sobbed. Niall ran his hand down the back of my hair as he kissed my forehead. He pushed me more into him before he pulled the blanket over us. He started to sing a lullaby softly to me and I closed my eyes. He kissed the top of my head before I moved off of him. I faced away from him, “its ok,” he cooed. Niall wrapped both arms around me tight as he pulled me closer to him. I really wanted to tell him that it wasn't ok. That I needed to be saved from Max. Niall kept singing the lullaby to me as I feel asleep.

I woke up from a nightmare that made me sit straight up. I was covered in sweat and tears, “Buttercup?” Niall questioned sleepily. I didn't say anything as I was trying to catch my breath, “you alright?” He wondered. He sat up next to me, “no,” I whispered. Niall wrapped his arms around me tight, “what happened?” He asked. I shook my head, “Buttercup you need to start telling me things or I can't help,” he begged. I hid my face into his neck, “it was just a nightmare,” I mumbled. He hugged me tighter, “what about?” He questioned.

“Bad stuff,” I replied. Niall kissed the top of my head, “bad stuff that's happen to you?” He wondered. I nodded my head before I could stop, “who hurt you Buttercup?” He asked. I shook my head, “Max?” He gritted trough his teeth. I stayed silent, “Buttercup what has he done to you?” Niall asked. I looked at him, “nothing,” I lied. Niall kissed me, “if he has hurt you I will kill him,” Niall tells me. Niall kissed me again, “can we just drop it. I just wanna go back to sleep,” I begged. Niall nodded his head before he laid the both of us back down. I put my head on his chest, “Buttercup you know you can tell me anything?” He asked. I nodded my head, “you know you can tell me anything too?” I asked back. Niall ran his fingers up and down my arm, “I know,” he whispered.

****

We got woken up in the morning from Max shouting, “she fucken left me here and went home with Perrie! I'm her fucken boyfriend!” We heard Max shout. Niall kept me next to him, “this is fucken bullshit!” Max continued. Niall rubbed my back as we heard the front door slam. Niall kissed the top of my head as his phone went off. He moved to grab it from his pants on the floor before laying back next to me. He read his message before he showed me:

Haz: Max is pissed. He thinks Claire went home with Perrie last night, but Zayn went home with Perrie. If he goes to the apartment Perrie going to tell him that Claire went shopping for the day.

“You’re safe,” Niall says. I nodded my head, but how long was I going to be safe for. Niall kissed my forehead, “Zayn went home with Perrie,” Niall points out. I nodded my head, “Zayn better be treating her right since he told me that he doesn't want a relationship right now,” I say. Niall nodded his head, “I think he is. I just think he said that, cause he couldn't believe Perrie liked him back. He finds it hard that anyone likes him,” Niall tells me.

“Why? His a good guy,” I wondered. Niall shrugged his shoulders as I looked at him, “yep, but Perrie a very pretty girl. In some men's head we believe we're not good enough for anybody that make us happy. We believe that we will never make them happy or give them what they deserve,” Niall says. Why do I believe he was talking about himself too? I kissed his cheek, “so don't be surprised when Perrie is upset that Zayn ignoring her,” he added. I gave him a small nod before I put my head back on his chest. I ran my fingers up and down his stomach, “can we stay in bed all day?” I asked. I really didn't want to face Max anytime soon, “I wish princess, but I have football practice this afternoon at three,” he tells me. He looked at the time, “but it only ten, so we got awhile,” he added. I kissed his chest, “wanna do you want to do in bed?” He wondered.

“I don't know,” I smiled. I kissed his chest again as I moved my hand lower on him, “really you’re in the mood?” He questioned. I ran my fingers up and down his member and he got hard quite quickly. I looked at him, “now what you going to do?” He smirked. I gripped his member into my hand before I started pumping him. I kissed along his jawline until he moved, so I could kiss him. He pulled my hand away from his member, “turn around baby,” he tells me. I turned around to face away from him, “time to make you wet baby,” he added. Niall rolled on to his side before he ran his hand down my stomach to between my legs, “already wet,” he whispered in my ear.

“I had a dirty dream,” I admitted. Niall kissed my neck, “baby get a condom out my draw,” he tells me. I went into his bedside table and grabbed a condom out. I give it to him, “I'm going to do you like this,” he says. I felt him put the condom on himself before he moved my leg over his. He ran his member a couple of times up and down my slit. He entered me slowly and we held back our moans, “fuck baby we’re going to have be quite,” Niall tells me. Niall wrapped his arm under me across my chest, “if you have to bite me,” he added. Niall started thrusting in out of me as he placed his other hand on my stomach. I turned my head to face him and he kissed me hard. I wrapped my arm around the back of his neck, “how do we go from talking to fucking?” He wondered against my lips.

“Because is us,” I smiled. Niall kissed me, “fuck this feels good,” I moaned into him mouth. I grabbed both of Niall hands with mine and he squeezed them tight. He kissed along my collarbone as he got faster. I moved my leg off of him and placed it against my other leg, “fuck baby it's tighter now,” Niall groaned. He moved so he was on top of me, but kept me in the same position. He kissed down my neck to my arm as he kept going. I grabbed his arm, “Niall,” I moaned. This felt fantastic as sweat was coming off us. He bit into my shoulder gently, “baby got to be quite,” he tells me.

“I'm trying,” I tell him. Niall kissed my cheek until I faced him, “I know this feels way to dam good,” he groaned. He kissed me and I bit his bottom lip as he hit the right spot. Niall kissed me again and I could taste a little bit of blood. When he pulled back I looked at his lip to see it was bleeding a little. I ran my thumb across his lip, “made me bleed princess,” he smiled. I hid my face into his pillow to muffle my moans. After a couple more thrusts into me Niall and I both came trying not to make a sound.

After a little bit Niall got off the top of me and threw the condom in the bin. I moved over, so he could get back into bed. He pulled me close to him, “I proud of you,” he smiled. I was confused, “why?” I wondered. He kissed me, “you just had sex and I pretty sure that someone is in the next room as us,” he tells me. I felt my cheeks turn red, “don't say that,” I whined. Niall kissed my forehead, “baby it's normal to have sex when someone is in the room next to ya. Or people wouldn't have sex,” he says. I hid my face into his shoulder, “as long as no one can came in we’re alright,” he added.

“I know. It just,” I started. Niall made me look at him before he kissed me, “I know you don't know how loud you are or how you sound. Personally I love the way you sound and the reason why we had to be quite then. Is because you don't want people to find out about us. I really don't care if people hear how good I make you feel, cause I'm the only one that make you feel that good,” he tells me. I kissed him, “still if people knew about us. I would still be quite,” I smiled.

“Baby everyone nearly heard you then. I don't think you can keep quiet,” he teased. I slapped his chest lightly, “baby we know you’re the one that likes being slapped,” he smirked. I shook my head as Niall nodded his, “you never said anything when I smack that pretty arse of yours in the bath,” he reminded me. Niall grabbed my arse, “Niall,” I warned him. He just smiled at me, “what I'm doing nothing,” he says. I just looked at him as he squeezed my arse tighter. I jumped on top of him and he kept his hands on my arse. I kissed him, “Niall you just came,” I say. Niall kissed him, “I can always get up for you baby,” he smiled.

Niall and I went another around with me on top of him. We fell asleep to be woken up by Harry banging on his bedroom door, “it's two. Get up Niall!” Harry shouted. Niall moved a little, “Ni you have to get up,” I tell him as nudge him. He groaned at me, “I'm going to have a shower,” I tell him. Before I could get up Niall stopped me, “no. Sleep some more,” he says. I kissed him, “I need a shower and I also need to go back to the apartment,” I tell him.

“No. Sleep some more. I'm not going to training,” he mumbled. I sighed, “Niall James Horan get your lazy ass up,” I warned him. I get out of his grip and get off the bed, “baby,” he whined. I put my knickers on, “that's not going to work this time,” I tell him. I found the clothes Niall got out last night for me, “fine, but we’re showering together,” he tells me. He got out of bed to put his boxers on as I put his clothes on. He quickly checked if anyone was in the bathroom before he came and got me.

We had a quick shower together and I got dressed back into the same clothes. We went down stairs after Niall got dressed in his football training gear and grabbed his sport’s bag. We found Harry, Liam, Louis and Zayn in the lounge room, “Buttercup?” They all questioned. I waved at them, “hi,” I smiled. They were confused, “um have you guys seen my jacket?” I asked. Harry held it in his hands, so I take it off of him. I pulled my phone out of the pocket to see twenty missed calls and about thirty messages, “well I'll see you guys at training. I'm going to take Buttercup home,” Niall tells them.

“Actually I think I have to go see Max,” I say as I read my messages. Most of my messages scared me, but if I don't see him it could get worse. I noticed the last two messages where my naked pictures, “you sure? He was pretty pissed with you this morning,” Liam wondered. I nodded my head, “can I borrow a pair of shoes from someone? I don't think heels and track pants go,” I asked. Louis takes his shoes off and threw them at me, “thanks,” I say. I put Louis shoes on before I put my jacket on, “well I better be going,” I added. Niall stopped me, “you might as well wait for us. We got to head that way,” he tells me. I nodded my head before Niall pulled me in to the kitchen since no one was there, “I don't want you to see him,” Niall says.

“Niall I have too,” I tell him. Niall sighed, “I know you have to see him, but his pissed at you,” he snapped. I ran my hands over my face, “I'll be alright,” I reassured him. Niall came in closer to me, “Buttercup if he,” Niall started. I kissed him to stop, “I'm a big girl,” I interrupted. Niall placed his hands on my hips, “I know. It's just I worry when your with him,” he admitted. I kissed him again, “don't,” I whispered on his lips. Niall place my face between his hands, “I can't help it,” he says. He kissed me, “now I know what you two were up to last night,” we heard Liam say. We turned to see him, Louis, Harry and Zayn standing there with smiles on their faces. Niall pulled me close to him, “we were doing more than making out,” Niall tells them.

“You’re an idiot sometimes,” I sighed. Niall looked at me, “we know it was more than making out when you walked down the stairs,” Liam says. I played with Niall's top, “wait, wait, wait. Claire not a Virgin?” Zayn questioned. I looked down, “nah hasn't been for over a year now. She lost it to the guy next to her,” Louis tells him. I looked at Zayn and he was surprised, “really? Oh my god on Niall's seventeenth birthday party,” Zayn says. I looked at Niall, “don't we need to be going?” I asked to change the subject.

I stood outside Max’s dorm room just looking at the door for a bit. I took in a deep breath as I knocked on the door. Max open it and he wasn't happy, “finally you’re here,” he snapped. He pulled me inside roughly and I fell to the floor, “I'm so angry at you,” he started. He looked me up and down, “why are you dressed like that?” He questioned. As I was about to get up Max pushed me back down, “I went food shopping. I didn't see the need to dress up,” I mumbled. I looked down at the floor, “Perrie said you went clothes shopping,” he tells me.

“Perrie thinks every time a girl goes shopping it's for clothes,” I say. Max pulled hard on the back of my hair, so I would look at him, “I don't care if it clothes or food. I don't want my girlfriend to look like a slob,” he spat. He grabbed my face in his hand as he pulled harder on my hair, “and who gave you the fucken right to leave me last night?” He asked. I didn't say anything, so Max pushed my head onto the floor. I hit the side of my head hard, “fucken answer me,” he demanded. I knew I was crying, “I needed to help Perrie. She got really drunk last night,” I lied. Max put his knee on my head, so I wouldn't move, “I don't give a fuck about Perrie. I passed out last night and when I woke up you weren't there. I had to find out for Harry that you went home. You left me Claire,” he snapped.

“I know and I'm sorry,” I cried. Max pushed his knee into me more, “I don't want to hear I’m sorry!” He yelled. Max pulled me up, so I would kneel, “hands behind your back,” he ordered. I did what I was told, “I thought I was going to reward you last night with you sucking my cock, but I think you don't deserve it,” he smirked. I felt Max hand come in contact with my cheek. He did it four more times on each cheek until he had enough, “now get out of my sight,” he says. I quickly got up and left his dorm room.

I found the nearest bathroom that was empty. I looked at myself in the mirror and my cheeks were red, so we're my eyes. I knew my cheeks were going to be bruised tomorrow and it was my first day of school. I washed my face as I wondered how I was getting home. I can't let anyone see me like this and I had no money or my keys on me. I knew I could ask Liam and Louis for a ride, “Claire?” I heard Jess say. She came up next to me, “what the fuck happen to you?” She questioned.

“Just some girl,” I lied. Jess turned me to face her, “where is she?” Jess asked. I shook my head, “long gone,” I say. Jess closely looked at my face, “why did she do this to you?” She wondered. Jess hugged me, “something about stealing her man,” I kept my lie going. Jess rubbed my back, “come on we should tell the boys,” she tells me. I shook my head and it hurt, “I just wanna go home,” I tell her. Just hugged me tighter, “I'll tell them what happened. Then Liam and Louis can take you home. Training nearly finished,” she says.

I didn't have a choice about seeing the boys. Jess dragged me all the way to the football pitch, “Louis! Liam! Zayn! Harry! Niall!” She yelled. They came running over to us, “what the fuck happened to you Buttercup?” Niall asked as he looked over my face. He pulled me away from Jess to have a closer look, “some bitch hit her, because she thinks Claire was trying to steal her man,” Jess told them my lie. Niall hugged me, “she long gone. I scared her off,” Jess added. I was shocked that Jess just said that, “she better be,” Niall gritted through his teeth. He kissed the top of my head, “ok. I'll take you home,” Niall tells me. I looked at him, “why can't Liam and Louis take me?” I wondered.

“Because we still have an hour training to do, but I can leave early,” he replied. Niall ran off, “you alright Claire?” Louis asked me. I nodded my head, “I will be,” I say. Louis hugged me tight, “go home have a shower and get into bed,” he tells me. I nodded my head before Harry hugged me, “did you see Max?” He asked. I shook my head, “he wasn't there,” I whispered. I hated lying to everybody like this. When I really should be asking them for help. Liam hugged me next, “what do you wanna do about the girls?” He questioned. I shrugged my shoulders, “they’re going to see me,” I replied.

“I know, but I could tell them to give you some space,” he tells me. I nodded my head, “please,” I begged. Liam kissed the side of my head. Zayn hugged me without saying a word which I found strange. Niall came back over to us. He had his bag over his shoulder with his keys in his hand, “let's go,” he says.

We drove back to the apartment and Niall didn't say a word to me. He opened the door and Sophia ran up to me. She hugged me tight, “it be ok,” she cooed. Perrie came up next to hug me, “I'll be in my room,” I tell them. They gave me a small nod before I left.

When I got to my room I straight away got into bed after I took my jacket and shoes off. I stared out the window wondering what I was going to do with Max. I came to the sad realisation that I preferred him hitting me over me sucking him off. I knew I was in way over my head with him, but I can't leave. He has those pictures of me and I know I really shouldn't care about them. I really should care about my safety and my mental health, but I couldn't be seen like that. I would die if my dad found out about those pictures, “Buttercup,” I heard Niall say. I didn't look at him, “yes Niall,” I mumbled. I felt him get into bed next to me. He pulled me close to him, “you alright?” He asked. He wrapped his arm around my waist, “I wish people would stop asking me that. I just want to forget,” I cried. Niall kissed my shoulder, “I'm sorry,” he apologized.

“Why are you sorry?” I snapped. Niall kissed my shoulder again, “cause I wasn't there to protect you,” he admitted. I started crying more, “shh shh it's going to be ok,” he cooed. He moved his other arm underneath me, so he could hug me, “it's all over,” he continued. I cried myself to sleep as Niall hugged me.

When I woke up I was still in Niall's arms and he was asleep. I turned around in his arms to face him and he just pulled me closer in his sleep. I just stared at him wondering what it would be like if we were together. I know I would never feel lonely and I know he would never hit me. I also wonder if I was just think about this stuff since what happened with Max. I pushed Niall's hair off his face and he mumbled something in his sleep. I smiled as Niall opened his eyes, “how long have you been awake?” He asked.

“Not long,” I replied. Niall kissed my forehead, “you feeling any better?” He wondered. I nodded my head, “you sure?” He questioned. He looked over my face, “my face hurts, but I get over it,” I tell him. He kissed me lightly, “and I don't want to talk about it,” I added. He kissed me again, “ok,” he whispered. Niall looked at the time, “I should go back to the frat house. It's ten o’clock,” he tells me. I really wanted to tell him no, but we both had school in the morning. He kissed me, “but I'll think I stay right here next to you,” he continued. He kissed me again, “and before you say anything. I'll just go back in the morning to get my stuff,” he smiled.

“You know you don't have to?” I asked him. Niall ran his hand down my arm, “are you asking me to skip school tomorrow?” He joked. I shook my head, “I'm staying princess. I don't want to leave you alone tonight,” he admitted. I kissed him, “thank you,” I whispered. Niall kissed my forehead, “let's go back to sleep,” he tells me. I played with the waistband of his shorts, “no. We're not doing that tonight,” he says before I could say anything.

“I was going to say. Don't you want to be more comfortable?” I asked. Niall laughed a little bit as he sat up. He took his top off before he took his shorts off. He ran his hand down my thigh, “lose the pants,” he tells me. I raised an eyebrow at him, “skin to skin make you feel better,” he explained. I nodded my head and Niall pulled my pants off. He laid back down next to me making sure that his legs were against mine. He played with the bottom of my top, “you know tomorrow will be a better day?” He asked. I nodded my head as he placed his hand on my stomach under my top. I ran my hand down his chest before I moved it to my top. I pulled my top off and threw it onto the floor, “Buttercup you didn't have to get naked like me,” Niall smiled.

“I know, but I want to feel more of you against me,” I admitted. Niall kissed me as he pulled me closer to him. Niall wrapped his arms around me and placing one on my back and the other one on just on my butt. I wrapped my arm around him under his arm, “let's go to sleep we have English in the morning,” he reminded me. He pulled the blanket tight around us, “thank you again Niall,” I whispered. I kissed him before we both fell asleep again.

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