Chapter 1

When I got off the plane at seven thirty in the morning Sophia and Liam were waiting for me. I ran up to them and gave Sophia a hug, “Soph!” I yelled. She hugged me back, “Claire Bear,” she smiled. I hugged Liam as well, “you gotten big,” I tell him. He smiled at me, “and you got a tan,” he says. I nodded my head, “Australia is quite sunny, but it be gone in a week,” I smiled. Liam laughed a little bit, “well we better get you to your new home,” Sophia tells me. I nodded as Liam picked up my bags, “now your dad sent the rest of your stuff and they came last week. So I put them in your room for you to unpack. There is already a bed, desk and wardrobe in there. Perrie picked them out for you,” Sophia explains to me.

When we got into the car after Sophia explained to me that the boys all got there driving licences. She asked me about Australia which I told her was fantastic. I also told her that Max was coming after Christmas and be living in the dorms. Sophia didn’t seem impressed that he was living in the dorms, but they really never got on. Liam told me that Niall, Harry and Zayn will see me at the party tonight. The last thing I want is go to a party after spending over twenty one hours traveling, but I really wanted to see the boys tho. I really wanted to see Niall we haven’t really talked since I went to Australia.

When Liam opened the door to the apartment Louis hugged me, “oh god I missed you,” he smiled. I smiled as I hugged him back, “I missed you too Lou,” I say. Perrie hugged me next, “Australia looks good on you,” she tells me. I laughed a little bit as I stepped away from her, “let’s give you a tour of our place,” Sophia tells me. I nodded as I looked around the place. It was open living that I could see the lounge room, kitchen and dining room. The walls were exposed brick and the floors were wooden floorboards. Our lounge room had a big TV in front of a big sofa with arm chairs on each side. Perrie and Sophia pulled me over to the kitchen, “you’re going to love this,” Perrie smiled. I looked around the kitchen to see two big stoves. There were appliances everywhere from a dishwasher to a coffee maker. The bench tops a grey with the cupboards a dark brown with silver handles. They were shaped as a U separating it from the dining room. In the dining room was a ten seater table made out of solid wood with black comfy chairs.

After they showed me the dining room they showed me the big bathroom. It had a shower, bath, toilet and two sinks with big mirrors above them. Perrie explained to me that it mine, hers and Louis bathroom since Liam and Sophia had their own. Sophia also told me that there be no fighting in the mornings.

They showed me my room after I saw everyone else’s. My room had a big window with my new bed pushed up against it in the corner. I looked over my new bed it was white with a headboard. The headboard had shelving and under it was draws for more storage. My bed side table matched the bed with a simple lamp on it. My wardrobe was white and huge. I could fit all my clothes with room for a lot more. My white desk matched the chair and the new book case. My new mirror opened up, so I could put my jewellery in it. I had a rug on the floor that matched the rest of my room with the curtains.

I noticed one of the girls already made my bed for me, “I love you guys, but can I get some sleep? Please,” I begged. They smiled at me, “of course you can,” Sophia tells me. They all hugged me before they left my room. I sat on my bed staring around my new room. I always had a hard time sleeping in new places, but I was exhausted from traveling. I take my shoes and pants off and jumped into bed.

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I got woken up by Louis jumping on my bed, “time to get up Reid!” Louis shouted. I pushed his legs, “no,” I mumbled. He kept jumping, “yes. It five in the afternoon,” he tells me. I sat up rubbing my eyes, “is it that late?” I questioned. He nodded his head, “so get up,” he smiled. He jumped off my bed and stood there looking at me, “Lou get out of my room. I have no pants on,” I tell him. Louis sat on the floor, “I don’t have a problem with that. I’m not allowed to leave until you’re out of bed,” he tells me. I shake my head, “at least close your eyes please,” I say. Louis closed his eyes as I got out of bed. I went into my suitcase and got out a pair of blue track pants. I put them on before I wrapped my arms around Louis shoulders from behind. He laughed as he opened his eyes, “piggy back,” I ordered. Louis stood up and I wrapped my legs around him, “you’re so lazy,” he smiled.

He took me into the kitchen, “good to see you up,” Liam says. I get off of Louis, “it not good to be up,” I admitted. I felt so jet lagged, “you be alright when you eat something,” Liam tells me. I shake my head, “I’ll be alright when I go back to bed,” I tell him. Liam and Louis smiled at me, “just eat, so you can start getting ready with girls,” Liam says. I sighed, “why can’t the boys come here and see me?” I asked.

“Because they can’t,” Louis replied. Liam gives me a bowl of cereal, “eat and then shower,” he ordered. I take the bowl and sit at the dining table, “were are the girls?” I wondered. Louis sits next to me, “shopping,” he says. I gave him a small nod, “so how’s your boyfriend Max going? Have you done the naughty yet?” Louis smirked. I shake my head, “he coming after Christmas and moving into a dorm room,” I tell him. Louis screwed his face up, “are you two on the rocks?” he questioned. I shake my head again, “then why don’t he want to move in with us than? You and him been going out a long time,” he wondered. I shrugged my shoulders, “a year Lou. He says he want the real college life. Not some rich bitches’ life,” I admitted. Louis shakes his head, “we all pay for this apartment with the money that it was going to cost us to get a dorm. We may have put a little bit of more money towards it, but not that much. I don’t see the fun in community showers,” Louis points out. I shrugged my shoulders again, “maybe his not ready to live with me yet,” I say.

After my shower I walked out in a towel, “Reid clothes,” Liam whined. I looked at him, “this is something we are going to have get used to. Plus your one to talk. You walk around in your boxers all the time,” I remind him. Liam shakes his head, “but me seeing you in a towel makes my pants tight. I can’t have these urges with you since my girlfriend lives under the same roof as us,” he joked. I shake my head, “you better run along before I drop my towel than,” I joked back. Louis came running into the hallway, “can I help you Louis?” I asked. Louis nodded his head, “you said you were going to drop your towel and I want to see,” he smiled. I shake my head as I walked to my room.

I put on a light pink matching bra and knickers set before I put on my dressing gown. I was going through my clothes trying to work out what to wear tonight. This was my first college party, but I was really looking forward to seeing Niall. I missed Niall the whole time in Australia and I wished he was there. I think if he was there I would been happier, “Reid the girls are back,” Louis tells me from the other side of the door. I quickly opened the door, “cool. I need help,” I tell him. Louis laughed as he shook his head, “you know what that means?” he smirked. I knew it meant heels, a dress, make-up and hair. I nodded my head, “yep, but I can’t be bothered doing it myself,” I say.

Louis drags me to Perrie room, “she says she needs help,” Louis tells Sophia and Perrie as we walked in. Perrie and Sophia were sitting on Perrie’s bed and they smiled at me, “good. Now leave Louis so we can get started,” Sophia tells him. I walk over to them and sit on the bed, “now why do you need help?” Perrie asked. I shrugged my shoulders, “it’s my first collage party and I’m going to meet new people,” I say. Sophia and Perrie both smirked as they nodded their heads, “or you want to impress the hot guys that are there tonight,” Sophia says. I shake my head, “I still have Max,” I tell them. They laughed, “don’t mean that you can’t have guys looking at you,” Perrie tells me. Only if she knew what Max would say, “I only want to see three guys tonight. I’m not interested in the others,” I point out. Sophia seemed nervous, “yeah about them three. They have changed into collage frat boys. So now girls throw themselves at them,” Sophia tells me. It felt like she was leaving something out, “so they finally become man whores,” I joked. Perrie laughed, “anyway we better get you ready, so when you talk to them all the other girls will be jealous of you,” Perrie smiled.

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The girls picked out a black dress with tiny flowers over it. They made me wear a pair of black stockings underneath it since it cold here. I put on a pair of ankle black boots and a denim jacket as well. They put my hair up in a half ponytail with my make-up done so my grey eyes stuck out. They also made my lips pink and gave me a little bit of blush. Sophia just put on a black top and some jeans, but she did put on some heels and make-up. Perrie on the other hand went for a black skirt, a black singlet and a yellow jumper. She also did her make-up, pushed her hair behind her ears and put black flat ankle boots on. It made me wonder who she was trying to impress, “ready to go ladies?” Liam wondered. Him and Louis went simple for tonight party with t-shirts and skinny jeans. Liam put on a grey jumper while Louis also went denim jacket. They looked at me, “Reid losing her collage party virginity tonight,” Louis teased. I nodded my head as the girls ran off. Louis followed me to my room, “now Reid on the topic virginity and I been meaning to ask you for a long time. Dose Max know you’re not a virgin and that you lost it to Niall?” Louis asked. I shake my head, “the night Niall and I had sex was because we were drunk off our faces,” I tell him.

“And you were with Max then too” Louis points out. I shake my head again, “I got with Max a week later. I told myself when I feel ready me and Max will do it. I just haven’t got there yet with him,” I say. Louis laughed a little, “are you ever going to get there with Max?” Louis wondered. I shrugged my shoulders, “he really has shown no interested in sex. He just likes hand and blow jobs,” I admitted. Louis looked down, “so is this were I tell you that most of the guys here are interested in sex?” he joked. I laughed a little bit as I picked up my phone, “so your with your own kind here Lou,” I teased. I put my phone in my bra, “I know,” he smiled.

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We all got a taxis to the frat house. When we got there the frat house was huge with three stores to it. It was made out of wood painted a dark brick red with green trimming. There was also a front porch that went down the side of the house. It was old styled house with it straight and tower like features. The party was in full swing and it was only nine o’clock, “well let’s go find the boys,” Perrie smiled. Louis grabbed my hand, “stay close to me,” he whispered in my ear. I nodded my head as we went inside.

There was more people inside and left really no room to move around. Everyone was dancing, drinking, talking, making-out and what looks like to be smoking joints. Louis pulled me thought the crowed to the kitchen. Liam was talking to some random guy before the guy pointed to out the back.

When we all got at the back I had a look around. There was a pool with a spa and a basketball ring. Around the pool were long deck chairs with tables between some. There also was barbecue area with table and chairs. I didn’t think it was possible, but there was more people out here then inside. Louis pulled me over to the barbecue area, “Harry! Zayn!” Liam shouted. I quickly looked for them, but I couldn’t see them. Then someone picked me up and I screamed, “wow wow Claire calm down,” I recognised Harry voice straight away. He put me down and I immediately turned around. He was wearing a dark grey top with black skinny jeans. He had a black beanie to cover his brown curly hair, “Haz,” I smiled. I hugged him, “good to see you made it from down under,” he says. I stepped back from him, “also welcome to New York and where is your boyfriend Max?” Harry asked. I sighed, “coming after Christmas,” I replied. Harry gave me a small nod, “Reid!” I heard Zayn shout. I noticed he was coming are way and he looked already drunk. He was wearing white t-shirt with dark blue skinny jeans. He had a light blue denim jacket on, “oh my god it Reid,” he smiled. He wrapped an arm around my shoulders before he kissed my cheek, “good to see you too Zayn,” I smiled. He leaned on me, “no it’s great to see you,” he slurred. I shake my head, “so how was Australia?” Harry asked. I quickly told him about the good times in Australia since I really didn’t want to talk about it.

When I finished explaining I noticed a lot of people looking at me. Zayn kissed my cheek again, “you need a drink. Liam go get her a drink,” Zayn tells him. Liam shakes his head before him and Sophia left. I looked around for Niall, “where’s Niall?” I asked Louis. He shrugged his shoulders, “the prick is around somewhere,” Zayn tells me. I thought it was strange that Zayn called him a prick, “but enough about him. Let's get you drunk,” Zayn added. I shake my head, “yes Reid. It's your first collage party and we haven't seen you in forever. You missed a lot of parties and need to catch up,” Zayn tells me. I sighed, “let's just get the night started,” I say.

After a little bit Liam and Sophia turned up with our drinks. Some people tried to talk to me, but Zayn just scared them off. We’ve been here for about an hour and I still haven't seen Niall and no one has mentioned him. I decided to go look for him myself after I left the group. No one would noticed that I was missing for a little bit. I walked back into the house to find more people showed up which was making it harder to move around.

I kept looking for Niall, but I couldn't find him anywhere. So I sat down on the stairs wondering where he was, “Buttercup?” I heard the familiar Irish accent say. I turned around to see him at the top of the stairs. He was wearing a white t-shirt and grey pants with a grey hoodie over the top. He hid his dyed blonde hair under a blue SnapBack, “Ni,” I smiled. I quickly got up and ran up the stairs to him, “I’ve been looking for you,” I tell him. When I was about to hug him he pushed me back, “leave me alone,” he snapped. I was confused, “what’s wrong Niall?” I wondered. He ran down the stairs and I followed him, “Niall talk to me!” I shouted. Niall turned around and grabbed my wrist tight.

He pulled me out to the front of the frat house. He let go of my wrist, “Niall what’s wrong?” I questioned. Niall started pacing, “you! I hate you! I don’t want anything to do with you! I don’t want to see you anymore! I don’t want to talk to you anymore!” he yelled. He stormed off and left me there. I was confused and hurt at the same time. Why does he hate me? What have I done? I wanted to cry, but I was so confused that I couldn’t.

I went back inside to find the others, but a guy stopped me, “you’re new. I don’t think I’ve seen you before,” he flirted. I rolled my eyes as I pushed passed him, “where are you going?” he asked as he grabbed my arm. I pushed him back, “fuck off,” I snapped. The guy smiled at me, “we have another Irish one. Like our dear friend Niall,” he says. I walked away and the guy followed me, “hey I don’t mean any harm. You’re just the new girl and I thought I say hello,” the guy tells me. I turned around to face him. I have a good look at him this time. He had brown hair and eyes. He would have been nearly every girls dream boy, but he didn’t do it for me, “well hello,” I say. The guy smiled big at me, “the name is Fred,” he introduced himself. He held his hand out, “Claire,” I say as I shook his hand.

“There you are Reid,” I heard Louis says. He wrapped his arm around me, “been looking for you. I see you met Fred,” Louis points out. I nodded my head, “is he your boyfriend?” Fred asked. I shook my head no, “my boyfriend at home,” I replied. Fred nods his head slowly, “back home in Ireland?” Fred questioned. I shook my head, “England,” I say. I noticed Niall standing in the corner watching me as a girl was all over him, “sorry to be rude again Fred, but I need to talk to Louis alone,” I tell him. Fred smiled as he nodded his head.

I pulled Louis to the front of the house, “what up Reid?” he wondered. I looked down, “Niall hates me,” I say. I looked at Louis and he wasn’t surprised, “and you all knew about it. Didn’t you?” I snapped. Louis nodded his head, “we thought maybe when Niall sees you all this hate would go away. We thought Niall hated you since you got to go to Australia and he didn't. We thought he was being a spoilt brat,” Louis tells me.

“Well you were all wrong. I can’t believe you kept this from me. How long did you guys know?” I questioned. Louis looked down, “about three months after you left,” he replied. I pushed Louis, “this is something you don't keep from me!” I shouted. Louis grabbed me before I could push him again, “and what would you have done Claire? You were on the other side of the world. It’s not like you could have come home,” Louis snapped. I get out of his grip, “you never gave me the opportunity to try,” I snapped back. I walked away from Louis and back inside the frat house.

I went straight into the kitchen to get myself another drink. I drank it all in one go and got myself another one. I also drank that in one go. I just wanted to forget everything and everyone, “wow Claire you know how to drink,” Fred said when he came over to me. I smiled as I nodded my head, “I'm Irish,” I say. I get myself another drink, “well does your Irish ass want to play a drinking game?” he asked. I nodded my head before he grabbed my hand.

We went into a room not far from the lounge room where some more people were. I noticed Harry in a small group on the floor, “I have another player,” Fred tells them. Harry looked at me, “her name is Claire and she Irish like Niall,” Fred added. I rolled my eyes at the mention of Niall’s name, “so what are we going to play?” I wondered. I sat down on the floor next to a blonde girl and Fred, “I think we should play I never. So we can get to know people,” Fred suggested. He winked at me, “ok I'll start. I never kissed somebody,” the blonde girl next to me says. We all drink, “I never played with myself,” another person says. We all drink, “I never shaved my balls,” a guy says. Harry and Fred drink to that one and I couldn't help but laugh at them. Harry glares at me, “I never smoked weed,” Harry says. We all drink to this one, “I never had sex,” I say. We all drink to this one and Harry was confused, “Max?” He questioned. I forget that only Sophia and Louis are the only ones that know about me and Niall, “nope,” I smiled. Harry was more confused now, “who?” he mouthed. I shake my head as I put my finger over my lips.

We kept playing and I had a couple more drinks. It was safe to say I was drunk, but I was enjoying myself. I learnt the name of the blonde girl sitting next to me. It was Jessica and she told me to call her Jess. She seemed nice for a cheerleader from Texas, “let’s play seven minutes in heaven!” Jess screamed. I shake my head, “I have a boyfriend,” I slurred. Jess just laughed, “and his not here. So what he don’t know won’t hurt him,” she smirked. I shake my head as I stood up, “still giving it a miss,” I tell her. Niall walked into the room and Harry quickly got up. I ignored them as I pushed passed Niall.

I went into the kitchen to grab another drink, “there you are Claire Bear,” Perrie smiled. She got herself a drink, “where did you go?” she wondered. I drank half of my drink, “I played I never with my new friends,” I smiled. Perrie smiled big, “any of them hot guys?” Perrie asked. I nodded my head, “Fred not bad,” I replied. Perrie laughed a little bit, “I heard that his great in bed and knows how to use his big cock,” Perrie tells me. I laughed a little bit, “so whose cock do you want?” I questioned. Perrie smiled big, “Zayn’s,” she whispered. The best thing about Perrie when she gets drunk. She tells the truth, “oh god. He just makes me so hot,” she continued. But doesn’t know when to stop, “please can I have him?” she begged. I nodded my head, “but you have to go get him yourself,” I tell her. Niall walked into the kitchen, but walked straight back out. I drank the rest of my drink, “I’m sorry about Niall. We all thought it was just a faze and that he’ll get over it when he saw you, but I guess we were wrong,” Perrie apologized.

“Why did no one tell me?” I asked her. Perrie looked down, “you were in Australia and having a good time. We didn't want you to worry about him,” Perrie tells me. Only if you guys knew that I wasn't having good time in Australia and that I would have come straight home. I get myself another drink, “but it’s Niall. I would have dropped everything for him,” I tell her. Perrie nodded her head, “we know. That’s why we didn’t tell you,” Perrie says. I shake my head before I drank my drink all in one go. I got myself another one, “how many have you had?” Perrie asked me. I looked at my drink, “I say about eight,” I replied. Perrie looked worried, “maybe you should slow down. We only been here for about four hours,” she informs me. I shrugged my shoulders before I walked away.

I found Zayn in the backyard with a group of guys, “Reid,” he smiled. I smiled back and the guys looked at me, “Reid?” One of them questioned. I nodded my head, “it's my last name. My first name is Claire,” I introduced myself. They all smiled at me, “she fucken off limits,” Zayn snapped at them. They all nodded their heads, “how can I help you Claire?” Zayn asked.

“I just wanted to see if you guys were having fun, but it looks like you’re not. I’m might go find some fun people,” I teased. When I was about to walk away Zayn grabbed my arm, “were fun,” Zayn says. I raised an eyebrow at him, “I don’t see it,” I point out. One of the guys smirked, “ok. I dare you to go push that girl in the water,” he dared me as he pointed to a girl. I looked at her and she was dancing near the pool. I walked passed her and gave her a little nudge. She feel straight into the pool as she screamed. I heard the guys laughing as I watched her stand up in the pool, “whoops sorry,” I smiled. She glared at me, “my make-up ruined,” she complained. I walked back over to the boys, “that was too easy,” I tell them.

“Ok how about you go and kissed that guy over there,” another one says. I looked where he was pointing and it was Louis, “sorry. I can’t kiss him. I live with him,” I say. The guys start teasing me, “fine if you don’t. You have to take a shot,” the guy that dared me to kiss Louis says. I nodded my head, “I’m alright with that,” I tell him. We walked over to a table full of alcohol and the guy pours me a shot. He hands it to me, “you can still do the dare,” he says. I shake my head as I take the shot. Zayn smiled at me, “now this is the Reid I know,” he says.

“Ok I dare you Zayn to go kiss Perrie,” I dared him. Zayn poured himself a shot, “can’t do that to her. She is so into me,” Zayn tells me. He drank the shot, “ok who’s up next?” I smirked. One of the guys put his hands up as I noticed Niall talking to someone on the other side of the pool. Zayn caught me looking, “I dare you to go push Niall into the pool,” I tell him. The guy looks at Niall before he looked back at me, “you can chicken out if you want,” I says. The guy walks straight over to Niall and pushed him straight into the pool. Everyone stopped what they were doing and looked at Niall and this guy. When Niall came back up from underneath the water he wasn’t happy, “why did you fucken do that Brenton?” Niall yelled. I really couldn't help but smile big. Brenton pointed over to were me and the guys were standing. I kinda knew he was going to tell on us, “I bet it was all you fucken Claire. I will get you for this,” Niall threatened.

“Ooo I'm so scared,” I laughed. Niall gets out of the pool and comes straight over to me, “you better be. I make sure you get it back ten’s times worst,” he tells me. Niall looked right into my eyes and he was furious, but I kept smiling at him, “you already done worse,” I tell him. Niall throws his hands up in the air, “hunny I’m only starting,” he smirked. I pushed him and Niall was surprised, “you can’t do anything worse than you already have,” I snapped. Niall comes right up to me, so his face was only inches apart from me, “you sure about that? I know all you worst fears,” he says.

“You leaving was one of them,” I whispered. Niall stepped back, “I’m done with you,” he says. He walked away from me, “Claire,” Zayn mumbled. I walked passed him to the table full of alcohol and grabbed a random bottle. I start drinking straight from the bottle and didn’t stopped until someone took it from me. I saw it was Louis, “give it back,” I demanded. Louis shakes his head, “you have had enough,” he tells me. I pushed him, “and you don't get to tell me what to do anymore,” I spat. I walked away from him before I punched someone.

When I got inside Sophia and Liam where there, “Claire no more,” Sophia tells me. I rolled my eyes at her, “none of you guys get to tell me what to do!” I yelled. I pushed passed them into the lounge room and found Jess sitting on the couch. I sat down next to her, “what's wrong?” she asked. I shake my head, so she hands me a bottle of vodka. I take a big drink, “we should dance,” Jess smiled. I nodded my head before got up.

We went to the other side of the lounge room where everyone was dancing. Jess pulled me closer to her by my hips. She ran her hands down my legs before she leaned over to me, “I think we need to get rid of these,” Jess smirked as she played with my stockings. She ripped them off of me and threw them into the mass of people. At this point I really didn’t care. When she started lifting up the bottom of my dress. I realized that I was really drunk now and probably should stop her. I moved her hands away from my dress, but she put them straight back. I tried again and again she put them back, “that enough Jess,” I heard Harry tell her. Harry picked me up bridle style and I snuggled into his chest. We started walking, “I think you need to go lie down,” Harry says.

“no I want to party,” I pouted. Harry kissed my forehead, “you were about to hook-up with a girl Claire. I think you need to lie down,” Harry tells me. I shake my head, “I want to forget,” I admitted. Harry kissed my forehead, “I’m sorry,” he apologized. I closed my eyes, “everyone keeps saying that,” I mumbled. I felt a hand on my shoulder, “when need to put her to bed Lou,” Harry says. I gathered the hand was Louis, “I know where,” Louis tells Harry.

Harry sat me up in a bed before he took my jacket off and shoes off. He laid me down and put the blanket over me, “just go to sleep Claire,” he says. I shake my head, “do you know what happened to Ni?” I asked Harry. Harry shakes his head, “none of us do. All we know that he hates you now,” Harry confessed. I nodded my head as I closed my eyes, “I miss him,” I says. I felt two people kiss my forehead before they left. I opened my eyes as I looked around the room. I was in one of the frat boys rooms and it look like they didn’t share with anyone. They had a desk with their laptop and notebooks set up on it in front of a red office chair. I continued to look around the room to see and skateboard, a football and cameras near a bookshelf. They also had a wardrobe with draws on one side. They had an old world map above the desk and the wall above the TV and a PlayStation four were a bunch of Polaroid pictures. I kept looking around at their stuff until my eyes landed on a guitar. I was in Niall’s room and I wanted to get out, but couldn’t move.

I laid there fully awake in Niall’s bed staring at the wall. I can’t believe that I got that drunk that they had to lock me away from the party. I didn’t want to go to sleep yet. I wanted to go back to the apartment. I wanted to be away from Niall, but now I’m stuck in his room. I can’t believe he hates me and he won’t tell me what I have done. We have been through so much together growing up.

I don’t know how long I was there for, but I heard the door open. Then the light came on, “whoever is my bed get the fuck out,” I heard Niall snap. I sat up to look at him, “Buttercup?” he questioned. I get out of his bed, “yeah it’s me,” I say. Niall rolled his eyes, “can’t get enough of me. Can you?” he smirked. I shake my head, “for your information. Louis and Harry put me in here since I’m drunk,” I spat. Niall laughed, “they got rid of you, so they can keep partying,” Niall smiled. I went to grab my shoes, but missed judged and fell to the floor. Niall laughed harder, “would you shut up!” I yelled.

“What’s the matter Buttercup? Can’t hold your liquor,” Niall teased. I ignored him, “we all know you become easy on it,” he added. I stood up to quickly and felt dizzy, “oh come on Niall. I bet all the girls out there would love to know who took your virginity,” I snapped. Niall sat on his desk chair, “I bet Max would too,” he says. He watched me as I sat down on his bed, “I bet he would love to find out that I had my dick in you before he did” Niall smirked. I laughed as I shook my head, “I never had Max’s dick in me,” I admitted. Niall seemed surprised, “so I’m the only guy that has ever fucked you?” he wondered. I sighed as I nodded my head, “that’s gold Buttercup. I bet you miss it,” he teased. I stand up, “would you stop Niall,” I tell him. He shakes his head, “fine. I’m leaving,” I say. I grabbed my shoes this time, “where you going to go? Everyone drunk and passed out,” he asked. I swear I heard concern in his voice, “back to the apartment and I don’t care how I get there,” I tell him.

“Do you even know where it is?” he questioned. I shake my head, “it can’t be that hard to find. I think I have it in my phone anyway,” I replied. I get my phone out and it was flat, “Buttercup just stay here. Your phone flat, you have no money to get a taxi and I’m not letting you get in a car with a stranger. You’re still drunk” Niall tells me. I smiled at him, “does Niall still care if something happens to me?” I teased. Niall grabbed my shoes, “I do hate you, but I still care about you,” he confessed. I was shocked, “why won’t you tell me why you hate me?” I wondered.

“Because you left me,” Niall snapped. Niall threw my shoes on the floor, “you left me when I needed you the most,” he added. He sat back down on his desk chair, “what happened Niall?” I questioned. Niall shakes his head, “you’re too late now,” he tells me. I moved in closer to him, “I don’t have to be,” I say. I lightly touched his shoulder, “I’m here now,” I added. He let my hand sit there for a little bit before he pushed it away, “like I said you’re too late. I’ve changed and I don’t want to go back to the way I was. I don’t want to depend on people that are not there for me,” he tells me. He stood up next to me, “just go to bed Buttercup” he ordered. I knew fighting with Niall right now won’t change a thing, “where would you like me sleep?” I asked.

“My bed,” he replied. I didn’t move, “then where are you going to sleep?” I questioned. Niall shrugged his shoulders, “maybe I’ll see if a girl take me home,” he says. I shake my head as I get into bed facing the wall, “well goodnight then Niall,” I tell him. Niall left his room and I started crying. I was crying over the fact that Niall hates me and wants to give up on our friendship.

****

I gotten woken-up a bit later when someone got in the bed with me. I started to panic until I looked over my shoulder to see it was Niall. He had his back to me and I wanted to say something, but he properly thinks I’m asleep. What shocked me is that he grabbed my hand that was on my thigh. He held it tightly, “I’m sorry that I hate you, but it how I feel about you now,” he whispered. He placed his other hand over the top of ours hands, “I still care for you and nothing can stop that. Not even my fucked up mind,” he continued. I started crying again, “Buttercup?” Niall questioned. I nodded my head, “you heard every word I said didn’t you?” he wondered. I nodded my head again as I felt him turn around. He was still holding my hand, “Niall can we work this out?” I asked. Niall squeezed my hand, “I want to, but I don’t know if I can,” he admitted. I pulled our hands closer to me and he pulled his hand away. I was disappointed, but he wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me closer to him. I cried a bit more, “Buttercup this night only going to be a one off thing. I need you to know that ok,” he tells me. I nodded my head as more tears fell, “you also need to stop crying. You not a very pretty crier,” he teased. I knew he was trying to lighten the mood since he always told me that every time I cried. I wiped my face with my hands, “I missed you,” I tell him. He dug his fingers into my waist, “I know,” he mumbled. He moved his hand from my waist to grab my hand, “go to sleep Buttercup,” he tells me.

“I can’t,” I say. Niall pushed me onto my back and I noticed he was just in his boxers, “if you don’t go to sleep. I’ll make you,” he smirked. I smiled since was the Niall I remembered, “what you going to do?” I questioned. I felt Niall hand go up my thigh under my dress, “well since I’m not getting laid, cause you’re in my bed. I might as well do you,” he says. I laughed a little bit, “one fuck with me put you straight to sleep,” he added.

“Is that because you bad and boring?” I teased. Niall shakes his head, “I’m that good Buttercup” he boasted. I felt Niall’s hand get higher on my thigh. I wasn’t going to push him away, because I knew he wouldn’t go any further. Niall looked me right in the eyes, “just go to sleep Buttercup,” he says. He moved his hand away from my thigh, “so I don’t get anything?” I pouted. Niall smiled as he shook his head, “that’s no fair. I was looking forward to being bored out of my mind,” I joked. Niall jumped on top of me and straddled my thighs, “you wouldn’t be. You’ll be begging me to stop, cause you can’t take it anymore” he smirked. Niall grabbed my hands before I could push him off of me. He was smiling from ear to ear which was a nice sight to see. He pin my hands above my head with just one of his. He covered my mouth with his other had before he leaned over, “go to sleep Buttercup before I rip this dress off of you,” he whispered in my ear. He moved off of me and laid down next to me again. The memory of Niall’s and I’s first time came into my head, “that’s not sleeping Buttercup,” he says. I looked at him, “do you remember our first time?” I wondered.

“Yeah we were both drunk and didn’t know what we were doing. Why did you ask that?” he questioned. I shrugged my shoulders, “it just came into my head,” I admitted. I rolled over before Niall could say anything. He wrapped his arm around my waist, “aren’t you uncomfortable in that dress?” he asked me. I nodded my head before he got out of bed. I watched him go into his wardrobe draws and pull out a long white t-shirt. He throws it at me, “then get changed,” he tells me. He turned around, so I could get changed. I take off the dress and put his t-shirt on. He turned back around when I told him he could. He got back into bed, “now will you go to sleep? It’s four in the morning,” he begged. I nodded my head as I laid back down, “goodnight Niall,” I say. Niall laid down and wrapped his arm around my waist again, “night Buttercup,” he says back.

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