The Best Of Me
48. Rock You Baby, Like A Wrecking Ball
Niall’s POV
‘’Can we talk.. Please.’’ I say once again, trying to convince Jana to open the door. The bad thing, its been two hours. Yes, I’ve been sitting here for two hours. I’m on the floor, my back against the door.
I never get an answer though, she still hasn’t said anything or even given me a sign that she was still alive. That’s what I fear the most, is that this all went too far. What if she took a razor from the shower, or a blade from the cabinet and slit her throat or her wrist and just let herself bleed to death?
But yet again, I don’t want to think that because it scares me. And besides, I know Jana too well. More than anyone else in the entire world. She wouldn’t do that, because if she did she would hurt the people around her more than just herself.
“C’mon baby..’’ I sigh, leaning the back of my head against the door. ‘’Let’s just talk, okay? Please.’’ I add, but of course I get no damn answer at all. ‘’Daddy?’’ I heard Tori’s sweet, innocent voice say.
I look up to see her coming into the room and walking over to me. ‘’Hey babe.’’ I smile lightly, trying to keep strong. She reaches me and joins me in the floor, sitting beside me. ‘’Is Mommy okay?’’ She asks, looking up at me.
‘’Um, yeah. She’s okay.’’ I nod lightly. I lied, I had no clue if she was okay or not. But I couldn’t just tell Tori the truth, the reason why she’s in there anyways. ‘’Harry said to come down there, Daddy.’’ She says.
‘’Well go tell Harry I said no.’’ I reply, serious because I wasn’t going down there. My biggest problem is up here, and I must solve it before I can do anything else. I can hardly even breathe, so they can deal with their problems by themselves. I have my own.
‘’Okay.’’ She sighs out as she stands up. She starts towards the door, but something inside of me clicks, this is my daughter not a stranger. She shouldn’t have to just get up and leave like that.
‘’Tori, c’mere.’’ I say and she stops in her tracks and spins on her heel. ‘’Yes?’’ She asks as she comes back over to me. ‘’I love you, okay.’’ I smile a little. ‘’Okay. I love you too.’’ She smiles back before leaning to me and kissing my nose.
I just smile, I loved that so much. But as always, before I knew it, she was out of the room. I gulp lightly as I attempt to repeat my past actions, past as in an hour ago. ‘’Jana, baby.. can we just talk? I love you okay, with my entire heart. I never meant to hurt you.. ever.’’
But nothing was heard, nothing at all.
‘’I promise to God that I’ll never hurt you again. I never meant to, you know that. She went too far, she had no clue what the hell she was even talking about. So please, ignore what she said and just listen to me okay. I love you, no one can change that.’’ I try, but this time I switched things up a little bit and got even more serious.
As always, I got no reply in return.
‘’I know what makes you feel better..’’ I smile to myself as I realize something I could do just to try to cheer her up some, so in order to do that, I must sing. She loved it when I sang to her, any song, anytime, anywhere.
‘’Sorry if it’s a tad rusty, I um.. I don’t really practice on this song.’’ I sigh out, hoping she will be a little more happy once she realizes what I’m going to sing. ‘’Its not really my style, nor my genre. But for you, I’d give it a try.’’ I add before finally starting.
I didn’t attempt to sing it like the artist does, I just will sing it the way I sing, the way Jana likes it. ‘’ I, I been gone I been gone too long singing my songs on the road. Another town, one more show and I'm coming home. Don't give a damn what these keys I hold I'm gonna knock down that front door, and..’’
‘’I'ma find out what that house is made of. Been too many nights since its felt us make love. I wanna rock some Sheetrock, knock some pictures off the wall. Love you baby, like a wreckin’ ball..’’ I smirk a little to myself.
‘’ You, look at you send me one more shot sitting on a bathroom sink. Damn you really turn me on, painting your toenails pink. Easy baby before you say but if I can make it just one more day, and..’’ I lick my lips, just thinking of the love we’ve made.
‘’That old house is gonna be shaking, I hope those bricks and boards can take it. But I won't be surprised if the whole damn place just falls… I'm gonna rock you baby, like a wrecking ball.” Jana loves this song, and so do I because we both understand what he’s singing about.
‘’And that old house is gonna be shaking. Rafter and rocking foundation quaking. Crash right through the front door, back you up against the wall…’’ I sigh, taking a short, three second pause.
‘’Can we talk.. Please.’’ I say once again, trying to convince Jana to open the door. The bad thing, its been two hours. Yes, I’ve been sitting here for two hours. I’m on the floor, my back against the door.
I never get an answer though, she still hasn’t said anything or even given me a sign that she was still alive. That’s what I fear the most, is that this all went too far. What if she took a razor from the shower, or a blade from the cabinet and slit her throat or her wrist and just let herself bleed to death?
But yet again, I don’t want to think that because it scares me. And besides, I know Jana too well. More than anyone else in the entire world. She wouldn’t do that, because if she did she would hurt the people around her more than just herself.
“C’mon baby..’’ I sigh, leaning the back of my head against the door. ‘’Let’s just talk, okay? Please.’’ I add, but of course I get no damn answer at all. ‘’Daddy?’’ I heard Tori’s sweet, innocent voice say.
I look up to see her coming into the room and walking over to me. ‘’Hey babe.’’ I smile lightly, trying to keep strong. She reaches me and joins me in the floor, sitting beside me. ‘’Is Mommy okay?’’ She asks, looking up at me.
‘’Um, yeah. She’s okay.’’ I nod lightly. I lied, I had no clue if she was okay or not. But I couldn’t just tell Tori the truth, the reason why she’s in there anyways. ‘’Harry said to come down there, Daddy.’’ She says.
‘’Well go tell Harry I said no.’’ I reply, serious because I wasn’t going down there. My biggest problem is up here, and I must solve it before I can do anything else. I can hardly even breathe, so they can deal with their problems by themselves. I have my own.
‘’Okay.’’ She sighs out as she stands up. She starts towards the door, but something inside of me clicks, this is my daughter not a stranger. She shouldn’t have to just get up and leave like that.
‘’Tori, c’mere.’’ I say and she stops in her tracks and spins on her heel. ‘’Yes?’’ She asks as she comes back over to me. ‘’I love you, okay.’’ I smile a little. ‘’Okay. I love you too.’’ She smiles back before leaning to me and kissing my nose.
I just smile, I loved that so much. But as always, before I knew it, she was out of the room. I gulp lightly as I attempt to repeat my past actions, past as in an hour ago. ‘’Jana, baby.. can we just talk? I love you okay, with my entire heart. I never meant to hurt you.. ever.’’
But nothing was heard, nothing at all.
‘’I promise to God that I’ll never hurt you again. I never meant to, you know that. She went too far, she had no clue what the hell she was even talking about. So please, ignore what she said and just listen to me okay. I love you, no one can change that.’’ I try, but this time I switched things up a little bit and got even more serious.
As always, I got no reply in return.
‘’I know what makes you feel better..’’ I smile to myself as I realize something I could do just to try to cheer her up some, so in order to do that, I must sing. She loved it when I sang to her, any song, anytime, anywhere.
‘’Sorry if it’s a tad rusty, I um.. I don’t really practice on this song.’’ I sigh out, hoping she will be a little more happy once she realizes what I’m going to sing. ‘’Its not really my style, nor my genre. But for you, I’d give it a try.’’ I add before finally starting.
I didn’t attempt to sing it like the artist does, I just will sing it the way I sing, the way Jana likes it. ‘’ I, I been gone I been gone too long singing my songs on the road. Another town, one more show and I'm coming home. Don't give a damn what these keys I hold I'm gonna knock down that front door, and..’’
‘’I'ma find out what that house is made of. Been too many nights since its felt us make love. I wanna rock some Sheetrock, knock some pictures off the wall. Love you baby, like a wreckin’ ball..’’ I smirk a little to myself.
‘’ You, look at you send me one more shot sitting on a bathroom sink. Damn you really turn me on, painting your toenails pink. Easy baby before you say but if I can make it just one more day, and..’’ I lick my lips, just thinking of the love we’ve made.
‘’That old house is gonna be shaking, I hope those bricks and boards can take it. But I won't be surprised if the whole damn place just falls… I'm gonna rock you baby, like a wrecking ball.” Jana loves this song, and so do I because we both understand what he’s singing about.
‘’And that old house is gonna be shaking. Rafter and rocking foundation quaking. Crash right through the front door, back you up against the wall…’’ I sigh, taking a short, three second pause.
‘’Love you baby, take it right there baby, rock you baby, like a wrecking ball.’’ I end it with a bite of my lip, and my eyes closing. Begging and pleading to God, please just make her talk to me.
Notes
Like A Wrecking Ball ~ Song LinkHey guys! Well, I cetainly love that song, so yeah. But anyways I am going to update soon!!! SO PLEASE COMMENT THOSE THOUGHTS!!
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Actually, yes. But remember in the series the guys broke up a while back. Like book 2 I think?
10/13/15