DEMIS POV


I woke up to the screaming of… my annoying- peace- of- shitt- I- call- my- fucking- alarm- clock- who- so- happens- to- clearly- be- jealous- of- me- and- my- beds- relationship !!!


Well thruff be told, this is my own choice, I could stay in bed and get fat or I could go to the gym like I always do? My swimsuit told me to go to the gym but my sweatpants were like, nah girl I think your good. I ended up choosing my swimsuit’s side, though.


I went to my closet to ‘shop’ for new clothes. Nah, im just kidding, I mean it’s the fucking gym, im not dressing up if im only going to sweat in anyway! So, what to wear, ahh ha, this blue crop top and skinny pants will do! After getting that out and on, I went to brush my teeth and do my hair in a messy bun. (My favorite …)


I didn’t even bother putting makeup on, except a little mascara and some cream for my face, like I always do. When I was done I grabbed my purse because I usualy go to nandos afterwards to eat. When I finally came out of the hall and into my kitchen, I stopped in my tracks, knowing that


Ariana will be sitting there trying to act as if she came in very easy but meanwhile she TRIED too climb through the window.


“Hello, there stranger, good morning, there is a door and it was open, you didn’t have to crawl inside you know, im not that selfish, except with my food!” Well by the screaming coming out of her voice, I think I may have made her scared instead of her making me scared.


So I covered my sensitive ears while waiting for her to calm down. You know, it’s actually funny if she came to make ME scared, but now she is the one holding a spoon in her hand for defense. “Just some advice?


If I were you, witch I’m not, then I wouldn’t be holding a spoon for defense, I would much trather be holding a knife.” I said, trying to contain my laughter, because Ariana isn’t someone who gets out of bed on the right side, if you catch my drift?


“I was eating my porridge and it was the nearest thing to me and fuck, Demi man, you scared me, girl. Do not do that ever again, that is not cool!” “Last time I checked I wasn’t a man, but how would you know and if it was me, you would have been laying on the floor pissing yourself from the laughter.” I said with a smirk.


“Yeah, but we all know that nobody scares you, nothing scares you!” “Yeah...” I trailed off, knowing that isn’t true. I only have one fear, never being loved! “Demi…” shitt was I day dreaming or was I just deep in thought? “Huh, yeah let’s go.” “You haven’t eaten!!” “Ill get some KFC.” “Demi, I got to pee.”


“Then go, I don’t have a tracking device on you.” Before I expected a reply or comment, she was gone. “ Geez, guess she really needed to go.” Once she was done I locked all the doors and jada jada… and we were now walking across the street to the gym…. Once we were inside, Ariana nudged my shoulder very hard, but it wasn’t sore at all, it just made my bottle of water spill onto my shirt. “Shitt, im sorry Demi!” “Did you forget that water dries and that I can use my powers to make it dry even quicker?”


“Oh, yeah, forgot about that…” I stood there waiting for her to tell me the reason she nudged my shoulder, tapping my foot getting inpatient. Ariana saw the look on my face and then she decided to come back to planet earth.


Eventually she began talking again; I thought that the UFO’S came to earth to rule, but looks like they just came to take her back to her true home… “Well, there are five guys checking us out!” “Well duh, you’re here.” I said already knowing where this topic is going to end up.


“So you knew they were staring and didn’t say a word?” “Listen, they have come to the gym every Friday when you don’t come, but today you DID come so therefore I know them.” “Really?” “Well I haven’t talked to them yet but they never notice or stare at me, so it must be you their staring at!” “Oh…” “Don’t worry, im fine, who needs love in anyways, you’ve got boys to keep you happy and I got food.” “That’s so true.


But you need to step it up a notch, boys won’t notice you until you make a move!” Now THAT, what she did right there, right now, pissed me off! She knows that I don’t chase boys like she does, id rather die alone than going after something that will only leave me broken!


“Don’t take life too seriously, you won’t get out of it alive in anyways…” Was my reply before walking away? I love saying something to get her head spinning and then leave her there alone, ill be honest; it’s the best way to let her know she did something stupid. I went to do work out and after my brake Ariana came back to me with Nandos, fuck, she knows my weak spot!


“Im sorry, Demi.” “For what?” I said sarcastically. “That I said something like that, I know you don’t like looking for love, instead you let love look for you. And I really admire that of you. I know your sensitive about stuff like that, im sorry.” “


Save it, but can I eat MY food now?” She glared at me… “A yah okay, I forgive you, but seriously, you are way more inspiring than me, I admire you more.” “Awe you really think so?” “Yeah.” I said rolling my eyes.


“That’s why those guys are still checking you out.” “Oh gosh, do I look okay?” “You’re at the fucking gym!” “Yeah, whatever...” After eating, we went back to our drill meaning Ariana dancing and showing off because she knows that the guys are watching, and me actually doing a proper workout.


She is so beautiful and if I looked like her, I would also show off, probably more than her, but Im not her so I don’t make myself noticeable and I don’t fall in love, for me it doesn’t exist, it’s something you will find in Disney films, not in real life. But I love my life just how it is and I wouldn’t change it! Ariana kept walking past the guys to get their attention, but they were staring at somebody behind me, but there is nobody behind me so they must have been in deep thought? I decided to ‘accidentally’ bump Ariana into one of them and my plan failed because she didn’t even talk to them, only apologize and walk away.


She was really shy in front of them and it was so adorable and cute… After MY workout, we went to Nandos and ate. Making some small talk here and there but nothing interesting. Ariana got a phone call and said that she had to go. Im used to her getting phone calls because she gets them quit often.


After eating and paying and driving and singing songs that I love, I came back home at around 12 o’clock. I spent the next few hours playing around with my powers doing stuff like… Swapping an old mans beard with a random boy so that the boy now has a huge beard and the old man doesn’t have anything.


They looked at one another and screamed and I swapped it back before other people noticed and the best part was when the people stared at them like they came right out of the madhouse and their faces were priceless.


The old man kept hold onto his beard as if he didn’t want to lose it again and the boy kept rubbing his chin! Believe me I did more than that but I wont tell you now, but when I finally got tired of that I decided to write a quote in my Diary, a very long quote, I might add !


Dear Diary…


Here’s to the girls who’s hair is a mess, is always dancing in the rain and would make you laugh so hard that when you drink tea, you would snort it out of your nose. Here’s to the girls that would rather have a lazy Saturday afternoon instead of a clubbing Saturday night out. Here’s to the girls who party come home and go to bed, not part go to bed and them goes home, the girls who talks to herself, who wears what SHE thinks is pretty, not what others think. The girls who would still watch Disney channels and sing in the shower, for they are truly special!!


Hey my fav diary (only diary…)


Today got me thinking of Liam… (Girls, this isn’t Liam Payne!) I had a flashback last night of that night when he died and let’s just say it wasn’t good. Yeah, I know it’s been a year, but I will never forget it.


And when we went to the gym, I heard five guys talking and one of them called the other ‘Liam’ and that hurt me so much and memories came floating back, the thing I didn’t want is a flashback , but I got one and it felt just like yesterday ! * Flashback *


“Babe, I don’t want to go to the tree house!” I moaned not in the mood. “Awe, please, I got a picnic with…” “Food?!!” “Yup.” “Okay let’s go now, c’mon hurry up, babe.” “Awe, I love you so much, Dem!” We leaned in and kissed, tenderly. Me not wanting it to end. Him granting my wish, but not for long as he pulled away.


I wasn’t feeling like walking, so I took his hand and gave him the look to tell him that were going to fly there. He knows the look because I always do it when im ‘in my energy saving mode’ or as you may call it ‘laziness’. In a mater of seconds we were there and we walked hand in hand to our tree house, full of pictures and memories. We sat down on the bed and suddenly we heard a gunshot!


“Liam looked out of the window and that’s when it all happened so fast! He got hit by shot and laid there lifelessly. I immediately I got down on my knees and hold his face in my hands… “Demi, promise me that you will move on from me.”


“NO, I won’t because you’re not leaving me here alone, your going to be okay.” He smiled. “You know I love you and ill be waiting for you.” “Don’t say that!” I said sobbing. “I will use my powers to heal you before you…” “Dem, you haven’t learned that technique yet!” “No, I will do it, I can, I will, you won’t die now!!” “I love you more than anything, and if you do to you will promise me that you won’t hang on to me and you will let go.”


“Okay, I will for you. Just hold in me will call a…” before I could finish my sentence he kissed me with his last breath. “Say something, Liam! I love you! Don’t leave me!” “Please?” I whispered into his ears, even though he couldn’t hear me anymore. I remember sobbing and holding him until the ambulance arrived, to late!


* End of flashback *


Bye for now, Diary. I can’t take it anymore, im going to call Ariana…
Regards


I slided down the wall of my room starting to sob. I decided not to call Arii and rather go there myself but the easy way… I closed my eyes imagined myself in her room sitting on her bed, and that’s exactly what happened. I sat there still sobbing and decided to wait for her to walk in on exactly 30 seconds.


And 30 seconds she walked in and her cup fell from her hands and onto the floor. Once she saw me sobbing, she jumped over the mess and she was on the bed by my side. “Did you get a flashback?” I just nodded in response. “Maybe if you eat something it would make you feel better?” I shook my head, no, in response. “This is not like you Demi, you never skip food!!” I spoke up for the first time. “Well when it comes to Liam, anything is possible!” “Demi, this isn’t good for you, you must eat!” “I will, but not now, im not hungry right this moment, just give me time to recover from this flashback.”


“Sure, love.” We sat there in silence with her holding me and me still sobbing. Until she got a shocked expression on her face. “This may make it worse, but isn’t it his birthday tomorrow?” “Yeah, I always get these things before our anniversary, his birthday, the funeral and on his day of death.” “You have to move on!”


“No, I wont, there is nobody like Liam, I wont fall again and I don’t believe in love anymore because it broke me and it will break me again if I let myself fall again.” She didn’t respond just nodded her head in reply.

Notes

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Hey girls ! I think this is about long enough ? I cried when I wrote this, but I hope you did find this sad? Please let me know in the comments ?


@hold my hand…