I've Got A Secret
Through His Eyes
Chapter 4: Niall’s POV
I couldn’t remember what had happened the night of Zayn’s party. I knew I had gotten wasted and saw Glimmer storm out of his house, but that’s about it. The next thing I remember was running towards the hospital. I had found out about Glimmer’s attempt suicide from some nurse in the hospital. My mind was racing. Why would she try to kill herself? Why? I tried to remember anything, but I couldn’t.
I arrived at the hospital and couldn’t stop myself from freaking out in attempt to find Glimmers room. Once I was allowed into Glimmers room, I quickly ran to her and asked her why she had tried to kill herself. It made my heart ache just thinking about it. Before she even responded, a girl began to speak. I didn’t really notice her before until now. Harry, Zayn, Louis, and Liam noticed her though. She had dark hair and was pretty light skinned. She looked normal.
After I left the hospital, I began remembering what I had done that night. I couldn’t help but sob. It made me feel terrible; I don’t know why I did that. No wonder she tried to keep her distance from me. I called the boys over to my house to tell them because I needed feedback on what to do next, I really didn’t know what to do with myself at that moment.
“Guys… I… um hit Glimmer the night of Zayn’s party…” I whispered as the boys settled in my loft. They remained silent for a couple of minutes.
“Niall, are you serious? Why?” said Liam, breaking the silence.
“I have no fucking idea! I can’t even remember why or how. I can’t remember shit!” I yelled, I don’t know why but I began to get incredibly frustrated. The guys remained quiet giving me sympathetic looks.
My personal life wasn’t the best at that moment. My parents were giving me shit about my school work and how they’ll take me out of the soccer team. I already had trouble with my anger, and this only added to the flame. I began to hide my anger, taking it out on Glimmer. I really like her, but I can’t control my anger anymore. I just don’t know what to do anymore.
The boys stayed in my loft for another couple of hours. Our conversation went in other directions after I blew up on Liam. I really didn’t mean to do that. Everyone avoided the subject about Glimmer. After they had left, my parents began asking about Glimmer.
“I don’t want to talk about it right now mom, sorry” I said as I tried to remain calm.
“Well you know she doesn’t deserve you Niall, she’s too good. You’re making the wrong decisions! Going to parties all the time! You’re grades are terrible!” yelled my mom. She really knows how to piss me off. At that moment I couldn’t think of anything else to do, so I just left. I punched my steering wheel trying to get rid of some anger. I have no idea what I’m going to do. I don’t think anything will be the same between me and Glimmer.
I couldn’t remember what had happened the night of Zayn’s party. I knew I had gotten wasted and saw Glimmer storm out of his house, but that’s about it. The next thing I remember was running towards the hospital. I had found out about Glimmer’s attempt suicide from some nurse in the hospital. My mind was racing. Why would she try to kill herself? Why? I tried to remember anything, but I couldn’t.
I arrived at the hospital and couldn’t stop myself from freaking out in attempt to find Glimmers room. Once I was allowed into Glimmers room, I quickly ran to her and asked her why she had tried to kill herself. It made my heart ache just thinking about it. Before she even responded, a girl began to speak. I didn’t really notice her before until now. Harry, Zayn, Louis, and Liam noticed her though. She had dark hair and was pretty light skinned. She looked normal.
After I left the hospital, I began remembering what I had done that night. I couldn’t help but sob. It made me feel terrible; I don’t know why I did that. No wonder she tried to keep her distance from me. I called the boys over to my house to tell them because I needed feedback on what to do next, I really didn’t know what to do with myself at that moment.
“Guys… I… um hit Glimmer the night of Zayn’s party…” I whispered as the boys settled in my loft. They remained silent for a couple of minutes.
“Niall, are you serious? Why?” said Liam, breaking the silence.
“I have no fucking idea! I can’t even remember why or how. I can’t remember shit!” I yelled, I don’t know why but I began to get incredibly frustrated. The guys remained quiet giving me sympathetic looks.
My personal life wasn’t the best at that moment. My parents were giving me shit about my school work and how they’ll take me out of the soccer team. I already had trouble with my anger, and this only added to the flame. I began to hide my anger, taking it out on Glimmer. I really like her, but I can’t control my anger anymore. I just don’t know what to do anymore.
The boys stayed in my loft for another couple of hours. Our conversation went in other directions after I blew up on Liam. I really didn’t mean to do that. Everyone avoided the subject about Glimmer. After they had left, my parents began asking about Glimmer.
“I don’t want to talk about it right now mom, sorry” I said as I tried to remain calm.
“Well you know she doesn’t deserve you Niall, she’s too good. You’re making the wrong decisions! Going to parties all the time! You’re grades are terrible!” yelled my mom. She really knows how to piss me off. At that moment I couldn’t think of anything else to do, so I just left. I punched my steering wheel trying to get rid of some anger. I have no idea what I’m going to do. I don’t think anything will be the same between me and Glimmer.
update
4/2/14