Save Me From Myself

Once we dropped off Ashton i couldn't stop smiling. MAybe there actually is a guy that likes me for once.

"The rest of the boys will be coming over about in an hour so get ready and be out in maybe 45 minutes" my Aunt said as we walked in to our house. wow today has been eventful. first mom news witch i still feel like my heart has a chunk out of it. Then the beach and hospital and now i'm going to meet fucking 5sos because they are my neighbors what thee fuck is happening. Its like i am reading those imagines on wattpad like i use to.

i quickly shower and put on some eyeliner, mascara, I also put on a little foundation on some spots that i have on my face for touch up spots. I went into my room to find some black shorts and a cut up red tee shirt that i made into a tank top and i found my black sports bra. I quickly changed and looked at my reflection in the mirror. My face is fucking ugly but it is as good as it will get. these shorts hide my hips but the shirt shows my stomach. WHY DOES THIS HAPPEN!?!? I grab my leather jacket and put a black bandana on my head to hide my messy dirty blond hair some what.

I walked out of my room and i could hear alot of people talking and glass clinking around. I came out of the hallway to see the boys came and only luke noticed and waved at me. i did a slight wave but i couldn't get a word out.

'Hi im luke" He put his plate down at a spot on the table and stuck his hand out for a handshake. was shaking so hard from being so nervous that i cant keep a steady hand. But i still shook his hand and tried to smile but it probably looked so stupid. God why do i gotta be so fucking socially awkward.

"So i hear that your charlie right?" he asked. i just nodded in response.

"Charlie talk to him" ashton teased from the counter

" a-a-um yeah i-i-i am" I stuttered. God why did ashton have to do that now i just look like a stupid 16 year old to them. not like would look like a smart hot one anyways but it just makes it so much worse.

" were you from?" Luke asked putting his hand on his neck awkwardly. aim making it awkward for him.

"usa um well american well i guess you could say nebraska... yeah haha" I just rambled

"Your really cute when you are nervous it is kinda strange , lets get your food and eat' my aunt came behind me and grabbed my plate. she quickly puts some noodles and sauce on it then gives it to me, i take it and go and sit by luke.

He quickly finished his noodles i finished about half of mine before i was done. Once everyone was done the boys went to the downstairs living room with my 3 little cousins. While I helped with the dishes.

"honey go hang out with them" my aunt said taking over what i was doing.

'Are you sure?" i asked wiping my hands off

"yes go have fun" she said starting to wash the dishes. I walked down stairs and i could hear the boys talking but i stopped to hear what they were saying.

"I mean mate she is so stupid why would she go run if she knew she would have an attack, And why would she just judge people that are self harmers like she did for me. God this is why I should just stop helping people so i won't have to run into ones like her." i hear ashton rant.

"Man i don't know why you would be judging her like that maybe she had something happen and she is just trying to look out for you" I could hear Michael say to him

"I doubt it she is just a brat" i creaked the door open a little bit to see the boys were all standing around the pool table with sticks in their hands playing.

"She seems really sweet to me" Luke said going down to hit the ball.

"She barely talked to you"ashton snapped

"Mate calm down" calum put his hand on ashtons shoulder. Then the door opened becouse of annie my cousin

"Charlie uppy" She said once she saw me. i looked over at the guys and saw that they were all looking at me. I turned around and brought Annie up stairs.

''Hey babes go get some barbies and bring them down stair i'm going to go to the bathroom." i set her down, she ran to her room as i went to the bathroom. I went in and closed the door behind me. i put the lid down on the toilet and sat on it. maybe i am everything ashton said i know im stupid but i thought that maybe i made another friend but it seems like i made another hater. i haden't noticed but this whole time tears were falling down my face.
There was a knock on the door.

"I will be right out sorry" i said quickly wiping my tears and cleaning the mascara and putting more on. I cam out when i was all good.

"I so sorry" I said as i saw luke.

"For what?" he laughed

"For taking so long" I responded not looking him in the eye

"You don't need to be sorry about that" He said

"Okay " I said putting my hand on my arm rubbing it like i was cold but actually it is really warm in here.

"Hey how much did you hear from down stairs?" he grabbed my arm making me turn around.

"enough to know how he feels about me" I now looked him in the eye

"Im sorry don't let him get to you he is just a jack ass" He said befor going into the bathroom. I just headed to my room.

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