Save Me From Myself

"what do you mean?" I am sitting crossed legged on my bed. Luke was sitting in front of me holding my hands.

"what I am saying is that i still love you and last night was the best night ever." He said making me think of how he was my first. "But i'm going away on tour in a day and i don't want you to get hate from fans or anything like that so i'm thinking we should break for the tour and once im back we could easily get back together if you are willing to"

I shook my head focusing on my ankle. I can't believe this. I love him so much and he just is going to throw it away because of some fans. He lifted my head with his first finger and his thumb on my chin to look at him.

"Please dont do anything stupid, I still cared for you" He got up and left my room leaving me to sit there and think. I feel like crying so bad but the tears never come, I stay in my room all night to never come out. i eventually move around a little and get my phone. I look through tumblr then i go on vine try to not be sad and look at funny things. I look over at my clock its 6 am. I put my phone down and lay down to get some kind of rest.

''Might as well stay here all day" I whisper to myself, As i drift off

the sky is a light blue and there is a concrete building with a whole bunch of buses around it. There was this group of boys coming out of the red bus i tried to walk towards them but i was stopped by a little child that was by my leggs. She had pigtails and a pink dress on. she had dirty blonde hair and bright blue eyes like lukes.

"Uppie" She grabbed at the air above her head signaling me to pick her up. I reached down and picked her up and put her on my hip. She played with my hair that was over my shoulder.

"Mommy why is daddy gone so much?" She asked like nothing happened.

"Wait im not your mommy" i said in disbelief

"Yes you are and he is my daddy" She said pointing to luke.


I shot straight up. What the fuck! no luke and i don't have a child It was just a dream.

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