Save Me From Myself

Luke and I had gone to the fair and to the favorite shops of his today and now we are just sitting on the pier talking about his tours and school.

"So ashton then was so mad at the secerity guard that he took his drum sticks and stabbed them into his snare drum" luke explained the end of the story making us laugh.

"what happened to the rest of the drums?' i asked still laughing.

"We kept them just replaced his snare" he explained

"Wow he has some temper" i laughed

" yeah he does. So what is your thought on Life" He randomly asked

"Truthfully?" i asked looking at him looking over at the horizon over the ocean . He glanced at me and shook his head. then turned his body toward me and took my hand.

"Yea i want to know your story" he said looking into my eyes


“Sometimes I think life is worthless. Its been getting worse since the 5th grade. Its funny how fast a little child gets lost. Its like when I was younger I ran into a cave to explore for the cuddly teddy bear but now I’m stuck with the grizzly bear. Called my father.

The cave gets darker and darker as I get older. It went from flying to dying in the 7th grade. That’s went I went to never land looking for peter pan. But I ended up becoming a pirate with troubles. Did you know why there are only lost boys, Its because no one ever thinks that they are that bad of trouble when they are getting so high that they fly. In the 7th grade My captain, hook and I had gotten in a fight. He ended up taking his knife giving it to me and letting me steal blood from my wrist, stomach and thighs.. Captain hook never touched me only yelled at me. Captain hook is my father, but he even ended up disappearing into my imagination.

But that was child play. Come along 8th grade I moved to a hell whole called Nebraska. I went to an old farm school and got pushed around. I would get punched and kicked and shoved. But every time I would get pulled into the office and told that it was my entire fault. When my dad came into the office with me it was always my fault. But in the mist of all of that I fell in love with a red headed boy. He stole my first kiss but at the same time loved another girl at the same time. When he left it got worse. The people had gotten more brutal. They would slam my head into locker and brick walls. I would cake on make up just to hide away the bruises. I tried every way to die but every time I had failed and failed again. I tried pills. I tried cutting, I tried the rope. But I never had a gun, but if I did I would be gone.

In 9th and 10th grade I left the farming school and went to high school in a bigger town. I had been pushed around and shoved up and down the stairs. I have been pushed and kicked down them. But I kept it in my mind that it was nothing close to last year. In the beginning I had a crush on this guy and we had a fling. He told me he loved me, but I told him that I don’t tell people I love them back because I don’t want to break a promise. But I didn’t know by him saying he loved me that he was breaking a promise with his girlfriend. I had been tramped on by 3 boys that year but one f them told me I was worthless that boy/ man was my father he would yell and scream at me almost every night when I did almost nothing wrong. He would make me feel worthless like I never was loved But at least I found some friends to love me and I love them I actually do. we had started a band and our name is The one and only. They helped me try to slim down on cutting and may be even stop. But then we had begun to fight and we all broke up and the other band members join forces against me and made me feel extremely unwanted. I promised them I was better but I lied just like they lied saying they wouldn’t leave. I just tried to keep my mind on music with writing it and listening to different artist.

But come along this year I moved here and my mother had been diagnosed with cancer and had passed away about 2 months ago and my father had been gone since the 8th grade. But when I found out that one of my favorite bands was living right next to me I thought my life would turn around. You know like how they say in those weird fan fiction were she meets you to say and then you two fall in love. But its not like that you guys hate me so much and I am still wondering why you want to hang out with me and why you said that one day on the beach that you like me. I don’t get why anyone would like an unwanted screw up like me.” A single tear left my eye. i looked up at him and he looked in pain.


"babe please dont think that you are perfect in every way i haven't said this because i was scared what the boys would think but i love you, this wont turn into one of those shity fanfiction were you and i live happily after because that doesn't happen i don't want a happily ending because that means this ends i want a forever with you" He leaned in and wiped my tear way then lightly kissed me

Notes

well yeah that took a little bit but i really like how i tried to explain it