Save Me From Myself

I woke up after i had surgery. The doctors had to pump out my stomach. this is horrible why can't i just be gone its not like anyone really wants me here anyways. I look down at my hands. My nails still have blood on them from scratching at my legs.Someone cut off all my bracelets now showing my cuts. The one that i had cut deep over my arm is wrapped up. i lifted the cloth that they wrapped it in.

"Charlet you scared the living shit out of me." My aunt came in she looked like she had been crying. She come up and hugged me. when she pulled away she looked into my eyes and put her hands on my cheeks. studding my face. I pulled away. She looked more hurt than befor.

"Im going to let luke in here, he was the one who saved you" my aunt said. More like failing me than saving me. I bet hell is better than this place.

The door creaked open revealing luke , Michael, calum,and ashton. luke came over and slid a chair by my bed making a high pitched scraping noise. He had sat down and took my hand. he was rubbing his thumb over the top of my hand.

"why would you want to take your life" he mumbled in to my hand. i could feel wet tears on my hand as he started to cry.

"because im not needed here. why did you make me fail" I snapped taking my hand back. My thorat hurts so bad. it feel like it is on fire

"because you have a worth here even if ashton doesn't make you feel like it . I would never forgive myself if you died" he put his hands together and was hanging over his knees.

"If you cared you would let me go. Now leave me alone its not like many people would notice if i was gone" I lay down and ace my back to him

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