Dear Niall
Why Don't You Love Me?
Chapter 8
The news shot me like a bullet through my brain. The pain spread through my body like cancer. Mom left and i laid there hating my life.
I felt a hand stroke my hair. Hitting all my knots. Comforting. My eyes still closed as i forced them to open. Who was this hand. Was it mom's or Niall's? Was it my imagination. I opened my eyes to Drake. His small hand goes through my hair. He smiles looking at me, i smile back. I looked and saw the sun go through the windows.
"Dani. Lets go." I said, coming out of my room. "Okay." She yelled back.
We rode our bikes to the store. Courtney sat on the steps working on a drawing of a horse. Her hands flawless, i wish i could still draw. It hurt. I wanted to be an artist.
"Awesome Courtney." I said.
"Im going to a art school this summer." She said.
"And you didn't tell us." Said Dani, nudging her in the shoulder.
"Well ya I'm shy." She said with a grin, "and Liam asked me out."
"What!" Said Ahnna butting in as usual.
"Lets go get opened!" Said Courtney, with a open smile.
I have never seen her this way. So happy. Thank the lord for British boys! After a full day of baking and sailing. I got a text.
Niall: Hey wanna hang out?
Me: ok
Niall: whats wrong?
Me: Nuthin
Niall: meet me at the pond.
After that I didn't reply. He wouldn't love me. On the way home I grabbed a bottle of beer. I was mad. My mom said that drinking or cutting wouldn't help pain. In the car i took off the bottle cap and drank. The taste was foreign. Almost disgusting.
At the pond i got out. Niall came up to me.
"Okay what going on," he said.
I glared at him and handed him the bottle.
"You drink now?" He said, "That's not like you."
"Well why would you care," i said.
"Hey we had something going," he said.
I pushed his shoulders.
"Leave you piece of shit." I screamed.
"I have been nothing but nice." He said.
I began to cry. I grabbed the bottle from his grasp and threw it on the ground. It felt like the pieces of me had shattered, on the ground.
"Your out of control." He said commandingly. "I want you Hanna." He said, with dread on his voice. My mascara was all over my hand as i rubbed away the tears. I fell on the ground. He pulled me up and pulled me in his arms. I pushed away. "Your a monster." I screamed.
NIALL'S POV
I was the monster? What was up with Hanna. I came back for her but she didn't want me. She drank? She cussed? Was it jealously of Danell? I didn't get it. All i wanted to ask was "Why don't you love me?"
HANNA'S POV
I ran back to my car, leaving him behind. I obviously was drunk as i stumbled in the car. Niall rushed up as he opened my door. "Let me just drive you home." He said. "You wouldn't care if I died." I said. "You mean everything to me," he said, "your the reason i came back, your the reason i breath." He said. He walked me over to the other side. He drove me home.
The news shot me like a bullet through my brain. The pain spread through my body like cancer. Mom left and i laid there hating my life.
I felt a hand stroke my hair. Hitting all my knots. Comforting. My eyes still closed as i forced them to open. Who was this hand. Was it mom's or Niall's? Was it my imagination. I opened my eyes to Drake. His small hand goes through my hair. He smiles looking at me, i smile back. I looked and saw the sun go through the windows.
"Dani. Lets go." I said, coming out of my room. "Okay." She yelled back.
We rode our bikes to the store. Courtney sat on the steps working on a drawing of a horse. Her hands flawless, i wish i could still draw. It hurt. I wanted to be an artist.
"Awesome Courtney." I said.
"Im going to a art school this summer." She said.
"And you didn't tell us." Said Dani, nudging her in the shoulder.
"Well ya I'm shy." She said with a grin, "and Liam asked me out."
"What!" Said Ahnna butting in as usual.
"Lets go get opened!" Said Courtney, with a open smile.
I have never seen her this way. So happy. Thank the lord for British boys! After a full day of baking and sailing. I got a text.
Niall: Hey wanna hang out?
Me: ok
Niall: whats wrong?
Me: Nuthin
Niall: meet me at the pond.
After that I didn't reply. He wouldn't love me. On the way home I grabbed a bottle of beer. I was mad. My mom said that drinking or cutting wouldn't help pain. In the car i took off the bottle cap and drank. The taste was foreign. Almost disgusting.
At the pond i got out. Niall came up to me.
"Okay what going on," he said.
I glared at him and handed him the bottle.
"You drink now?" He said, "That's not like you."
"Well why would you care," i said.
"Hey we had something going," he said.
I pushed his shoulders.
"Leave you piece of shit." I screamed.
"I have been nothing but nice." He said.
I began to cry. I grabbed the bottle from his grasp and threw it on the ground. It felt like the pieces of me had shattered, on the ground.
"Your out of control." He said commandingly. "I want you Hanna." He said, with dread on his voice. My mascara was all over my hand as i rubbed away the tears. I fell on the ground. He pulled me up and pulled me in his arms. I pushed away. "Your a monster." I screamed.
NIALL'S POV
I was the monster? What was up with Hanna. I came back for her but she didn't want me. She drank? She cussed? Was it jealously of Danell? I didn't get it. All i wanted to ask was "Why don't you love me?"
HANNA'S POV
I ran back to my car, leaving him behind. I obviously was drunk as i stumbled in the car. Niall rushed up as he opened my door. "Let me just drive you home." He said. "You wouldn't care if I died." I said. "You mean everything to me," he said, "your the reason i came back, your the reason i breath." He said. He walked me over to the other side. He drove me home.
Wow this was amazayn I can't wait to read the other storie!!!!!
8/20/14