Dear Niall
I Wish I Knew The Answer
Chapter 29
NIALL'S POV
My hands slid on the glass. Her eyes barely opened, stared right back at me. Then her face disappeared into the walls. "Will she be okay?" I asked the nurse. "We can only hope." She replied. My face felt faint of feeling. I rubbed my hands through my hair and i nibbled on my fingernails, a nervous habit. I grabbed my wallet and looked at the tattered picture of Hanna. Her dimples implanted in her smile. She was in a tutu dress with her pink lips. Her two front teeth, stuck straight out. After she got her braces, they straightened. The edges were burnt from when i hit my depression period. She never knew about it. She would freak. I felt bad for leaving for her for those five years.
HANNA'S POV
"Let me see him." I said struggling under the covers. "No honey please stay here." Said a nurse. I cried out loud, almost a scream. "Let me see him." I said. I looked around at the movement of there mouths, but no sound. I quickly pushed through the doctors. One grabbed my arm i quickly pulled away. He mouthed, "come here." I opened the door as my feet somewhat slid on the floor. I ran down the hallway.
NIALL'S POV
I heard her holding her ears and screaming. She came to me as she grasped me and dug her fingernails into my back. Her head laid over my shoulder. Her breath was heavy on my neck. She tried to keep breathing. I rubbed her back. All she was doing was screaming. Why?
The doctor came out as i walked her to him. "Calm," i said in her ear. She stared at me as her fingertips left mine. I blew her a kiss as she looked at me. She covered her ears.
HANNA'S POV
On a board i saw the nurse write, you have lost your hearing. I stopped, and shook my head. She held me trying to calm me. She wasn't Niall though. I heard the noises enter my ears. I felt alone.
NIALL'S POV
She was deaf. Why? She had been through hell. My beautiful love. Things would never be the same. She came out and pointed at herself, and then her hands formed a heart, then she pointed at me. I knew what it meant. I <3 you. I saw her cry as she wiped her eyes. She came over as i got up. I grabbed her hand. She had a board in her hand and quickly wrote, "lover boy:)" i smiled back and patted her shoulder.
That night the concert was loud. She sat at the front row, as girls looked at her and whispered. She was strong like my subway sandwiches. Man am i hungry. Snap out of it Niall. She looked at me with her green eyes and black hair. She smiled as i came by. When little things came on, she waved her hands back and forth. At the end she pointed at herself again and then a heart and pointed to me.
At the end of the concert, the car was silent. Her hands lay in her lap as her head leaned on the seatbelt. On the radio it silently played:
If I could take away the pain and put a smile on your face
Baby I would, baby I would
If I could make a better way, so you could see a better day
Baby I would, baby I would, I would
Paint a doorway to the sky and hand you the keys,
Let you know that you're always welcomed so that you never leave
Buy you all those fancy things that you only see on tv, yeah
Run away, to our hideaway, we be living the american dream
And i, know it's never gonna be that easy
But I know that it won't hurt us to try
If I could take away the pain and put a smile on your face
Baby I would, baby I would
If I could make a better way, so you could see a better day
Baby I would, baby I would, I would
To the love forever wide, so that it never runs dry
Anytime you ask me why i'm smiling, say that i'm satisfied
You got your flaws and so do i,
Past lovers that made you cry
And though I wanna make it right
I just cant read your mind
And i, know it's never gonna be that easy
But I know that it won't hurt us to try
If I could take away the pain and put a smile on your face
Baby I would, baby I would
If I could make a better way, so you could see a better day
Baby I would, baby I would, I would
I helped her out of the car as she went up the steps to the beach house. She sat on the door step. I sat by her as i put my arm around her.
[On the board]
Hanna: hey lover boy
Niall: hey pretty girl
Hanna: this is all my fault don't take any blame
Niall: okay i wont say anything
Hanna: i love you too the moon and back
Niall: i love you to the universe and back
Her hands dissolved into mine. I pointed to the street then she turned back and i gripped her lips. I could feel her smiling. She was cute especially when caught off guard. She put her hands on my back and then kissed up my neck. I grabbed under her legs and carried her in the house. I laid her on the couch as i gave her one last kiss. Her hand touched my cheek as she surveyed my face. She traced all around my face and stopped at my lips.
HANNA'S POV
He gave me a smile as i looked at his face. He grabbed me bride style as the blanket around me, dragged on the ground. His arm was on my back and his other under my knees. Before he opened the door he gave me a kiss. I pulled his head back in as he mouthed, "calm down lover girl." I gripped his back muscles as i gave him a hug.
^^^^^^THE NEXT MORNING^^^^^^^
I woke up wanting to kiss him. I wanted his body on mine. Love is hard to explain. Not to be cheesy, but i see it as wanting that person every second of the day. He came out in his sweats but no shirt. He came over as his fingers rubbed my cheek. He kissed my fore head as he put his hand on my thin shirt. He pulled it off and quickly went over the the closet and grabbed one of his. I felt bare in just my bra. He put the shirt over. He smiled indicating that it looked good.
NIALL'S POV
My hands slid on the glass. Her eyes barely opened, stared right back at me. Then her face disappeared into the walls. "Will she be okay?" I asked the nurse. "We can only hope." She replied. My face felt faint of feeling. I rubbed my hands through my hair and i nibbled on my fingernails, a nervous habit. I grabbed my wallet and looked at the tattered picture of Hanna. Her dimples implanted in her smile. She was in a tutu dress with her pink lips. Her two front teeth, stuck straight out. After she got her braces, they straightened. The edges were burnt from when i hit my depression period. She never knew about it. She would freak. I felt bad for leaving for her for those five years.
HANNA'S POV
"Let me see him." I said struggling under the covers. "No honey please stay here." Said a nurse. I cried out loud, almost a scream. "Let me see him." I said. I looked around at the movement of there mouths, but no sound. I quickly pushed through the doctors. One grabbed my arm i quickly pulled away. He mouthed, "come here." I opened the door as my feet somewhat slid on the floor. I ran down the hallway.
NIALL'S POV
I heard her holding her ears and screaming. She came to me as she grasped me and dug her fingernails into my back. Her head laid over my shoulder. Her breath was heavy on my neck. She tried to keep breathing. I rubbed her back. All she was doing was screaming. Why?
The doctor came out as i walked her to him. "Calm," i said in her ear. She stared at me as her fingertips left mine. I blew her a kiss as she looked at me. She covered her ears.
HANNA'S POV
On a board i saw the nurse write, you have lost your hearing. I stopped, and shook my head. She held me trying to calm me. She wasn't Niall though. I heard the noises enter my ears. I felt alone.
NIALL'S POV
She was deaf. Why? She had been through hell. My beautiful love. Things would never be the same. She came out and pointed at herself, and then her hands formed a heart, then she pointed at me. I knew what it meant. I <3 you. I saw her cry as she wiped her eyes. She came over as i got up. I grabbed her hand. She had a board in her hand and quickly wrote, "lover boy:)" i smiled back and patted her shoulder.
That night the concert was loud. She sat at the front row, as girls looked at her and whispered. She was strong like my subway sandwiches. Man am i hungry. Snap out of it Niall. She looked at me with her green eyes and black hair. She smiled as i came by. When little things came on, she waved her hands back and forth. At the end she pointed at herself again and then a heart and pointed to me.
At the end of the concert, the car was silent. Her hands lay in her lap as her head leaned on the seatbelt. On the radio it silently played:
If I could take away the pain and put a smile on your face
Baby I would, baby I would
If I could make a better way, so you could see a better day
Baby I would, baby I would, I would
Paint a doorway to the sky and hand you the keys,
Let you know that you're always welcomed so that you never leave
Buy you all those fancy things that you only see on tv, yeah
Run away, to our hideaway, we be living the american dream
And i, know it's never gonna be that easy
But I know that it won't hurt us to try
If I could take away the pain and put a smile on your face
Baby I would, baby I would
If I could make a better way, so you could see a better day
Baby I would, baby I would, I would
To the love forever wide, so that it never runs dry
Anytime you ask me why i'm smiling, say that i'm satisfied
You got your flaws and so do i,
Past lovers that made you cry
And though I wanna make it right
I just cant read your mind
And i, know it's never gonna be that easy
But I know that it won't hurt us to try
If I could take away the pain and put a smile on your face
Baby I would, baby I would
If I could make a better way, so you could see a better day
Baby I would, baby I would, I would
I helped her out of the car as she went up the steps to the beach house. She sat on the door step. I sat by her as i put my arm around her.
[On the board]
Hanna: hey lover boy
Niall: hey pretty girl
Hanna: this is all my fault don't take any blame
Niall: okay i wont say anything
Hanna: i love you too the moon and back
Niall: i love you to the universe and back
Her hands dissolved into mine. I pointed to the street then she turned back and i gripped her lips. I could feel her smiling. She was cute especially when caught off guard. She put her hands on my back and then kissed up my neck. I grabbed under her legs and carried her in the house. I laid her on the couch as i gave her one last kiss. Her hand touched my cheek as she surveyed my face. She traced all around my face and stopped at my lips.
HANNA'S POV
He gave me a smile as i looked at his face. He grabbed me bride style as the blanket around me, dragged on the ground. His arm was on my back and his other under my knees. Before he opened the door he gave me a kiss. I pulled his head back in as he mouthed, "calm down lover girl." I gripped his back muscles as i gave him a hug.
^^^^^^THE NEXT MORNING^^^^^^^
I woke up wanting to kiss him. I wanted his body on mine. Love is hard to explain. Not to be cheesy, but i see it as wanting that person every second of the day. He came out in his sweats but no shirt. He came over as his fingers rubbed my cheek. He kissed my fore head as he put his hand on my thin shirt. He pulled it off and quickly went over the the closet and grabbed one of his. I felt bare in just my bra. He put the shirt over. He smiled indicating that it looked good.
Wow this was amazayn I can't wait to read the other storie!!!!!
8/20/14