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Cambridge

Hurt & Confusion

Rachel's P.O.V.

"He did not!" I exclaimed as Demi came to the end of the story she had been telling about her campus life.

"Oh but he did" she replied, giggling.

I couldn't help but laugh along with her. Demi was such a genuinely easy person to talk to - it was insane. She was so loud and bubbly that couldn't help but enjoy myself whenever I was around her.

We were currently in McDonalds, deciding to just pig out and enjoy ourselves - We had spent hours shopping and were starving at this point. I was delighted when at long last our food got delivered.

"Hey El, you okay?" I asked, realising Eleanor was staring at her phone anxiously.

She looked up at me quickly, giving me a smile.

"Of course, of course. Just tired" she replied, obviously lying.

Demi rolled her eyes.

"Is he still not replying to you?" she asked, snatching Eleanor's phone off of the table.

"Demi!" she exclaimed.

Flicking through her phone, Demi sighed.

"We really have to do something about this!" she groaned, handing Eleanor back her phone.

I raised an eyebrow. I didn't want to seem nosey, but whatever they were talking about seemed pretty interesting.

I glanced down at my food.

"Everything okay?" I asked, nonchalantly.

They both looked at me strangely for a second before Eleanor sighed loudly.

"If I tell you something, you won't tell anyone, right?" she asked me.

I shook my head.

"Of course not" I assured her.

She nodded, biting her lip.

"Okay well a few days ago Louis showed up at my room when I was alone. He was really upset. His face was all bruised and he looked a total mess, right? So I let him in, you know being a good friend and all. And so I cleaned him up and we got to chatting and I don't know - we started talking all about everything with us and all the good times and things kinda got a bit crazy" she began explaining.

I felt my heart thump in my chest. Louis? As in my Louis?

"Crazy?" I asked, trying to keep my voice as even as possible.

Thankfully she didn't seem to notice my awkwardness.

"Yeah. We - um - we slept together. I don't know, I mean it was just so familiar. I have no idea how I feel about it. And then afterwards, he like flipped out, saying he had probably ruined everything and that he needed to go fix things. I have no idea what he meant by that. He was gone before I even had a chance to process what had happened" she finished.

At this point I was finding it hard to breathe. My whole chest had tightened up and there was a large lump in my throat forming. Tears pricked the back of my eyes.

I took a deep breath, trying my best to relax.

"Wow, that's insane" I mumbled, trying my best not to let my emotions.

"And now he's completely ignoring her" Demi added, rolling her eyes.

Eleanor nodded.

"Really though it's my fault. I know him, he was really upset and angry when he showed up. I should've known it was gonna end the way it did" she mumbled to herself.

"Oh please! He's the one who showed up at your door El, not the other way around. This is completely his fault!" she exclaimed.

I nodded.

"She's right you know. Guys look, I'm not really feeling too well. I'm just gonna take a taxi back to campus" I mumbled, standing up from my seat quickly.

They both looked worried.

"Do you want us to come with you? We could take the food with us" Demi suggested.

I shook my head.

"No, I'm just feeling a little bit off. You guys stay though. I'll give you a call later" I told them quickly.

They just nodded.

"Oh and El. You should go to Louis' room. You guys really need to sort out whatever's going on with you" I added, before quickly walking off.

I was feeling absolutely sick. Here I was about to tell my brother that Louis was my boyfriend. And what was he doing? Off banging his ex-girlfriend.

I ran a hand through my hair as I came out onto the street. That wasn't completely fair - the night he slept with her, we were arguing. And I had stayed with Ashton, rather than chasing after him. Still though, he had no right to go and sleep with Eleanor. Did I really mean that little to him.

Hailing a taxi, I called Louis.

Let's say the taxi driver was very shocked that someone like me could get so angry. I spent the whole drive back to campus yelling down the phone at him. At first he just took it, apologising and agreeing with me. Saying that I was completely right. But then he started arguing back. Insisting he had only done it because he was upset - and it was my fault that he was upset.

I payed the driver quickly and hopped out of the cab, listening to him rant.

"Well you know what Louis if your going to fucking jump into her bed every time we fight, this relationship would never have gone anywhere!" I yelled, cutting him off.

"That's not fair!" He shouted back.

There a moments silence before he spoke again, his voice calmer.

"Look, maybe we should just talk tomorrow when we've both calmed down, yeah?" he mumbled.

I sighed.

"No, I don't wanna talk tomorrow Louis. I'm done. Just stay away from me please" I replied quickly and hung up.

I got back tot the room as quickly as possible and was glad to see it was empty. I didn't think I could handle talking to anyone else right. I just collapsed on the bed in tears. I was so done with boys. Maybe I should just become a lesbian or something..

I don't really know how long I cried for, I just couldn't stop. It wasn't until I heard the door open that I sat up, trying to rub at my eyes, trying to make it look like I hadn't been crying.

Skylar walked in the door, laughing and I turned to see her with Luke, Calum , Michael and Ashton. Great. Just great.

"Oh my god Rach, what happened to you?" she exclaimed when she saw me, her smile fading.

The boys were all staring at me incredulously, obviously not sure how to react. I mean, lets face it - I was a crier. I cried at the stupidest things like a movie I loved or a song that I really got into or even a tv show. But never had any of them seen me in this state.

"Nothing. I- eh- I just need to go get a shower. Excuse me" I mumbled, getting off of the bed, grabbing a fresh pair of pyjamas ad heading into the bathroom.

Looking in the mirror I sighed. I had forgotten I had put on mascara this morning. It was all smudged and I looked like a messed up badger. I could hear Skylar talking to the boys, though I couldn't make out what they were saying.

I got my shower anyways, taking a while to just relax. When I was out and dressed in my pyjamas I tied my hair back in a messy plait, too lazy to do anything else.

I walked out of the bathroom, finding Skylar sitting on Lukes lap on the couch, with Ashton beside them and Calum and Michael on the floor.

All eyes flew to me as I closed the door behind me.

"We- er- made you a cup of tea when we heard the shower turn off" Ashton told me, indicating to the steaming cup next to him.

I gave him a weak smiled, picking it up quickly.

"Thanks guys" I replied, heading over to my bed with it. I just sat on my bed, sipping at it. I could feel Skylars occasional glances at me, along with Ashtons.

Ashton looked like he wanted to come over and say something but decided against it.

Once I was finished my tea, I slipped underneath the covers. It was still pretty early but I was exhausted. I was ready to just go to sleep. Checking my phone I noticed I had a tonne of missed calls from Louis and a text from Eleanor hoping I was feeling okay.

I decided to just turn it off. The others were still all chatting lowly and I fell asleep to the sound of their voices.

I really was ready for this year to end.

Notes

Okay! So to those of you who shipped Rouis, I apologise!
This story is coming to an end and the sequel will be soon so I've decided that this is how I want it to go!
Thank you again for reading :)
And hey, you never know how it might go in the next one, right? :) xx ♥

Comments

For some reason i am liking Ashton, i haven't finished the book yet but Louis seems tl be getting really angry and jealous. I am kind of rooting for Ashton. So far with what i have read, Ashton is a lot nicer to Rachel than Louis plus Louis is always hanging with his exes. I don't know but my opinion could change once i finish the book.

@Smile_survive44
I'm only reading this story now even though its like a year old but omg yes your comments I agree 100% with you Louis obviously cares about Rachel and yeah Ashton's a nice guy but Louis is so good to her and he even apologised to Ashton for starting a fight with him, even though Ashton was hitting on Louis' girlfriend. Louis had every right to be mad!

@Aqsa Hassan
Aw, thanks! :)
Merry Christmas!

I love this book! Cant wait to start the sequel :)

@Angel1D
"Court" love that word :p :)) :D