The Way
I Won't Let This Get To Me
"Remember, that, all right. I love you." He kissed my forehead and gave me a final tight hug after the first show of their third world tour.
"I love you too. I will always remember." I told him, his hand still in mine. He let go, climbing up the steps to the bus. I watched as he went to the back and sat. He faced the window looking out at me. I backed away from the bus as it drove off. I tried not to cry, but it had become hard as I wouldn't be able to see him for at least two months.
I walked to his car. "You can drive any of them if you'd like." He told me a couple days ago.
Eleanor had the time off to go the first few weeks with them on tour so I was at the house by myself.
I waited in the car for my tears to stop. I drove back to the house in silence. My phone had gone off a couple of times, but it was the special ring tone I had set for Harry, and If it wasn't Harry calling me I didn't want to talk to anyone.
At the house I kept most of the lights off, walking though the dark to get to my room. A very large part of me knew I wouldn't be able to sleep tonight, but I took a shower like normal, singing like normal, washing my hair and body and shaving my legs like normal. When I got out though, it was weird.
I could hear the clocks ticking all around the house. The dripping facet in Louis and Eleanor's bathroom sounded like it was playing on head phones in my ears.
I laid in my bed listening to these things. The quiet sounds driving me mad. It was too quiet. I kept rolling around in my bed trying to get comfortable. After the third time I looked at the time on my phone I decided I was too tired to not sleep. I grabbed my ipod and walked to Harry's room. I snuggled under his duvet putting the head phones in my ears and burring my head into his pillow. The one he used every night. The one that smelled like him.
I fell asleep almost instantly.
~~~~~
The next morning I awoke to the sounds of Harry calling my name. I opened my eyes thinking it was really him, but the dropped as I had remembered it was only the special ringtone I had for him. A smile came to my face as I ran to room to pick it up.
"Hey babe! How was the drive?" I was excited to hear his voice even though it had only been a night.
"It was good, long, we actually just got to the hotel. Thought I would call and say good morning. How did you sleep?"
"Well enough." I sighed. I wasn't sure if I should tell him I slept in his bed. I decided not to, let it be a secret.
"I miss you already."
"I miss you too." And then silence, it was the kind that wasn't awkward, we were both just happy to be talking to each other. "What's on your schedule?" Knowing it would be busy I attempted to get him to go do his job.
"A bit of rehearsal for tonight, some interview thing over the phone and then there's like a meet and greet after the show."
"So not too busy."
"Nope, what about you?"
"Nothing."
"Remind me why you couldn't come with us again?" It was a good question, I almost didn't remember that I was supposed to be planning the final night of youth group for the year.
"I've got to plan the finale night remember?"I I raised my eye brows to him. "But then!" A smile crawled across my lips. "After that I've got about two weeks that I've planned to take off to come be with you!"
"I know, I'm counting down the days." He sighed. His attention was captured by who ever else was in the room. A second later he came back to our phone call. "Hey Liam says I'm gunna be late if I stay on the phone with you any longer, so I got to go. But I love you, more then anything in this world." I felt the truth through all the miles apart we were. I may not be sure about a lot of things, but how he loved was one of them.
"I love you too! Have nice day, cupcake!" Then it sounded like he kissed the receiver, but I just laughed as I pulled it away from my ear. I got up to get a cup of water. When I came back to my phone I had a message.
[You didn't kiss back >:(]
[Sorry.. :*:*:*:*:* Ther u can have 5 kisses. And here xxxxxxxxxxx]
[Have a good day!xxxxx:*:*:*:*:*xxxxxxx]
It was now day four of being alone in the house. I got up in the morning like usual, eating my cereal like usual, and sat in front of the telly, not like usual. When it turned on it was some stupid celebrity news show.
"Eleanor Calder was seen getting off One Direction's tour bus early this morning after arriving at the hotel they're said to be staying at for their O2 shows. We haven't seen newly engaged Lexi Edwards yet." Then the middle aged women turned to a man standing next to her as the host widened. "What if Harry broke up with her?" She asked the man.
"He would have made a lot of preteen girls happy then."
"That's a shame, you know what I'm rooting for them, she seems so nice despite how much she's changed him."
"Really, I don't really think it will work out." The man said before changing to subject to two other unfortunate celebrities.
It made me sick seeing that they could talk about two people so easily like that. But as much as it was garbage, I couldn't stop, sometimes they made funny jokes, or they have good segments on fashion and what not. It was one of those things that just sucks you in, like an all day marathon of a crime show.
I went out to grab some coffee from Starbucks. I was walking, my head phones in my ears listening to an old Fall Out Boy song. I had a very familiar feeling, the one I had never liked. Ever since I was a young child, when it feels like someone is watching you. I've grown to hate it even more as my boy friend was Harry Styles. I hated how his business was everyone else's, and because I was dating him people wanted to know everything about me.
I kept walking, keeping my eyes ahead of me not looking back, but the feeling gave e shivers. I pulled up my hood to cover my face a little more. Then I heard the faint sound of clicks from behind. I quickened my pace and turned into Starbucks seconds later.
I didn't think about the people waiting for me at the door.
"I'll have a caramel machiotto, with extra whipped cream."
"Are you sure you want all that caramel and whipped cream?" A girl asked me. She tapped on my shoulder asking me to turn around. I ignored her, waiting for my drink with my head phones still in my ear.
"Lexi!" A barrista yelled out. I took it with a smile and left, taking a deep breath before facing all the photographers. I stepped out and they began yelling at me. Asking me about the girl who confronted me. They were asking what happened, and if the girl had really called me fat. I turned up my music and walked away with my head held high. I won't let this get to me.
"I love you too. I will always remember." I told him, his hand still in mine. He let go, climbing up the steps to the bus. I watched as he went to the back and sat. He faced the window looking out at me. I backed away from the bus as it drove off. I tried not to cry, but it had become hard as I wouldn't be able to see him for at least two months.
I walked to his car. "You can drive any of them if you'd like." He told me a couple days ago.
Eleanor had the time off to go the first few weeks with them on tour so I was at the house by myself.
I waited in the car for my tears to stop. I drove back to the house in silence. My phone had gone off a couple of times, but it was the special ring tone I had set for Harry, and If it wasn't Harry calling me I didn't want to talk to anyone.
At the house I kept most of the lights off, walking though the dark to get to my room. A very large part of me knew I wouldn't be able to sleep tonight, but I took a shower like normal, singing like normal, washing my hair and body and shaving my legs like normal. When I got out though, it was weird.
I could hear the clocks ticking all around the house. The dripping facet in Louis and Eleanor's bathroom sounded like it was playing on head phones in my ears.
I laid in my bed listening to these things. The quiet sounds driving me mad. It was too quiet. I kept rolling around in my bed trying to get comfortable. After the third time I looked at the time on my phone I decided I was too tired to not sleep. I grabbed my ipod and walked to Harry's room. I snuggled under his duvet putting the head phones in my ears and burring my head into his pillow. The one he used every night. The one that smelled like him.
I fell asleep almost instantly.
~~~~~
The next morning I awoke to the sounds of Harry calling my name. I opened my eyes thinking it was really him, but the dropped as I had remembered it was only the special ringtone I had for him. A smile came to my face as I ran to room to pick it up.
"Hey babe! How was the drive?" I was excited to hear his voice even though it had only been a night.
"It was good, long, we actually just got to the hotel. Thought I would call and say good morning. How did you sleep?"
"Well enough." I sighed. I wasn't sure if I should tell him I slept in his bed. I decided not to, let it be a secret.
"I miss you already."
"I miss you too." And then silence, it was the kind that wasn't awkward, we were both just happy to be talking to each other. "What's on your schedule?" Knowing it would be busy I attempted to get him to go do his job.
"A bit of rehearsal for tonight, some interview thing over the phone and then there's like a meet and greet after the show."
"So not too busy."
"Nope, what about you?"
"Nothing."
"Remind me why you couldn't come with us again?" It was a good question, I almost didn't remember that I was supposed to be planning the final night of youth group for the year.
"I've got to plan the finale night remember?"I I raised my eye brows to him. "But then!" A smile crawled across my lips. "After that I've got about two weeks that I've planned to take off to come be with you!"
"I know, I'm counting down the days." He sighed. His attention was captured by who ever else was in the room. A second later he came back to our phone call. "Hey Liam says I'm gunna be late if I stay on the phone with you any longer, so I got to go. But I love you, more then anything in this world." I felt the truth through all the miles apart we were. I may not be sure about a lot of things, but how he loved was one of them.
"I love you too! Have nice day, cupcake!" Then it sounded like he kissed the receiver, but I just laughed as I pulled it away from my ear. I got up to get a cup of water. When I came back to my phone I had a message.
[You didn't kiss back >:(]
[Sorry.. :*:*:*:*:* Ther u can have 5 kisses. And here xxxxxxxxxxx]
[Have a good day!xxxxx:*:*:*:*:*xxxxxxx]
It was now day four of being alone in the house. I got up in the morning like usual, eating my cereal like usual, and sat in front of the telly, not like usual. When it turned on it was some stupid celebrity news show.
"Eleanor Calder was seen getting off One Direction's tour bus early this morning after arriving at the hotel they're said to be staying at for their O2 shows. We haven't seen newly engaged Lexi Edwards yet." Then the middle aged women turned to a man standing next to her as the host widened. "What if Harry broke up with her?" She asked the man.
"He would have made a lot of preteen girls happy then."
"That's a shame, you know what I'm rooting for them, she seems so nice despite how much she's changed him."
"Really, I don't really think it will work out." The man said before changing to subject to two other unfortunate celebrities.
It made me sick seeing that they could talk about two people so easily like that. But as much as it was garbage, I couldn't stop, sometimes they made funny jokes, or they have good segments on fashion and what not. It was one of those things that just sucks you in, like an all day marathon of a crime show.
I went out to grab some coffee from Starbucks. I was walking, my head phones in my ears listening to an old Fall Out Boy song. I had a very familiar feeling, the one I had never liked. Ever since I was a young child, when it feels like someone is watching you. I've grown to hate it even more as my boy friend was Harry Styles. I hated how his business was everyone else's, and because I was dating him people wanted to know everything about me.
I kept walking, keeping my eyes ahead of me not looking back, but the feeling gave e shivers. I pulled up my hood to cover my face a little more. Then I heard the faint sound of clicks from behind. I quickened my pace and turned into Starbucks seconds later.
I didn't think about the people waiting for me at the door.
"I'll have a caramel machiotto, with extra whipped cream."
"Are you sure you want all that caramel and whipped cream?" A girl asked me. She tapped on my shoulder asking me to turn around. I ignored her, waiting for my drink with my head phones still in my ear.
"Lexi!" A barrista yelled out. I took it with a smile and left, taking a deep breath before facing all the photographers. I stepped out and they began yelling at me. Asking me about the girl who confronted me. They were asking what happened, and if the girl had really called me fat. I turned up my music and walked away with my head held high. I won't let this get to me.
Notes
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