Harry's Pov

"She'll be fine." Louis made his fourth attempt to help relax me. I sat in my bunk, meant to be asleep.

"Just go to sleep mate." I whispered.

"Only if you do."

"SHhhh!" Liam, who had tried to stay up with me as well wanted his shut eye.

"She will be fine." Niall chimed in. The distant snore of Zayn made us laugh quietly.

"I know."

"You can't still feel bad about the accident?" Louis caught on quick that I was thinking of the mess I created.

"Yeah, whatever, you're alive ans she is alive. That's all that matters right?" Even they had to admit it was my fault. I hadn't been paying good enough attention. I was the one the rear ended and stopped semi at over fifty miles and hour. We should be dead. She should be dead.

"Yeah you're both alive and breathing and Lex is even awake and home now."

"Here, have some sleep and then when we wake you can call her and talk to her. Everything will be fine."

Silence consumed the bus. I finally drifted off long after Niall and Louis who help quite a lot actually.

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We were in the car driving somewhere. It was Lexi, my mum, Gemma the lads, the girls, Lexi's family, everyone I cared about it seemed. Certainly a normal car wouldlnt' be able to hold everyone, but it was. I was driving. I looked to my left, Lexi sat quaintly in the passenger seat. In the next second the car has crashing into nothing it seemed. I whipped my head forward to see what I've just hit. But there isn't a thing in my way. The Metal crunches and the glass shatters.

I look back to Lexi whose got a drop of blood dripping from her mouth and the head is relaxed in a way that suggests that she isn't there. I look to the back of the car and everyone I cared about also in some sort of variation of Lexi's position.

Dead

They're all dead. The tears come before I feel them. Streaming down my face, completely drenching the t-shirt I was wearing. I screamed in horror as large amount of people crowded around the accident.

"You killed them." They yelled. Every single one of them.

"How could you?" There was the familiar flash of the paparazzi taking pictures of the mess I had created.

Then as if it couldn't get any worse, Lexi awoke. She took my face in her hands, looking me in the eyes, forcing me to look at her. She cuts across her face, and her hair was red, from the blood that I had caused.

With clenched teeth she said, "You killed me."

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I shot up from my prostate position, hitting my head on the ceiling of the bus.

"Ow!"

"You all right?" Liam had called from the kitchen. My head throbbed in pain as my heart beat slowed.

"Yeah."

"What time did you get to sleep?" He asked as I joined him, rubbing the new bump harvested from my nightmare.

"I have no idea." I sighed clibing out of bed.

"Louis and Niall said to remind you to call Lexi when you woke."

"Where are they?" I asked realizing the bus hadn't been moving and Liam and I had been the only two inside it.

"Went for some sight seeing thing I guess. They wanted you to get as much sleep as possible."

I quickly got up from my seat across Liam to get my phone. I dialed her number as I walked to the back room.

"Good morning sweetheart!" I whispered quietly as I didn't feel like talking at full volume.

"Morning cupcake!"

"Did you sleep all right? How was your leg?"

"Uhh I passed out as soon as I shut my eyes. Your bed seems to have the effect on me." I has happy she was happy. "How did you sleep, El told me that you kept Louis and Niall up for a good portion of the night." Her voice was sudden;t serious.

"Yeah." I instinctively grabbed the back of my neck from the guilt I felt. "I was just nervous about leaving you."

"I'm fine, Eleanor and Dani are taking perfect care of me." She reassured me.

"I wouldn't expect anything less." I said seriously, but she laughed.

"Did you dream?" She asked after a few moments of silence.

"No." I lied. "At least I don't remember."

"Are you sure?" She pressed. Just like I could sense when something was bothering her, she could sense something was bothering me.

"I had a bad dream, it was the most horrific thing." I confessed.

"It will be all right. It was just a dream." She calmed me, making me forget the crunching metal noise ringing in my ears.

"It wasn't just you this time." I noted, as this wasn't the first time to have had to dream through the accident. "It was everyone. I should have known something was off when there was thirty sum people chilling out in the backseat of the Rover." I chuckled coming to the conclusion it was silly. "But then you woke from your death and told me I had killed you. I know you don't blame me for it, but I do. It was my fault. I should have been more careful." My voice became more urgent.

"Listen to me Harry." She was stern, putting me back in my place. "Am I still alive?"

"That's not-"

"Am I still alive? Are you still alive? Are either of us dead?" I didn't say anything. "Are we?"

"No." I answered quietly.

"What was that?"

"No." I said again, much louder this time.

"There's nothing to worry about. We are both alive and breathing and that's all that matters, that's all that ever mattered, we're both alive."

"I love you."

"I love you too." Then she waited a moment.

"Everything is fine." Then we hung up.

"Not long now." Liam smiled up at me as I walked back over to him.

"Nope." The wedding was in just a couple short months.

Notes

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