I stood leaning against the counter, my leg was still in a brace, but out of the cast. I spent most of my days sitting at home with Eleanor or Dani, playing cards or watching television. But today both had other plans and because I only had a few more weeks with the brace they decided it would be okay of I spent the day alone.

I loved them, but I was sick of them. They had always been checking on me, if not for the broken leg, mentally because apparently while I was knocked out Harry had told them all how alone I felt. Eleanor was really concerned, she'd been there for me since the beginning and when she found out she said she felt like she let me down. She had know something had been up any how, so it made her feel even worse that she had basically let it slide.

"We'll both be back tonight, don't do too much, you're not healed yet." Eleanor had yelled from from the door earlier that day. And I didn't do much at all, sitting most off the day figuring out some of the smaller less important details for the wedding. I called Harry, but he was busy so I talked with Niall, who was glad to hear the my leg was nearly free from it's prison.

As I sat I thought about things, for the first time in a while I'd had time to myself. I could finally thing about how I was feeling and how things were going in my head. Something in my mind reminded me of the running I had been a part of. It made me sad that I had almost been up to five miles in a half hour was heart breaking. Now here I sat on my bum waiting for my leg to heal, gaining weight and not being able to do anything about it. I longed for the burn in my legs again. I wanted the sweat to pour down my forehead. I wanted the satisfactory of knowing I was doing something. But I couldn't.

I knew though I'd take up a similar exercise pattern as soon as the brace was off, so I could look amazing for the wedding. And knowing I would feel that burn soon inspired me to make dinner for my two lovely best friends.

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"Wow smells amazing, Lexi did you cook?" Eleanor called through the home.

"Yeah, but it's not much. The beans aren't even fresh, sorry, I couldn't get to the store."

"Lexi you aren't supposed to be doing much."

"This isn't much I promise." I looked back the the burgers I fried and the beans I had microwaved, at least the potatoes had been home made. "I wanted to thank you guys for caring for me and making me relax, and helping me and stuff."

"Oh Lex, you could have bought us dinner, you seriously didn't have to do this." Dani looked at the tasty looking food in a fancy arrangement on the counter.

"Whatever, are you guys hungry?"

"Starving!"

We ate the food while listening to music. The burgers were juicy, but not too greasy. The potatoes had a really nice crisp to them. And the beans, though they were from a can, had been really were good with the olive oil, butter and garlic powder mixture that melted on top of them as they cooked.

"Lexi, I've eaten your cooking about a million times before, but never has it ever tasted so good." Eleanor held her still small stomach.

"Lexi and Harry should open a restaurant and cook together, wow, I'd eat there like every night." Dani joked.

"Course, you'd know the owners so all your food would be free!" El laughed.

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"I'm so glad you liked the food. And I wasn't working my leg too hard, I still had the one crutch under my arms and the counter to support me." It was later in the night now, we sat on the couch was the credits to "Mean Girls" rolled.

"Good, cause we don't need you in that stupid thing any longer, the wedding is so soon."

"I know, I'm kind of freaking out." I admitted.

"You'll be Harry's wife."

"I know."

"You'll have Harry's children."

"I know."

"You'll lose your virginity to Harry soon."

"I know." I'm not going to lie, I was excited to have sex. I was excited to finally love a guy who loved me as I deserved, and as much as he loved me. I was beyond ready to give myself to Harry, he'd proven himself again and again that everything was going to be all right.

"Are you excited." Dani asked. I blushed, not sure if she was talking about marriage, babies, or sex.

"Yes, very." I was excited for all the things so it didn't really matter which she was asking.

"About what, that sex, babies, or becoming Harry's wife?" Eleanor had asked. I felt like I was thirteen again, talking about my crush. Obviously when I was thirteen I wasn't talking about marriage, babies or sex, but the adrenaline was the same. It's almost like the feeling you get when you admit to one of your friends you like someone.
Your mind is consumed with them, everything you'd ever witnessed them doing and all the things they've ever said to you.

"All of it really." It was a typical girls night.

Talking about boys and feeling, they even painted my nasty toe nails.

"You've not had sex yet have you?" Dani asked putting the clear coat on my big toe.

"No, Jesus kinds of frowns on it unless marriage, and I've never been married so..." I blushed, I wasn't really all that embarrassed by it, but at the same time I was the only one in our circle of friends who hadn't ever experienced it. I knew everyone knew about it too, but they didn't make fun of me, which i was grateful for, but I still sort of felt left out.

"Does it bother you that Harry has?"

"I don't know, I guess it doesn't really bother me cause I know it's not like we were together when he was with them."

"That's good, I mean that you're not upset or anything." Dani took the other side of the couch El and I were sitting on. I just shrugged.

"You guys are going to have sex though right? Like on your wedding night?" I nodded like crazy.

"Yeah, like just because I haven't had sex does not mean I don't think about it like ninety percent of the time." I laughed.

"You think you're ready?" El asked.

"Yes, I'm a twenty-four year old virgin, I am so ready." They laughed at me, I laughed with them.

"Have you talked to him about it?"

"Yeah, loads, actually, we're both ready, I honestly feel guilty making him wait for me this long."

"Don't. He's like my best friend, but girl code says that I have to tell you he's not worth it if he won't wait patiently for you." El told me a massive smile spread across her lips the whole time.

"And he has, so it's settled he's worth it and we're having sex after we get married."

"Do you think you'll go in like a closet or like the bathroom, or something like that?" Dani asked.

"As much as I want to experience it, I want my first time to be in a bed, proper, not like some stupid girl he's had sex with in a public bathroom."
We jumped as my phone screamed out the lyrics to the latest Ed Sheeran song, meaning Harry had been calling. I reached for my phone to answer it, El slide it closer so I could grasp it.

"Hello!" I felt my face flush as his voice greeted me from America. "What are you up to?"

"Just chilling in the hotel room after the show." Though I heard his voice thousands of times, it cause goose bumps to form on my skin.

"How was it?"

"It was good, hows your leg?"

"It's getting better, I think it will be off in a few weeks."

"Excited to walk again?"

"Yes, especially down the isle." I confessed, by lip immediately clenched down between my teeth. "Sorry, that was very forward." The color quickly invaded my face, making my voice shaky.

"No worries love, I'm so excited to see you walking down the isle. Not long now."

"I know." I thought about the short month until we'd be wedded. "You're not getting cold feet yet, are you?" I wondered out loud.

"No!" He nearly shouted. "Wait you're not right?" I chuckled at him and his reaction.

"Course not, I've been with you this long, you think I'd dump you now?"

"Good." His tone was suddenly serious.

"I can't believe you'll be mine, finally." His voice was very low, I almost didn't hear him. When I cocked my head to the side in confusion he told me it was nothing. Obviously he hadn't meant for me to hear.

Notes

sorry for the long absence, but I'm back and we're getting sooooooo much closer to the the wedding!!!!! I"m sooooooo excited to write it and stuff. Anything you want to see in those chapter leave a request in the comments or message me or what ever!!!!

thanks for all the support and stuff::):):):)

xxxxSara