Forever Or For Never

Jordan's POV
I hear him out side the door.Hitting it hard with his fist.The baby crying. Jenna asking him if I'll be okay.I can't believe I done this.A lot more tears fall down my cheeks.

''Jordan,baby.Let me in!''He says.I don't say anything. But I know if I don't he'll be very worried.''Let me in,now!''he begs.I crawl on my knees over to the door handle.I unlock it and sit down in front of the sink.

He comes in and kneels beside me.''Baby.what did you do?"He asks as he wipes the tears off my cheeks.''I-i p-paniced...''I stutter and he just looks at me.

''What do you mean? What did you do?''he asks. I hold my arm out where he can see.He grabs my hand and jerks my arm towards him.He looks at me disgusted.

''You fucking cut yourself?!''He says.He doesn't care about his swearing right now.I don't say anything.He lets go of my arm and stands up.''I can't believe you would do that.You should've fucking talked to me!''He says.He's so angry.

''We'll be in the car,if you ever deside you're alright.''he spats at me and walks out of the bathroom.i hear him comforting Dawson and answering Jenna's many questions.
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I walk out of the door and make sure its lock before i walk to the car.I open my door and get it.I look over at Niall.He doesn't look at me.He stares in front of him as he starts to car.Niall starts driving down the road.I'm afraid to say anything.I don't want him to yell or us to fight in front of Jenna and Dawson. ''Daddy..''Jenna says.''What?''He asks.She sighs.''Where we goin?''She asks him as she holds onto a blanket.

''Some where.''He mumbles to her and she sighs.I look over my shoulder at Dawson.My little baby.He's the cutest thing in the entire world.I smile at him even though he's asleep. I turn back around and get comfortable.My hand lying on my leg.But my left hand holds my phone as i reply to Harry's awkward message.From the corner of my eye,I see Niall's hand reach for the volume button on the radio.He turns it up a little and moves his hand back to the wheel.

''Mama..''I hear Jenna say.''What?''I ask her.''I tired...''She whines.''Well go back to sleep.'' I offer and she whines.''No!''She starts to cry and whine more and more.''I don't wanna!!''She screams out.''Shut up.Now.''Niall says and looks at her in the mirror.''No!''She screams.''If you wake him up, I'm going to spank you.Do you understand me?''he says.''Yes Daddy...''She mumbles and looks out the window with her lips in a pout.

Niall's gotten a little more responsible.Like, he will get on to Jenna if she does something she isn't supposed to.And that's good.She needs to understand she can't get whatever she wants.I glance over at Niall.One hand on the wheel, and the other on his leg.His fingers tapping against his knee.

A few minutes pass by.Jenna's still pouting.The baby still sleeping.Niall still tapping.And I'm just staring out the window.All of a sudden I feel his fingers brush the top of my hand.From the corner of my eye, I see him.He's still starring ahead.He turns my hand over and intertwines his fingers with mine.I look over at him.

''I'm sorry..''He mumbles as he looks over at me then back to the road.I don't say anything.I just smile.I'm glad he's not mad anymore.

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