Forever Or For Never

Jordan's POV
I walk slowly down the stairs.My whole body still hurts.We just got home so I took my stuff upstairs.As I reach the living room, I smile at the slight in front of me.My baby,we just brought him home.He looks so cute in what he came home in.The car seat by the door.

Niall looks up at me and smiles.I smile back.Jenna's asleep beside him and he's holding the baby.Our baby.I sit beside him and put my head on his shoulder.

''You feel better?''He whispers since the baby's sleeping. ''Yeah..'' I mumble. ''Good.''He says lightly and I smile to myself.

The process was hard.Sitting there for hours in pain, then having it all go away because I brought another little person into the world.Its the best feeling in the world to know you made something.

Niall's arms hold him perfectly.He's sleeping like a rock. God, when Niall brought him in the room, I could tell there was no doubt he wasn't Niall's. He looks just like him.

Not everyone has met him yet.Harry and the guys haven't. Niall's parents and family haven't.Just me, Niall, and Jenna. Jenna. She's amazed. She's never saw something like that ever. She loves it.

Jenna snaps me out of my thoughts by sitting in my lap.''Mama..''She whispers.''Yeah?'' ''I wanna hold the baby.'' She says. ''Not right now...he's sleeping.''Niall mumbles to her and she sighs. She gets off my lap and walks to the other side of Niall.She sits back down and lies her head on Niall's arm.

''Daddy...I'm sweepy.''She says.''Go to sleep for a while.''He tells her and she nods.I stand up and face Niall.I bend down and take him from Niall.''You need to sleep.''i tell him.He's been up ever since we left for the hospital,4 days ago.He nods and I walk upstairs.

We are working on the nursery in the new house Niall got us. We move in there in two days.I lie Dawson down in the crib in our bedroom.He doesn't move around or wake up.He's sleeping hard.I kiss the top of his head and turn the lamp off.

Once I get back downstairs I pick up Jenna and take her upstairs too.I put her in her bed and cover her up.Its every body's nap time now.I smile at her as she pulls the covers up to her neck.

I get back down stairs where Niall is,asleep on the couch.I take his hand and pull.He opens his eyes and stands up as I walk him upstairs.''Where we goin'..''he mumbles.''Take a nap,''I say and he smiles.

He lies on the bed and pulls me down beside him.''I love you.''He kisses my forehead.''I know..I love you too.''I say and he smiles.

If only he knew how much I need him.Then Maybe he'll stop drinking and doing stupid shit.I need him to change.I need him too.

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